10-6-2009 - tuesday today

My mood while writing this blog: kinda sick to my stomach

well I went to see my gramma again, i met her pastor there. she was way outta it. she kept talking in circles. he said she is completely gone now. uuugh tyler is bawling on my lap as i write this , ok Im back he was hungry now he's in his car seat watching nickelodeon lol well I met with her pastor to talk bout her at starbucks but then he mentioned he was going to see her and not only did I want tyler to see her one last time but I was kinda curious how she acted around him, sure enough she was sweet as can be. but whatever she has lost it I need to accept that the old gramma is gone but i will tell ya this is playin heck with my ppd, lately I am so much more sensitive than usual I think it's the added stress anyways all that made my stomach rather sick. on the up side I am sending my soon to be mother in law some pics of tyler and he is super cute in them! Carl is asleep right now, resting up for work once he get's up I will let him know how gramma was. I tried calling him to see if he wanted to come with but he was already asleep I think. well I think I will keep this one kinda short cause I am super hungry right now. well to my friends here , I hope I talk to you tonight :)

Amanda

Oh yeah two more days till the wedding :)