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|22-2-2009 - 7 years already.
||My mood while writing this blog:|
Stressed and upset.
Well it's now Monday February 23rd, I'm just really stressed out. The baby is sick, she's sort of getting over it. She was just so miserable today. I could cry things have just been getting to me and I'm getting upset very easily. I might be pregnant again, I'm not sure yet, my AF is due on the 28th--that is if I'm still on a 30 day cycle like last month. The last 2 months I've been on a 30 day cycle, my husband and I did the deed the night before/the very early morning of the day that I'm possibly fertile according to the ovulation calendar. I'm not trying to get pregnant. I'm not sure if my body is back to normal after having her, so who knows when I'm actually ovulating, so it's possible. I'm going to wait like a week after AF should show up before I do a test, that is if she doesn't show up. I just finally got Celese to sleep, she's been extremely miserable, maybe she's teething--her hands are always in her mouth, she's chewing on her pacifier. She only wants me, she's soo attached....she's only happy with other people as long as I'm around and she can see me and that doesn't even last for that long. So I'm not really able to get much done around the house unless someone is here, she just wants to be held all the time...... I love her sooo much, I just don't know what I'm going to do when I go back to work, it's going to be tough. Today has also been 7 years that my little brother passed away and I'm really upset by that. He would have been 18 years old this May. I really miss him, and it's always a hard day for my mother. I really wish Celese could have met him, but she will always be told about him and shown pictures. My husband actually never got to meet him either, he passed away in February and we started dating that October. It's just very depressing. I haven't been this emotional since I was pregnant last. Maybe I am again, but isn't it too soon to be having any signs of it?? If I am pregnant, I'm like 3 weeks or soo.... I have no idea. Another thing that is irritating me is, both my little brother and sister have missed way too much school....like they refuse to go and stay home for no reason...Well my mom got a letter in the mail from my brothers school, about having to go to court and a possibility of an arrest, which I don't think is fair, I think the child should be sent to a school where they stay there. I just really hope she doesn't get arrested and fined over them not going to school....she has enough stress as it is. Well I'm getting ready for bed, maybe I'll feel better when I get up......( R.I.P Jonathon, I love and miss you)
I hope everyone else I doing better than me....I'll post more later....GoodNight!!
1 Comments on 7 years already.Nmp
- Monday, 23 Feb hmmm, yucky time for ya! Feel better soon! Your a great person!