22-5-2008 - May 22, 2008

My mood while writing this blog: Exhausted

I'm not trying to complain, but I feel horrible right now. It's so hard to get a good night's sleep!! I wake up all night long to go to the bathroom, I toss and turn because my body goes numb after laying on my left side forever. The babies kick , squirm, and have party time all night long, and I'm left utterly wiped out. My children wake me up wanting breakfast and it takes everything I have to force myself up and out of the bed. After breakfast I just want to go back to sleep but I can't because I homeschool our three children. Thank God they all know how to read and don't need my constant supervision. God knows what He's doing because if I was still teaching them to read I would be going insane right now. Anyway, I'm very blessed and grateful, and I don't mean to complain it's just hard to be cheerful when I feel so drained. My husband is in the Air Force and he works alot, he still hasn't met my OB/GYN if that tells you anything. I keep hoping he will make it to an appointment but things aren't looking good for next week either, they have him flying again. I'm grateful that he's here and he helps out around the house every chance he gets, so I should count my blessings. My mom calls me everyday asking when I think the babies will come, like I know these things!!! I keep telling her I assume they will come early but how early I don't know. My doctor said he won't let me go past 38 weeks but he thinks I'll go sooner. Of course, at this point I'm like look I don't want to hear you think or I might or probobly, I just want a definite deadline!!! I apologize for my little pity party, I'm sure tomorrow I will feel better and my whining will dissappear. At least I hope that's the case. It's just frustrating when people keep asking how much longer I will be pregnant because after looking at me they all assume that I 'm about to pop. Then I get the priveledge of explaining that I'm just having twins and I still have about six weeks to go. Following that comment they feel bad and proceed to tell me that I'm small for twins. Anyway, enough of my ranting, I have three children to teach. God help me through these next few months, please!!!!!!!!!