04-6-2008 - June 4, 2008

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

This is my second attempt to type this, so here goes... The girls measured 3 lbs each last week at my 31 1/2 week scan. I measured 35 weeks and was dilated to 1cm. I was glad to be dilated since I had pretty regular contractions two days before my appointment. I prayed and asked God not to let the babies come because we hadn't even bought diapers yet. The next day we went out and bought the basics- diapers, wipes, burp cloths, bibs, receiving blankets, clothes, and car seats. Buying for two is expensive. I got a little depressed earlier this week because I know I won't get a baby shower. With my husband being in the Air Force it's just not something that really happens. Especially considering we just moved here a couple of months ago. We were at our last base for three years and I had alot of friends who would have thrown me a shower, but God sent us away for a reason so I shouln't complain. My brother and his family are coming to visit tomorrow so I'm really excited about that. He bought me a baby bed so hopefully the girls will fit in one bed. God also blessed me with a good deal on a double stroller. I'm not really stressed about the other things I need, eventually we'll get them. I'm pretty sure I'll need two baby swings so I can go to the bathroom every now and then, so hopefully I can find some used ones for sale. It's not like they have to be brand new.

Anyway, last night I had a few contractions that really hurt. I got down on all fours and had my husband rub on my back, and after a while I started to feel better. I took a pill that seemed to help and I eventually was able to sleep. If I went to the hospital everytime I had 4 contractions in an hour I would practically live there. With my other three children I had lots of contractions and dilated early also. With my second one I had to take pills and be on bed rest, and those pills kept me pregnant and dilated to 3 until the end. With my last one, she ended up coming at 35 weeks, but she was perfectly healthy other than jaundice. This time, who knows? I can't imagine being pregnant past 36 weeks with twins. My biggest baby was 6 lbs 7 oz and that was my first son who was 11 days late. Considering the fact that each of these babies already wejghs 3 lbs, I already have over 6 lbs of babies inside of me. A few more ounces and I'm in uncharted territory!! I'm in shock when I hear of women giving birth to 6 or 7 lb twins, I can't imagine the stress that would put on my body. God only gives you what you can handle, so I know I just need to have faith.

Sorry to complain, I think I'm just ready to finally meet my little girls. It seems like I've been pregnant forever. Some days I'm ready to have these babies, and other days I'm grateful that they're still in my tummy.

Right now I can swim in the pool with my kids, type on the computer, take a bath, talk on the phone, and do anything I want to do( within reason, of course ). As soon as the babies are born I realize I will become a dairy farmer, feeding babies and cleaning up poop all day. As much as I look forward to that I know I should enjoy my freedom while I can.

It's funny, the one thing that I complain about most is sleeping at night. It's almost like I forgot what happens when you have a baby. Since I will breastfeed and this time I will be breastfeeding two babies, I will be nursing babies all night long and probably only get a few hours of sleep.

Once again, forget everything I said about wanting these babies to come super early. I just got a reality check and now all of a sudden I'm perfectly content with staying pregnant for a little while longer. Forgive me God for complaining!!!!!