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27-9-2008 - Depression

My mood while writing this blog: Not very happy

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Hi Everyone

It is 21 weeks since I lost my baby boy back in May to miscarriage . I am having lots of up and down days. It is getting so close to his due date in October as I would have been about 35-36 weeks right now.

At the moment I am in the process of losing my job due to reshuffling at work. Hopefully there is another job for me in another department but it means travelling by public transport up to 4 hours a day. If there isn't I will be made redundant.

It is also 15 weeks since my ex dumped me by phone after I lost the baby and I know it sounds stupid I still love and miss him loads even though I haven't seen or heard from him since then.

Some days I just don't know what to dow ith myself but others I feel really upbeat or maybe it is just put on sometimes I just don't know. I know that sounds kinda weird but I guess I am wishing I was someone else or somewhere else. I know that running away is not the answer but there is nothing else I can think of. I even still look at the scan pictures of him every other day.

Well I am trying to make the most of life and they first sunny day that we have had in Britain in ages as we have had mostly rain all Summer..

Luv to you all and take care

WendyWoo XXX

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1 Comments on Depression


louisec - Wednesday, 8 Oct
Hi
Sorry to hear about how your feeling. i remember june 13th the day my baby would have been born. it was so real, all the feelings of what if and if only. things should have been do different that day. I think its good that you have a picture. Its sad that everyone gets on with day to day living around you and you are left to remember.
Some people dont understand the the emotional trauma of miscarriage. If you have friends you can talk to about this , then you should take every opportunity to do so as sadly you cant with your ex.
i really feel for you about your ex, in time you will feel differently.
Sorry about your job, i too had to travel 3 hours a day by choice to have the job i wanted and was then laid off. (charming) i now work for a nursing agency and much more flexible. seems unfair that they are giving you an ultimatum.

The way in which you are explaining your feelings of ups and downs sounds to me like you have a 'forced' depression. meaning that all these quite painfull lfe events that have happened to you in a relatively short space of time are making you feel really down, but the fact that you are aware of it makes me think that you can come out of this depression. With some good people who care around you"forget the weather he he"
to talk to. do you go out socially ? some times that can be a real boost to your confidence.

I am going on a bit now, always do, tell me to shut up if you think i am!!

keep in touch
Lou x