01-6-2009 - update

My mood while writing this blog: confused

Well...my 16 week ultrasound did not go as I had planned. It was supposed to confirm the gender of the baby and conclude the second half of my down's test, but did neither. They measured the baby and all it's parts, which all came back completely normal, but they found a calcification on the baby's heart. I know from genetic counseling that this could be a soft marker for down's; however, because all my other test for down's came back negative, I highly doubt this is the case. I was told that this problem could fix itself and pose no further problems for the baby, but to make sure they will need to do an echocardiogram to rule out any serious heart complications. They will not do this test until 20 weeks though because it is much easier to see the valves of the heart at this point, so I will be forced to worry until then. I know I may be worrying for nothing, but I am freaking out nonetheless because I have lost so many baby's and to think there could be something wrong with this one is just heartbreaking. I guess all I can do for now is try as hard as possible to stay stress free and remain positive, but if anyone has any information on this topic, I would appreciate it.

Also, as far as gender goes, I am almost 100% sure I'm having a little boy. You can call it intuition or crazyness or whatever, but for the last three weeks I have been having strong feelings towards a boy. In the beginning I had absolutely no feelings to suggest either sex, so I wasn't too shocked at my twelve week appointment when the tech told me I was having a little girl. However, at my fourteen week ultrasound, I could have sworn I seen boy parts at one point on the screen. After that I started dreaming that it was a little boy and even started calling it a little boy. I know this could be a freudian slip being that I originally wanted a boy more than anything, but I highly doubt it because when I have overwhelming gut feelings, they are usually correct. Then at my 16 week ultrasound, once again, I would have bet my life I saw boy parts; however,I can not trust the tech to confirm this because the baby would not uncross it's legs at the end when she was trying to get a good picture and this could have been the umbilical cord. lol...I'm going to go nuts. I have always wanted a little boy and would be overly happy to have this be the case, so we will see. I'd bet my life it's a boy though and then we will see how crazy I am...lol :)