21-6-2009 - 1st Pregnancy Blog Jun21st 2009

My mood while writing this blog: Down

Today is June 21st 2009 and I am officialyy eight weeks since MLP today. I am feeling morning sickness a lot, but always at different times during the day. I am a little but down today because I have been having a hard time coming to terms with how much my life is going to change. This was quite a surprise to me and has resulted in me having to make drastic life style changes. I found out three weeks ago that I was pregnant and my boyfriend and I were dumbfounded. All life is a blessing, but I was surprised at the time it came. I had only been with the father for three months and I don't think either of us were ready for it. He hasn't been fully supportive through this whole beginning stage but he seems to be sticking around which I am thank-ful for, having grown up without a father being around, I understand the pain it can put a child through.

We are both very scared and I feel like I have to grow up very quickly now, which I do. My boyfriend is a fair bit older than myself which is why I am looking to lean on him so much but I am also trying to remember that neither of us were ready and it is going to be a challenge and blessing that we are going to experience together (hopefully). It takes two to tango and I have to try not to put so much on him, I am just really scared and don't really know what to do.

At any rate though, other than that, things are going pretty normal. No belly, obviously, as this is my first pregnancy, lots of bloating though. Mild pains, doctor thinks its just my uterus growing (makes sense) lower back pain, haven't bled at all. Sometimes they say you get implantation bleeding or mild spotting for the first little while, but I guess I don't. I guess you could say, to my knowledge, its a textbook pregnancy for the beginning stages anyway. I am pretty excited to go see my doctor this week. I think I have an appointment to talk about some things I should know on wednesday and a physical, u/s on Friday? I can't remember, I will have to call tomorrow and get dates straight. I think at 10 or 12 weeks I am going to take a picture of my belly ever week to see how much it grows.

Don't get me wrong, even though I am really scared about everything, I know God doesn't make mistakes and everything will turn out the way he intended it to. I just have to keep my head up and take care of myself and this growing life as best I can. I'll keep this page updated. God Bless. Good luck with all your pregnancies as well.