08-9-2010 - Wow, what a crazy summer!

My mood while writing this blog: Ready for a fresh start

Okay, so this will mainly be me ranting and raving...so be ready!

So, first of all, sorry I haven't been on in a long time. I have missed you girls! I see some of you are pregnant now, or are close to having new babies. I have been out of the loop! Congrats to all!

Rylan is now almost 10 months, and at his 9 month visit he was, get ready for this 23 pounds! Yes! I'm serious! I strictly breast fed till month 8. He is on formula now...but every once in a while I will nurse him for a minute or two (at night when he wakes up lately). He just got his first tooth last Monday! It's on the bottom, our right. He loves his walker, he "runs" everywhere. He sometimes has "twitchy" arms & wrists, he will sometimes move about his arms and wrist, I call it flappy arms and twisty wrists. He has a neuro appointment this Friday to get a CAT scan or some sort of scan. At his 9 month appt the pediatrician said he was moving about his arms too much for such an "older" baby, and that it could be a cranial nerve, but she wasn't sure. He has alway done this, I thought it was normal. But everyone kept asking me "why is he moving his arms so much".

My oldest started middle school, my almost 5 yr old started Pre-Kindergarden. :o) Still working on potty training my 2.5 yr old. With the crazy summer we have had, I have been lazy about potty training.

Okay, so here's my summer:

First week of June we drove to Los Angelas California to visit my husbands sister and back. We had a great time, got to see the ocean, Venice Beach, Hollywood, Beverly Hills. Mountains were awesome, desert was empty, luckily no dust storms! Let me say, California people drive nuts! Someone hit my tail lite cover while we were eating at California Pizza Kitchen and didn't even leave a note! We stayed a week.

June 29th, my husband and I were argueing about finances, he had kept telling me he wanted to seek a 2nd job part time, so we could be able to pay all our bills. And it wasn't much, just Rent, Water, Electric, Car Pymt and Car Ins. Well, he out and said "I'm going to California!" I said "who you going to stay with?" He said "my sister". He said he would come see the kids when he could, but we needed a break, he didn't want a divorce, but if we didn't separate we would get one. He said he wanted to wait 2 months though, before he left, so he could pay his boss off. A couple days later I asked if he could find a co worker to stay with until he left for California, because I felt if he wanted to leave me so bad, why wait. If he could stay with a coworker then he could still come see the kids every day. Well, Friday July 2nd, he didn't come home. He didn't call or nothing. His mom said he was at his uncles house. We were to pay rent that day. Saturday I got a hold of his aunt, she said he had asked him for me if he had payed rent. He did not. He had instead bought a motorcycle tire. Sunday July 4th, he finally comes home but only for 5 minutes, to say hi to kids and grab clothes. Didn't hear back for several more days, then he shows up that Thursday, in a wife beater shirt and has a HICKEY on his chest. I asked who gave it to him, he said "Stormy" (who was his ex girfriend from like before me) I asked "did you do it?" He said "yes". I went off on him. He even had come to the house in HER CAR!!!! So anyways, since then, he has payed me 260 dollars. 260 dollars!!! He even had the NERVE to bring that nasty hoe to MY HOUSE! AND SHE CAME IN MY HOUSE! When I had opened the front door, she asked "are u sure this is okay?" I was thinking, "hell no, it is not okay that my husband bring his mistress INTO MY HOUSE, IN FRONT OF OUR CHILDREN!" But I didnt say a word and let her in. She stood by my front door in the living room for 5 minutes then went outside. She has texted me a love note to my cell phone, and claimed it was an accident, she meant to send it to Kris, my husband. Oh, and SHES MARRIED TOO! Obviously not living with her husband. She has 3 kids of her own. So, he has been living with her since he left. So basically since he didn't have anywhere else to go, he looked her up on Facebook the day he didn't come home. She welcomed him with open legs, I mean, open arms...So I have my lawyer drawing up my divorce papers right now, I hope to have them filed next week. Oh, and I can count the times he has came to see the kids, with less than 2 hands. And when he does show up to see the kids, its for 30 minutes to an hour. And he lives over an hour away. My 4.5 yr old is taking it the hardest. She asks me all the time "why isn't daddy coming home....when will daddy come home and sleep in his bed?" The last time he came to see the kids was August 4th, then once more last week. He comes alone, cause he knows better than to bring her around. And when he came by last week, the baby had no idea who he was, and would not go to him, kept staring at him like "who the heck are you?" Oh, and a week before he left, our van was repo'd so I am stuck with 4 kids and NO CAR. He promised he would get me a car....but also he "got layed off" a week after he left, and wrecked his bike...the only reason I know he wrecked it, cause he got a court date in the mail for "failure to maintain speed". I also knew his email password, so he had been telling this friend of his in Nevada, that he has been wanting to leave me since April. And she had written him asking what was going on, when all this happened, and he said that deep down he has always wanted his relationships to fail because all along he had hoped to one day be reunited with Stormy. Nice huh? So our entire relationship was just for fun? To pass the time? I had 3 kids with this guy. Well ya know what, 2 months have passed, and I only cried for him every day for 2-3 weeks. I am so ready to be free from that jerk. He wasn't that great of a guy anyways. He had punched holes in our walls at our previous house and done lots of yelling/shouting and sat on that stupid World Of Warcraft game all the time instead of spending time with his family or even helping with the kids. I don't feel much difference of being a single mom than I did when he was here. So I am ready for a fresh start! Here's hoping 2011 is filled with new adventures and happy times! Thanks for letting me vent! :)