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| 24-10-2009 - Week 10 6days |
My mood while writing this blog: Ok |
Thought I'd have a bitch and moan on here as I'm feeling rather blue. Just been out on a night out with my bf and we went for a meal, my appetite has grown somewhat since the pregnancy so I ordered a rack of ribs. During the meal I felt as if he was watching how much I was eating and when he ordered dessert (I didnt I was full) and it came, he spoon fed me the tiniest bit, so I took a normal amount on my spoon and he was like bloody hell?! I was like are you trying to say I;m fat and he was like yea I am, your the size of a house End! :O
Well even though it was said in gest it hurt, I feel really insecure about my weight and am SICK of being in the fat stage! I lost 2 stone earlier this year and now its slowly creeping back on and I just feel so sad.
I feel like I've lost a huge part of my life by becoming pregnant and although I'm happy it has brought some feelings I didn't think i would feel. I;m under a lot of stress at work at the moment and that doesn't help. As well as giving up smoking which was alls I relied on when I was losing weight. I feel at this moment like my heads going to crumble.
So we skipped the film, sat in silence on the way home and now I've gone to bed and he's sat downstairs :(...
Today sucks.
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