My name is Julia I am 29 years old, I am the mother of 6 children, 5 on earth and 1 in heaven. I have a 12 year old son, a 9 year old daughter, a 4 year old son, a 4 year old angel (daughter), a 2 1/2 year old baby boy & had #6 on July 12th 2010, he is now 1 1/2 years old. I am with my high school sweetheart going on 13 years, I love our kids so much. My daughter Arihanna died of SIDS on March 29th 2008, losing her has changed my life forever. We love and miss her very much, but we know she watches over and protects us, our sweet guardian angel. I know there is aot to read on my page, I can't find myself to change the updates from when Ari was alive, so please bear with me on that.

Tyon Marshon Tate was born July 12th 2010 at 7:34am He is 7lbs 1 oz and is 20 inches long.

Tymarion Al Tate was born July 11th 2009 at 2:17 pm He is 7lbs 9oz and is 20 inches long.

Our Angel Arihanna sent us a perfect addition to our family. He are such a blessing, he is a bit jaundice so he is on home therapy lights, but he is a great eater..little pig..and a great sleeper. We are so in love!!!!

REST IN PEACE ARIHANNA JANIA TATE

MY BABY GIRL WAS MADE AN ANGEL ON MARCH 29TH AT 11:21AM

I MISS HER SO MUCH!

*Official Autopsy Report: I got a call from the coroner's office the toxicology is back in, everything came back negative. Official ruling is Sudden Infant Death Syndrome, meaning her death is unexplainable and they could not find a medical cause. I have mix emotions about this I am so glad that there is nobody to blame and nobody did anything wrong, I was praying everyday that it wasn't something I did or something I missed, or something to do with the shots shee received or something to doctos had missed. I am greatful that she did not suffer when she passed away. I am a little upset because they don't know what killed my baby girl, how does a mother live with not knowing why this happened, why was my baby girl ripped away from me? Well, they have many theories, but sadly that's all they have are theories. No answers, so I have to live on without knowing.....I miss my baby girl so much!

*I spoke to my friend who works for the coroner and she told me that the coroner ruled it as SIDS, but he can not sign off on that until the toxicology report comes back. This sounds weird but I am so relieved, I now know that I didn't do anything wrong, I was so scared that it was something I did or didn't do, or something I missed, I now feel a little better knowing that she died peacefully. I still miss her every minute of everyday, but I can stop blaming myself. We got the approval sketch for her headstone and it reads:

Arihanna Jania Tate

Jan. 20- Mar. 29, 2008

A Bright Star In Our Lives

Too Perfect To Stay

Placed In Gods Hands

Until The New Day

On the morning on March 29th 2008, I layed my sweet priness down for her morning nap. At 11:00 am I went in to check on her, and when I picked her up she was blue and cold, I yelled to my hubby who jumped out of bed I ran downstairs and handed her to my sister in law(she is a nurse) and she did CPR, while her daughter called 911, I could not even function, I was just laying on the floor crying. The ambulance was on its way, but we jumped in the car, and started to drive to the hospital(it's about 6 blocks away) we seen the ambulance and did a u-turn and they started to work on her. They drove her to the hospital and tried their hardest, they did get her color back, but they could not get a heartbeat, at 11:21am she was pronounced dead. I just dropped to the floor and started to cry, I can't believe my baby is gone. It took me 5 hours to leave the hospital, I could not leave her. The nurse had brought in a blanket for her, so that she looked more at peace, they really helped me with the grieving process, they let me take my time and they helped us with understanding the coroner and contacting the funeral home. I had a hard time facing my other children I felt like I had failed them, I thought they would say to me, why would you let this happen to our sister, I was scared and angry and felt so alone. I have since talked to alot of people, who have helped me, and I now know that my sweet princess is now, my sweet angel. She will never be forgot, I love her so much.

I wanted to thank all of you ladies for your thoughts and prayers, I will try to keep in touch, I think of all of you ladies as my family. Even know we have never met, you all are there for me. Thanks again and GOD bless

OUR BABY GIRL HAS ARRIVED: JAN 20th 2008 @ 4:50pm

ARIHANNA JANIA TATE 6LBS 13OZ. 19 1/2 INCHES LONG

1 month: 9lbs 8oz and 21 inches long

2 month: 12 lbs. 6oz. and 23 inces long

I had been having contraction on and off for about a week, but no further dilation. It was sunday and I hadn't had a contraction all day, which was a change because I had been having them all weekend. I was helping out with my son's Cub Scout even at our church, the PineWood Derby I was the score keeper, the races were done around 3:30 and around 3:30 I started to have very strong contractions, by 3:45, I was doubled over in pain. I told my mother (who was there helping too) that I was going to go to the hospital to get checked out, so she kept my 2 older children with her. I drove home and told my hubby to get the baby (my 10 month old) dressed, because I need to go get checked out. So we dropped him off at my parent's house with my dad and drove in a blizzard to the hospital. We got to the hospital at 4:05pm they got me a room and I got undressed and in bed and at about 4:25 they checked me and I was 9+ dilated and contractions were about 2 mins apart. They called the doctor to break my water and they said the baby would be here soon. I was very shocked because the contractions weren't bad at all. So at 4:49 the doctor came in and broke my water, but when he broke my water the baby flowed out with my water. I didn't even push, she was born at 4:50pm. She was born at 36 weeks, but was only 1 day short of being 37 weeks, she scored 9 on her apgars and is a little jaundice, but does not need any further treatment. We were in the hospital until Tuesday and were able to go home together. I am so blessed. size='1'>**I lost all my other updates**

Welcoming our baby girl Feb. 11thThis is baby #4 for me! I have an 8 yr old son, a 5 yr old daughter and an 8 month old son. This pregnancy has been a little rough for me, I think it's because I just had a baby 8 months ago in March. It's just I feel so drained and by body is always aching. But I am blessed with 3 great kids and I am soooo excited about our new addition. CONGRATS to all the mommies out there