Well, were to start!

I have 7 children. Katherine 20, Heather 18, Michael 9, David 8, Declan 5, Jasmine 3. I have also lost 12 babies. One of them was Declan's twin. AND NOW baby Xavier who is a month old! So I guess you could say, I've seen alittle bit. But we're still here and we have a happy family

My hubby is a Barrister ( In America they are called Attorneys but here only Barristers do court work, Solicitors do the preliminary "stuff").He also lectures online for the Australian National University AND he's a Migration Agent. He is the best Father that anyone could ask for. He takes such good care of all of us and gives so much to the children. He's always playing with them, reading them stories ( with all the voices) and talking to them all the time, telling them all sorts of things. I truly think that the children are his best friends!

He also takes such good care of me. I feel truly spoiled! He's very domesticated! Every night before I fall asleep he whispers "I'm so glad I found you" I have heard that every night of our marriage. I'm soooooo lucky, God has been good to me.

I've done a sqillian different things, like running an Acting school, an online buisness, Modeling, I've been in hospitality, stockbroking and realestate. I homeschooled my little people( still with my online buisness) for awhile.They are now in school as we weren't sure how we would go having Xavier. It was indicated that there were problems that may have taken us awhile to recover and I didn't want the kids to suffer just because I wan't keeping up. Turns out, Xavier and I are just fine! The kids love being at school though, so we have kept them there. I do miss having them all home though. I was fun schooling them myself.

I'd love to hear from anyone that cares to "chat" so do stop by my page.

The Story so far

( strap on your seat belts, it's a long ride! :-))

I have had 12 miscarriages and 7 healthy children. The first miscarriage was 18 yeas ago and I still remember that vividly. Kyle was 17 1/2 wks. I never found out what happened to him. I lost ALOT of blood, my vains collapsed and they had to

revive me. I'm lucky to be here. The only reason I survived, I'm sure, is that my daughter was in the hall at the time of when I "died" and she suddenly burst out screaming "Mummy don't go!" At that I sat bolt upright! Took the nurses and the Doctors quite by surprise! Well anyway, then I had 3 healthy children. Then came Mary, who I lost at 16 1/2wks. She was lost to Toxoplasimia. There was nothing that could be done to save her. I lost 2 more after her. Then I fell pregnant with twins! One of them didn't make it. Lost Jo at 13wks. We were very afraid for little Declan and I had to have alot of rest. During that pregnancy, we had the devistating fires in Jan 2003. We had to evacuate our home and we didn't know for a couple of day's whether our house was still standing. Here I am, supposed to be taking it easy and I was driving out of town to our in-laws and had gone into very early labour. I used my WHOLE

ventelin and that calmed the contractions down! So Declan was able to keep from being born untill ONLY 3weeks early! QUITE the accomplishment! We then lost 2 more little ones. Never having a reason for them. The first ultrasounds would show healthy babies but then things would go wrong and I'd loose them. Then we had little Jasmine, perfect and healthy, well mostly, she had silent reflux but that was treatable, so she's good now.:-) In 2006 I had an ectopic pregnancy. This little one got OUT of the tube and had lodged in my abdominal cavity. While I did have pain, I didn't pay much mind to it, as it was high up and I just thought I had eaten some bad chicken! ( along with I have an EXTREEMLY high pain threshold)I didn't even know I was pregnant! The week I found out, I had just finished a film shoot. That was the hardest shoot ever, I had to play a very calm nurse and all the time I was thinking I was dying from food poisoning! Anyway, I went to the Doc' because my stomac suddenly swelled and I was somewhat alarmed. I had taken a Preg'

test the night before and was pretty excited but confused as too the swelling, I knew I had been busy but was I that pregnant and hadn't noticed? Well no, I wasn't that far along. Turned out that I had been internally bleeding for probably two weeks and the swelling was from the amount of blood! They had me in surgery within 2 hours of the ultrasound! The Doc' was so amased at how much blood I lost, he took photos! My GP couldn't understand how I hadn't suffered a heart attack from blood loss. But I guess I have more to do on this world of ours. I became pregnant again and all seemed to be ok untill 13wks. I lost the baby at home and then hemeraged and collapsed at home. My daughter had to ring for the ambulance ( my Hubby had gone to the shop and didn't know what happened untill he walked in to find Heather with the phone!) The Ambulance guys were great, they stabalised me enought to get me to hospital but once getting there the placenta started to tear the uterine wall and I started to hemerage angain. They had me in emergancy surgury

so fast, I barely remember much of what happened. Since then I have lost another 3. The thing is, I'm healthy, everything seems to work properly, so there wasn't any obvious things that these loses could be attributed with. It has only been the last loss that we have FINALLY found out what is Wrong. Along with having a low progesterone, I have Thrombophilia. You can have this to varying degrees from 40-80 which is nothing to worry about to Mmmm interesting. I came back with a level of 160, showing that this is why I have been loosing my babies. This is a clotting disorder. Clots attack the placenta and blood flow can not get through, so the baby has nothing to survive on. THERE IS A REMEDY!!!!!!!!! All I need is 20mg of CLEXANE per day ( in needle form, ahhhhhh) for the duration of a pregnancy untill 37wks. And for the progesterone, I have pessories for at least the first trimester. SO I have a script for Clexane ready and a bottle of Natural Progesterone in the fridge waiting for the IF/WHEN

we fall again. My Doc' thinks its a WHEN as we have never had a problem with our fertility. I am very greatfull that my Ob' was human enough to say " I DON'T KNOW WHY this is happening to you, BUT there is a new Doctor in town that has experience with reacuring misscarriage so maybe she can help!" Well help she HAS. I first saw her on March the 6th and here we are a month and a half later, with ANSWERS. I thank God every day.

So that's it I guess.

We'll see what God has for us. Hopefully more little people :-)

WELL we have had Our number 7 child. Xavier Charles on the 9th of Feb' 2009. The Clexane and progesterone worked!!!!!!

Have a great day and keep well. I wish you all the best from Down Under!

This is memory for my 12 Angels that are waiting for me.

Kyle 13.2.90 Mary 19.9.01 Trinity 6.1.02

Casey 15.5.02 Jo 15.3.03 Micah 22.12.03

(Declan's twin )

Angel 14.4.04 Halo 14.9.06Peter 25.12.06

Demetrius 6.6.07 Angel II 15.1.08

Barbara 17.2.08

30th August

OK! So here is what happened.:-

Last week Friday night I got a headache. It didn't go away with the useual paracetamole and I thought a shower might help. It didn't. I took one of my migrane medications out of desperation but to didn't help..Saturday it got worse and by the early afternoon I could not stand, see. This was no migrane!

My husband took me to Emergancy. They gave me morphine but that didn't touch the pain either! They did a CT and a CVT ( the one with the dye in your blood), NOTHING. Then they decided that they wanted to do a lumbar pucher! Now keep in mind that I have a Minor Spiner Bifida Occult in my L3 and L4 and L5 ( which is where they have to put the needle). This information the Doctors HAD!. The first Doc' had never done one before and was being TALKED through it!The morphine and the pain prevented me from being able to speak but I could hear everything. She kept tring having to top up the local 3 times! ( not that that did much) The assisting Doc suggested that he called a different Doc to which she said "No I know I can do this" After two more goes the assisting/instructing Doc' called the other. When "Gus" ( the new Doc') came to take over the first said " oh but can't I try again?" " NO!" The new Doc' tried a few more times. he got in but there was NO FLUID. He kept saying that it was difficult because " my anatomy was too different!" Like that was my fault! He said that they was do it be x-ray the next day. I said " you can't do that I'm pregnant" was all I could managed to get out. He said " oh in that case they will use ultrasound" and then went away. The next day (Sunday) an anesthegioligist came to do the LP again. I asked what about the ultra sound. He said " Oh we don't do that in this hospital"!!!!!!! So he had a go. Thankfully his assisting nurse was very strong and when she realised what I had already been through, after the third attempted she told the Doc' to stop. I was in sooooooo much pain, it was like a red hot piece of barbed wire was being shoved down my back and into my right leg down to my foot! The Doc' said that he could try again with me sitting up but the nurse said NO to leave me alone and clearly my spine was inflamed and in shock from all the attemps. 12 times they tried in total!!!!!! The last Doc' couldn't even get a single drop. My spine was dry!!!!!!! ( It's not supposed to be) When the specialist came to see me and read how many times they tried, she hit the roof!!!!! She said that it was at LEAST 10 times to many. She said not to worry she wasn't going to pursue that way of investigation any further, they would try and figure something out. The other thing was that they took me OFF my CLEXANE for 2 days to do the LP because if I were on it, it could increase the chance of bleeding in the spine dramaticaly. So I was freaked out about that because I need the Clexane for the baby! The only thing that they could think of is that (in very rare cases apparently) a spine can dry up and cause the kind of pain that I had. After the Specialist ( neuroligist) said that they weren't going to continu with th LP idea, they said that I could go straight back on the Clexane. That was a relief!

I couldn't bare the light. I had covers over my eyes for 3 days. They thought that I MAY have had Menengitus but couldn't confirm it without the LP. They started to treat me with introvenus antibiotics for Menengitus anyway. One nurse decided that as the morphine wasn't helping that he would give me a tablet form of the morphine and THAT worked. Nurse said that he doesn't know why but some patients that don't respond to the regular morphine but do to the tablet form. So I began to get alittle relief.They ordered an MRI. I spent 3 days in emergancy as there were NO beds.

I finaly was put into ward on Monday night. I finaly had the MRI on Wednesday. ( They were booked to the hilt). Baby didn't like that at all!!!! Jumped around and got very distressed with the noise. I ended up buzzing the painic button for them to take me out. ( turns out there was only 30sec to go on the last scan, which it happens that the Doc' didn't need that particular one anyway). Baby settled right down. They had someone from Obstectrcis come and check baby a couple of times while I was in. I did have a SMALL amount of spotting but that cleared up and didn't show again. BABY is FINE!

The antibiotics obviously were doing something as everyday the pain was lessening. My blood pressure was abit of an issue aswell. Far too low. I was battaling to have my Sastolic (top number) above 100. It went down to 85 at one point. Distolic ( bottom number) was wavering between 47-60 on a good moment. By my last day I finaly cracked the 100 on the waking in the morning read. ( that's the lowest time of the day). So anyway. Now I don't have any headaches. I do have pain in my lower back but I think that will dissapate, as paracetamole takes care of that. If it were long term nerve damage, I don't think that it would go away with simple panadole! HOWEVER we are keeping a close eye on that as if there is a problem we will DO something about it. The hospital will have a fight on their hands.

So here I am now, at home, feeling like I've just been droped out of the Twight Zone. Saturday, a week later. I came home yesturday afternoon. The kids are thrilled. Alan has taken them up to Sydney today to go to the Sydney University Open day. They have been planning this for a year, so I'm glad that after this horrible week, they can still go and let their hair down there. Good stress release for them. They LOVE the Science faculties. Last year Micheal ( then just turned 8) corrected one of there astronomics displays as it was incorrect!!!!!! And they know that they can enjoy the day without worrying about me and I get a quiet day at home. My big girl is working today.

So that's what happened to me this week! I have my Ob appointment next Friday.

Well that's it now. I'm going to do alittle sewing now.

I hope everyone is well.