FRIDAY 5-15

sooo finally today i had my dr's appt... they asked my hubby to wait in the waiting roon with aniyah and so i texted him from back there and i said, "mirena in or out?" well he replied "out"! I'm super excited, we dont mind not getting pregnant right away, in fact the dr suggested that i take folic acid for about 3 months before TRYING, he said if it happend before then it would b fine though. i cannot believe that i can say we r trying for a baby. wow, i mean i love my daughter but she was really a big surprise. i was on the pill when i got pregnant with her. so anyway, ladies, let me know your opinions on me havin #2 and what time to u think is the best due date???!

SUNDAY 5-17

So im sitting her, watching a movie with my hubby. my lil baby is in her bed snug as a bug. i had posted a couple of questions in the forums about how things are going. Dh and i baby danced saturday night and this morning i woke up w/ a little blood like as if i was going to start my period and so we baby danced a little later and i got heavy again. i am not sure if this is supposed to be my af or what. i wasnt supposed to be getting af till about the 23rd but who knows. maybe it came early and all that really means to me right now is that its only sooner till we are able to TTC!

WEDNESDAY 6-17

wow its been a whole month since ive updated this thing. well, this was cycle 1 of ttc and i think we did but had an early loss. i was 5 days late on my period and had a faint positive and then scheduled a dr's appt for a blood test and then at work i had a gush, and that was the end of that. i am still bleeding very bright red blood and it really sux but im just ready to try again. im sure it will happen when its time...thanks for visiting my page!

TUESDAY 7-21

Wow once again its been a whole month! Well, i dont guess much has been up on the TTC front... i was 5 days late again, i dunno maybe my cycle has changed length. i still ovulate according to a 28 day cycle but its like my luetal phase is longer than 14 days. I dont think i will be getting pregnant soon, mainly because my family has been having tons of problems. my grandma on my father's side has an inoperable tumor in her stomach and for the past 3 years have been just "keeping her comfortable", my grandma on my mother's side has several minor strokes and then went on to have a severe stroke. for a few days it was just waiting to see if she was coming back or not. shes getting better but its kind of bitter sweet because her heart is 98% blocked and shes not strong enough to go under for surgery. THEN, yes... theres more... now my grandpa on my dad's side apparantly had a heart attack, which hes o.k. for now, but in the morning he goes in for open heart surgery. i am really nervous, and stressed out about all of this. i dont know why it has to be my family, i told my sister-in-law that i most definatly am being reminded i need to get back into church... anyhow, i would be shocked with all this stress if i get pregnant but if i do i would be thrilled!!!! *****BABY-DUST TO ALL!!!!!**********

SUNDAY 8-9

Well, looks like this is going to be a monthly thing... Anyway, i am about 7 dpo and i hope its not in my mind but today i feel sooooo crappy. in fact right now im NAUSEATED! Im trying to not get up my hopes, but i am suuuper sleepy, i got up today at about 9:00 (to hubby throwing a fit....but thats a different story lol) and then went back to bed at about noon and got up at like 3:30 so i have been nappin..and like i said in the forum my joints are all achy. Anyway, if we dont get pregnant this month then we are going to take a break for a little while, we would preferr to not bring home a baby mid-summer so even april is kind of pushing it LOL. But i am soooo happy for all the bfps in the last month!!! there have been soooo maannnnnyyyy!!

SATURDAY 8-15

Holy Cow IM PREGNANT! I got my BFP last night! I am super excited! i cant wait for my other friends in ttc to get pregnant too! Looks like the Soy does the trick! i am super excited to go on this journey. I had already decided i wasnt pregnant but then i was like awww well, i will go ahead and test one more time just in case. lol. and BFP! it was faint on the first response but said pregnant on clearblue digital. yippie! I guess the only symptoms ive had was cramping, implantation pain, round ligament pain, and yes ive have waves of nausea, im hoping i dont get m/s twice as bad like karma cuz i didnt have it at all with my daughter. Funny thing though, my fmu hpt was negative! Took a test closer to noon, bfp! wow, im weird. LOL.

SATURDAY 9-19

Well, yesterday at the doctor they confirmed that i had a missed miscarriage. im sad. i cant stop crying. i will be checking in on friends, but you probably wont be seeing me around the forums.