Hey, my name is Nicole and I'm 17 years old. I'm expecting my first baby (a boy!) and am scared as hell like any first time mommy (i'll probably end up categorizing those fears in a blog one night when I'm unable to sleep). The father of my baby (i refuse to use the term baby daddy) isnt ready to be a dad and, well, I cant force him. My family is being so overly supportive and I am so unmeasurably grateful for them. There is a lot of negative stigma associated with being a teenage mom but I dont believe that this is a bad thing and I know I will a good job. The only mistake was the timing, not my child. I havent met him face to face yet but already my son is the most important thing in my life.

I enjoy talking to other first time mommys and making friends so leave me a message :)

I had my beautiful baby boy on November 7th 2008 at 7:32 am. His name is Aden Felix McGregor and even though he was born at 18 1/2 inches and 6 lbs 4 oz he has filled my life with so much joy and love (and pee!!) Words cannot describe how I feel being a Mom. Its hard, but I can do it. This little boy has, in his 11 days of life, taught me so much already. Hes teaching me self-control and patience and makes me want to be a better person for him. He has brought me and his father, Felix, closer. We still arnt "together" but we are happier than we have been in a long time. Felix is really showing that he is getting his stuff together to be a daddy. He loves his son. I love my son. I wouldnt change this little boy sleeping in my arms for anything.

I'm taking this one day at a time. Words really cannot describe how I feel.

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom.