Hello everyone, My name is Renee and I have been pregnant two times with a total of four children. Two angels boys in heaven and two on earth. About four years ago my husband and I decided to try to have children and found out that I have PCOS and would need fertility. So in Dec. 2004 we found out we were pregnant. In Jan. 2005 we found out we were having triplets. When I was eighteen weeks my water broke and on April 2, 2005 I delivered baby A (Walker) who lived for four hours on our earth to say hi to us. The other two were suppose to follow they did not and seven weeks later with the first placenta inside of me I delivered my other two at 25 weeks on May 19. My daughter weighed 1lb 9oz and my son weighed 1lb 12ozs and they are doing fine now. Our true miracle babies. Well, we decided to try again in Oct. 2007 with fertility again and we were success with only one baby this time. I was told the pregnancy should go well. Everything was fine until about 15 weeks into my pregnancy I started to bleed. Mind you at this point an ultrasound was done in the hospital ER and I was never told by the doctor there or my OB that my cervix was 2cm long. Well, at 17 weeks I went in for a routine ultrasound at my high risk doctor who was not there. The ultrasound tech told me my cervix looked scary. Nothing was not done, I even called my ob and she did nothing. I switched doctors and by this point I guess things were too late. At 21weeks I felt pain in my back which I had contractions and went straight to the hospital where they checked me and said I was 3cm dilated, my water bag bulging and there was nothing they could do for my son. On Feb. 23, 2008 at 3:43am my little boy Samuel came into this world not knowing and passed away two hours later. He weighed 1lb 3oz and was 10 1/2inches long. So now I have two angels in heaven watching over us. The high risk doctor believes I have IC. This would explain why my first baby was born early. So when we decide to have more children I will need a cerlage.

June 8, 2008

Well, we have decide to start TTC again. We are hoping we can get pregnant on our own this time. We will see. If we don't get pregnant on our own then in Oct. we will be going back to the fertily doctor to start the shots again to get pregnant. How fun? At least baby making should be fun !!

July 2, 2008

An update: well, I have eight more days until I test to see. I don't think I am I just think AF is going to come. That is ok with me. I am going to lose more pounds and hope I get pregnant on my own. Hopefully next month. In eight more days we will know. Hope everyone reading this is doing well.

July 16, 2008

Alright so AF has not shown up yet and now she is six days late. I don't know what to do I have all the signs. I took a test on Sunday and it was BFN. I am scared to take another what if it is BFN again. I hate reading BFN. One day I am hoping for BFP all on my own with no fertily drugs.

July 17,2008

Well, AF showed this morning and I have been having serious backpain where I can't walk or sit without hurting. I have been having this pain since I gave birth in Feb. with my son and the waterbag at the same time. I go to the doctor tomorrow to find out what happened. We have decided to stop trying for awhile. One reason is to make sure my back is ok and plus our anniversary is coming up and we want to take our little ones to Disneyland since they are both potty train. We told them if you wear no more diapers we will take them to Disneyland this year. I guess I can't dispoint them. Since I have IC I would have to give this all up if we got pregnant not right now so I will wait until October where we will start to try again with fertily. In the meantime I will try to lose more weight yah and enjoy my life to the fulliest. Thank you everyone for your advice.