Hello there!

I give God the glory for being pregnant, I originally did not want kids right away being newly married, but apparently He had other plans! My husband is much older than me and it is his first child and marriage as well. We waited until we were married to have sex, although we were not virgins when we met. We both have a past that God has gracefully forgiven. I dont know how many people are going to read this, but if you havent accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior, just know that He was with you in the womb when you were being made "wonderfully and fearfully created" He hasnt forgotten you " His thoughts towards you are those of the sand of the beach" "He wishes all would come to be saved" meaning YOU! There is nothing you can do that has not already been forgiven on the cross!

"Not everyone who says to me, Lord Lord, shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My father in heaven. Many will say to Me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name? And then I will declare to them, I never knew you, depart from me you who practice lawlessness!" Matthew 7-21

God wants a relationship with you! not a religion! not a seat in church! not just the knowledge of the bible! Not just "knowing" that He is there! The devil himself knows that there is a God, but he will receive judgement and be cast into the lake of fire. Revelation 20:10

He wants your whole heart! " You shall love the Lord you God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your mind" Matthew 22-37

"Now the works of the flesh are evident, which are: adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lewdness, idolatry, sorcery, hatred, contentions, jealousies, outbursts of wrath, selfish ambitions, dissensions, heresies, envy, murders, drunkenness, revelries, and the like; of which I tell you beforehand, just as I also told you in time past, that those who practice such things will not inherit the kingdom of God." Galatians 5-19

To practice means that you are not repentant and it includes making it a lifestyle. However God is also a God of forgivness and Mercy and is just to forgive you of your sins when you call upon him.

"If we confess our sins our God is faithful and Just to forgive our sins and cleanse us from all unrightousness"1John 1-9

Please do not die without Jesus as your lord and savior! raise your children in the ways of the Lord! Whose Love we will never be able to comprehend!

Nov.14- Last few days I have had to take it really easy! This is a really long story, so sit back! Sunday I went into premature labor and I went to Saint Francis hospital after calling my midwife. Turns out that the doctor who was going to see hates midwives and he calls my midwife up and cusses her out. She recorded it! So she calls us before we even meet him to tell us not to get care from him. I was supposed to stay over night and see him in the morning but he decides to show up on his night off. So he walks in the room and introduces himself. He tells me and my husband that he is going to take care of me for now on and that HE is going to deliver my baby! OMG! so after ignoring my husband and being really rude to him, he looks at me and says " How do you know your pregnant?" OMG@!!!!! HE SAID THAT! so im like really freaked out and Im looking at Kevin ( my husband) like this guy is a phycho and we want to leave. When kevin tells me to put on my shoes and leave because this doctor had issues! we decided right then and there when we looked at eacother that we were going to go to another hospital. When we get up and leave the doctor calls security!!!!!!! long story short The doctor tells everyone that my HUSBAND was kiddnapping me away from his care. So we couldnt find the way out and none of the nurses would tell us how to get out of the hospital! they wouldnt let us get in the elevator and after the police were called the police took 2min to figure out what was going on and they let us leave.

We ended up going to a different hospital and thats when I got my shot in my arm after 8 hours. what a night.

Nov.15 Thursday was spent cleaning and packing for the trip to TN this weekend. I was supposed to be taking it easy, little did I know that folding clothes and packing would bring on some more contractions! I know I know, some of you are saying "why did she do that"!!?!? Well my husband works all day and Im the only one that can do packing because we have to leave early! Well we called my midwife again and she said "Go to the hospital" I was having like 12 contractions an hour. Right before we leave to go to the hospital, the Lord told my husband to lay hands on me and pray. WELL Like Jesus said " Your Faith has made you well" I was healed. No more contractions at all that night. Glory to the Lord=))) Soooo here I am in TN enjoying some great fellowship with the Family

Nov. 24- My inlaws are going to extremes to have control over our baby situation. My mother in law is all about hospitals, she hates that we are going to a midwife..and she hates the names that we have picked out for my baby girl. This year was my husbands first time having thanksgiving away from his family because his mother is throwing a tantrume and doesnt want to talk. So...I had to cook the thanksgiving meal..which was fine...it was my first time, and i have to say..i did pretty good. I just didnt want Kevin to go without a thanksgiving meal. We arent talking to my side of the family either, but its been that way for a while. So it was just me and my hubby and baby. Come to find out, my momther inlaw doesnt want anything to do with my baby shower either. I just got a call from my sister who was helping, that she has backed out. This would of been my mother inlaws first grandchild and first baby shower. Shes driving me nuts..they ( i say they because my father inlaw just follows what she says) dont want to come to terms with our decisons and respect what we want for our family. Its really stressing. Well thats my update! anyone else go thru this kind of stuff? Update on my contractions, I'm still having them but im sure im going to make it a few more weeeks so the baby doesnt have to stay in the hospital. ( UPDATE: We are talking agian Dec4. but its still awkward, the Lord wants me and my husband to just love on her)

Nov.28 Well today I had a check up with my midwife. She thinks im 30 weeks according to my first ultrasound. My second ultrasound says that im 32 weeks now. So i guess we will find out. I have a feeling she is going to come early anyways. I cant believe i have gained 30 pounds so far. I feel like a balloon. I dont know how i could possibly gain more weight. The funny thing is everyone is always commenting on how i am so small and i look like i am 4 months not 8. I also got a chance to talk to my midwife (Amy) about what happend at the hospital with the weirdo doctor. She is going to send her recording obove the hospitals head and file a major complaint. she is also encouraging me and my husband to sue him. She has a lawyer that she is going to ask and see if we even have any ground to sue him. If we do i think we will. ....everyone says we should also..that we would be doing an injustice if we dont. A complaint is not going to do much but smack this guy on the hands. Fact of the matter is he put me and my baby in danger. Well I will my page updated! WML

Dec.10th I've got the stomache flu..and I dont know when I will return to the internet..things arnt good! To those i talk to, Ill keep you updated when i can, may be a while (Margiemom).

Dec.12- Just when we thought nothing was happening, someone that my husband worked for a few months ago sent us 500 dollars in the mail for nothing!! They dont know our circumstances! AND SOME OF YOU THINK THERS NO GOD!?!? Thank you Lord=)

Dec28th. Well the people from church decided to have the work done..so thats great! I almost went into labor on christmas day. My contractions started out as 7min apart but then jumped to 3min apart in like 2 hours. I thought for sure I was in labor, but when we called my midwife, she was some how convinced that they were BH. So in order for us to know if they were or not.. I did my routine. Took a bath with some tea and calsium pills, plus alittle wine. To my amazment she was right, they stopped. ERR!!!! If those were BH how am i ever going to be able to tell without taking baths for the next 3 weeks. I keep thinking my water is breaking. I will feel alittle tingle down ther only to find myself dry, which makes no sense. I was really swollen down there yesterday. I panicked! I almost for a second thought i was crowning..thats how swollen I was. Oh well..im getting closer! also an update to the Crazy Doctor thing. We are suing him! we found a christan lawyer who knows we have a case..now we are waiting for him to do research to see if it is even worth it with the court fees and stuff. We've given it to the Lord, so if nothing happends then thats his will.

Jan3. Still pregnant! I went to see my midwife today and everything looks good! I did my strep B test ..so i guess ill find out if i have it or not. I hope I dont. Bad thing is i've gained 3 pounds. eeeek!

Jan 6th- Today i had my baby shower! It was awesome, about 25 people came. I got a lot of the stuff i asked for. I got a lot of clothes, which i did not need..but Hey she will be sylin! (for a few months anyways) No one really buys you past 3 months. I guess they assume your baby stops growing? I didnt expect so many people to come..we've been feeling alittle alienated from the church. Being in a Trial sorta makes you focus on yourself and your situation. God really has blessed us with so much baby stuff. My sister bought me a stroller and a car seat! We were given 2 car seats..but they were extremely used. I was going to deal with it and try not to have a complaining heart cuz i know some people dont even have that. Either way the Lord still gave me a brand new stroller and car seat. Babys room still isnt organized, as we are still anticipating moving.

Jan 21- Still no baby =( I had major cramps last night. They hurt so bad i couldnt move my body! I thought for sure this was it! as i was sitting there looking at the huge stack of baby clothes that were not organized..I suddenly felt unprepared but really excited! after having 3-5min contractions for an hour..the cramps went away! and so did the contractions. Kevin and I think that God might be holding the baby in there until his mom gets back from NY. It will be really funny if i do happen to go into labor right after she gets back! I also started talking to my mom again. She has major control and manipulative problems..everything that comes out of her mouth is a Lie and is designed to manipulate people the way she wants. For that reason and many others ( like drama and always being a victim) we had previously broken it off. We prayed about reconciilation, and when she gave us Christmas gifts we decided that was an open door. Now she is buying me tons of expensive gifts so that she can then have "hand" over whatever she wants.. I called her out on it lastnight and she didnt like it. Of course i did it in a very loving and way , but i got my point around. So we shall see what happends. If i sense she wants to use money and the gifts as a way to do ANYTHING i will cut off the relationship again. I really wish I could believe that my mother just realy wants to buy her grandchild stuff...but thats not the case..and maybe will never be. She already tried to invite herself into the birthing room because of the said gifts. I have to go to the store tomorrow with her and pick out the bassinet and other items that she wants to pay for. I dont look forward to being alone with her...Caught in her web of lies! I really hope she doesnt think she can just Stop by to see the baby whenever she wants. We really dont like her in the house. Either way we are trying to be open to what God would want us to do. Love her as much as we can through Jesus Christ. Spirit is willing..Flesh would rather drown itself.

Jan 27th - Well im still preggers! i cant believe it, i never thought i would go this long! especially since she tried to come out too early twice. I dont know what was in that shot they gave me, but its lasting a pretty long time. Nothing really new to report. We finally have all the items we need and more for Aubrey. My mom hates her name btw, but I kind of like that she hates it..is that wrong? I've been really emotional lately. My horomones didnt really start going nuts until a couple of months ago. I cry about everything! The only real support i've had is from this website and everyone has already gone into labor! I still would like to believe that im just over my due date instead of admitting that it might be the first due date i was given which was Feb4th. Seems so far away! It also looks like we wont be moving out of the house until God knows when..litteraly. So until then she will be in the room with us..since her would of been room is a clutter in anticipation of being out of the house by now.I sorta feel like my hubby is going to end up taking the job that will have us traveling alot. I hope we do it if thats what God has in mind, that way it will for sure a blessing! I hate being in the dessert season with God. SInce when your married you are one flesh, if either of you are going through the dessert...well both of you are!

Feb 4th- Man of man..still pregnant! I hope this is the last update I am going to do. I had my membranes stripped last thursday...obviously it didnt do much. I've been walking too and that does nothing. Its weird how you actually start to accept the fact that your going to be pregnant forever! I was hoping to have a 2 week old baby girl in my arms by now. My tummy gets bigger every day! I kept asking God to not let me go past my due date..but He seems to think i should still be preggers. I dont know why really...I mean everything is ready. Im in a pretty good frame of mind..so is kevin..we are bearing fruit in our marriage finally. Oh well..he knows best i suppose!