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5 miracles and an angel
Age: 20 AS OF 02/21/2009
Country: U.S.A.
Province/region: FL
City: Jacksonville
Partner: ITS JUS ME AND MY LORD & SAVIOR
Children: Yes, 6
Pregnant: Not anymore
Occupation: RECEPTIONIST
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Last updated: 19 days ago.
Member since: 367 days
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Here is my story:
Chapter 1:

God first hired me for the position of mommy on June 15, 2002 at the just the tender age of 13. A few days later he decided that my baby was too precious to be here on Earth and later decided he would be better off playing with othe angels in Heaven's playground. My son left me on June 17, 2002. I was promoted to being a mother to an angel. Still one of the hardest jobs I have ever been given.



To My Son:

I never got to hold you in my arms.
I never got to cuddle you and tell you how much I love you over and over again.
I never got to take that first mother/son photo, where everyone would look and say Aw.
But I did get something, that I would not have traded for anything in the world.
I got you as a son.
I got to see your pretty black hair.
I got to hear your first cry.
I got to see take your first breathe.
I got you as my first child
and
I still have you as my guardian angel
Mommy never got to spend that quality time to get know what your favorite color was,
to know what your favorite toy was,
to know what your favorite meal was
to know how good of a big brother you would have become
or what you may have became when you grew up,
Important those things may be, but even more important you were and still are a part of me
You will live on in my heart forever until I am laid to rest
Losing you, I dealt with my greatest nightmare, but of all the dreams you are the best.
Rest in Peace Cordarian,
Mommy loves forever and cant wait til I get to meet you once again and get that cuddle I have since longed for


Chapter 2:
After I lost my son after his birth, I moved away from all the pain and hurt. I left my home in Florida and moved cross country to California to live with my aunt. there after I met my new love. A puerto rican god, named Kentrelle. I knew it was more than puppy love. Everytime I thought of him or heard his name, smiles would stretch from ear to ear, because I had this older sexy, swagg so magbificant guy, who literally swept me off my feet. Contrary to the wishes of his mother, who thought I was a whore, because she knew I had had a child already, but wasnt aware of the circumstances concerning the conception of my son, did not want her son anywhere around me, let alone with me, but our relationship matured so fast and soon I became pregnant with my second son Kentrelle Jr. I love my boy so much, you will hear me say this plenty of times, but I do believe he is little Cordarian reincarnated.
kentrelle Sr was my first love and nothing nor no one will ever or has ever changed that. He is the best man God has ever created and is apart of my life 100% of the time simply because not only is he my son's father, but at the same time he is my best friend, and has been. Why aren't we together? I dont do the long distance thing, but if I ever moe back to Cali, I cant say we wouldnt be together. He has asked me to marry him and everything, but I turned him down only because I am back in Florida and he is in Cali (disussed later).




The Ken's my life wouldnt exist if it had not been for them two.


Chapter 3

Life wasnt exactly easy being a young mother of a little, boy I thank God that I had my aunt to back me up through my mistakes. Even Ken had my back. His mother hated me with a passion. She would never have a black grandchild. The few times my son came around her, she would only speak spanish towards him, no English. She eventually would try to put it in Ken's head that KJ was not his. She became elated that me and Ken ended up separating and he found her perfect hispanic dream girl for him. Months later she becomes pregnant and have a baby and she was was still telling Ken that my son was not his because he was a full blooded African American. Test results later came back that I was wright all along and the dream girl was a liar, when my son came out to be half hispanic. Til this day, she still doesnt accept my son, but all that matters is that is father loves him and will give him the world. He currently lives with his dad in California and I miss him dearly.






OK SO ITS TIME I REDO THIS SECTION SEEING AS ALOT HAS CHANGED::

WELL THE NAME IS STILL KANDICE, SINCE I'VE BEEN A MEMBER ON HERE, MY LAST NAME HAS CHANGED TO WILLIS, HOWEVER WE ARE NO LONGER TOGETHER AND I AM NOW IN THE PROCESS OF GOING THROUGH A DIVORCE....ITS A SAD THOUGHT, BUT SOMETIMES PEOPLE MUST GO THROUGH CERTAIN EVENTS TO GET TO A BETTER POINT WHERE THEY NEED TO BE AND THOUGH IT WAS A MISTAKE MARRYING HIM, IT WAS SOMETHING I HAD TO GO THROUGH IN ORDER TO GET WHERE I AM NOW. TOGTHER ME AND MY EX BROUGHT MY PRINCESS IN THE WORLD AND IT WAS THE BEST THING HE EVER GAVE ME.

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NEXT, I AM 20 YEARS OLD, I KNOW, I STARTED EARLY CREATING MY FAMILY, BUT NEVERTHELESS IT IS ABOUT COMPLETED. I HAVE A 7 YEAR OLD ANGEL IN HEAVEN NAMED CORDARIAN. I ALSO HAVE A 5 YEAR OLD SON NAMED KENTRELLE JR, A SET OF 3 YEAR OLD TWINS NAMED JONET AND MONET, CAMERON JR WHO IS NOW 10 MONTHS AND AND MY YOUNGEST IS JHIAVAHNI WHO WAS BORN ONE JULY 1ST. I HAD A STEPSON NAMED TRISTIAN, WHO I STILL LOVE DEARLY WITH ALL MY HEART.

I AM GREATFUL, FOR ALL THE LORD HAS PUT ME THROUGH TILL THIS DAY. I KNOW HE WILL NEVER GIVE ME MORE THAN I CAN BARE, I AM STARTING OVER FRESH IN FLORIDA SO THAT ME AND MY KIDS WILL HAVE A BETTER LIFE. I AM THE MOTHER AND FATHER TO ALL MY KIDS, EXCEPT KENTRELLE, HIS DAD IS VERY MUCH INVOLVED. HE IS CURRENTLY LIVING WITH HIS FATHER IN CALIFORNIA, WHILE I RAISE MY YOUNGEST SON.

WELL THATS IT FOR ABOUT NOW, BUT IF YOU LADIES CHOOSE TO, ADD ME ON

MYSPACE


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yungseximama09 - 5.9 hours ago
Something New I just learned.. Now my wisdom teeth have never given me problems until a few days ago.. I've been taking pain relievers for three days straight now... It's my lower left one N' it's never bothered before.. So I looked up Wisdom Teeth While pregnant. Turns out a lot of women have experienced this before.. The Wisdom teeth seemed to have caused them problems during their pregnancies too... Wow! I think I should go to the ER tonite.. I might need antibiotics or something.. Maybe they'll give me a blood test and I'll find out.. Or maybe they'll pull it!! Yea No more Pain!


mrsjdwilliams - 12.6 hours ago
i have an eye infection and was given vigamox for it which is an antibiotic. i looked it up to see if it is safe. it says it is a category C so they don't know. i called my dr's office and spoke with the advise nurse she told me to call the opthamologist back. however they are closed. has anyone used this while pregnant is it safe? althought it is eye drops i'm still worried since it is an antibiotic


reneeandbaby - 13.5 hours ago
On wednesday my mom and I stop by this baby boutique that we had been to two months earlier. I want to get this stroller called a bugaboo. When we where in the store my mom looked at me and said I can get the stroller or a crib. My mom bought me the stroller and a diaper bad. I have never heard of Petunia Pickle Bottom but the bag was really cute. It will be a week before I get the stroller since they have to order what I want. My little girl will come into the world as fabulous as a super model she is already a fashionista. I may be creating a monster already lol.


1sttimem0m24 - 13.5 hours ago
I came back from my appointment 2day and i gain 7lbs from last months omg


indy5225 - 14.3 hours ago
HEY GIRLS,, THANX FOR THE INPUT ON MY SEX BLOG.. I'M SO GLAD TO HEAR THAT WE ARE ALL ON THE SAME PAGE.. LOL.. U GIRLS ARE GREAT ! LOL


mother-and-expecting - 16.8 hours ago
Well Alyssa is here sorry i have not been on i just got out of the hospital yesterday. I posted her birth story if you want to read it go ahead. She is a really good baby. She sleeps so good. Last night she slept in my bed and she slept from 11:30 to 6:00 this morning. I am really loving being a mommy of a newborn and 2 toddlers it is the best feeling in the world. It is so much work but it is all so worth it. I think my kids love her. xoxo robyn


reneeandbaby - 25.3 hours ago
I have posted ultrasound pictures of baby Greyson. Please stop by for a look at this little girl.


yungseximama09 - 29.6 hours ago
I get paid tomorrow and If I don't get my period by tomorrow Evening then Saturday Morning I will test.. If Idon't get a BFP then I will know that I'm not ovulating anymore and my estrogen levels have risen again!! Guess I have to ask my doctor how to keep then from rising N' how to get it to go down.. Now I'm gettin' pissed.. Becuz none of this wouldn've have happen if I hadn't taken BC in the first place!


shawny86 - 31.8 hours ago
Hey, i finally added a few pics of the LO. Check em out!


avaann - 33.1 hours ago
Hey y'all!! I just put up a few christmas bows on my website! www.babybowdega.com Thanks for all of your support and have a great day!!


Model-Mommy - 36.4 hours ago
THANX LADIES FOR ALL UR COMMENTS ON MY NEW BLOG AND PICS!!!


ADDISYNS~MUM - 39.7 hours ago
~*~* UPDATE IN MY WEIGHT-LOSS JOURNAL*~*~


yungseximama09 - 41.1 hours ago
No Aunt Flo yet! So Hopefully that's good news!


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Photos
YOURS TRULY (2009, 05, 31) ONE OF MY FAVORITE PICTURES WHEN I WAS PREGNANT WITH CAM (2008, 11, 20) The Hubby (2009, 01, 05) MY BOY AT 9 MONTHS (2009, 06, 25) HIM LIKE TO EAT PAPER...LOL (2009, 06, 25) HIM LIKES TO THROW PAPER (2009, 06, 25) FULL AND SLEEPY (2009, 06, 25) BEIN NOSEY, KINDA LOOKS LIKE POP BROWN (2009, 06, 25) FAT DADDY ON MAMS FAT, PREGNANT BELLY (2009, 06, 25) MY BABY LOVES FEET (2009, 06, 25) AW HE WASNT READY (2009, 06, 25) HE ALWAYS HAVE THAT MOUTH OPEN (2009, 06, 25) MAMA GOT A HAPPY BABY (2009, 06, 25) I LOVE HIS SMILE (2009, 06, 25) TRYING TO EAT HIS FEET YET AGAIN.... (2009, 06, 25) ...AND THIS TIME HE SUCCEEDED (2009, 06, 25) STARTLED BY THE FLASH (2009, 06, 25) Click here to see all 5 miracles and an angel`s photos

Children
CORDARIAN-RASHARD-COLEMAN (2002) KENTRELL--JONATHAN-HILL-JR. (2004) JONET-LAVELLE-SMITHERS (2005) MONET-RAYCHELL-SMITHERS (2005) CAMERON-DONTE-DOBSON-JR (2008) JhiaVahni-Yvette-Willis (2009)

Latest blogs
03-11-2009 - THANKS LADIES
30-10-2009 - Cant be serious???
28-10-2009 - had a little talk with him
27-10-2009 - Being pushed away????
25-10-2009 - Updates!!!!!
14-10-2009 - Good news
12-10-2009 - just a small update & expression of gratitude towards you ladies :D
10-10-2009 - finally got in touch with my aunt
10-10-2009 - LOOKING FOR INFO ON SHELTERS THAT CATER TO TEEN MOTHERS
09-10-2009 - TICKED OFF
05-10-2009 - She's never going to learn....and she is not going to keep f---ing up in my house
30-9-2009 - Fresh updates...Day one of no kids
29-9-2009 - question for those on fcbk....what does this mean?
28-9-2009 - just what I needed...
28-9-2009 - Just for one night
28-9-2009 - Time for potty training for Cam...any advice?? And something else I totally wasnt expecting
26-9-2009 - FINALLY A QUIET HOUSE...
23-9-2009 - I'm such a horrible girlfriend
15-9-2009 - Updates
14-9-2009 - Should I let him stay~~Help me Ladies!!!!!
11-9-2009 - update on Kenni and the twins
11-9-2009 - Take a peek at Khamayah and Khamaree, only a couple of hours old
09-9-2009 - Kenni's last ob visit
05-9-2009 - a hopefully better view of the convo between my ex husband and i
05-9-2009 - msg between the ex and I got real emotional / Is there a way I can become Kenni's legal guardian w/o my mom's consent / more with WIC / cam's zoo party
02-9-2009 - a msg from the ex husband
31-8-2009 - just a reflection
24-8-2009 - Thank you so much for the encouraging words, also plenty of UPDATES!!!
24-8-2009 - I got my babies back
15-8-2009 - Going to get my girls
15-8-2009 - She thinks she is keeping my babies
14-8-2009 - He wants to make "US OFFICIAL"
11-8-2009 - THE EX HUBBY MSGED ME ON MYSPACE AND THE BABIES WILL BE HERE THEN ANTICIPATED
03-8-2009 - I am now a single woman!!!!!!!!!!!
02-8-2009 - New pictures of the babes and concerns about my son Cameron
30-7-2009 - no show...(super short blog)
30-7-2009 - JUST WHAT I NEEDED (FOR THE SINGLE LADIES, STILL SEARCHING FOR THAT GOOD MAN)
29-7-2009 - I FREAKING LOVE THIS MAN (KEIRON, DEF NOT JAY)
29-7-2009 - He's Gonna Sign
28-7-2009 - HELL HATH NO FURY LIKE A WOMAN SCORNED...I CANT BELIEVE I ACTED LIKE A FOOL
28-7-2009 - HOW DARE HE?!?!?!?
27-7-2009 - MADE IT TO HOUSTON SAFELY, BUT NOW THE NEVERENDING DRAMA WITH MY EX
26-7-2009 - plans for houston delayed for the night
23-7-2009 - A CLEAN SLATE?!?!
21-7-2009 - WELL....
17-7-2009 - SHE'S BACK AND UNFORTUNATELY SHE IS WITH ME (AGAIN)
16-7-2009 - Lord I dont need this right now
14-7-2009 - Going to Houston for the Divorce.
13-7-2009 - Its just me and the babies
10-7-2009 - SMALL TALK W/ THE HUSBAND
10-7-2009 - COLLEGE-BOUND????
10-7-2009 - JUST TO CATCH Y'ALL UP ON EVERYTHING (MY DAUGHTERS AND CALI, MY SISTER AND HER ISSUES, AND CAMERON'S 1ST BIRTHDAY)
09-7-2009 - HA..SHE CAME HOME...(WELL TRIED TO ANYWAY)
09-7-2009 - I WOKE THIS MORNIG TO MY SISTER GONE
07-7-2009 - MY TWINS MAY BE LEAVING ME : [ HELP: I NEED SOME ADVICE
04-7-2009 - FIRST 24 HRS AT HOME WITH PRINCESS JHIAVAHNI
03-7-2009 - BIRTH STORY AND PICTURES
29-6-2009 - ABOUT 90% SURE I AM IN LABOR
29-6-2009 - 5 KIDS LATER AND I AM UNSURE IF I AM IN LABOR
29-6-2009 - BRAXTON HICKS!!!
26-6-2009 - COUNTDOWN TIL MY PRINCESS ARRIVES
25-6-2009 - FUN BABY BIRTHDAY FACTS(MY KIDS)WEBSITE INCLUDED
24-6-2009 - FOR THE FIRST TIME I FELT COMFORTABLE
23-6-2009 - IS IT LOVE???
22-6-2009 - WELL MY MOTHER LEFT LIKE A COWARD AND NOW I AM HAVING MIXED FEELINGS ABOUT MY 'RELATIONSHIP' WITH KEIRON. PLZ READ I NEED HELP ASAP!!!
20-6-2009 - BABYSITTING MY MOTHER
18-6-2009 - SHE LOST THE BABY
14-6-2009 - THIS IS ALWAYS A HARD TIME OF THE YEAR FOR ME.
12-6-2009 - SO I TALKED TO THE 'EX' HUSBAND
11-6-2009 - MY 33 WEEK APPT (ALONG WITH MY MOTHERS)
10-6-2009 - SHE IS AT IT AGAIN, STILL MSG'N ME ON MYSPACE,
09-6-2009 - I CANT BELIEVE SHE MSG'D ME
09-6-2009 - I CANT BELIEVE SHE MSG'D ME
08-6-2009 - UPDATE FROM MY LAST BLOG
08-6-2009 - MY MOTHER..PREGNANT AGAIN???
06-6-2009 - UPDATE FROM LAST BLOG EARLIER TODAY
06-6-2009 - QUICK QUESTION...WOULD IT BE WEIRD IF.....
06-6-2009 - another wonderful update (pls read)
04-6-2009 - I REALLY LOVE YOU LADIES
01-6-2009 - BABY COST CALCULATOR
01-6-2009 - GOOD NEWS!!!
31-5-2009 - I HAD TO LET GO AND LET GOD
29-5-2009 - I CANT KEEP DEALING WITH THIS STRESS
29-5-2009 - TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY UNTIL.... 3 HOURS AGO
27-5-2009 - our dr visit/my glucose test today
27-5-2009 - an early morning update....on how i feel about the drama from yersterday
26-5-2009 - IT MAY SOUND SO WRONG, BUT I REALLY HATE MY MAMA. I HATE HER WITH A PASSION
25-5-2009 - I'm really trying to support her.....
25-5-2009 - A CRY FOR HELP.... MAYBE?
23-5-2009 - LOOKING FOR A JOB
22-5-2009 - MY KIDS ARE SAFE NOW
21-5-2009 - I FINALLY GOT MY FAMILY A CAR!!!!
20-5-2009 - DONT BE MAD AT ME LADIES BUT.....
18-5-2009 - I GET TO SEE MY BIG MAN
16-5-2009 - UPDATE
12-5-2009 - trip to the e.r. a second time around
11-5-2009 - my trip to the stupid ass dr
11-5-2009 - SICK AS A DOG
05-5-2009 - UPDATE ON MY SIS & PREGNANCY--BITTERSWEET NEWS
05-5-2009 - GETTING REALLY IMPATIENT
02-5-2009 - the first born survey (got the idea from mrs. terry)
28-4-2009 - OUR DRS APPOINTMENTS
27-4-2009 - I AM GOING TO KILL HER
26-4-2009 - WHAT A DAY!!!!
25-4-2009 - HELP WITH MY LITTLE SISTER....
19-4-2009 - A PIC OF MY SOON-TO-BE-HOME
15-4-2009 - God is too too too good to me!!!!
12-4-2009 - HE GOT SOME M~FING NERVE
08-4-2009 - SO THE DRAMA CONTINUES....
02-4-2009 - A HAPPY UPDATE FOR A CHANGE
01-4-2009 - OMG...HE IS REALLY TRIPPIN YALL...NOW HE' HARRASSING ME OVER MYSPACE NOW
29-3-2009 - A CHANGE FOR THE BETTER
28-3-2009 - finally got the courage
26-3-2009 - WHATS REALLY GOING ON?!?!?
16-3-2009 - SPRING BREAK FOR 2 DAYS AND I AM ALREADY GETTIN INTO TROUBLE
07-3-2009 - HE IS REALLY BLOWIN UP MY PHONE YALL
05-3-2009 - UPDATE!!! UPDATE!!! UPDATE!!! ITS ANOTHER.......
02-3-2009 - I HAVE FINALLY COME TO A DECISION....
25-2-2009 - Yet another update...
22-2-2009 - THIS PAST B-DAY WAS THE WORST EVER
19-2-2009 - MY WORLD HAS COME CRASHING DOWN IN A MATTER OF 4 DAYS
01-2-2009 - UPDATE
31-12-2008 - Nothing to do with my pregnancy..but I still had to tell somebody
28-12-2008 - Just an update...
22-12-2008 - WE DID IT!!!
05-12-2008 - December 20th!!!!!
02-12-2008 - Just an update...
29-11-2008 - I DECIDED TO TELL HIM
28-11-2008 - Well Ladies...3 Letters BF...P!!!!
27-11-2008 - D-DAY HAS ARRIVED YET ONCE AGAIN
19-11-2008 - OK SO I THINK I AM ABOUT TO HAVE A MAJOR PANIC ATTACK


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