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Hello everybody! I just discovered that I even have this page now that I clicked the Become a VIP link! How cool! I used an old pic of my sister and I cuz that's the only one I have on this computer! I am pregnant with my second child. I have been very scared of losing this baby because I have had 2 miscarriages, the last one in 2005. I can't wait to find out what I'm having! I will take whatever God gives me and be thankful (but I would LOVE a boy!). I am excited about finding this website. It has helped me out alot and having people to chat with that are going through the same thing I am going through has really helped me emotionally. I'm going through a very tough time in my life, as some of you already know, and having people to talk to means more to me than I can express! Thanks for all the great advice, tips, and conversation!

I'm writing this next part so that I don't forget because my memory is nothing to brag about!

Took pregnancy test: March 15, 2007 First person I told: My sister First Dr. Appt: March 21, 2007

First heard heartbeat: April 25, 2007 Found out I'm having a BOY: June 28, 2007

May 7, 2007

I wore a maternity shirt today for the first time this pregnancy! AHHHH...what comfort!

May 9, 2007

I have the worst headache today. And, I have a sore throat. I've actually had this sore throat for almost 2 weeks now but I kept thinking it would go away but it hasn't. It's weird because it keeps jumping sides, like yesterday only the left side of my throat hurt and today only the right side hurts. So I'm gonna go to urgent care after work. I just hope I make it back in time to watch American Idol! I'm so tired all the time too. It's so hard to get through a full day at work. So far I haven't missed any work time due to the pregnancy (except for Dr. appts.) and I want to try to keep it that way.

May 11, 2007

Today I'm not feeling well. The last few days I've felt pretty good, not any bad sickness or anything, and I thought it was over. But today I have that "car sick" feeling, don't really want to eat, and I just want to lay my head down. I'm soo tired all the time and I dream crazy dreams at night. I wake up feeling like I didn't get any rest at all. Thank God it's Friday. But I have an appt early Sat morning so I won't get to sleep in and on Sunday I plan on taking myself and my daughter out to breakfast for Mother's Day so I won't sleep in on that day either. Oh well, it will be worth it. Just wish I could have some energy back. Oh yeah! I'm 13 weeks today!! Woo Hoo!

By the way...HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL OF YOU!!!!!

May 15, 2007

I think I pee about 50 million times a day! And I'm SOOOOO TIRED! By 1pm or so, I feel like I'm ready to knock out. But of course, I'm at work so I can't. I didn't feel that sick today, which is good. I'm feeling it right now and I did earlier but not like yesterday. Yesterday I felt sick almost all day. I feel so bad for my daughter because all she wants to do is play and all I want to do is lay down. I think she's as frustrated with me as I am with her. But I try really hard to force myself up to do what she needs done. Last night, we were watching Dancing With The Stars and she wanted to dance with me so we danced in front of a mirror and it was adorable! I tried to tell her about the baby in my belly but when I pointed to my belly and asked her "What's in there?" she said "Chicken, corn, and carrots" (my dinner)! LOL

May 16, 2007

Okay, this might sound strange but...OH MY GOD, I'M PREGNANT! I mean, I know I'm pregnant but for some reason, today it just seems so real! I'm scared and don't know what I'm gonna do. I miss the daddy really bad. But I hate him...crap! and I love him! I don't have anybody to get me the stuff I'm craving (the other night I woke up in the middle of the night and would have killed for a pineapple). When the baby starts kicking, nobody will be there to put his hand on my belly to feel it. I wonder if he will even be there when I go into labor?? WAAAHHH!! I feel like sobbing like a maniac!! Geez, maybe I'm just getting those pregnancy emotions. I cry every time they sing a love song on American Idol! I can't believe I wasn't more careful. Not that I don't want this pregnancy. It's just that it's not an ideal situation. I wish my baby's daddy loved me. Sigh....oh well. He's a jerk anyway.

May 17, 2007

Today has been so much fun! Actually, this week has been fun. I work in a nursing home and this week is National Nursing Home Week. We always have a week full of fun activities. I just got done throwing pies at my Administrator and our Director of Nursing! Yesterday, we had Battle of The Sexes Trivia and, of course, the women won! I don't feel as moody today but I feel like I'm on a roller coaster. Some days I'm up, then the next day I'm down. I still got about 3 more hours left of work but so far it's been a fun day! My belly is starting to look like a preggie belly. It used to just look fat, now it's getting rounder and poking out. I love it!

May 23, 2007

Last night, I dreamed 3 dreams. And MAN! They were crazy!! One was a total nightmare and the other two were total trips!! Sometimes I enjoy these crazy pregnancy dreams but sometimes they drive me nuts because I wake up feeling unrested. The nightmare was not good, I saw so many people being murdered, like in a scary movie. When I was pregnant with my daughter, I kept having dreams that my husband was being murdered and buried in people's front yards. Not good. Other than that, I have been feeling pretty good. I actually feel like I have some more energy. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow so hopefully I will find out the day that I get to find out the sex of the baby!

May 24, 2007

I will have my ultrasound on June 28th! I'm so excited! Went to the doctor's today and everything is fine. I've gained 10lbs so far, not good! I'm gonna be as big as house! Oh well, it's worth it. I feel so great today!! And, I think I felt the baby move today!! It felt like 2 little taps. I don't know, maybe I'm trippin. OMG, it's gonna take FOREVER for June 28 to get here!!

May 30, 2007

Okay, I'm definately feeling my baby move! Not alot or all the time, but especially in the afternoon or in the evening. If I push my hand on the lower part of my stomach when I start to feel the baby, then I can REALLY feel it moving on my hand! It's so cool.

August 2, 2007

Well, it's been awhile since I put any updates on here. I'm having a BOY and I couldn't be more happy about it. That's what I wanted and I'm going to name him Nathan Daniel. He moves around A LOT now, much more than my daughter did. I'm really poking out now and I look further along than I am. My feet feel hot all the time, I wish I didn't have the kind of job where I have to wear heels. I wish I could wear flip flops every day! Third trimester is coming in just a couple weeks, I think Aug. 25th is the first day. This pregnancy is going by so fast, it makes me kinda sad sometimes. I feel really lonely a lot of the time because the daddy is not around. Nobody has felt the baby move but me. I try to get my daughter to feel him moving but she's barely gonna be 4 years old and she gets impatient right away. This has been one of the happiest times of my life yet the saddest time of my life.

August 14, 2007

I am soo physically exhausted! 3 months still left to go and I feel like I'm walking around in my 9th month already! I get so out of breath and just walking down the hall at my work makes my heart pound. People keep asking me "When are you gonna pop"? like the time is near or something and I say "3 more months!" Today the coolest thing happened. I was sitting in a chair waiting for somebody and I was rubbing my belly. I noticed that every time I rubbed a certain spot the baby would kick. So I kept doing it and it was so cute, like I caught his tickle spot or something. I felt like we were playing. I was never able to do stuff like that with my daughter when I was pregnant with her. This pregnancy is so different. At least my daughter is accepting the fact that she is going to be a big sister. She wouldn't accept it for a while there but now when she draws pictures she makes one of her little bro and she hugs/kisses my belly. I can't wait to see what he looks like. I still have bizarre dreams. The other night I dreamed that I was looking at my baby for the first time and he had two big rabbit teeth sticking out of his mouth! And then I dreamed that he was 9 lb baby. Last Friday I had to have 2 wisdom teeth extracted so that was not a joyous occasion. I have stitches in my mouth and it makes it hard to eat (and believe me, I LOVE to eat!).

October 5, 2007

Well, it looks like my September stuff didn't get restored after I lost all my stuff but it was only one little paragraph so I guess no big deal. All it said was that I had my baby shower on Sept. 15th and it was really great. Well, now I only have 3 more weeks until I go on my leave!!! I seriously canNOT wait. I'm so darn tired and I can't even roll over in bed without a struggle. I'm ready to see my son's face and I'm equally ready to get him OUT of me!!! LOL I have not heard a word from the daddy since I last talked to him in August. I've filed my Petition for Paternity and he will be served with the papers in about 10 days or so. For some reason, I'm so nervous about what kind of response I will get from him. I imagine I will get a phone call and I have decided not to answer it. I just want to get this whole thing over with!!!!

October 10, 2007

My ladies at my work threw me a surprise baby shower today!! I was totally surprised and I've never had a successful surprise in my life. My Supervisor told me she needed to talk to me and then said we needed to talk on the patio. I was so scared that I was about to get in trouble! But when I got out there I saw everybody and the balloons and it was just so wonderful!!

October 29, 2007

I'm getting stretch marks!!! My stomach has been itching like crazy along the line below my belly button and I looked last night and I have little short but somewhat fat stretch marks forming. I'm so upset!! And I only have 17 more days to go. It's not fair, I was so close to the end and thought I wasn't going to get them and then at the last moment they show up (sigh).

November 8, 2007

Well, I went to the doctor today and she said that I'm 2cm dilated and 50% efaced. She said the baby's head is WAY down. I know that it doesn't mean the baby will come tonight but at least I know that progress is being made. Now I'm really extra extra extra impatient for this to happen already!!! AAGHHH!!

November 16, 2007

Well, today was my due date. I went to the doctor yesterday and she said the head was RIGHT there and I was efaced 80-90% and dilated to a 3. She stripped my membranes (which I said I would never do but it turned out to hardly be anything) and she said I would be an easy induction if I wanted it. She wanted to do it today but I said no because I wanted to at least get through my due date and give it a chance to come naturally. SO, if he doesn't come tonight I'm getting induced tomorrow morning at 6am. Weird because I've always "talked" so much about letting it all happen naturally and here I am rushing it along. But I want him out and my mom is down with me and she is a chemo patient and needs to get back home soon and have another chemo treatment. This way, she will be able to spend a day or 2 with the baby before flying home on Wednesday. So, I think it's working out just fine. Also, I found out on Wednesday that the baby's "father" just so happens to be on his 2 week vacation and is in New Mexico. Coincident? I think not.

November 19, 2007

I had my baby!! He was born Saturday, 11/17/07 at 11:45am. He was 8lbs 11oz, 20 1/2 inches. I went in to be induced and they started the IV about 7:30am. About 8am I started feeling contractions but no pain, just tightening. At about 10:15am it just hit like WHAM! They started coming every couple of minutes and were HURTING! And then an hour and a half later, he was born. I pushed for about 27 minutes. So my labor was 3 hours and 45 minutes! I had to have an episiotomy this time but I did it all DRUG FREE!!!! I was so glad! And he's sooo cute!! I just love him to death already!!!

My daughter, Samantha