My previous profile, AnGzBBoY, got deleted. so if you had left a comment, i apologize, and would love to hear from you again. Thank you.

I'm pregnant with a baby boy!

This is my second pregnancy, and I'm hoping it goes better than my first. On April 16, 2007, my first child was delivered still born. Her name is Angel, and she was beautiful. She was only 8 oz, and 9 3/4 inches long. The whole experience was one of the hardest things i've ever been thru. There were complications around 5 months gestation, which was hard for the doctors to explain. At 20 weeks, i went to get an ultrasound to find out the sex of my baby. To our suprise, they couldn't tell the anatomy because the amniotic fluid was extreamly low. My Dr. sent me to a high risk Dr. to find out in more detail what was wrong. The doctor found that there was barely any amniotic fluid along with high alphafeto protien, which is a bad combination. The blood was also not flowing to the heart like it should, which they later diagnosed as a clotting condition i wasn't aware of called "prothrombin". The Dr. told me that there was only an 20% chance she would make it, and i had a week to decide (because i was 23 weeks, and abortion laws in Ohio say you can not abort after 24 weeks) whether i wanted to carry to term, or abort. I decided to carry her as long as she would make it.

My mother came into town to help me out with everything that was going on, and i believe she was meant to be there at that time. A couple days after she got there, I started to feel very sick, cramping, and couldn't hold anything down. We decided to go to the hospital to get an ultrasound, and to our shock, my baby's heart stopped beating. My heart almost stopped beating after hearing that. They admitted me into the hospital right then, gave me medicine to induce my labor, and i delivered my first child, Angel, about 24 hours later. I thank God i had my mother there, and my boyfriend was beside me as much as work let him, as well as the rest of my family, which was very comforting.

Turns out, not even a year later, I'm pregnant again! It was unplanned, but i am very happy to have another child growing & kicking inside of me! This pregnancy seems to be going much better than the last. The doctors are taking very good care of me. They have me on Lovenox, which is a shot i have to take in my belly every day for the clotting issue last time, and i'm feeling better in general. On top of that, IT's A BOY! I had an ultrasound at 20 weeks and 3 days, and they said that my baby seems to be doing great! There is enough amniotic fluid, and his hearts pumpin strong! Which is a huge relief! I'm very excited about this pregnancy, and I have a good feeling this time!

My boyfriend of 3 years and I are no longer together, which is scarey to think i'm going to raise this child on my own, but i know i can handle anything that's thrown my way. There were issues in our relationship even before Angel, and things just got worse. I was in a very stressful situation, arguing daily, and couldn't take it. I had no support from him, and he wanted nothing to do with this child, or myself, so i left. I love him very much, but i had to pack my things, and take myself out of that situation for this child's health. Even tho there were medical reasons for Angel not making it, i feel responsible for being in a bad situation, stressed, and upset all the time, and i couldn't do that again. There are very personal reasons for what pushed me to the point of leaving, but they're a lil to personal for this profile...

Thank God, i have my mother. She took me into her home with open arms, and is giving me all the love and support that we need. Even tho i moved from Ohio to New York, i kno it was the best thing i could have done. I am practically stress free, focusing on my baby and myself (and my dog scooby). My mom is making sure im eating healthy, and not worrying 24/7, which i believe is the reason my baby boy is doing so good right now.

I appreciate you taking the time to read my "novel" and if you have any comments or questions, please feel free to leave them, i would love to hear from you.