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Hi everyone!I am a 28 year old single mom of two. Parenting can be one's greatest joy and it can also be frustrating. I am eagerly awaiting the new addition to our family although the dad and I parted ways about two months ago. I don't have a lot of support right now and my family is not really happy. That's okay though.... A new life is always a blessing.It is hard, but I have faith that somehow things will be alright. Pray for me!!

Zamaiah Tahjee- 7 weeks old

My sister ,brother, & myself on the day of my great grandmothers funeral

Mother/Son Dinner Dance

May 11th, 2007

This was the day my son was born, seven years have passed by so fast!!!

Thanks to all of you who have left your kind words of encouragement and helpful advice. At a time like this it means alot. It's a great thing when woman all over unite, and gain strength through one another.God bless you and your babies..........

Hoping to find some new mommy to be friends in the San Francisco bay area, although friends from everywhere are great!

02/29/08-Zamaiah is 6 months,1 week old

Can you believe that it has been 6 months already. Zamaiah is babbling & saying da-da. She is also rolling over too. I am feeding her solids now & boy can she eat. At her last appointment she weighed 15 pounds,9.2 ounces and was 25 1/4 inches long.

11/22/07- Zamaiah is 3 months old

The time is just flying by. Zamaiah is getting big. My other kids just love there baby sister, my daughter is a big helper.I am once again flying solo.Some men are such pigs. I am better off anyhow. I am ready to go back to work, because i really need some more income coming in.

8/25/07- Zamaiah is 3 days old

Zamaiah Tahjee Laviene was born on August 22rd, 2007 at 9:10 am. She was 6 pounds, 13 ounces, & 19 inches long.

8/19/07 38 weeks, 1 day

Just thought that i'd update.............

The past month or so have been both trying and exausting. I had an almost slip and fall, but i caught myself just before going down. I've been hospitalized and had a MRI. My computer just stopped working and thats why I havn't been on for a couple of weeks. I am so tired of being pregnant and I have hit the 200 mark. I went to the doctor and I am dialated 1 cm...whoopty doo, huh!! About 2 weeks ago they said the baby already weighs 6 pounds, so we'll see. I have been feeling alot of tightening and some cramping so I hope the end is nearer than the 1st of the month, iam absolutely misrable.

7/8/07 32 weeks, 2 days

Things have for the most part been uneventful. The babies father is still around but I am not so eager to fall for any of the dreams he thinks he's selling. I had to trick him into buying a stroller/car seat , other than that he's bought nothing for the baby................he said he needs to buy him a new car first. My body is getting so tired and I wish my due date was closer. I get tired so easily and my back hurts, all i want to do is sleep. I thought I would have a break this summer, but now I have to find new summer programs for my kids because they have both had problems with bullies. my daughter was jumped today at the program and called me in tears and I had to go off on a few select individuals. I know that i'm not supposed to get all riled up for the babies sake, but that's my baby too. There's nothing I hate more than a bully, because i used to get bullied.

6/27/07, 30 Weeks, 4 days

Well, I am finally well. I did lose 12 pounds though. The situation with my baby's father has changed and he wants to give it another shot. he has been checking on me regularly and bringing me food. I don't know about us being together though, he did put me through alot. We'll see. I decided to let him have some input on the babies name so now the middle name is Tazjhae.

6/17/07-29 weeks, 1 day

First of all, Happy Fathers Day to all the single moms like me who do both jobs! I hope everyone is doing well! I started to feel better on Tuesday, then I started to feel bad again. I got a chest x-ray , but they said it looks good. Now my eyes are red and crust in the morning and I am still coughing up yellow flem. I lost 10 pounds. I pray to god that nothing really serious is going on especially for the babies sake. The doctor said that despite everything my baby girl is growing right on schedule. I'm going to rest as much as I can and hope for the best. Keep me in your prayers!!!

6/08/07-27 weeks, 6 days

Hey everybody! I hope all of you are doing well. My son seems to be doing much better, but I've been sick the past 5 days. The good news is that it's not pneumonia. I haven't had much of an appetite since then and I think I've lost at least 7 pounds. I have started to eat again, but i can only manage to eat very little with out feeling grossed out. I had a fever of 102 and went to the hospital twice, but they seem not to be worried. I have been sweating alot (especially during the night) every since the fever left. I have been so exhausted with the kids and trying to get well. I hope everything is well and that the baby remains okay.

Meanwhile, I saw grandma today and she still is in my ear about getting my tubes tied. She actually wanted me to tell her I would, I told her that I don't want and she says alright 3 is easier than 4. I don't know if I am ever going to have another baby or not, but it's my choice. If I get married again someday I might wana have a child with my husband, what so wrong with that!!

6/01/07-26 weeks, 6 days

This week has been quite exhausting. My son has been sick all week and today I took him to the doctor. I was told he has a mild case of pneumonia so he'll be on some antibiotics for a couple of days. I am starting to feel a little sick too so I hope that it's not contagious , because the doctor didn't convince me it wasn't. This is the longest pregnancy of my life.........

5/28/07-26 weeks, 2 days ???

I am so tired these days and very irritable. I talked to the dad(only because he called from a blocked number) he is absolutely full of sh** as usual. He told me that he'll tell our baby everything is my fault cuz I put him out. All i could say was and I'll tell her why........

Grandma pissed me off with one of her insensitive comments when I made the mistake of talking to her about what the daddy had said. She's all like "You got a problem (mentally speaking) so the last thing you need is someone else with a problem". If she only knew that she was my damn problem just as much as he is!! There's nothing wrong with me.........at least not how she thinks. I deserve so much better than this. At this point they can all go to hell!! Why do I even try??? Let her tell it.........I ceased to exist when I had children. Hello!! Isn't it the 21st century...lol. You have no idea how I feel as if I would have been better off raised by wolves. Just let me finish this pregnancy in some peace......won't they!!!

I've been in alot of pain lately. I've been cramping vaginally and my leg and back too. I can't wait to have this baby and get my body back!! Zamaiah seems to be doing well though. She is very active and I talk to her all the time as if she were already here!!

5/20/07-25 weeks, 2 days ???

This week has been trying. Today was my sons birthday and we went to chuck-e-cheese. A couple of days ago I had to go to labor and delivery for contractions, they had to give me a shot to stop them. I now realize that I have to stop stressing so that my baby can stay in there all the time she needs to. I am totally exhausted from the birthday party, but I'm glad everything went well. As you can see, my due date is a little up in the air. First it was August 27th, then September 4th, now September 1st. so basically from the way I see it it could be anywhere from August 27th-September 4th!!

5/13/07-23 weeks, 5 days

Happy Mothers Day to everyone. I had the worst day today. It has been so crazy today. I don't even want to talk about it right now.....................................I went to the doctor on friday and the little lady is doing fine. My doctor said that she looks bigger than 23 weeks, so maybe my due date will be moved up just a little. I've been having some pain down below since yesterday. It only started when I started to get stressed out because I was left with 10 kids till this morning while my neighbor had a party downstairs, then I got into an argument with my sister about our kids ( sometimes her kids bully mine and vice versa). I also talked to the dad a few days ago and that upset me as well, I just want to be done with him, I can't stand to see his face or hear his voice........it makes me cry. This week , very stressfull!! I need a break from all the madness!

5/02/07- 22 weeks, 1 day

Well i had my ultra sound and it looks like i'll be shopping pink. The doctor said she weighs a pound. I saw kidneys and all kinds of body parts, but i didn't get to find out how fast her heart was beating or how long she is. I am so excited! My due date may be changing by a couple of days. I am trying to keep my head up and start to plan our future. I can't wait to start shopping. now i am going to start trying to come up with more names. I posted pictures from my ultra sound . The baby is really active right now. Can't wait to meet her.

Look, no penis (up above)

Since my great grandmothers passing, it seems like my grand mother has been depending on me alot. My friend also gave birth on Friday, so I am taking care of her daughter until she gets out of the hospital. They'll be staying with me for a little while when she gets out of the hospital. I am so tired, my feet and back hurt. All I want to do is sleep.....

4/17/07- 20 weeks

Yesterday, just 2 weeks shy of her 93 rd birthday, my great grandmother past away. Please pray for my family.......

4/14/07- 19 weeks, 4 days

I am so very tired. I can't seem to fit any of my clothes. So far I've gained16 pounds, which puts me at 192. These days I have the baby blues. I wish I wasn't doing this alone. I can't wait until when I can find out the sex. I'm hoping for a girl......

Since my daughter's name is Zarhea, I decided to stay in the Z's with my new baby girl........... Her name will be Zamaiah Tahjee

My Belly at 20 Weeks and 1 Day

My Belly At 32 Weeks and 3 days

This was the last belly shot I took before I gave birth........

Artist: Mariah Carey

This is for my peoples

Who just lost somebody

Your best friend, your baby

Your man or your lady

Put your hand way up high

We will never say bye

No, no, no



Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers

Friends and cousins

This is for my peoples

Who lost their grandmothers

Lift your head to the sky

Cause we will never say bye



As a child there were them times

I didn't get it

But you kept me in line

I didn't know why

You didn't show up sometimes

On Sunday mornings and I missed you

But I'm glad we talked through



All them grown folk things

Separation brings

You never let me know it

You never let it show

Because you loved me and obviously

There's so much more left to say

If you were with me today

Face to face



I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on I wish

I could talk to you for a while

Miss you but I try not to cry

As time goes by



And it's true that you've

Reached a better place

Still I'd give the world to see your face 

And be right here next to you 

But it's like you're gone too soon 

Now the hardest thing to do is say



Bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

Bye bye



You never got a chance to see 

How good I've done 

And you never got to 

See me back at number one 

I wish that you were here 

To celebrate together 

I wish that we could 

Spend the holidays together



I remember when you used to

Tuck me in at night

With the teddy bear you gave me

That I held so tight

I thought you were so strong

You'd make it through whatever

It's so hard to accept the fact

You're gone forever



I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on I wish

I could talk to you for a while

Miss you but I try not to cry

As time goes by



And it's true that you've

Reached a better place

Still I'd give the world to see your face 

And be right here next to you 

But it's like you're gone too soon 

Now the hardest thing to do is say



Bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

Bye bye



This is for my peoples

Who just lost somebody

Your best friend, your baby

Your man or your lady

Put your hand way up high

We will never say bye



Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers

Friends and cousins

This is for my peoples

Who lost their grandmothers

Lift your head to the sky

Cause we will never say bye, bye.



I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on I wish

I could talk to you for a while

Miss you but I try not to cry

As time goes by



And it's true that you've

Reached a better place

Still I'd give the world to see your face 

And be right here next to you 

But it's like you're gone too soon 

Now the hardest thing to do is say



Bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye

Bye bye