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Matrch 26, 2008.
Bad new's everybody
On the night of tuesday the 18th I lost the baby.
I started bleeding really heavy so my dad & ryan rushed me
over to the hospital i planned to give birth at
They did an ultrasound and some blood work
After the ultra sound they said they coulden't find any fetal heart beat
& that they where sure i had lost the baby
The only other thing it could be
was an early detected pregnancy in which case you can't hear the
heartbeat just yet becuase in the blood work my hormone levels where still
very high like they should be and the bleeding had stopped and no cramps where occurring
They sent me home.
The next day everything felt fine, no bleeding
Around 11 i started getting really strong cramps
and heavy bleeding again
Ryan & Sean [ ryans best friend] had rushed me back to the hospital.
They had to give me 15mg of morphine to stop the pain.
My doctor had come in to give me an exam
& blood poured out like a waterfall, EW!
The doctor had noticed i was clotting so he decided i needed
a D&C.
A D&Cis a surgical procedure where they put you to sleep
and suction your body clean.
They decided to rush me upstairs to surgery before
i bled to death.
It's been a week now and i have post opp today.
I'm in alot of emotional and physical pain
more emotional than physical
but i know it happend for a reason
and i can always try again when my bodys ready
everyday gets a little easier, it's just very hard
to understand why this happend to me.

To the baby that I carried
But never seen your eyes
Or tell you how much I loved you
Or ever to hear your cries.

You will never be forgotten
The excitement we had for your coming.
When I realized I'd never hold you,
The feeling I had was numbing.
My angel baby is who you are.
My angel baby you'll always be.
Your loving memory will live in my heart
So you will always be right here with me.

Jesus is he with you?
I wonder every day
I sit and wonder why he's gone
And why he could not stay

Every part of me is empty
I fell I can't go on
But then I look to heaven
I hear this beautiful song

Mommy I am with him
He holds me in his arms
When every I am with him
he keeps me safe and warm

He says you shouldn't worry
I am safe and loved right here
With all the other baby angels
that passed within the years

We have a special place up here
He thought that you should know
Where the Blessed Mother takes
your place for now until you show

When I hear this precious little voice
From the heavens above
I know that all the angels
are showering him with love

For everyone that wants to hear
their babies voice so innocent and sweet
Just close your eyes and begin to pray
and embrace them in your sleep.

March

=] My name's Brianna, i'm 17 years old, and this is my first child.
The baby's father is still in my life, we have a set date to be married
June 28th, 2007 =]
We have all the support we could ever ask for, Parents, Family & Friends all believe it's a blessing.
I found out i was pregnant at 8 weeks, everyone was SUPER excited.

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