June 9, 2008

Kira can roll over on her own. In fact when I went in to wake her this morning, she was awake on her tummy with her head lifted high, and she was happy, so happy. It was wonderful. She sleeps so well, thru the night. She is a happy girl right now. No complaints. She does drool so teeth may be coming soon. We tried her jumper in the hall but she wasn't that into it yet. She is just now starting to get into toys, but not too much. I wore her in a baby wearer for about 2 hours the other night (walking the whole time) She seemed to enjoy it. I contemplated taking her to our pool but never had time. But I think it will happen soon. I need to get professional pictures taken too! We are just always so busy! She is wearing some 6 mo clothes already. Her next appt is July 1st. Not exactly looking forward to it but I am curious how much she weighs. Her carseat is so heavy, it hurts my arm and wrist to carry her in it! Since I am working I am not nursing her as much, maybe 2 times a day. But I still enjoy the time, even when she tugs. I guess we will have to do other foods soon, oh boy. Stinky! I sure love my baby :)

The new I am Pregnant is different, and I was used to the other way. I don't know what to think! Hard to find my friends, see any messages, etc. ANYWAY.. I am VERY busy everyday and coming here is not easy to remember to do. But I will try and check in now and then. Kira is doing awesome, she coos and smiles. She's very strong too. Already wearing and outgrowing some 3 mo clothes.

3/19/08

I miss being pregnant. I miss coming on here. Baby K is a handful. But I love her. I am so busy with her and housework and everything else that coming here doesn't seem important. But, I have no friends. I do the same mundane thing all the time. And "daddy" is becoming less and less of who I want to talk to. He doesn't "get" me anymore. It's so sad. I don't even see him being excited about the baby we have a lot of the time. Anyway.. *sigh.... K is about 10 lbs and doing great. Eats mainly breastmilk with an occasional supplemental bottle of formula. I don't like to pump, it hurts my nipples, so we give her formula when we do bottles. She takes one good nap everyday for about 2 hrs and then will cat nap from that point on. She is still sleeping mainly in our bed which I which was not the case. I already forgot what being pregnant felt like. I have been back to my prenatal size for like 2 weeks already. Flabby and average. I need a girtle belt haha. My boobs didn't grow and I fathom that I make enough milk for her, but I do. Well, I just wanted to say hi.

I HAD MY BABY!!!!

Kira was born February 15th at 1:44p.m. by induction. It was quick and mainly painless. (epidural after some pain!) She's 19.5" and 8lbs,6oz. Healthy, happy, hungry, you name it. Alls going great. More to update soon.

2/28/08

Kira is nearing 2 weeks now. Nursing is going well, after a few days of OWWWW. She's definitely making the schedule, and she is spoiled and only goes to sleep (well) if I am holding or right next to her. Think she likes my scent/body heat. Her umbilical cord fell off on day 6. She does involuntary smiles, grunts, and has the cutest pouts and pretty quiet cries unless I don't get to her quick enough. I haven't seen anything markwise on her. Her skin is a bit dry right now and she kinda got a little red bum but we seem to have it handled. She is practically out of newborn diapers already. I didn't mention much about the birth..... i.v. was hooked up right away (and hurt!) Dr came in and broke my water, which I didn't expect would happen so soon. Pitocin was started. Within a couple hours contractions were frequent and I was hurting, I opted for the epidural. I tried to nap but I couldn't relax, too much on my mind. About an hour after epidural, a nurse came in and checked me... mind you I was at like 3 an hour earlier, she lifted my sheet, saw the "bloody show" and said it was time. The epidural relaxed me so much that I went from a 3cm to 10cm in less than an hour. I pushed for 10 minutes with COMPLETELY numb lower half of body. It was kinda scary, very "out of body" feeling. She was out in no time. She was gorgeous. She had a lot of white vernix on her, I felt it and smelt it, it was like lotion. They put her in the warmer, she was calm and alert, it was like a miracle to see her and feel her. I had to have 1 small stitch. Afterbirth came out and then as soon as I could I nursed her. Then all my family came in and eventually we moved to a postpartum room. We stayed one night and headed home the next evening. It was a very great experience. I learned that I took way too much to the hospital and I know now what is really needed. I learned that you can never ever plan your birth that it will write it's own story! I learned that my baby was much bigger than I thought, man how she fit in there is beyond me!! I am practically healed... I had some cramps that were occasionally bad but I am doing so good. I guess it is true that the healing gets easier with every birth. The cats are doing very very well with her. She loves her baths. I am trying to find time to write in her baby book when I get time, just so much to do. I am elated with her and with my life. She is a true miracle!!!

February 13, 2008 - 2 more days!

I woke up with a really bad headache. My body is so tired, it's amazing. To get up, change positions, etc, it is so ridiculously hard sometimes. All I did so far today was water the backyard, take out a bunch of trash and have some breakfast so far. I don't feel motivated for anything else! We were up late last night organizing cd's and all the movements and bending really did me in! I am maybe going to have lunch with my sweetie today, but I feel so out of it. I hope I can snap to it, for him. The day is a bit gloomy which doesn't help motivate me. I do want to paint my nails and (excuse my TMI) but I want to shave well today. I don't want to do it the day before I go in because I don't want a fresh razor burn or anything like that. The house looks pretty good, been keeping it up. Kinda bored of it. Ready to hold my baby but a bit worried that all the commotion and excitement will lead me into a bit of a "what the hell have I done?" (haha) I didn't mention that I colored my hair but I did, it';s like flaming red. Whoooops. I guess I am getting used to it. It was on clearance and I had a coupon so it was basically free, so I went for it. (I bought brown but when I got the box home and went to color my hair I noticed the actual color missing from the box so I had to go back and get another one and all they had was blonde and red) I think typing this all out is making me feel better (thank you whoever is reading) I think I will also put some music on and hop in a quick shower........ update more later :)

February 12, 2008

Well, my first daughter came two weeks early so today would be that day. I made it past that point so far. My son was 13 days early so that would be tomorrow. We shall see. I am just planning Friday, I have enough things to keep me busy. Plus, V day and I want it to be special, not in the hospital havin a baby, ya know? I want baby to have her own special day. I've been trying to take one nap a day, to not get too crabby. Baby girl is still plenty active so no worries there. I noticed a stretch mark on my belly last night - didn't make me happy. I made it all this time without one and I saw it and gasped!! My fingers hurt quite a bit at times, so writing in the baby book has been very neglected. Typing is a lot easier. Am thinking of printing out pages to insert in the book. Well, I happened to come on before my nap and I am getting sleepy so I am going to go doze right now.....

February 10, 2008

5 more days until she is here!! CRAZY. I wanted to spend these last few days relaxing. But I am finding more and more things to handle and take care of. I think this stems from noone else in the house being motivated to clean, etc. SUCKS. So Today is Sunday, my better half is still sleeping - surprise surprise. My daughter is with Grandma and my son is already playing video games. I have already started dinner, laundry, made lists for the week, etc. etc.

February 7, 2008

Time for Dr. update of the week! All is good. Dr. is going to induce us Feb 15th if baby hasn't decided to come by then. The reason for this is the past 2 births were 2 weeks early, I have good sized babies, and I have fast labors. So, that is the situation. I have been feeling more pressure down below today than usual.. My tummy seems to really be hanging out of my shirts. I went on leave, so no more work unless I do a little here and there from home, which is a possibility since I do a lot of computer work. I just can't believe it. 8 more days, at the most!!!! Wow... kinda sad in a way, pregnancy will be over. And a whole new life to begin, one of diapers, spit up, crying, sore boobs, etc. Haha. But I am sure when I see/hold her, it won't even matter any of that other stuff. :)

February 5, 2008 - 37 weeks!

I'm starting to get really nervous about this full induction idea. To not let my body start naturally (or has it already?) I just don't want a c-section. I don't want my body to fight the false labor and then put my baby into stress. It might sound selfish but with 2 great births under my belt already, I feel my body would know what to do and doesn't need to be faked.

I see my Dr. in 2 days and of course going to bring this up to him.

January 31, 2008 - Heart Palpatations

Last night I had this alarming heart problem. My heart was beating rapid and irregular and would not rest!! I finally fell asleep and it was still happening this morning. I haven't gone to Dr.... trying not to overreact. Anyone else had this??????

January 29, 2008 - 36 weeks Dr. Visit

January 24, 2008

Sorry for not posting after the shower. Been BUSY BUSY. Went and got more things after the shower - was wiped out. Then had to put everything away, more laundry, setting up of things, etc etc etc. We also got a new car!! Crazy. Tomorrow we are taking a car seat safety class. I did my taxes tonight, getting a little back, not a lot but it helps. My tummy is soooo hard right now, can't wait to lay down and let it rest. I love my girl so much. I can't wait to see her :) I put up some more pics. Check em out.

January 19, 2008

My baby shower is in 2 hours! I am excited, and nervous for some reason. I am not too showy or liking limelight much. Too embarassed of imperfections showing. Well, I will be on later to talk about my day!! :)

January 13, 2008

I am so happy to be pregnant, and enjoying these last few weeks. That is my goal. This weekend is my baby shower. (my real one- I had a surprise one before) I am excited. My boyfriend and I have had some killer ups and downs. We are now talking, like for real, and trying to stay connected. It's work! But worth it! He is looking into getting a new car right now. And a job. And a lot of other things that he needs to do, to feel better, and be better. Over this last weekend I really did some good stuff for prepping of baby's arrival! Very proud. I washed all her bedding, all her clothes, and I made up her crib and her cradle, complete with toys inside. I also set up the swing, all by myself :) I was real proud of that one. So yeah did a lot of work, indeed. Then I also took a breastfeeding class which I thoroughly enjoyed. I learned some stuff, maybe I knew it before but I was reminded. I am so glad i took the class, I just wish my hunny was with me. Oh well. He seems to be way more excited about the baby right now, I even (finally!) caught him reading his Father book. That really touched me. Some things I learned about breastfeeding were you should not used borrowed accessories on a breast pump, you should only borrow the pump part (motor), also you need nursing bras for night - so something comfortable, which I had forgot. (because you leak) and also I learned that if you are engorged do not put hot water- it won't fix anything, you need to put cold compresses. It will help your body soak up the excess milk. So, it was really good. I am excited because baby girl is really growing. I love it. She is strong. We are almost 34 weeks. Can hardly believe I am 7.5 months pregnant. It's so exciting!!! Well, that is about it, for now. Maybe I will put up a pic of her completed crib and cradle later on. :)

January 8, 2008 - 33 weeks!!

Today was another Dr. Visit. I was greeted by a surprise guest, my hunny!! I didn’t know he was coming and he ended up meeting me there, which was sweet. I am VERY happy to report that Dr. is HAPPY with me. Only 2 lbs gained since last visit. Total overall = 22. He said I am doing great! Baby measured right on track = 33cm. Her heart beat was a little harder to hear, maybe she had her back to us. It was a 142 heartrate. Dr. still says it sounds like a boy, but he is going along with us and now agreeing with us that she is a she! He also said, just like last time, that she sounds HAPPY. My blood pressure was good, too. So, all is well. I go back again in 3 weeks time, he will then check baby’s position to see if she is head down.!

After the appt, we had a quick (& nice) breakfast at Coco’s.

This weekend I am going to start laundering some of her items. I also have a class to attend on Breastfeeding. Just want to brush up on everything.

7 more weeks!

December 30, 2007

Yesterday, to my surprise, I was guest of honor at a Baby Shower! It was a total surprise. I thought we were going to a family get-together. I have never had a surprise party, well maybe not since I was about 12 or 13. It was so great, and I feel so blessed with all that was given. I put a photo in my album. Today I cleaned up the baby's room a bit since I was using it as my Christmas "wrapping" room. Things are going to be going into full gear getting ready mode VERY soon.......

December 28, 2007 - 31.5 weeks - added new photos too.

Christmas is over. Got my diaper bag, lots of goodies inside of it, got some diapers, some pacifiers, blanket, outfits, a toy, a new frog, and more. I also picked up the highchair from my aunt, and my sister loaned me her swing. I get pretty uncomfy if I eat too much or stay in the same position too long. Right now I am just enjoying a little break from work with my kids. I am loving the close time with them. Emotionally I have reached some low points, I find myself able to worry about so much that it's overwhelming. Job, baby, money, husband's work, things to take care of still, and a recent friends' death. A lot going on. Our baby girl is very strong now, she definitely is not a weak duck, haha. I hope she is not too big of a handful. She is becoming more and more awake, at night.!!! As I type right now (10:00 am) she is sleeping, of course.

December 18, 2007 - 30 weeks!

30 weeks. Wow. Wow. Wow. So I went to the Dr. today and it was pretty good. I gained 7 more pounds from last visit, and he didn't like that jump. So I got a little talk. Other than that, blood pressure is great, baby measuring right on track and her heart rate was 144. I go back in 3 more weeks. He told me to pre-reg at hospital sometime between now and 4 weeks. When I was leaving I ran into a couple woman in the elevator. They were telling me how good I looked. I know I turned bright pink like my shirt. They really made me feel good. Sweet ladies. When I came into work, my boss had given me some cookies. Now I am trying to resist them.......

December 17, 2007

I can't believe there is only 71 days to go. Seems like it is just going by So fast. We had a family party yesterday. I felt good. It was nice to see that everyone is very accepting of this little bundle of joy. Makes it all the more better. Things have been up and down between me and the father. There are times where I feel I would be better off.... but times where I just want him to hold me. I wish we could go away, even for a night, I think we need it. It is so stressful for me when he isn't working. I feel like I am doing it all, and like he doesn't have a care in the world. I can't believe Christmas is like a week away. So much to do this week. I slept so bad last night, I am so tired and weak today. Bleh. I asked my boss if he had any water. I am not joking here... he gave me like 4 half open bottles of water. He even admitted they were very old but acted like it wasn't a problem. He told me to refill them with the tap if I wanted to. He gave me one and said it was brand new never opened, but the seal was totally broken already even though the water was full. He also gave me some expired Green Teas. One of the waters has a mouth spout, that he obviously has used. He told me that he doesn't need to buy fresh waters. That is so gross :(

December 14, 2007

Last night I got a super great backrub from my hunny. It was so great - I was drooling!! We went together to an Open House at the hospital. We ate and had a good time. I even won $50 credit to a dayspa!!! Wooo hoo!!!! please see my gallery for a NEW 3d/4d pic of baby girl!!!!!!!!! :):):)

December 13, 2007

Howdy. The Ultrasound was good! It took awhile to get a good look but wow, what a cutie. Big pudgy lips and cheeks. At one point I thought I saw boy stuff and I freaked! But alas it was feet in the way. She did some real cute things. Folded her hands together, sucked her hand, rubbed her eye, showed us her big toe, etc. Everyone is saying she has her daddy's nose. I can't tell and I don't really care. As long as she has a nose and it works, that is all I care about. I don't think we will get to see her again until she is born so it was really neat to do this. She is real low in there. Right now I am kind of focussing on Christmas and then after that it will be full on baby gearing time.

December 11, 2007

So it looks like I am Pregnant lost entries, again. Sucks. Oh well. I am happy today. We got our tree last night, it is sooooo beautiful and BIG. I LOVE it. Smells sooooo good, too. The house is really looking good now :) And TONIGHT is the night. Wow, time sure has flown by. We get to see our little girl tonight on another 3d/4d U/S! So excited!!! So I will be on later to update!! Good times.

December 8, 2007

Lamaze classes were today - it was so much fun being with my hunny and learning about what to expect TOGETHER. He rubbed me and we laughed, it was GREAT. We had a super lunch and went shopping to get a birthing ball after the class was over. We really learned a lot, especially him, it was a great experience. I will never ever forget it. Tonight is good we are feeling really close. I'm happy :) Baby is growing - man, my tummy is hard and crampy. Pizza for dinner. Yum. I am wrapping a few presents, just wanted to check in. In 3 days we are having another 3d/4d U/S! Hope to see our daughter's face!!!! :)

December 5, 2007

So, the feeling doesn't last long, once again. Last night we went to dinner and I was going to talk to him about things, about my work hours being cut, about bills, etc. Well, he proceeded to tell me that he is buying a very expensive piece of music gear today, which would basically spend all that he has and then some. But he didn't seem to mind, it's what he wants. I was floored. We have no room for it, he has bills too, and I thought maybe he would be helping me, but alas he is buying gear now. I started crying at dinner at how selfish and insincere he is. This morning I awoke to NO SODA in the fridge (He took the one I had just put in there for myself. And a TOTAL mess he left for me. CD's EVERYWHERE. I had to clean it all up, throw away his trash, and then take out the kitchen trash which was SO HEAVY. I tried to talk to him about what he did to upset me and he splashed me with water. He has let me down so many times, over and over. I think I need a new boyfriend.

December 4, 2007

Finally feeling better. Went out with hunny last night, almost felt like a first date. I saw a cutness in him I hadn't seen in awhile, like 3 times. I tried to ignore the lame moments ;) We made love again last night, so I feel better than ever. PLUS - he finished the baby shelves. YAY! Now he is "out" of the baby's room so I can proceed to come in and start using that room for wrapping presents. (We don't really have any other place to do it) Other than that, doin ok. Work is cutting my hours back, but I guess it's not such a bad thing. I need to prepare for my new life, anyway. We'll have to manage. Baby girl is so active at times, it just amazes me. We watched one baby program together last night, while he rubbed my feet.. It was just awesome. Tonight I am getting a pregnancy massage. I am soooo glad about it, too. Much needed. I almost thought about telling people the name lately, I don't know, just a part of me feels selfish for not, and it's not like her name is so crazy or anything, just a normal name. People might be like "and why did you keep that from us?" So yeah,,, iffy feelings in that department. I am 28 weeks today!

December 3, 2007

The good didn't last long, not long at all. He left me yesterday to go help his mom for a day. The day rolled on, it was getting long. I imagined him working hard like I hoped he was, to get home to his family and have Sunday dinner with us. Alas it was getting late, I called, no answer. Turns out he conveniently left his phone at his mother's house when they left to go Christmas shopping! (gah!) So how was the "work project" ? NOT DONE - and he said he will have to come back another day! ANOTHER DAY! This boy has been leaving me more weekends than not and he has more on the horizon and he wants ANOTHER DAY!!!!!!?!? I was SOOOOOOOOO upset - I hung up on him and then I called him back and was just crying and crying. Tears just pouring out. We have so much to do, so little days and he is so slow that we will never get done not to mention his priorities are so not in the right place. SO. Guess what he did. He never even came home. And apparantly is going straight into work from there (which means no clean clothes - wonderful - what a great impression that will make at his job of only 2 weeks)

Meanwhile, I did a ton of work at the house, by myself, the kids missed him and there was nothing I could do about it - he just likes being with his mom because she spoils him and she certaintly doesn't seem to mind that she is taking away from our family time. I think if it was up to her she would see her son no matter if it meant a problem for us, every weekend. It's an hour drive there so looking at 2 hours commute for every visit. I made a nice dinner, had to clean it up all by myself and by this time I was in tears.

Today I feel so sad, it isn't even funny. My body feels week and I am just afraid for what this week will be. Me working hard, him, probably not. And we have a newly discovered leak in the garage whick leaks onto his music equipment which just means more problems for us. Supossed to take Lamaze class this Sat - all day. I feel like I need coffee but I feel like my body can't handle it.

:(

December 2, 2007

Definitely feeling better now. Spent "close time" with boyfriend/"daddy" last night and it was so nice. Really made me happy. I am smiling and feeling good. It's a good day! Today is a bit of chores and a bit of relaxation. A good Sunday!

November 30, 2007

Last night there was tiny glimmers of hope with my boyfriend but they diminished when he proceeded to play music which I despised in our room and I 1) wasn't even in the mood for music, 2) couldn't stand the music he was playing, 3) when I said something, he played another song (same artist). So... yeah, left the room. This was all after he touched my tummy a bit earlier and let me know he wanted to give me attention later. So when the kids were in bed I went in and had to deal with the music stuff. So much for having a better night last night. I don't hope for much at all tonight. Will try not to think about it. Baby has been kicking and or punching me quite a bit but everything is good. I watch my baby shows when I get home still. It's rainy here and I like it. Today is payday too. YAY.

November 29, 2007 - Subdued

I may regret this post later on. I'm just not that chipper. I am growing, and honestly my boyfriend seems so distant, more than ever. He is into his things, not me. If I ask him to do anything, I am a nag. He even gets upset when he sees me not on my feet every second because I guess he doesn't think I need or deserve a break. He always takes breaks while I work but he can't work while I take a break. I'm irritated. The baby shelves he put up are totally not strong and stable and he left his tools and everything in there and it bothers me. I wanted it done. :( So much to do, and that was such a small project. I can just see that I am going to be the one doing everything for this baby. He doesn't wake up when I need anything, so why would he do it for his daughter? All the assembling of toys and stuff, I can tell I am going to be doing it. Like I know how to do this stuff? Both carseats in the car, who will do that? Probably me, fat belly and all. Just so upset. And he tells me today that he is going away from me 2 nights in a row to do music stuff. Yay, happy go lucky me. Have fun hanging out with partyers/smokers while I get to worry about how bad you will smell when you do finally arrive home. Oh, have you wondered how your baby is doing? If she moved? Do you care? Because you never ask me.

November 20, 2007 - 26 weeks Appt.

Had a Dr. Appt today. Other than the fact that I had to wait FOREVER to go back & then again for him to come into the room, alls good. Blood pressure 120/64=good. Weight gain in last 4 weeks = (yikes) 6 pounds. Overall weight gain so far: 13 pounds. Fundal height: 26.5 cm. Baby's heartrate was good at 144. I reminded him that SHE is a GIRL :) He said my Glucose Test was GOOD. :) I did show him my ankles and he said - stay off feet more, no eating of chips and salsa - oops that was dinner last night!, lay on my sides. I talked to him about my fears of the episiotomy without an epidural. I think he likes epidurals, just the feeling I got from the talk. He told me to preregister with the hospital at 32 weeks. I go back in 4 weeks and then 3 weeks after that. When I reach 36 weeks I will go each week. His receptionist told me I can go on Disability leave 4 weeks before and 6 weeks after. It's getting serious!!

November 15, 2007 - Glucose Test

Today I worked and then headed over to the lab for my glucose test. I was the only there when I arrived which was nice! I drank the drink in a few minutes, wasn't bad at all, it was cold and lemon lime and since I was fasting it really was refreshing. I only had to wait an hour and it went quick. I spent my hour reading a newspaper, reading 2 magazines, going to the rest room, playing 2 games of poker on my cell phone and then chatting it up with another mom who came in after me and was doing the same test. (She was Due Feb 11th and having a boy) Then it was time to go in and it was probably the best blood taking experience I have ever had. I didn't even get a tear in my eye! Results by Monday she said, I have my regular Dr. visit Tuesday so I will probably just talk to them then. I have to admit, I am a tad concerned if everything is ok with me, not baby, just me. I realized today that my ankles have already swollen up, I kinda knew but when I got a good look I was astonished. I can hardly make out the ankle bone and that does scare me. Because I still have 3 months and 11 days to go. My other kids were 2 weeks early so I am guessing I could be ready in 3 months, but still, I wonder if I could have some problem. Yikes. I have also noticed quite a few skin tags on me. Mostly my underarms, neck, and one on my face. Anyone else having these? They are so annoying. I wonder what my weight gain is at this point. Last month I had gained 7 overall. But I have a feeling it's going to be 7 more. The girl I met today who was 2 weeks ahead of me wasn't even as huge as me. Funny I was looking forward to the belly but now I feel like maybe it's too big. Anyway, I gotta go clean up all the leaves that have fallen in my backyard. Fun fun......

October 26, 2007 - part II - after the 2nd sexing ultrasound

I have a shy GIRL. Yep - didn't get to see her face but we saw her "taco" so I feel 100% better about it all. That's two techs who told me it was girl so GIRL it is and MORE PINK I buy- (haha)

October 26, 2007

Had a Dr. Appt yesterday. Overall good but something getting to me. First off, the good.... weight gain since last visit (is this really good?) 6 pounds. That's over a pound a week! But overall the weight gain is 7 total, so far. Still, the rate I am progressing could mean over 30 in the end. And that means HUGE for me :( Other good news... blood pressure is good. Baby is measuring right on. 22cm fundal height. The heart beat was good and strong and able to be heard immediately. 142 bmp. I brought my son with this time - he enjoyed seeing the Dr. that delivered him many years earlier and he liked hearing the heart beat. Baby was active for a bit but went to sleep when he came in for the visit. Here is the not so great news... Dr. doesn't like me relying on that U/S for sexing. He says that mistakes are made, he has seen them. He feels that with this lower heart beat, there could be a mistake. So now here I am..... with that, the dream I had not long ago that "she" was really a "he", the fact that my boyfriend's mom has always felt it was a boy and she was almost in shock when we told her girl, and the fact that so many of us are so happy that it (is?) a girl - makes me wonder. Is the Dr. right? In any case, I have bought a lot of pink- because I was so happy and I told the Dr. this and you know what he said?! I HOPE YOU KEPT THE RECEIPTS.

:(

We are considering getting another U/S done - just for another opinion. It's going to cost us money though. And the truth is, in my heart, I am fine with either - I just want a healthy baby. My concern is really only having any kind of disappointment at the end - if "she" was sexed wrong. Now that I "know" I have bought stuff - I mean you know what I mean. Now that I know, I just want to feel strong about it and with my Dr. having his doubts, it's kinda hard. In any case, my Dr. did tell me that if I was going to pay for an Ultrasound not too wait too long, he said right now is a good time to see things - later on it gets too crowded. I made a call - and am considering going in, soon. Maybe even this afternoon...... Thoughts? Opinions? You guys have to know that I even bought a custom bed set for "her" - it of course has pink in it. The good news is, the stroller and carseat will work for either. So will the crib, the cradle and the cradle bedding. Many earlier clothes I bought as well. But everything lately, and a lot of what I registered for. I guess it is not the end of the world - but the kids both REALLY wanted a girl - and are SO happy for a girl. I don't know - this whole thing is a little unbearable. Sometimes I wish I got an amnio now.

Baby is turning way more active , I know I wanted this (more active) but sometimes it can be a little overwhelming. Still, in my heart, I love it. I complain sometimes about whatever aspect of the pregnancy, but I know I wouldn't want it any other way. I love my baby and am happy for the arrival in 4 months! :)

October 24, 2007
Yesterday afternoon I felt her moving about and sure enough I looked at my tummy as saw it jump in one area! That was very cool!!!! :)

Oct. 23, 2007 starting to feel her movements a little more prominent. (& enjoying! :) ) I have a Dr. appt in 2 days. I am 22 weeks today. Just been kinda shopping here and there and enjoying getting things more ready for her arrival.

Oct 17, 2007 Water Retention?
Uh oh my rings are getting tighter - this could be a problem!!!


Oct 15, 2007

I've updated this page in the past, but everything disappeared. Now, I have to start again. I'm pregnant with a girl and am currently about 21 weeks. I'm at the buying a few things stage and still in the excited and feeling good stage. But I am suffering worries on the inside. When I cramp, I worry, when I don't feel her, I worry. When I have a bad dream or bad thought, I worry. I worry probably too much. And probably don't have any good or valid reason for it. Anyway, I will try and write more and post more pics soon.