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![]() | Age: 22 Country: Province/region: City: Partner: Chance Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: Not anymore Occupation: My boss' b!^*# |
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My name is Becky. I'm 22 and I live in Minnesota. This is my first pregnancy.
I love these stories! I thought I'd share mine...Chance and I met about 3 1/2 years ago. We both worked at the car wash together. I was instantly attracted to him because he had the best personality. Always funny, and sarcastic, positive, and extremely smart. Not to mention he was cute :) I was about 50 pounds overweight at the time and I thought that he would never consider me in a romantic sensibility...I moved out of my parents house not to long after we met into a house with my gay best friend and his new roomate. Well, I started dating the roomate. He was my first, and I thought I was in love. About four months after I had started dating Kris (the roomate) Chance asked me if he could move in with us because he needed to get out of his parents house. I still had a thing for Chance even though I was with Kris, and even though I got the occassional vibe from Chance, I still didn't think he was interested in me like that. A few months passed and I found out that Kris wasn't that great of a guy. He couldn't hold down a job, he always made me feel bad about myself and there were instances of physical abuse. Around that time I found out I was pregnant. Sadly, I decided to have an abortion. I was constantly depressed, suicidal, I began struggling with an eating disorder, and I was into drinking and drugs. All of these factors made me sure that I was not ready to raise a child and I was not willing to give one up. At 6 weeks pregnant I had an at home abortion. It is something that I have to live with to this day and it will never fade from my memory. I moved out of the house I was living at into an apartment with Kris. We tried to make it work but he was abusive, he was a porn addict, and a compulsive lier...things I didn't understand until I got stuck in a lease at an apartment complex. Chance was always there giving me support...Picking me up or meeting me at the bar to talk or just hangout. He would tell me I deserve better. That Kris is an idoit...but I never listened to anybody. I thought I was in love. One night I had a lot to drink and I finally told Chance that I had feelings for him for a long time and that I never thought he was interested in me, in that way. Little did I know that he was...That he was waiting for me to make the move because I had a boyfriend and he didn't want to be the one to screw things up. I kissed him that night and I fell in love with my best friend. It took me five more months to fully have Kris out of my life and my heart. One June 15th, 2007 I went out with my older brother and sister and Chance to the bar and then to a friend's house. We spent the night talking about how crazy things have been, how much they have changed, etc...We just couldn't believe that we had met each other and that we could have such a great friendship...we all headed to my brother's house at around 4 in the morning and Chance and I got into the hot tub...One thing lead to another and the first night we were together we concieved our child. We spent every day together after that night...I started spending the night at his parent's house...We slept on his trampoline underneath the stars on a few warm summer nights...and after only sleeping together a few times we told each other we loved one another...It wasn't about sex like my last relationship with Kris...I loved this man. He had the biggest heart I had ever been priviledged to be loved by...At the beginning of July I felt different and I had a good feeling that I could be pregnant because of how I felt the last time it had happened. I explained to Chance that it could be possible and that I might have to take a test if my period never came. Well, he and his family left for a week in Canada on a houseboat trip. They asked me to watch the house and take care of the animals. Only a few days after they left I felt the need to take a test. I went to the store and when I came back I took one right away. I prayed to god that I wasn't because I was worried of what this would do to our relationship, how my parents would feel about it (they were for my previous abortion), and how I could handle being a mother at that point in my life. After three minutes I looked into the window of the test..."Pregnant"...I instantly started crying and called my best friend. She didn't have much to say except for "congratulations...this could be a good thing"...Next thing I did was hop into my car and head to the teen clinic to have a real test taken. I was pregnant...no doubt about it...I couldn't get a hold of Chance, being in Canada he was out of range, so I called my sister in law. I was too emotional to tell my parents, and my sisters would just be angry and not supportive. She asked me to come over and she asked me what I wanted to do...I told her that I don't think I could have another abortion because that was one of the most devistating things I've ever gone through. She then told me "there's your answer". As I watched her hold my year old nephew Matthew I knew that I was ready...How could I not want such a sweet perfect person in the world...A person who is part me and part my best friend...I spent the rest of the day alone at Chance's parent's house just thinking and reading books about pregnancy that my SIL had given me. Around 6 hours after first finding out I was in the bathtub when I got the long awaited phone call from Chance. I told him. He didn't have much to say. He was pretty shocked. He told me he loved me and that he had to go. An hour later he called me again. I missed the call but he left me a voice mail. He apologized for not saying much but he was in shock. He told me that he's happy about it and that he loved me very much. I knew right then that this was a good thing. I was happy that he wanted me to keep this child and that he would be there no matter what.
We now own a house together and are engaged...I couldn't be happier...This is a love and a happiness I never knew existed!
Such a beautiful picture!!
I'm about that size tooooo, and I am 39 weeks friday!! I was big already at 21 weeks, coud of sworn I wuld of got massive, but I didn't!! |
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