Sunday, 10 Feb

Thursday, 21 Feb

Thursday, 6 Mar

25 weeks and feeling great. He moves so much, I love to feel it. He can always bring a smile to my face. When i `ll lay on top of Cole or vise versa.. He `ll start to kick and cole can feel it.. i love to see his face light up. I know he `s just as excited as me. He `s so happy he gets his little boy.. He can `t wait for go time hahah I CAN.. im so scared. I know i shouldn `t be.. but i can `t help it i get so overwhelmed with everything that can go wrong. I dont know i need to stop worrying so much. Im also thinking he `s going to love meat like his dad.. Ive been so addicted to it. I constantly want stakes or something haha. cuttte i can `t wait to see who he resembles, what colour of hair and eyes how chubby or small he is. ahhhh im so excited i get little buttterflies just thinking about how its going to be once he arrives.. or maybe thats just him kicking ahaha. I have my hospital birthing tour thing on monday night and then the next monday i have my doctor appointment which i gotta take my diabetes tests and stuff. then the next week my and my husband are taking a little road trip to Las vegas.. his brother is getting married so that `ll be nice to get some goooood weather and have a little break from things :]

Wendsday 19 Mar,

Ahh lately has been crazy. Tate's been kickin a lot more. I recently got a kidney infection so they started to run tests on me and turns out I might be in the early stages of toxemia.. preeclamsia. which really worries me. My mom had toxemia with me and had to emergency deliver at 7 months. I dont know what to do. I was in the hospital for a couple of months me and cole dont even have medicade or insurance. Im waiting on my birth certificiate. im soo stressed out. I need to relax i hope everything turns out ok and he doesn't come early he needs to be in there getting big and healthy. as much as i'd love to have him here. His health is way more important to me. I just wish i knew what was going on with my body, i feel like i can't do anything to help or i dont know. i just need to calm down. i think i'm going to set up his crib today. I get so overwhelmed thinking about it.

Wen. April 16,

31weeks today. I dont know why but all of a sudden i've become scared to have our baby early. Reading all the womens comments. I get so over whelmed.. I have such anxiety just thinking about the delivery. I feel like I can't do this sometimes. I Pray that everything goes okay. I just want my baby boy to be healthy, and both of us to be safe. He's still in breech position I think but I dont think they start to worry about that to much untell the 36thweek. Last night I started to feel contractions.. they were regular but I had about 3 or 4 an hour.. so I finally laid down and watched a movie put my feet up and ate a popcicle and they went a way. Thank goodnesss. They hurt like hell. I hope he stays in there untell he's ready. I love him so much already. its the craziest thing. I love hanging out with him all day (of coarse hes kinda forced right now haha) just watching him kick my tummy. It's the greatest feeling. Already I feel so much loved from him. And already I know hes going to be the most beautiful thing ive ever set my eyes on.