Hi, everybody my name is Ashley but i perfer Byrd. I'm seventeen and 5 weeks pregnant. I am very excited but nervous at tha same time. Tha father name is Matthew but we all call 'em Red since he is so light skinned. I'm scared ta tell 'em so if there is anybody out there in my situation or has been there then can you give me some advice. Well i'll keep ya'll posted and please do the same.

THE STORY ON HOW I FOUNT OUT!!!!!!!!!!

I went ta tha doc for a flu shot, but since my mom wasnt with me they had ta get her consent. she requested a pregnancy test. so they took my pee and like 5 mins later i heard the nurses debating on giving me a second one becuz that one had came back positive. it took 'em fa every to come and tell me (im guessing they used tha same pee but a different pee). it was 4:16 when tha doc came in, i was in shock. even tho i had took two pregnancy tests before that day i was still in shock. we talk'd well she did most of the talkin i couldnt. i call'd my mom and i went from there.

Oct 23, 2007:

i went ta tha doc fa a flu shot and they told me i was bout 4 weeks pregnant. im shock'd, scared, but my mom is jumpin up and down. she can't hold water so she told everybody. well ima be a mommy in 8 mo months. i hope tha father in gonna be there ta help me!!!!!

Oct 29, 2007:

im 5 weeks and i plan on telling the father today. i hope it goes well but i do have my mind set on disappointment. well i gotta go and get this ova with. ill keep u updated. i went and told 'em. i was walking to his house, real scared and he snuck'd up on me, and scared me. well i told 'em that i need ta talk ta 'em and he was like wats up. i was like well...and he was like your pregnant. he was just joking tho, but then when he seen it in my eyes that i wasnt he was like please tell me your lying. i was like why would i play around like that. well we eventionally walk'd tha rest of tha way ta his house. we sat down, he didnt say nothing. so i said are you mad, he still didnt say nuttin. then i said well im mad ta. he was like if you was mad then you will have an abortion. i was like so you trying to tell me to get an abortion. he was like no, but i didnt let 'em talk, i was cursing him out and everythang, i guess he got fed up cuz he started arguing back. we finally stop'd and didnt say nothing for like 10 mins. he finally said when is your doc. appointment. he didnt say he was gonna come but he did ask. i feel much better that he knows. please keep me in your prayers. well ill keep you updated

Oct 30,2007:

i just fount out i was 6 weeks pregnant. im so happy. i have a very stressful day. all of my friends are turning on me. rumors are being spread'd it is so depressin. but when i came on here and fount out i was 6 weeks it all disappeared. ima just be goin ta skool ta do my work bcuz its nuttin but drama there. sorry people if you had sent me a message and i didnt reply im just ta depressed right now.

Oct. 31, 2007

well school went betta then i thought. it was tha first time i sat along at a table. well people kept comming up and askin me questions but i just shook my head and said i dont know. that way i wasnt gettin mad or anythang. i had a great day if u ask me. my stomach is gettin hard so im happy bout that. i call'd my doc and ask'd if i should reschedule my app. fa tuesday cuz then i will be a full 8 weeks but they was like we dont give ultrasounds til later on in tha pregnancy. im not ta happy bout that i was really lookin forward ta seein my baby, but its all good. i didnt go trick or treatin cuz i fell asleep round 7 or 8. lol, but i had heartburn so i took some mustard. does anybody else take mustard. i still havent heard from tha father but i talk'd ta his sista. we didnt talk bout tha pregnancy tho, i guess he havent told her. should i go ova there and talk ta 'em, or should i wait fa 'em ta come along. i hope everybody had a safe halloween

Nov. 3, 2007:

on of my worst symptoms came back. runny nose, i hate having a runny nose. when im sick or sumthang i get angry cuz of my runny nose. i havent been cryin lately. well if ur wonderin bout tha father, he has not came around yet, so please keep me in ya prayers. i havent threw-up yet so does that mean my levels will be real low. i read on sumbody site that, that could be possible. im real scared, and hungry lol. well it is only 9 am so ima bout ta eat then ima be back on later on taday. i hope ya'll have a nice, happy, and safe days

Nov. 7, 2007:

school went very bad for me on monday. but everthang is aiight taday, i guess. one of tha gurls came and talk'd ta me, anotha gurl said she was bout ta laugh in my face when i wanted ta talk ta her. i just shook my head cuz befa she was tryin ta talk ta me. people can be so fake when they are round people. but im not worried bout 'em. i have 6 mo days til my first prenatal app. sometimes i go ta sleep without eatin. which is not good, its just there is nuttin in our fridge. i gotta start eatin more. sometimes when i put my finger on my neck, i feel a second heartbeat. but sometimes i dont. i had my second day at my job tuesday. it went aiight, i was hungry and my superviser didnt say that i could go on break.........

Nov. 10, 2007:

i just got off of work and im so so so so tired. i met a new friend, she is one of my co-workers. so far she is only one, outside of tha family, when i feel tha baby kick. even tho i got like a zillion mo weeks til i feel it. but my appetite as really pick up. im real scared cuz i feel i like i neva get fulled. my stomach keeps feelin empty. i might not be able ta go ta my app. on tha 12 bcuz of financial problems. but our case worker is tryin tha best she can ta make sure i can go that day and no get charged. i have been so anxious fa this day ta come and now i might not even get ta go. im not depressed or anythang well really i am but i was really lookin forward ta this....i just pray that everthang will be aiight if i have ta wait a anotha day or two to go ta my doc. appointment. all day taday i felt like i was gonna throw-up but nuttin ever came. i hate been so miserable lol...i bet that when i lay down all my food will come back up...but that im not lookin forward ta, lol. i still havent gotten a word back from tha father. if i do get ta go on monday and he doesnt show up. as soon as i leave tha doctor ima slap tha shit out of 'em. im sorry ladies i know ya'll said ta leave 'em along. but if ima have ta go threw this alone then he will have a sore jaw ta live with fa tha next 3 days. well i have ta go ta sleep befa i get hungry again. nite nite ladies!!!!! do anybody know where i can get a pretty baby layout from, thanks

Nov. 11, 2007

my first prenatal app. is scheduled fa tamorrow but due ta financial problems i might not be able ta go til later on in tha week. i hope everthang will get straighten'd out befa 4pm tamorrow. so please pray fa me. i feel so sickie taday. i had a minor headache but i went ta sleep and it went away. i wish i could just throw-up so i want have ta be tortured anymore. lol, this baby is really kickin my butt!!!! still no word from tha baby daddy yet. oh and i have had two dreams bout my child and tha father. tha first was a dream about my baby, HE look'd just like tha daddy. long hair and all. did i mention tha baby daddy is black and italion. and the italion really got tha best of 'em. but my child look'd just like 'em. long hair and all. it look'd like the daddy spit 'em out and not me. so does that mean ima have a little boy. i would like ta cuz my grandma had one boy and only has one grandson, so i would like ta give her, her first greatgrand child. tha second dream was me and tha father, his momma and mines. (his momma and me neva really got ta talk, she always raised her nose up at me when i tried ta talk ta her. she probably thought i was just anotha chicken head) but anyways she finally accept'd me and my child. but that was about it, im sure it was mo ta tha story but i couldnt rememba it. so does that mean that she is gonna welcome me and my child. does anybody else have these types of dreams???????????? well i gotta lay back down befa i feel my tummy get upset again. nite nite ladies

Nov. 12, 2007:

they wouldnt allow me ta come since my insurance wasnt gonna pay for it. the insurance should be back on befa tha end of tha week. but my next app. is nov 20th at 8:10. so its just a week away. yes, i am sad i have been lookin forward ta this day fa so long. but it will come soon enough. thanks fa tha prayers you guys. well i have ta get back ta work. ill update if sumthang else pops up......

Nov. 14, 2007:

well i went ta tha eight weeks page and everybody on their has their ultrasounds and tha heartbeat and stuff like that. but i dont. very depressin, well accordin ta this site i will be almost 9 weeks when i go ta my first app. my mom first app. was when she was 3 months (that was bcuz she didnt know she was pregnant). still no sign from tha dad, i havent even thought about 'em tho. i hope that i can get my pics when i go ta tha 1st app. so i can go ova there and show 'em that he will be missin part of his baby's life. but i dont thank i can wait anotha week without slappin his ass!!! this baby is really torturin me, just make me throw up already. lol, like father like son/daughter. oh at work these boys ordered some pizza right and i was hungry. i didnt ask fa none but they all knew i was pregnant, they didnt ask me eitha. and then they left it right there in tha openin. i ask'd anotha employee was tha pizza fa everybody they said naw, like in a mean way!!! then later on in tha day i went inta tha break room ta get my jacket and this guy had a big turkey and it stank'd. he said it was 5 dollars. i mean tha turkey had ta be bigger then his and mines head. tha people beside 'em had subway. i cant wait til i get my first check, at least i can count on 2 days without bein hungry. well thats bout it.....

Nov. 16, 2007:

i got my first check yestaday, but im not pickin it up til taday. i wanted ta put it all ta bills cuz they stack'd up but i gotta get me sum mo clothes. well i thank tha clothes can wait i'll just wear sweat pants or sumthang. but my mom is gettin stress'd out cuz of tha bills gettin pilled up. i hope this check is alot well is at least 1 sumthang cuz i got alot of thangs that has ta be down with it. still no mornin sickness, but im still bein tortured. i keep feelin my neck but i dont feel a second heartbeat. maybe its ta early fa me ta hear it. hopefully tha u/s can hear and see it. accordin ta this site ill be 9 weeks then!!!!! i cant wait til i find out how far along i am fareal and i wont have ta go by this or any otha site. well i only got 3 mo days. i have ta work taday, thank god i want be hungry!!!!!! well i'll keep ya updated.....oh does anybody notice any changes with their belly button. does it feel like it has moved up sum?????????

Nov. 19, 2007:

well i finally threw up. rite after i brushed my teeth. i was joking with my aunt the other day becuz she said that she threw up alot becuz of the toothpaste. i really hope this is not karma lol. it was just clear at first, like it was cold or snot, then it was yellow. sorry for the details ya'll but i dont want to forget wat it look'd liked. black friday is comming up so i have to be at work at 4am friday. but thanks ta my pregnancy i dont have to do much but be an assistant to the people in the line. i get to leave at 1. everybody else has to leave at 3 or 4. they have more experience tho. i have to come in saturday at 8am to 4pm so i gotta rest up the day of thanksgivin and the nite after. i hope i dont throw up and have to get sent home, i just knocked on wood lol. im gettin tha feelin again so ima bout ta lay my head down in class. talke ta ya'll later

later that day: threw up two more times hopefully i want go ta sleep like this!!!!!!!

Nov. 20, 2007:

well today was supposed ta be my 1st 1st prenatal doc. appointment but guess wat.....they wouldnt accept me. all bcuz i dont have any insurance. im so fukkin mad, i dont know how my baby is doin cuz these fukkin doctors want ta see only the rich people so that they can get big checks. well my mom did some callin around and fount one clinic that would see me. but i have to wait until dec. 7 to go. why the fukk do i have to wait that long to know bout my baby. its actually 17 more days. this shit really is makin me mad. i dont even curse any more. and this site is really makin me depressed. everybody on here has went ta tha doctor and seen the heartbeat etc... so ima just stay off of here fa a while. but if u want you can continue to write me. at least i know somebody cares. they still havent cut our welfare back on so im starvin ova here. our so called family isnt tryin ta help cuz they said they gettin ready for thanksgivin. fukk a thanksgivin hell i might have a miscarriage by then. i went and brought two more pregnancy test just so i will know that im still pregnant. i gotta go and pray cuz i really feel like ima do sumthang that could harm everybody around me.

December 4, 2007:

sorry i havent been updating. i really dont have much ta say. but that im am on wic now so i dont have to worry about food no more<

December 6, 2007:

well i thought it was gonna be my first prenatal appointment but it wasnt. it was just a verification thingy. but my next appointment is gonna be on tha 17 two weeks from now. the lady said that i conceived on the 3 of october. my due date is 27 of june. and that i am 11w3d. im feelin ill but ill be back soon.

January 8, 2008:

SOORY LADIES I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO WRITE. I HAVE MOVED TO A SHELTER, BUT TRUST ME ITS ALL FOR THE BEST. HOPEFULLY IT WILL HELP US FINANCIALLY TOO. MY MOM IS STRESSIN SO ITS CAUSIN ME TO STRESS ALITTLE. IM TAKING MY VITAMINS AND MY BELLY IS GETTIN BIGGER. I WOULD LIKE TO PUT SOME PICS UP BUT I DONT HAVE A COMPUTER ANYMORE AND THE LIBRARY IS REAL FAR AWAY FROM THE SHELTER. I THINK I MIGHT HAVE CAUGHT SOMETHING FROM SOMEBODY OUT THERE, I HAVE WEIRD BUMPS AND SCRAPS ON MY HANDS AND ARMS. THE ONE ON MY FINGER IS ALWAYS SWELLING. THE BEDS OUT THERE ARE SO UNCOMFORTBLE. I NEVER GET ANY SLEEP, BUT I CANT COMPLAIN BECAUSE WE ARE SAFE. I TRIED TO CONTACT THE FATHER TO LET HIM KNOW THAT I WAS MOVING BUT HE WAS NO WHERE TO BE FOUND. I THINK HE WAS TELLING HIS FAMILY TO TELL ME THAT HE WASNT THERE. IT MAKES ME REAL SAD BECAUSE HE PROVED EVERYBODY RITE. BUT I HAVE MY LIL PEANUT TO WORRY ABOUT. I GO TO THE DOC ON THA 15 BUT I MIGHT GO SOONER BECAUSE OF THESE BUMPS, HOPEFULLY I GET TO DO A ULTRASOUND. WELL MY TEACHER IS COMMING BUT I WILL BE BACK ON BEFORE I LEAVE SCHOOL. AND I WILL ANSWER THE LETTERS THEN.

January 10, 2008:

hey there ladies, how is everyone doing. i am fine, feeling alittle guilty tho. i have a crush on this boy. i know its sad but i do. he acks so mature. when i asked him something he replied back with i cant talk to you because you already knocked up. he said he was joking after he seen that it had hurted my feelings. but i know its not safe because he is beefing with my baby daddy. i dont want to tell him who the father is because he just might stop talking to me then. but i went to the doctor yesterday so that i could find out what these marks where. they said that they were bite marks so i have to take some medicine for that and some cream to put on it. i got to here the babies heart beat for about 6 seconds tho. i was excited for the whole day and i am excited now. i was feeling alot of pain in the side of my back. and when i my checked it out she said that, that was where my baby was. how cool is that. i think it moved once alot of people started touching it because it went down. im very tired so i think ima bout to lay my head down for a bit, talk ta ya'll later.

January 22, 2008:

hey everybody i'm so sorry i cant write everyday. we have moved to two new shelters so far. but as long as we are safe im fine with that. i find out what i am having feb. 12, 2008 at 9:45. i cant wait. for those who are wondering i still havent heard from tha baby dad yet but thats okay cuz im not stressing ova him at all. the doc said i have gain 10 pounds but when i went back two weeks later they said i had lost 4 pounds, and she was worried about that. i really dont have an appetite either. im not throwing up, thank god but i really got to get those four pounds back. ohh last night my little cousin

JANUARY 30, 2008:

HEY EVERYBODY I REALLY DONT HAVE ANY BAD NEWS NOR GOOD NEWS. BUT I JUST WAITING PATIENTLY TO FEEL MY BABY MOVE. HE/SHE PROBABLY ALREADY MOVED BUT I DIDNT KNOW WHAT IT WAS. HOPEFULLY I WILL FEEL THE FEELING THAT ALL MOTHERS ENJOY SOON!!!!! TALK TA YA SOON, RUB YA BELLIES FOR ME

Aug. 10, 2008:

hey there everybody. let me just give u a quick update. i had my daughter the story is under this one. i named her Zakajah Heavenly Angel Bolden. we moved into our place on the 2 of june so about 3 weeks before i had her, thank god. i still havent seen her dad. but my daughter god mom keeps saying that she be seeing him etc.. but thats another story. my daughter was 7p 1 1/2o. i was in labor for 14h 24m it was worth it. i weigh 178 when i was in labor. when i had her i got down to 145 after she came. so i lost that weight but i do have a little gut but im proud of it lol. i got a good man thats by myside. we are not together but he is my 2nd everythang and he loves kajah. hopefully i can keep updating quicker so i will try check out my labor story.

MY LABOR STORY