Hi! I'm Brandi. I am currently the mother of a wonderful 8 month old baby boy and am 3 months preggo with TWINS. I am so excited to start this new chapter in life. Everyone is telling me how hard it is going to be having three children roughly the same age but you know, you just have to look at the bright side of things and not let your spirits get down because then you really are doomed.

However with that being said it has been a bumpy ride for me during this pregnancy. My hubby works ALOT so I am the one who has to keep everything running and take care of our son Landon. My baby is not bad at all but with the pregnancy hormones being intensified 100 fold I tend to find myself crumpled up somewhere crying. I am also EXTREMELY tired and drained all of the time. It is almost as if every ounce of my being is going into just BEING. I also become increasingly worried and paranoid over everything. I am so afraid something is going to go wrong. I guess that is in part because of the fact a good friend of mine was pregnant about the same time I was and just Miscarried her baby not even a week ago. It just dosen't seem right and fair to me and if I wasn't already stressed out enough it has taken even more of a toll. I don't want anyone to think I am an overly depressed person. LOL im not. Im just a pregnant woman whose hormones are kicked into overdrive. !

As for my twins them selves. I am personally hoping for at least one girl. I would LOVE identical twin girls but I know that is unlikely. But a fraternal boy/girl combo would be just as nice. For the girls the names we have chosen are Gracelyn Skye and Melanie Kensington, however we only have one boy name picked out....Nicholas Braedan

8/14/2007

Today I went and told my boss that I was going to take leave. Unfortunatly my job dosen't offer paid maternity leave. It was a very hard decision for me being I am a very independant person and like to pull my own income in. Now Im subject to depending on my fiance which isn't bad, its just a different and uncomfortable experience for me. Although I say it was a hard decision it was one that had to be made and soon. I truly don't feel I could have performed the job well feeling the way I was feeling and I felt it was in the best intrest of myself, my current son and my unborn babies that I just bite the bullet and take a break. Maybe it's a blessing in disguise. Maybe this will allow me to venture and try things that I normally would not have tried being I was secure in what I had. I don't know. We'll see how it goes. I can't wait until my appointment(s) on the 30th. I have 2. One with the reg OBGYN and the other with a specilist. I believe I am going to be getting another ultrasound from the specilist. I'll be around 16 wks and Im HOPING {fingers crossed} that my little buggers will be nice and not hide so I can find out the gender. I want to know as soon as I can so I can better prepare. Other than that the days have been so so. Some days Im fine and some Im not. Some days I wake up great and by afternoon have to lay down. This pregnancy is alot harder than I imagined it would be. As long as the babies are fine though I can deal.

8/22/2007

Its amazing

I have been keeping an eye on my little ticker that tells me how big the baby is now and what not and this week at 15wks it says that the baby is 4.5 inches long. Can you imagine? Not one but two babies THAT big inside me. You wonder where they are because even though I am a huge blimp compared to what i was it really dosen't seem they can fit. I know it is a little off because they are twins but it just boggles my mind. My mind is slowely getting more at ease since I am out of the first trimester but its really never safe for twins. I guess once I get to the "viable age" it will get better for me mentally. I am paranoid all the time. I am ticking down the clock for my next appointments, imagine that, i'm actually looking forward to the appointments. I guess it is because it helps to know that everything is going fine and to know it on a regular basis. Plus, im very interested to know what this "Maternal Fetal Specilist" is all about and also hoping to find out what the babies are!

OCT 10TH 2007

UGH I CAN'T BELIEVE ALL MY STUFF GOT DELETED! THATS SO CRUEL! I AM SO UNHAPPY ABOUT THAT! OK NOW THAT I GOT THAT OFF MY CHEST, HERE IS A LITTLE SNIPPET OF MY SON SO EVERYONE CAN SEE HOW CUTE HE IS! PLEASE DISREGARD MY OBVIOUS SOUTHERN ACCENT :)

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Although are they BOTH girls? Hmmmmm.....