March 6, 2008

Well im new here!!! Im 14 weeks pregnant today and just recovered from a bout of viral gastronitisis. My best friend who is 35 weeks pregnant had her baby shower on Saturday and within 48 hours later I started throwing up every 30 min and had some other nasty results of the stomach bug (if you kno what i mean lol). So i called her and she was experiencing the exact same symptoms. We went to the ER together and had to become rehydrated. Very scary, but hopefully baby is okay. I got kinda mad cuz the nurse kept tellin me that it was "just morning sickness"....which i CLEARLY know the difference because I've had morning sickness since my 4th week of pregnancy (yea i kno....morning sickness sucks.....and it was REAL bad morning sickness too! not the kind that puts u in the hospital, but the kind that makes you barf 3 times a day and have real bad food adversions). But after 2 more girls showed up to the ER from the baby shower, they finally were convinced it was a virus. Im still scared about being preggers since im so young and ive never been thru this before, so im hoping to meet young (and old!) mommies to encourage me on my path to motherhood! =)

March 7, 2008

Im starting to get used to this pregnancy thing...finally!!!! YES! Sleepin sucks and i get indegestion...but it has become sorta routine now..sadly lol. Neways my morning sickness is 80% gone and I can be very greedy and eat what I want but I have to be careful cuz im not trying to gain too much weight to the point that i become unhealty. But its like when you havent been able to do somethin for soooooooooooo long and then you are able to again....its like you go wild with happiness lol. My belly is getting soooo much bigger (which I was sorta afraid of because I graduate from college in May and I really didnt want to waddle across the stage lol) but i realized that the little life growing inside of me is something to be proud of, not ashamed of. From the beginning of this pregnancy, I was so worried about what my family, my friends, coworkers, complete strangers would think of me. Heck, one older lady was bold enuff to tell me "Your mama aint send you to school to get pregnant". I laughed it off but it hurt my feelings. But I realized that i was spending so much time worrying about what others thought of my 22 year old/unwed status that I wasnt appreciating the beauty of creating life. It will take some time for me to become comfortable with sharing my news with everyone but that doesnt affect how i feel about my baby....I already love the little life inside of me more than anything. Everything happens for a reason and I have to accept that God wants me to be a young mommy!!!! My boyfriend is great and I cant believe we created someone. He is very sensitive and likes to communicate which is great, but he can be the typical guy sometimes. He has a good heart and im so glad that i met such a wonderful person. The pregnancy wasnt planned but I knew by the way he treated me....that he would be a great father. Ppl keep throwing around the M-word (marriage) but I feel as tho Im not ready for two huge steps in life within such a short period of time. I love him and he would make a wonderful husband, but im not down for the whole shotgun wedding situation. Plus im still early in my pregnancy and anything could happen. What if something would happen and the main reason we got married was because of our child. Well, if the child is out the picture ...now we are stuck in a marriage that we werent prepared for nor really wanting at that point of time. Me (22 years old) and him (23 years old) are still growing cuz we are in are early twenties and I honestly had no desire to get married so young before the child....so I really havent been thinkin of that right now. When the time is right, it will happen!

April 2, 2008

I havent been up here in a while! Im goin to be 18 weeks tommorrow and everything has been goin well. Im sooooooooooooooo hungry ALLLLLLLLLLL the time! My boyfriend calls me Hungry Hippo lol. I have crazy cravings for stuff that I shouldnt be eating. Each week its somethin new. Last week it was corn dogs and now this week its fish sticks and french fries! My mom is the food police and gives me a daily 15 minute lecture about how I should avoid salt and sugar and then breaks down how much of it i should be eating. I understand she wants to make sure i get all of the nutrients for me and the baby...but at the same time....i just want pizza darn it!!! Fall back ma!!

So I had a doctors appointment on Monday and I was hoping everything was going okay with baby. My doctor is about an hours drive from my boyfriends house so we got up early and got there @ 9:30. I was a little nervous about it because I was hoping that everything was still fine. Im the typical worry wart (I get it from my mother) and I like to read alot of information online and I go from feeling like Im doing great to slowly getting more and more terrifed with each new article that I read. My mom always tells me "When I had you and your sister in the 80s....we didnt have all that information...we jus had babies. Sometimes its best to not read too much!!!" Maybe for once she is sorta right about something lol. Neways I was sooooo happy that my boyfriend came with me cuz he got to hear the baby's heartbeat for the first time. She couldnt find it for about 30 seconds which was the longest 30 seconds of my life but then I heard that familar sound *da-thump da-thump da-thump *KICK!!!* lol the baby had kicked the doppler. I guess it was little ones way of telling me "Mommy, im still here, now stop all that worrying!" So my boyfriend was sitting there cheesing like he won the mega millions lottery and a big wave of relief came to me that everything was okay (for now). I really wanted an ultrasound because I havent had one since 6 weeks!!! That was forever ago!! She told me that since im considered low risk, that I would only be getting one at 21 weeks and then the next one would be an optional 3-D ultrasound to see the baby at about 28-34 weeks. My boyfriend was dissapointed because he took off from work and we were hoping that we could get an ultrasound that day....but on the other hand...im glad that im low risk and as long as mi amor is okay.....im okay too. So then i went to the lab and got my blood drawn to get tested for any genetic issues. Now i have to wait til April 24th for my ultrasound. I know I will spend the rest of my life looking at my child, but I still want a little peek at him or her!!!! Speaking about the gender, i cant WAIT to find out what im having. All of the gender prediction sites say that im having a girl, but family and friends insist its a boy. Half of me wants a girl yet the other half wants a boy. Girls are soooooo cute when they are little. You can treat them like little princesses and play tea parties, dress up, and Barbies....BUT when they hit that age of about 13.....WATCH OUT!! LOL! Girls can be moody and bratty when they are teenagers because they discover boys and their friends and social drama become their whole world (lol trust me....i kno!) On the other hand, boys are also a handful. All of that energy!!! I was raised in a single parent household so I never had a father or brothers around me on a daily basis. So i have no clue what to do with a boy. But whether its a girl OR a boy, I will be super excited!

I love reading people's blogs on this site and I come across some very courageous women. Its sad that alot of these men out here walk out on a pregnant woman carrying their child. Im like DANNNGGGG! Some people got some crazy relationships!!!! My boyfriend isnt perfect, but i consider myself blessed to have someone like him in my life. He loves to communicate, he is sensitive, and he always tries to make me feel better after he pisses me off. He does have a World of Warcraft/Xbox 360/Japanese anime addiction tho which gets on my last nerves lol......but I rather him be at home being a nerd than out at some club or bar all night not answering his cell phone...coming home at 3am smelling like smoke, lies, and some hoochie skank's perfume. I could do a list of all of the things he does that I cant stand, but that list doesnt even come close to all of the things that he does right. I love that boy to death and realize how lucky I truly am. Sure we dont have all of the money in the world, we arent married, and we are still young, but that doesnt mean we cant love each other and this baby as much or more than anybody else! Neways I think I ate to much today cuz I feel like a overstuffed Thanksgiving turkey. Baby is enjoying it tho because it is kicking me right now. Greedy baby! lol

April 25th 2008

Yesterday me and B went to the doctors appointment to have the BIG ultrasound done. I was so anxious because I didnt have a clue what to expect and I was hoping that the baby was growing properly and was doing fine. So the ultrasound tech was running 30 min late (which didnt help my anxiety lol) but I played it cool and waited. We went to the room and she put the ultrasound wand on my tummy and I saw my lil one! I was jus soooo happy and fascinated that this little person was inside of me. The baby looked ready to hold so I was surprised it was only 15 oz...those ultrasounds make the baby seem bigger than what it is. She took some pictures of the brain, the spine, the kidneys, etc. She said everything looks good. The baby was lying against my uterus and was in akward position so she couldnt get a good face shot (she shook my tummy, but baby was like "NOPE! im not moving my position for yall's entertainment!!!" he was being stubborn like his father hahaha) but then she went to 4d and I saw its lil face. Everyone said "Awwww!!!" She then scanned to see what the sex was and guess what??? Its a little boy!!!

I said "Whattttttttt?!!?" lol. I was kinda hoping for a girl but i guess my lil man had other plans. I have concluded that when you are hoping for a certain sex, its almost guaranteed you will get the opposite of what you want. So as the ultrasound tech looked at his lil male parts she said "What a man, he is big...he musta got that from daddy!" lol. I started laughin. SO she gave us a whole bunch of pictures and im already in love with him. Now i have the fun task of picking out a name for him. The ultrasound made everything a little bit more real to me. The occasional jab and punch and lil squrims are his way of lettin me know "Hey, im in here" but just seeing a lil baby on the ultrasound screen just brings things into a visual reality. I cant wait for him to be here so I can give him lots of hugs and kisses. He will become a momma's boy lol!

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