15 weeks:

my morning sickness is gone now, but im still feeling extremely tired. lately i've been worried about giving birth again. im still scared outta my mind! last time i almost didnt get to the hospital in time. they gave me an epidoral but i was already ready to push and it didnt kickk in til she was half out. i dont know if i can go through that pain again. but then in 15 minutes i will be saying how i cant wait to give birth lol. i still dont know what the baby is yet but i feel it moving. well im hungry (again) so ttfn!

March 5

2moro will be 16 wks and yesterday i felt the baby kick instead of just flutter around for the 1st time. i also felt its little head in my hand. i put my hand on my stomach and its head brushed passed and pushed kinda hard. its kicks are pretty hard for 15 wks, it must be a strong baby. i didnt feel my daugh92 % chance of having a girl

ter kick until i was about 22 wks. i was told that it is because its my 2nd and because i started out as a size "00" i think i still am a "0" but i could be a "1" already. im still squeezing in my jeans and leaving them unbuttoned. my 1st pregnancy i only got up 2 a "3" by the time i gave birth and left the hospital a "00" but i dont think thats gonna be the case this time. i already look the size i was when i was 6 or 7 months! no one else seems to see that i am pregnant though. maybe they are just being nice, i clearly have a baby bump. i have been wearing shirts just to see if people can notice. oh well, th

ey will soon or else they will just notice a new baby in my arms lol. i guess i wont stress about size. i was only 2 months pregnant during the summer of my 1st pregnancy so i dont know how i will handle a summer being so huge and not being able to wear my summer wardrobe. i dont even know how im going to be able to hide my stomach. people give me so many dirty looks cause im 24 but look like im 17. i even had one lady hand me a bible after my daughter was born saying its a sin about all the teen pregnancy in the world. and i was 21! people now see my just about 3 yr old daughter and think im a disgrace, who knows what reactions i will get this time. its even worse cuz my fiance is 46 and he looks very young for his age, but he could also come off as a creep. we've gotten nasty comments b4. anyway guess thats it for now.

WEEK 19:

my little princess Haylie turned 3 on Easter. we went to the aquarium and she picked out a beautiful pink dress that she wore everywhere. she also picked out this awesome Disney Princess castle cake that is really built into a castle and had disney princess dolls all over it. it wasnt cheap lol. she loved it and she hasnt stop playing with the dolls that were on the cake ever since. her father forgot her birthday and still a week later he hasnt cared about it. but we are not gonna worry about that because she calls my fiance daddy and he treats her like she is his own flesh and blood. other than that my insurance is still all screwed up so i cant go to the doctor yet. i made an appointment but i dont know how im gonna pay for it unless they agree to send a bill. i did have blood tests and stuff like that done back in january though. still i would like an ultrasound. i really want to know if its a boy or girl and if there is one or two lol. my bff thinks its twins cause im so much bigger this time around. sometimes it does feel like twins. i feel like there are more than 1 set of arms and legs. the baby kicks alot and really hard! my daughter kicked really hard too but i didnt feel her 1st movements until 21 or 22 weeks. this one i felt at 11 weeks, of course it was just flutters then. my appetite seems to have increased over the past week. right now its a chocolate kick, mainly snickers. but 1 week it will be fruits and salads and another it will be candy and chocolate then another it will be goldfish and doritos with cream cheese. so if its true that what u crave determines whether its a boy or girl, than i must be having both lol.

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HAPPY 3RD BIRTHDAY HAYLIE, MY LITTLE PRINCESS! MARCH 23!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!