Febuary 5th, 2008

OK...if you do not believe in miracles PLEASE read this, and if you do then also please read this and rejoice with me.

First of all I want to say that God is sooooo good! He deserves ALL the praise and glory for this miracle. Let me start from the beginning...

Last Friday I was scheduled for my "big" ultrasound. We planned to go to that and then continue on the NC to visit our folks. We got there and it was the doctors day off and so we just saw the ultrasound tech. The ultrasound looked good, heartbeat 150, with the exception of one thing... his spine. Something just didn't look right. I'm not an ultrasound tech, so I really didn't know what I was looking at, but I knew that his spine just didn't look right. His head was super flexed to the point where he looked like his was almost in a reverse fetal position. I said something to the tech but she didn't seem concerned so I let it go. He was asleep and would NOT move! I even got up and walked around and drank a whole mountain dew thinking that would get him awake but nothing. So she said the way he was laying she couldn't see his face to check for cleft palate so she wanted me to come back Wednesday to finish the ultrasound. She assured me that everything else was good. So I left there feeling good about the whole thing. So we are almost a my parents house and I get a call from the nurse saying not to worry but the ultrasound tech had reason for concern and called the doctor in to view the results. She said that the doctor wants me to come in on Monday to speak with me in person and send me to a specialists for high risk pregnancies. I was flipping out crying and she was like please don't let this ruin your weekend this isn't life threatening.... and I'm like.... excuse me, I'm not supposed to worry when you call me at 7:30 in the evening on the day the doctor is off and tell me that there is reason for concern but I can't find out what it is for like 3 days? No way....... I'm worried!!! So needless to say, my weekend was a total nightmare. I didn't sleep almost at all and thought of every possible thing that could be wrong with my baby (or at least I thought so). We decided to watch the ultrasound video and there was less than a minute on there. I knew this was a very bad sign because she deleted almost everything. Another bad sign was that doctor wanted me to be her last patient of the day on Monday so she could spend as much time with me as needed. I was so tore up about this that my mom and dad and my husband's mom and sisters came out on Monday morning to be with us. I just had a gut feeling it was going to be very bad news but I had no idea how bad.

Monday morning on our way back across the mountains into Tennessee we got a call from the specialist that I would be seeing on Tuesday morning confirming our appointment. I then asked her exactly what would take place and she said a level 1 ultrasound and an appointment with a genetic counselor. Immediately my mind when to downs syndrome or some other type of genetic disorder. I then braced myself for what I thought was the worse and tried my best to remain calm. Let me just say at this point there were 5 LARGE churches praying, many many extended family members and sooooo many friends! I felt the love and grace of God in such a real way. We got at the doctors office and waited for over two hours to finally see her. It was such an awful feeling to see the place empty out and be called back. Words do not begin to describe the horror and despair that would be in the news we were about to hear. She said that the ultrasound picked up on a severe chromosome abnormality. She said that with this abnormality the results are ALWAYS fatal. She said there were four signs that pointed to this diagnosis. She said that first of all the ultrasound tech saw two cyst on the brain that by themselves are no big deal and always dissolve on their own by week 24. She said that those cyst paired with as many other fetal abnormalities almost always points to a much more severe problem. She said that he has a severely clubbed foot and that it really doesn't appear that there is even much of a foot on that leg. She said that the spine was super flexed and wouldn't move which was another sign. She said they weren't able to make out the fingers and that the hands were drawn to the chest. She said that these, along with the cysts, are almost a sure sign that our baby have trisonomy 13 or 18 and both are fatal. By heart was crushed into a million pieces. Until you have been given that news you have no idea the devastation. She said our two options were to terminate the pregnancy or continue to carry the baby and more than likely he would die on his own around the beginning of the third trimester. She said very rarely they live to full term but don't live more than 24 hours outside the womb. I told her there is no way I could terminate and that God would give me the grace to handle his death whenever he chooses to take him. I have the best doctor in the world. She was so understanding and compassionate and said she would stand behind me in whatever I decide. Our family came in and I let the doctor describe it to them because I knew there was no way that I would be able to. The docotr was with us for over an hour and a half! Has anyone ever heard of a doctor spending that much time with a patient? They wept and cried and prayed with us.
Looking back I marvel at how calm I was. Even this morning as I was fixing to go in for the ultrasound all I could think was that God is so good because I could sense His presence so real! I was weeping but no hysteric outbreaks or anything like that. So the rest of yesterday was a nightmare with lots of crying and praying. Everytime I would feel him kick and move around...which he did ALOT I would just burst out crying. I'm sure he sensed that I was very upset and was trying to comfort me.

So after yet another restless night I went in this morning at 8 to have my final test done and then they said they would recommend I have the amniocentesis done to finalize the results. We decided that we would not have it done today but once the ultrasound results were in, we would go home and come to a peace about what was right for us. I somehow just felt that God would make it clear one way or another. Many people were telling us that God was going to perform a miracle and I had total faith that He could but I knew it was ultimately up to Him to do what He sees fit. I felt that in my heart if I just 100% expected God to do this for us and He chose not to I would be angry with God and become bitter and I knew that I would so need Him here to go through this with us. My mom and hubby were able to go back with me for my ultrasound. My ultrasound tech was super and I asked here to not tell us that everything is ok if it's not but to just not answer our questions if she not allowed to talk. She said she wouldn't lie to us and that she would be able to tell us what she sees. She started with a vaginal ultrasound to check my cervix and said they looked very good. His feet were down there so asked her about the clubbing and she said that both feet are perfectly normal and appeared to not be clubbed! Of course at this point I am sooo not getting my hopes up but just soaking up the view of my baby alive for what could have been the last time. She then started with the other ultrasound on my stomach and immediately I looked for his spine because I knew that is what I picked up on on the last ultrasound. It looked absolutely normal and I asked here about the super flexing of the spine and she said that the spine checks out perfect. By the way, he was so active that she was having a hard time even getting any pictures! She then went to the brain and said that those cysts are still there but there has never been a case where those have not dissolved by week 24 with no other abnormalities. So she said those are as good as not there. She then said that his internal organs looked perfect. We were able to see his face and he had no cleft palate or anything abnormal there. She said all ten fingers and all ten toes are there and are not misshapen at all. He had his hands and arms all over the place and was a wild child! She then said the doctor would be in in a minute and go over everything with me so I'm still expecting the worst because of the way our other tech was. The doctor walks in and shakes our hand and says that our baby is perfect!!!!!!!!!! Absolutely no abnormalities and that he would definitly not recommend that we even see the genetic counselor about the amnio test because there was absolutely no need!!!!!!!! God did make it clear didn't he? It was like a total meltdown of emotions for me at that point! We went out in the waiting room and told the others. It was so incredible to see their faces when I said.... he is perfectly normal. Lets just say that waiting room was not small and was loaded with people and I'm sure we scared them. As much as we were crying and praying they probably weren't able to figure out whether the news was good or bad.... I soo didn't care what the rest of the room was thinking.... all I was thinking was that my baby is going to LIVE!!!!

It has been a happy celebration ever since and as we called everyone we were so amazed at how many people were praying for us. I feel so incredibly sorry for anyone that has to go through something like that that doesn't believe in God. He did so much more than I can even imagine. I thought and even the doctor said that if at the end of the day all we have is a baby with deformed legs and hands we can deal with that. All I was asking of God was to let my baby live and he not only answered my prayer but gave me a perfectly normal child! I can't stop smiling and praising God! Now if anyone is thinking that this was not a miracle, that I just have a crazy doctor that don't know what she is doing...let me say this, My doctor was a high risk specialist in Atlanta before she moved to Knoxville and she knew what to look for. She said that she has had 4 women that were diagnosed with this problem so I feel confident in what she saw was there and God simply healed my baby! She was so amazed at the results and the whole office was thanking God when I called! I'm so glad that this was something that no one could fix but God so that HE gets all the honor and glory instead of some doctor!!!! I just had to share this......please rejoice with me!!!!!! I posted new ultrasound pictures. Also he weighs 10 oz.!!! average is 9-13 oz. at this stage!!!

ary 24th,

2008

17 weeks 4 days! Well I think I can honestly say my morning sickness is really gone!! Thank goodness! My main complaint is that my sciatica nerve is pinched and is hurting really bad! The only relief I can get is when I'm in my tub in warm water. I was in tears last night and the night before. I seems to be worse in the evening. I'm sure it don't help that I sit at my job all day! I try to get up and walk around every once in awhile but it don't seem to help too much. I've started trying to do some exercises for it and hope that works. I went to my chiropractor the other day and it hurts a thousand times worse now then it did before so no more of him!

I go to the doctor again on Monday. Hope all is well. I think I won't be having my "big" ultrasound until next month though. At least I'll be able to hear the heartbeat etc. oooooohhhh and I've been feeling Brian moving around in there! It started around 14 1/2 weeks but I wasn't SURE that it was him until around a week later. He is pretty active now but his moves still aren't strong enough to be felt on the outside... or at least not to his daddy! Kind of a bummer cause everytime I put my hand or hubby's hand on my tummy he stops moving!!! :) I can tell they are getting stronger and stronger though so it should be soon. I can't wait to see Mel's face when he feels it for the first time. He is the best husband and daddy in the world! You should see the way he fusses and talks to the baby and waits on me hand and foot! I am going to be soooo spoiled by the time this is over!

We got some of the bedding in last week so we've been getting samples of paint from sherwin williams and haven't pinned it down yet. We are ordering the nursery furniture when we go to town on Monday and the cradle is on order! Now I need to order cradle bedding etc. I can't wait until the nursery is done! I really hope I can fix it up like I want it. I know in my head exactly how I want it but I'm not very good and making it work out!

January 2, 2008

IT"S A BOY!!!! BRIAN LEE WEAVER!!!!

14 weeks 3 days! I am starting to feel so much better as far as the morning, or in my case, evening sickness goes! I have a nasty cold and can't take too much for it so I've been trying to just rest and drink orange juice etc. It's starting to settle in my chest so not sure what I'll do if it gets worse?

Went to the doctor last Thursday and got a good report. She hasn't done any blood work yet but both times I've been I've had ultrasounds so I'm satisfied. The ultrasound tech started out with the typical ultrasound probe on my stomach. I then asked her about 3d pictures and finding out the sex. She said that since it is so early she won't say about the sex unless she actually really sees something. She decided to do a vaginal ultrasound then to get better 3d pictures. They were so amazing!!! He was so active bouncing around in there, swinging his arms and kicking his legs!! We got to see it in 3d then and his little nose and mouth and chin and ears and EVERYTHING was soooo developed!! I was so amazed! Then she went down to his bottom part and right away she said....oh yes, I can defently tell what this baby is!! I looked up and yep so could Mel and I! It was so obvious boy!!!! I'm so thrilled to really KNOW instead of just kinda wonder and still not be sure!

So we already picked out his nursery bedding and have it on order. Decided once it's here (4-6 weeks) we could start matching up some paint and order the furniture. I soooo can't wait!!! My hubby picked out the bedding. He said my taste was a little too delicate and almost femine cause I wanted really light colors. But I really don't mind and think this bedding is way cute too. The carpet is green so we had to have something to tie in with that. Here is a picture of the bedding set.

Tell me what you think????

Name?: Christy
Age?: 23
Height?: 5'6"

About The Father
Name?: Mel
Age?: 28
Height?: 5'9"
Are you still together?: Uh....yes!

About Your Pregnancy
Is this your first pregnancy?: Yes
When did you find out you were pregnant?: 4 Weeks exactly
Was it planned?: NO!!!
What was your first reaction?: I simply couldn't believe it!
Who was with you when you found out?: My dear hubby!
Who was the first person you told?: My mom
How did your parents react?: SOOOO EXCITED!!
How far along are you?: 20 Weeks now
What was your first symptom?: My face broke out so bad.
What is your due date?: June 29th, 2008
Do you know the sex of the baby?: YES
If so, what is it?: BOY
Have you picked out names?: yes
If so, what are they?: Brian Lee Weaver
How much weight have you gained?: At 20 Weeks I weigh 2 pounds less than pre-pregnancy weight
Do you have stretch marks?: from growing as a teenager but no new ones
Have you felt the baby move?: All the time now! Started feeling flutters around 15 weeks.
Have you heard the heartbeat?: YES!! 182 @ 9 weeks and 153 @13 weeks! 160 @18 weeks and 155 @ 19 weeks

About the birth
Will you keep the baby?: YES........
Home or hospital birth?: Hospital
Natural or medicated birth?: going in open minded for either one
Who will be in the delivery room with you?: my husband
Will you breastfeed?: hoping to
Do you think you'll need a c-section?: shouldn't, have HUGE hips!
Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time?: defently!
What's the first thing you might say to him/her?: I really don't know
Would you let someone videotape the birth?: probably not
Are you excited about the birth, or scared?: so excited, haven't gotten scared yet

December 4th, 2007

Hi there! I haven't updated in awhile but I have been sooo sick to my stomach and haven't felt like it......so I haven't! Well, 10 weeks 2 days now!!! I am beginning to feel so fat and not looking very right in my non maternity clothes. Anyone else having this problem? It was just in the last week I seemed to have kinda popped. I know it's not from over eating because I still weigh like 6 pounds less than I did when I first got pregnant so any belly I have now is results of the pregnancy. I feel like a goof wearing maternity though because I'm sure everyone is thinking...."boy, she's going to be huge" when they see me.... oh well, I guess I shouldn't care what others think but I do anyways.

Went to the doctor last week!!!!! It was the most amazing experience ever! I was a nervous wreck thinking that what if something is wrong? What if, here I am 9 weeks, and they tell me that I have a tubal or there is no heartbeat or something wacky like that? Anyways, the doctor had to do an emergancy c-section so they went ahead and did the ultrasound while I was waiting. It was transvaginal and in my mind I thought they would have a hard time finding it at first but nope... as the tool thing went towards my cervix it was like the baby came closer and closer!!! I was able to make it out right away as it was so clear!! I instantly melted into tears and my hubby was so fascinated! He kept asking if I was ok and chatting with the tech about the baby and all I coud do was cry and say...."THAT"S OUR BABY!"It measured 1.7 inches long and the heartbeat was 182! She said that was really good. You could actually see the heart pulsing! WOW! It measured 9 weeks 4 days instead of 9 weeks 2 days like I would be if I had a normal 28 day cycle. I figured it would measure a little farther along because I ovulated on cycle day 11 instead of 14. So anyways, my due date went form July 1st. to June 29th. Anything sooner is nice! Oh and I LOVE my doctor!! She is young, probably in her late 30's, has 2 kids of her own and you can tell she loves her job! :-)

November 23rd, 2007

8 Weeks 3 days now! Nausea has kicked in! no throwing up so it could be worse but I have like no appetite so I have lost like 8 pounds!!! I guess that's ok so long as I start gaining in the second trimester. At least what I get down stays down! We had a good thanksgiving with my in-laws. They came in from North Carolina like Monday evening and will be leaving Sunday afternoon. So my mother-in-law...bless her heart.... has cooked everything since she got here. Her son sure is happy cause he has been having to fend for himself for the last few weeks!! :) I just can't stand the sight of food! Makes me so sick! At least I can't smell..never have been able to.

Anyways, 6 more days til my first appointment! Can't wait to make sure everything is alright!

November 13th, 2007

7 Weeks today! Yeah! Been working hard for the last few days fall cleaning. My sister is here helping though so that helps but I just don't feel like doing a thing! So different than the old Christy! I used to would be running around like crazy getting everything done lickity split and now I just want to lay around. Makes me frustrated at myself! Oh well, guess my energy will come back when it's needed? Got to go eat.... so long!

November 11, 2007

Ok so 6 weeks 5 days today! Still feel pretty good. Have the normal headaches, backache, fatigue, and slight nausea except it just hits in the afternoon? Anyways, I have alot to be thankful for... first of all, I'M HAVING A BABY! Secondly, I could be alot more sick than I am so I'm thankful for that. Boy, am I bloated though? WHEW! Now I know what the first signs of pregnancy are for me, Extremely bloated and face completely broke out. That last one is a little hard for me because all growing up I never had a problem with bumps or acne, I sure don't feel like a glowing pregnant women! I started breaking out two week before I found out I was expecting so it must have hit instantly!

Anyways, my first apointment is Nov. 29th. I can't wait. I'll be 9weeks 2days then according to my lmp. I wonder if the baby will measure a little farther along though because I ovulated on cycle day 11 instead of 14 that month? It will be interesting to see.

Will update later...

October 24th, 2007

OMG!! I'm PREGNANT!!

I am actually pregnant!! How weird does that sound? I honestly can't believe it!

Anyway, how it happened...... well we had tried for 8 months and with no sucess. So we decided that we would stop trying through the winter because I really didn't want to be carrying through the summer. We thought we would even try to prevent it until at least Feb. or even March. Well one time (on the first month after stopping) we slipped up and what do you know? I really couldn't believe it because we had tried so hard and had charted and the whole nine yards and nothing. So when my period didn't come I was really woried because I thought maybe something was wrong because I am so regular. My husband and mom and sisters kept telling me that I have to be pregnant and I kept telling myself that I will start any day now. I was cramping and felt very pms so I wasn't even getting my hopes up.

Well, last night my husband finally convinced me to get a test at Walmart and just see. I got one of those digitals and a regular one. I told Mel that he had to do it, that I couldn't put myself through another disappointment of watching it turn negative. I sat there with my hands in my head sitting on the pot while my stomach was pretty much turning into ulcers in that one minute. He did the digital one first and in less than a minute he held it up with a "pregnant" reading with the biggest grin on his face!!!! I would give anything to have a picture of his face at that moment! I instantly melted into a pool of tears! :) I went ahead and did one those other tests with the two lines and as soon as the pee started creeping up the stick that first line turned VERY DARK!!! YEAH!!! We called everyone and now we just have to find a doctor.

I feel very good so far with just a very slight backache but no worse than before my period so it ain't bad at all. I'm sure the rest will kick in soon enough. For now I don't feel pregnant at all and just am still in shock that there is a living being inside of me!!! YIKES! My mom or non of my sisters ever had morning sickness so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it don't hit me!

Got to run.... Congratulations to me!!!!! :)

Oh, and my due date will be July 1st!!!!!!

August 23rd, 2007

Don't for sure not know what to think now! Last night I woke up a few times sooo hot and thristy! Weird escecially since we keep our air set on 68?? Now this morning my temp is way up so I guess we'll see. I'm so tempted to test but not sure if i will. BB's still hard and sore.... ouch!

August 22nd, 2007

Little update...I am at 7dpo! Had a temp dip on 5dpo and now it is up! Good sign I guess. Had it last month too so not getting all that excited about it. Only thing that is weird is that I had this "pinching" in my side on 5dpo that lasted for a few hours then went away? Now my bb's are super sore and very hard? They hurt like under my arm too? so... we'll see what happens! :) Fingers crossed! If this is our month I will be due on my Mom's birthday and one day before hubby's birthday! Our second ann. is next Monday the 27th so I sooo hope for a BFP that day! AF isn't due til the 30th so may be too soon to show up but I'll test then anyways. Wish me luck!

My chart as of today.... let me know what ya'll think!

August 15th, 2007

Anyways... thought I would post some pictures of my best friends baby, SOOO CUTE! Her name is Jenna Leigh..

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August 1, 2007

Another update...14dpo and still waiting. Sure feels like AF is on her way but it has since 6dpo so not sure what to think about that. This mornings temp not accurate cause I always temp at 6:00 am and this morning I had to get up to pee at 5:00 and couldn't really go back to sleep after that. Still temped at 6 but I should have at 5 before I got up I guess.

Supposed to start tomorrow so I figure I will wait until Friday morning and if she hasn't showed up by then, then I will test. Wish me all the luck you got! I want an April baby!

July 31, 2007

Little update.... 13dpo and waiting. Cramps very low in front and back since 6dpo. Implantation? BFN yesterday. Too early?

July 27, 2007

Hey there ladies! So...... my best friend had her baby Wednesday. Baby girl...Jenna Leigh Yoder weighing 7pounds 12oz. 20 inches long! She is a beautiful baby! I'm so happy for her!!!!! We've been friends since we were toddlers and we married cousins so now our kids will be cousins! :)

She went in to the hospital at 12 o'clock midnight and Jenna was born at 1:13 the next afternoon. Needless to say I didn't sleep a wink therefore I have no idea what my tempature would have been that morning! It had dropped the day before and I started having cramps in my lower back so I thought maybe AF was coming but now that's gone and my temp is back up! PTL! So I just have to wait til next Thursday before I test. (When AF is due) Does it look like an implantation dip to anyone? I know those aren't exactly reliable but am just curious??? I've never had a dip like this before in my lueteal phase so was just wondering what everyones opinions is about this??? Thanks......I'm praying very hard for this to be our month. I want a baby in the worst kind of way and really want one in the spring. If we don't get pregnant within the next few months we are going to take a break and wait for awhile. I just SOOO don't want to carry a baby through the summer! TTYL.....

What the heck is this drop about? I have never had it before.....opinions appreciated! Does it look like I'm fixing to get my period cause it normally drops before my preiod but never 6dpo.......????????????

Before & After

What do ya'll think? My sisters say they hate it!!!!! Says it makes my face look longer but I thought it did the opposite! Let me know! :)

July 8th, 2007

Hi there everyone! Not my luck again this month, but will keep trying. AF started yesterday so I'm trying very hard to keep my head up and be brave and face this next month! Hey, always a bright spot....... next possible due date.. April 11, 2008! We'll see.... good luck to everyone else out there that is hoping for that BFP. TTYL....

July 5th, 2007

12dpo and waiting....pretty sure this isn't our month again...depressed. Only sign I have is my breasts are fuller. That happens before AF though so no hope there. Ovulated later this month for some reason. Normally ovulate on day 11 and didn't ovulate until day 15. So instead of AF coming yesterday I have to wait until Sunday! GRRRR! I will live...... on the bright side.... Getting my hair cut off tonight. Can't wait! Will post some before and after shots tomorrow maybe! See ya'll!

June 29th, 2007

6dpo and waiting......

June11th, 2007

Well AF showed up like I sorta expected it to on Saturday. So I guess we will just try again ladies! Thanks for all the support and I will defently let ya'll know I get that BFP! At least I'm extremely regular....every 26days like clockwork! And I ovulate on the 11th day so we will just try again! Thanks and ttl!!!!

Well, My chart won't show up at all now so I guess I give up !

This is us four sisters this past weekend...... I'm second from the right.

June 5th, 2007

Well not much new. Ten dpo and waiting. AF due on Saturday. I am slap-dab determined to wait until Sunday to test. I just know what kind of disappointment it can be to test every day and still AF comes. The only signs I am having is my nipples are still soooooo sore!!! I'm talking like....don't you dare touch them ....sore! They stand out all the time and hurt but I wear thick padded bras so it's not that bad during the day it's just when they are touched. My breasts themselves don't hurt that bad just my nipples! And I also noticed this morning that there are a couple of spots on the areola that are slightly raised. Is this normal? Should it be like that so soon? Yikes! They just HURT!

Oh, by the way... Charleston was great! Had a good time but missed my hubby like mad! No place like home! :) Will keep ya'll updated. Oh....also, my mom and all three of my sisters think that I have to be pregnant because of how sore my nipples are. Whatever!

May 28th, 2007

Well, I started on the 15th so here we go again! I ovulated on the 26th so now I am 2dpo and waiting not so patiently...:( I guess that my bb's are just sore from now on out because they still hurt...maybe not as bad as they had been but still pretty bad. I know that is wierd but whatever! Wish me luck! They say third time is a charm??

I am flying out to Charleston this Thursday to vacation with my mom and my three sisters. This is the first time that I will have ever been away from my husband overnight since we were together almost 2 years ago. I am so serious depressed about it. We are best friends and do everything together and are closer than glue so I know I'm going to be a basket case! ( We even work at the same place!!! Him the manager and I the secretary...so we are literally together 24-7!!) I've already been crying about it but I know I should go so I don't spoil the party for my family....

Brian Lee Weaver for a boy and Courteney Brianne Weaver for a girl...

What do ya'll think?

May 14th, 2007

Today is day 25 of my cycle. I should start on day 28. BFN yesterday though. My bb's are still very sore though. Could be they are just getting back to normal after getting off birth control? I thought I was getting some cramping yesterday but I figured out it was due to some very recent constipation problems I've been having????

I found out an unrelated "Grandpa" of mine passed away yesterday so we will be heading out to NC to the funeral (that's also where I am from). That will hopefully keep my mind off of this whole pregnancy thing too. My whole in-law family (7 of them)is coming in for the weekend from NC for a wedding so that will be something to get ready for too!

Will let ya'll know what turns out! (I've still got my fingers crossed, hoping upon hope)

May 12th, 2007

Welp, this is sat. and I'm having a hard time keeping myself from taking a test. But I WILL wait until tomorrow morning! Still have the sore bb. When I woke up I thought they weren't hurting anymore but that soon came back. I also noticed they kinda half tingle too? Is that a sign? I know that I could easy be out of my mind already but when you want it so bad you just jump on any little sign. Weird too, I ask my husband last night to be totally honest with me and not just agree with me, did it seem like my breats were more full or something. (he knows them better than I do) He said no, they sorta feel tight. I had noticed it earlier but hadn't said anything for not wanting to sound stupid! Of all the crazy symptoms that I had last month they didn't hurt once and believe me I was looking for that sign? SO......

They only thing that sorta throws me off though is that I'm not having cramps but it is sorta like when your stomach gurggles except its down like it would be in my uterus. I usally get that before AF too. I know it sounds weird but I swear it feels just like an empty stomach churning except I know that it is was too low for that. So I will just have to wait and see. Thought I'd upload some photos of us.

On our Wedding Day, August 27th, 2005

May 11th, 2007

OK. My bb are oficially SORE! Hurting all day today. I don't even have to touch them and I can feel them hurting. Yikes! I know that this could be pms signs too so I'm not going to jump the gun and assume I'm pregnant but I haven't had this before AF in probably 2 years so it IS deferent! oh well. Well see next Thursday! I am 9dpo. Haven't had any spotting whatsoever so we'll see.

May 10th, 2007

Ok, Well the only thing that has sorta changed in the last day or so is that my nipples are VERY sensitive. I wouldn't call them sore just tender! ?? I get sorta confused how to calculate my dpo because I'm not sure if I count the day I ovulate and today or not. But I do know that I ovulated on Wednesday, May 2nd and that was day 12. And I know that I should start cycle day 27, which to the best of my ability to count :), should be the 17th. Right? That would make me 8dpo and on day 21? Right? I get so confused??Oh well.

Sunday should be day 24 on my cycle. I think I'll go ahead and take a test. Just think about how wonerful a Mother's day gift that would be! I wonder how many pg tests are bought this weekend? Ha... I bet alot! Got to run.....

April 17th, 2007

I don't know whether I am pregnant yet are not. My husband and I have been married for a year and half and have decided it's time to give it a try. I have been off the pill since December and have been charting my bbt and cm since then. This last month we decided to try and now I'm going through the process of letting patience have her perfect work! The days seem to crawl by but I will be able to test the first of next week. I'm trying so hard not to be too hopeful because I know that the chances of conceiving the first time is odd but yet I can't help but feel antsy. :)