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HEY EVERYONE, JUST WANTED TO SAY A FEW WORDS... WELL, I'M REALLY EXCITED ABOUT THE FACT OF BEING PREGNANT. IT'S WHAT I'VE ALWAYS WANTED AND TO TOP IT OFF I COULDN'T HAVE ASKED FOR A BETTER PARTNER. I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW, I AM EXPECTING AND IT'S JUST A WONDERFUL FEELING. I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL MY LITTLE ONE IS HERE. I AM 28 AND MY MAN IS 20 AND THIS IS BOTH OUR FIRST CHILD AND IT'S SCARY YET INTRIGUING. CONGRATS TO ALL THE LADIES WHO ARE EXPECTING AND WHO HAVE ALREADY GIVEN BIRTH!!

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First Doctors Appointment: Today may 15th was my 1st appt and it was a little nerve racking and exciting. I didnt know what quite to expect but I was so thrilled with seeing my little one. It seemed so strong and healthy with its heart beating 161 beats.... Also, my due date was changed by a week.. now Im due more like Xmas Eve.. A Xmas baby is definitely ok with me....

June 2, 2008

I've been feeling fine. Still no m/s...Yay for me! My bb are starting to not be as sore but now i'm starting to get more frequent headaches. I'm not sure why.. other than that I feel just great. I'm not showing yet and that's why I have no belly pics yet. Right now I'm still just looking like a big girl. I'm anxious to start showing even though I have seen and heard my baby's heartbeat I just have a feeling that there is nothing like seeing that beautiful baby bump. I'm almost done with my first trimester which I am very happy about. So i'm guessing around week 19-20 I should start showing- at least I hope. Oh well, my bf and I just told his mom about the pregnancy.. that was difficult only because he is young 20.. So he was nervous but I thought did a good job. She is needless to say disappointed but I still feel she will stand behind us. My mom on the other hand was really nonchalant and like whatever when we told her but she managed to say, "Are you going to leave her now?" She is a trip! The thing is I can't worry if she does'nt approve or not. I'm Grown! Anyways, My official 2nd dr's appt is on June 12th I will be 3 months then.

June 8th 2008,

Well, this has been a rocky weekend as far as emotions for me. Without getting into details my b/f is really uncertain if he will be able to handle a baby. We have worked it out but was it scary to think he just might not be here for us. Other than that boy have my feet swollen! It's crazy because I mean I have been wearing flip flops lately and thats because they just feel so good on my feet but I surely didnt notice my feet being any bigger. My cousin pointed it out to me and I was like wow.. Now I just stare at how puffy they look. Im not sure if this is the right symptom to be happening now, I mean its so early for this right? Besides all this im feeling just fine and per my b/f he does say that I look bigger.. YAY!!

2nd Doctor's appointment: Today June 12th was my second doctors appointment. It was fantastic! The baby is doing so well. His/her little heartbeat at 167bpm. He/she looked so good and is all developed. All that has to happen now is he/she needs to grow, grow, grow! I'm such a proud mommy already. I hope all of you are having as great of a moment as I am.

June 18th 2008

I've been doing quite well. Still no m/s! I feel very lucky but I am a little nervous about what's going to happen in the future- I mean to have it this easy i must am going to get it soon. but i'm staying positive. Still waiting to show, my boyfriend keeps saying i'm looking bigger i just think i'm filling out. My next doctors appointment isn't until July 14th.. such a long ways to go. I'm happy to be 13wks and almost out of the "dreaded" 1st trimester. At this moment I am trying to get medical and daycare in order.. so if anyone can tell me if you found childcare for cheap please share.

June 25th 2008,

Yay 2nd trimester!!! I am so thrilled to be in the second trimester. I'm another step closer to being a first time mommy and I am so excited. So initially my dream was to, if I had a choice of course, to have a boy- but now i'm feeling like it doesnt even matter.. Yes my mind still wants a boy but my heart wants a healthy baby. Besides, it would be cute to have a little me walking around here...lol. My man wants a boy, obvious but I really think he also would be fine either way. I know if we have a little girl she would be "daddy's little princess" That's such a cute look. My next appointment is July 14th such a long ways away however I will be just about 17 weeks at that time.. maybe I will be able to get to find out the sex of the baby.. wouldnt that be just great!

June 30th 2008,

So these last couple of days I have been able to feel the baby's heartbeat (and without a doppler) just by feeling and listening really hard. It was wonderful! Dale got a chance to feel it today too. He was like, but wait maybe this could be your heartbeat, so I found my heartbeat in my wrist and it was a completely different rhythm. I am so excited, but then I called my doctor's office to ask if they thought I would be able to check at my next appointment on the 14th if the baby is a boy or girl and I was told no more like 20-22weeks. But you know I still will ask my doctor when I get there, I mean so many of you were able to find out in your 14th weeks I'm sure by 17 weeks they should see something right?

July 2nd 2008,

So I am so angry right now but because I am basically a single parent (i'm not married) I had to get myself a medical card to help pay for my doctors visits. So I faxed it over to them and I get a call back from the billing department telling me that they do not accept the medical card.. WHAT??? She said didnt you get the orientation about our billing process, I was like no, she said well we can put you on a payment plan. I was like are you kidding me, so I will have to pay out of pocket for the appointments I've already been to- she was like yea.. You know it would have been so nice for them to have let me know if they accepted it or not I even asked my doctor for a letter so that I can help process my file and she gave it to me. I'm just so mad! Now I have to find a different doctor hopefully I can find one within the same hospital system. Wish me luck!!!!

July 6th 2008,

I decided to go to an entirely different hospital and the good thing about this is that well, of course they accept the medical card but I get an opportunity to work with a midwife. Ever since I saw a video done by Ricki Lake I wanted to see what it was about and I know a lot of you ladies are hooked up with one yourselves. My first appointment is Wednesday July 9th and I cant wait to see what the process is.

3rd Doctors Appointment: Today July 9th was my third doctors visit but 1st to my new doctor who just so happens to be a midwife. I am so glad that I have switched hospitals and will now have this opportunity to experience a midwife. It was fine today except they had to do some of the same tests they did first trimester again so that they could have it for their own records. My mom went with me. I also weighed myself and surpringsly I only gain 1.5lbs..lol that was a surprise to me and Dale. Anyway, I didnt do an ultrasound but did get to hear the heartbeat on the doppler - although at first it seemed as if she couldnt find it and I was getting so worried and nervous then she found it beating fast and strong. So far so good!

July 14th 2008, Well today is the start to my 2week vacation from work and is it well deserved. I really dont have too many things planned. Mostly just to relax and catch up on some things that concern medical bills and finances for my baby. I do have a small trip planned down state to visit my brother and his family with Dale at the end of this week. I'm looking forward to it. My next scheduled appointment isnt unitl the 24th and I am so anxious I'm hoping this will be the "big" u/s to tell us if its a boy or girl in there. I'm so excited. Other than that I plan on spending time at the lake and getting lots of sun.

July 21st 2008, Ok, so my boobs aren't sore anymore so I guess thats a good thing my feet are still swollen, so I guess thats a good thing cuz i'm just a little nervous about how my baby is doing. I mean I am definitely not showing I do not look pregnant at all and I havent felt the baby move yet. I'm trying to stay positive but it's hard. I just want everything to be ok. My next appointment is on thursday I will get an ultrasound then which I hope will be reassuring. I just want my baby so bad and I want things to be ok. My brother who is sick with lymphoma cancer is so looking forward to this baby and I just want it to go well for him too. I love him so much and he is so happy for me that I just want this baby to be perfect. I'm really scared!!!

4th Doctors Appointment: Today July 24th was my fourth apptointment and everything went great! The baby was right on schedule well 1 week ahead... so now Im 19 weeks.... Also I found out that we are having a BOY!!!!! It was wonderful the nurse was very sure and we have the picture to prove it. Dale is so happy. Its wonderful!

July 27th 2008, Ok maybe I spoke a little too soon about my boobs not being sore anymore because although they havent gotten that typical outside in the cold nipple soreness but they feel heavier and tender all over now. I cant say Im glad its back but I am not so disappointed either. Im still Not showing which is depressing me... I thought that by now something. Ive been off work for three weeks now on vacation and I thought when I went back to work BAM but no... other than that things are great... Dale is being his typical self... he's there for me and I do appreciate it. I am almost 20 weeks halfway there and I just cant believe it. Im thinking about how I want to push this little one out- natural or medicated?

August 11th 2008, This has been a really rough couple of weeks. As some of you know already my older brother has lymphoma cancer and is currently in hospice at his home- spending the last days of his wonderful life with family. I am an emotional wreck as you can imagine. I am trying to keep myself together for the sake of my baby boy but those who have gone through this know how hard that is to do. My brother is a loving and caring man, friend, son and father- he is only 31yrs old. It is really sad. I have conflicted feelings because I am pregnant and I want to feel the happiness of being but then when I am happy I have a guilty feeling because my brother is going through this. I saw him yesterday with the family and I asked him if it was ok with him to have my baby shower next month... the reason I asked is because I dont know if he will even be around or if he is he more than likely cant make it there. He told me if I want the shower I should have it no matter what. I needed to hear that from him.. It made me feel a little better about planning such a happy event. I hope that he is around. Besides this, I have been having dull aches and pains in my lower abdomen but according to the books Ive been reading and the doctor its just stretching of muscles and ligaments which are normal. I also have another ultra sound today to check out the heart. Hopefully he will be ok and healthy. I cant wait to see him in there. I can defintely tell that he has moved up in my abdomen but still havent had any more kicks yet, just the one about 3weeks ago. Hopefully Ill start feeling more very soon.

August 16th 2008, Well the unthinkable has happend...My brother has passed away. He was fighting lymphoma cancer for the past year and it won. He passed away yesterday and my whole family is in agony. I am so devasted and dont really know how to think right now. Calvin was a wonderful son, brother, friend, father and husband and now the world has to live without him. I am trying to stay strong for my mother whom is torn apart right now as you can only imagine. But how do you stay strong for someone else who will stay strong for you? Nindale is being very supportive. He met my brother several times and they really hit it off. He is very sad as well but I think mostly sad for me. How do I go on? How do I hold it together? My heart is with my mother, Calvin's wife and kids.. How do they manage? There are no words to say.

August 22nd 2008, Well today is the day of my brother's funeral and I am so scared to go. I know it's like a last goodbye but if I see him laying there in a casket I dont know what i'll do. I know that I have to be strong for my family especially my mom. I am so grateful of all the support im getting from my friends who have sent me words of encouragement and who will be present at the funeral. I know people say all the time, "they are in a better place" but to my understanding aint no better place then being with your family and friends who love you. I dont think that I will ever understand this but I know I have to accept what has happened. Over time I know it will get easier and easier but right now it just hurts so bad... On the happier side, you see this is where my dilema is... I have felt continuous movements from my baby and even kicks from the outside. His dad got to feel too. Its so exciting know that my baby is getting so big and is so healthy. I just cant wait to meet my little tooka pooda!!!

5th Doctor's Appointment: Monday August 25th was my 5th appointment and it was kind of rushed. First of all there was only 1 midwife on call and more patients than she could handle. So I had to wait for almost an hour past my appointment time to get seen then when I did it was rushed I wanted her to check me out more thoroughly but that didnt happen. I did however hear Terrin's heartbeat. I knew he was ok this appt..lol from all the movement he has been doing. The midwife recommended that I speak to one of the crisis operators because she feels as if Im too emotional. Other than that it was a routine check.

September 1st 2008, Well it's been over a week since my brother's burial and it has been hard and emotional. I find myself thinking about him all the time. Just remembering moments. I have been calling the kids and making sure they are doing ok and his wife- they seem to be making it. Dale and I have decided to add my brother's name in the middle of Terrin's name as a tribute. It's a surprise so I am going to include his name on the baby shower invitation so that people can find out that way. It's been hard preparing for this shower becase to my recollection I thought a friend or family member is suppose to plan it.. but I find myself doing all the work. It's very stressful. But Dale is helping out alot.

September 14th 2008, So I have been making great strides on planning my baby shower. Well, my team of people of course I oversee everything.. But I think it is going to be very fun. Just a couple weeks left.. On another note Dale's Big Birthday is coming up.. He's turning 21!!! He is really excited. We're supposed to be going to Las Vegas...To celebrate big.. On to the baby, he is kicking me everyday! I mean yesterday he was kicking so low... the last time I went for an ultrasound- last month I was told he was breeched and I still think he is because I never feel any movement above my belly button. We will see when I go back for another ultrasound on the 22nd. I have been doing more stretches to prepare but eerily Im not nervous about the actual labor.. I think its because I really dont know what to expect. I like to live oblivious. lol

Sixth Doctors Appointment:Monday September 22nd was my 6th doctors appt and I saw yet another midwife so far that's four different ones. Im wondering if I am going to just have one assigned to me. Anyways it went well, had to take another glucose test and a lab. Then I went to have an ultrsound done and my baby was all over the place. The technician said that he is growing like he should and weighs 2lbs 12oz. Im so excited and just can't wait. Only a little over 2months left.. I can't wait to see my baby boy.

October 5th 2008, So I'm super excited!!! Today is my babyshower and I can't wait for it to get started. I'm expecting about 40-50 people and I feel so loved that everyone wants to come out and share this special day with Dale and I. I'll post pics when I can. Terrin is doing great. He's moving, some days not so much but others like clockwork. I can't believe that I am already 7 months. In just a few short weeks I will be an official mommy. It makes me tear up. Well i'm going to go I have some last minute packing up before Dale picks me up.

October 9th 2008, I had such a wonderful time at my babyshower. Most of the people showed up so it was like 40 people there, I was looking cute and Dale was looking fly...lol We received so many wonderful and much needed gifts. But the best gift we received was from my sister in law, she gave us my beloved brother's car. We needed a car so bad and she had it fixed with new tires and all. Also at the baby shower there was a diaper bag of things of which my brother wanted us to have, it was very sentimental. The food, decor and the games.. wow my aunt really thought of some very fun games that got everybody involved. It was a very good day.. my mom in law showed up, my brother in law and so did Eric, Terrin's Godfather. So after that shower my job threw me a shower too! I mean it was for me and my boss she us 35 weeks.. so it was a double. I received so many great things from them too. My front room is literally like a Babies r Us..lol

Seventh Doctors Appointment:Tuesday October 7th was my seventh doctors appointment and it was kind of straight to the point. Nothing new, just a check up and that's it. The only thing she told me was that at 37 weeks she will start checking me to see if I am starting to dialate. Right now I'm cool but when that day comes and she says that I have dialated I think that's when the fear will sink in.. It's like there is no turning back.. I have to do this...

Eight Doctors Appointment: Tuesday October 21st was my 8th doctors appointment and it went ok. I was told that i'm measuring just right. My ultrasound taken the day before was great. Since my last u/s in Sept. he gained 2lbs. He now weighs 4lbs 14oz. He has the chubbiest cheeks and roundest chubby stomach. Time is ticking by.

October 24th 2008, Well Monday the 20th was Dale's 21st birthday!!! Whoo Hoo!!! Finally legal.. It was an interesting day to say the least however he got a chance to go with me to my u/s appointment which he hasn't been to since my very first which was at eight weeks so he saw how different Terrin was from then and now.. It was nice to have him there. Today we set up the baby's area in our room. It just feels so real now since we did that. It's like you get this fuzzy feeling inside because you know this great gift is coming and it is a matter of time before your world is changed forever. I'm excited. These last couple days I've been feeling a lot of pressure in my lower abdominal area. I felt like I had to go to the bathroom but I didn't it is frustrating. But I spoke with the midwife and a couple of friends whose had kids already and they tell me it's normal and not to worry. So I'm not.

Ninth Doctors Appointment:Today Monday November 3rd was my 9th doctors appt and it went smooth as usual. Nothing new nothing wrong... everything good. Heartbeat strong. Pretty regular. After the doctor I went to the place where I would love for Terrin to go to daycare.. It seems like a great place. I cant believe next month I will be holding my baby boy in my arms.

Wednesday November 19th, So i'm almost there people!! I just can't believe I only have 27 more days before my due date. I really hope Terrin decides to come on time. I really want to show him off for Christmas. I've been feeling pretty good. My back aches toward the bottom and it's hard to get out of bed sometimes but nothing more strenuous. I've actually had a very smooth pregnancy. I'm hoping the delivery will be just as smooth. I think however that I will not be working with a midwife for the birth, I just am not comfortable with them because they are not very personable and I feel like a number when i go to them so I think I'm going to just ask for an epidural and just work with a doctor for delivery. It's a shame too. But anyways, I posted some pics of my belly and that was hard to do but I think they came out pretty cute. So check them out and let ne know what you think. i hoe everyone who is close is not having too much trouble.. oh yea and I haven't gained any weight. It's crazy I'm even below my starting weight but the baby is doing just fine.

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Pregnancy Survey
Is this your first pregnancy?:	Yes
If not, how long ago was your last?:	n/a
Are you excited?:	Very
When are you due?:	Dec 2008
Boy,girl, or surprise?:	????
Any names?:	Yes.. but a secret for now
Daddy's name?:	Nindale
Your Name?:	Shounda
Daddy's Age?:	20
Your Age?:	28
Will the baby have any siblings? How many?:	No
Have you bought any baby things yet?:	No.. but I did get a present already
What brand of diapers will you use?:	Huggies
Formula or Breastfeeding?:	breastfeeding
Any days where you wish you weren't pregnant?:	No
Are you doing anything that makes you feel quilty?:	Quilty?????
Have you had any alcoholic drink during your pregnancy? If yes, how much?:	NO
Is there any one to help you with the baby after its born?:	Yes my baby's father
What is the one thing you miss doing since you've gotten pregnant?:	Smoking
What is the first thing you'll do after the baby is born?:	Idk...
Is the Daddy taking Paternity leave?:	No
What's the one thing you hate about being pregnant?:	The skin issues
Do you regret getting pregnant?:	NO
Are you going to have any more kids after this? If yes, how many?:	Yes.. hopefully 2
Are you and the baby's daddy married?:	No
If not, do you plan on getting married?:	Yes..but not because of the baby
Do you have medical insurance?:	Yes
Are you getting the epidural?:	I think so
Have you had any Braxton Hicks yet?:	No
Are you ready for the baby to come out?:	No
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