2-16-2008

Nate is 11 weeks and he is weighing in at 11lbs. He is such a good baby I love him so much. My life has changed so much since he was born. I have found a new love for my life. I started back to work 2 days a week and I miss my little guy so much but I need adult time to.

PREGNANCY BLOG BELOW

Well lets try this again. I have been married for 7 years. I have a 5 year old daughter named Satyne Julianna and I am expecting a son in December. My daughter was born 2 months early due to premature rupure of my membranes (Water Broke) at my baby shower. This pregnancy started out so different no morning sickness, no pain everybody said I was glowing. At 20 weeks I started having complications and it has started to feel like my first pregnancy. My doctor put me on progesterone injections to ward off pre term labor but they have made me a lunatic and I have gained 35 pounds so far from the fluid retention. I have SPD so bad I can't walk or sleep and to make matters worse I went for a NST yesterday and failed so now I have to go every 2 days to the hospital to repeat it. I am trying to stay strong and I am counting every day that goes by. Dr says he is 2.5 pounds at 28 weeks so if I can just hold out a few more weeks. I think I am going to have my tubes tied after this one I will have the perfect family at girl and a boy. I can't take anymore highrisk pregnancies. I can't wait for little Damon Nathaniel to be born so I can hold him safely in my arms.

10-07-2007

Went for my repeat NST today and I actually passed in 20 min with a little help from Dunkin Dounuts coffee. I woke that lazy peanut up. I am so relieved. I was so happy that my creative juices started flowing and I bought more stuff for Damon's room.

10-13-2007

I had my 4D US yesterday and baby Damon was not very cooperative but I did mamage to get some good profile pics. I went all by myself like usual my husband was to busy with work to come with me. I am getting pretty used to being alone I think I might just have my c-section by myself too. I am very frustrated with my husbands lack of intrest in me or the new baby. The nursery still isn't done and he has no intentions of helping with it. Thank god my sister in-law is trying to help me as much as she can. I feel like pulling my hair out.

10-14-2007

Somehow things always tend to go from bad to worse when it comes to me . This was a horrible weekend for hubby and I. He worked on nursery today and yellled at me the whole time. He humiliated me infront of his family. I felt bad for his mom must be awful knowing you have a son that is so mean to his wife. I have decided to cancel Pregnancy Photo shoot that I have next week. I really don't see the point. After all he did tell me today that I repulse him by being pregnant. I wouldn't want him to get sick by having to pose with me for the pictures. I feel so numb with disbelief that this is happening again.

10-17-2007

Went to the Dr. today and I told her about how much anxiety I am having it is keeping me up at night. She told me to hang in there and to get support from everyone around me. Easily said than done. I have decided to go ahead and have my pics done alone. I have always wanted to do them so screw it I will do them by myself. Baby sounded good and she said to take it easy. REST REST REST!!!!

11-02-2007

I went to the Dr. today and got bad news, they gave me 3 weeks at the most because of my history of premature labor. They said I am under to much stress and I need to do nothing but relax but that is just not possible in my world. I haven't slept in weeks. I am so sad because I truly wanted to have a full term baby that I could actually take home from the hospital with me. I tried so hard with this one but I just can't escape all the stress in my life. I will keep you posted.

11-10-2007

Had my baby shower today and it was wonderful. I'm glad to know that even if my hubby doesn't care I have a huge support system and so many people that love me. Everyone showed up and there was about 30 people .I got so many gifts that I am actually overwhelmed. My Dad and step mom hosted the shower and gave me a layette for 0-3, 3-6 , 6-9, 12 month I will not have to buy clothes for a whole year. There was probably 25 outfits per bag. I am so lucky. On a sadder not my hubby and I are going to separate after the baby is born. He no longer wants to try to make things work. So I am very sad and I am not handling it very well. I think I am scared more than anything. I never wanted my kids to grow up in a single parent home. I just don't understand.

Friday, 16 Nov

Wednesday, 21 Nov

Monday, 26 Nov

Monday, 31 Dec