hLoving My Life

I'm 29 and I have Sickle Cell Anemia. I'm pregnant w/ my 2nd baby,what a suprise. I wished for my first, this one snuck up on me. I'm a stepmom also. Just need someome who understands. I was raised a Military Brat and the last place I lived was Hawaii. I met my husband when I moved here, to Milwaukee. We've been together for almost 10yrs and married for 5, almost 6. I believe I'm pretty lucky to have someone who loves me w/all my medical issues. I grew up being told I would never have kids, I'm too little and too sick.

I tried for 5yrs before I actually got pregnant w/my baby girl Destinee and on birth controle for almost 3yrs when this pregnancy came up. So imagine the shock and then my grandmother is who actually told me I was pregnant.I found out Feb. 19th but my grandma called me @ the end of Jan. and told me the Lord showed me to her in a white maternity shirt. My birthday is Feb 20th. What a B-day present! I would never dreamed, I didn't think I would ever have one, now I have two. How cool is that!

July 23,2008

So I know it's been a while ladies but it started to get a little hard. I ended up in the hospital twice in less than ten days but everything is alright.

It was a little scary because when I was pregnant with my lil girl I didn't get real sick untill my fifth month and I thought it was happening all over again but everything turned out alright. I have an ulcer and it's very painfull @ times but I've had to change my diet and so on. I just can't seem to figure out why I won't gain weight, I've only gained about 8lbs in 6mnths. Thats nothing, I'm only starting to look pregnant and realy feel it.

I feel off balance all the time, I can't stop crying and I'm alllllways hungry :) I eat any and everything and sometimes I eat so much to the point I just feel like I'm being greedy, I can't help it. If it smells good, I want it...If it looks good,I want it....I think I'm developing a food addiction and I think I like it, I mean if thats possible to do while ur pregnant :>) Other than that, everything is going good, the baby moves so much that it drives me crazy sometimes. Once, I felt like she was going to kick me out the bed and it was a rib shot, those are painfull.

Well ladies I think thats about all I have to report for now and I hope all is well for all of you. If anything eles comes up, I will surely let you know. Stay healthy ladies and take care of those bundles!!!

June 18,2008

So I went for my U/S today and guess what, the baby is measuring just fine and looking @ the monetor and watching the baby move and kick and to see and feel whats going on in the inside was just so cool. I don't see the Dr. untill tomorrow so I'm excited about that too though. Not much to talk about...oh yeah.......IT'S A GIRL!!! I'm so very excited. I wanted a lil boy so bad because I don't want anymore kids and I realy wanted my DH to have that but hey, she'll be loved regaurdless, he's not that type of person. Me personaly, I just wanted him to have a boy, didn't realy matter to me. Her name is Alexandrea Victoria,this is Royalty baby!!!!!

April 15,2008

Well I've been feeling like a big cry baby,all I do is cry. I knew it was bad when I was watching Jerry Springer, It was a realy good fight and then all of a sudden, I just could not stop crying,I felt so stupit. That was a few weeks ago. It's only gotten worse. This pregnancy is nothing like the one w/my little girl. No morning sickness and I definently wasn't an emotional wreck. Now I'm all over the place w/my emotions and 1/2 my family members (husband included) don't even want to deal w/me. I'm "evil". It's not my fault, I can't controle me, my body has officialy turned against me.