Well, I'm 20 years old, This is my 4th Pregnancy; However, the other 3 I had miscarriages. This is the 3rd pregnancy since I got married, Almost a year ago (April 24, 2006) Which is sad! But so far this time is different. I had my first doctors visit on March 23, they did an ultrasound, and the baby measured exactly what it should and we heard the baby's heartbeat. Which is a first for me, out of four, this was the first I got to hear a heartbeat! My husband and I are both very excited, and anxious all at the same time, but we're praying and keeping our faith in God that everything will continue to work out this time!

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I GUESS THEY WERE RIGHT FOR ME!!!

You have a 19% chance of having a boy.
And you have a 80% chance of having a girl.

100 % chance of having a girl!

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Update - April 13, 2007 - Here's a more recent update. I went to the doctor today because I thought I might be spotting... so they did an ultrasound and didn't see anything, so they did the transvaginal, and there it was, with its cute beating heart, just a jumping around, which amazed me, being a little over 10 weeks!! It melted my heart! I Love that baby so much!!

This one was WRONG!!

3/31/07

This one was RIGHT!!!!

4/8/07

Update: 4/23/2007 - I went for my check up today! My doctor couldn't find the heart beat on the doppler, so I paniced... And he did an u/s and there it was jumping around again. Alot! It was so precious! She had a hard time catching the heart rate because it was moving so much, but she finally caught it... it was at 171 bpm. I was so happy! I can't wait til next month when I can see it again! Hopefully, I'll know what I'm having by then! Here's the picture from today!

April 27 - Well, I am 12 weeks and 2 days today! Yay! First time for me! I am so glad to have gotten this far! I think about this little one non-stop all day! It means sooo much to me! I can't wait til my next Appointment! May 21st! I'm counting down the days, hopefully we can find out the gender that day, its not impossible! I honestly don't care what it is, I just want it to be healthy!!

May 4, 2007 - Well, I am 13 weeks and 2 days! yay! haha, I'm so happy! I've been driving myself crazy cuz it seems like forever since I saw my sweet little Jayden, and since I heard his/her heart beat! I just want to know everything is okay! I wish there was a way to just check on him/her!! To make sure its still active and kicking... soon enough, Hopefully soon, I can just feel it for myself... I bought one of those bebe sounds fetal heart monitor things from Walmart, but it says you can't use it til your 3rd trimester, which really stinks... I've really got to put my Faith in God! 1 Samuel 1:27, clearly states faith!! And it is my favorite verse!! That's where my name Jayden came from... Jehovah has heard!! yeah so anyways!! Still counting down the days til the 21st!!! 17 days!!

May 5, 2007 - Today has been not so great. I've laid in bed most of the day, I slept really late, and I have fought going back to sleep all evening. I've had a really bad headache, my sinuses are still a mess, or it might be my allergies, we just moved into a house early this week, and my husband has been pulling up the carpets and I think its bothering my allergies! Whatever it is, it sucks! It's the weekend and it doesn't really feel like it. I guess because I haven't done all that much. My husband has been griping at me about not helping him around the house and not helping unpack, but I just haven't felt good. I understand that he works 12 hour shifts a few times a week, and the last thing he feels like doing is work here, but after 3 losses, I'm trying to take it easy. I don't want to do too much and end up losing this baby! Guys just don't understand. I wish I knew how to make himm understand!! oh well... 16 days til my appointment!! Oh yeah, I thought the only way you could measure the baby's growth was by u/s, but from what I've read, there are other ways, so I may not get to see my sweet baby on the 21st like I thought... ='( that makes me sad!

May 8, 2007 - Well I have been fighting with insomnia for about a week now! And it is winning! It's driving me crazy. It sucks really bad. And I get griped at for sleeping all day and being lazy!! how messed up is that?! Oh well!! I guess it might get better with time.

May 8, 2007 - I went to the doctor today because I was hurting a little, and my doctor found the heart beat on doppler, yay, I love hearing it! and he said my cervix was nice and firm and my uterus was filling my pelvic area, so everything is fine, but I have to go back in the morning to give them a urine sample because I couldn't go today, and I hated keeping them so late, it was already after 5:30! But they said they need to check for an infection!! So yeah, that's my update! I guess I'll find out more after they do my urine test.

May 9, 2007 - 14 WEEKS TODAY!!! Yay! I'm soooo excited! I don't look pregnant yet! But I do definitely feel it. Everyone tells me I don't look it.. :( And that makes me sad! I've gained 2 lbs as of yesterday when I went back to the doctor, my weight was the same 3 weeks ago at my last visit. Oh well. Anyways, I didn't make it to the DR to give them a sample today, I'll have to go do it tomorrow before I go out of town!

May 16, 2007 - Well, I haven't updated in a few days, probably because nothing has happened. Umm, I never made it back to the doctor to give a them sample. I'll just give them one when I go to my appointment next Monday. I still haven't gained any weight, oh yeah, 15 Weeks Today!! Yay! I'm so excited! I can't wait til my appointment, to hear the heart beat, I'll probably have to wait til my 19 week appointment to find out what I'm having. Oh well, I guess it's worth the wait, i just hate waiting. I don't have a lot of patience. Ya know, this is my first pregnancy to get this far, and I'm so anxious to see it again, and find out what it is!!

May 20, 2007 - I have my next prenatal appointment tomorrow. I'm having a hard time getting to sleep. I want them to do a sonogram so bad! It's been exactly 4 weeks since I saw my little sweetheart! I want to see him/her again so bad! Just to see for myself that it's still alright, plus since this is all new to me, I want to see how much its grown, and see it move around! And to finally be able to STOP SAYING IT!! Haha, I mean I know it's name is Jayden, but its easier to refer to as him or her for a lot of things. I hope and pray that they do one. As far as I've been told, they need to do one around this time anyway, to check for measurements and some other stuff. If he doesn't do one, I'm going to ask him to! And if he still won't, I guess we'll just discuss with him when he will be doing another one for me! Hopefully I won't have to wait for my next appointment, that would be the end of June, and I'd be almost 2o weeks! That's such a long time for me to wait!! I'm so impatient! Anyways! I'm just venting again about how much I wanna see Baby Jayden!! I guess I'll update tomorrow, my appointment is at 10am, I just haven't decided if I want to run my errands before or after my appointment. Hopefully I'll have something REALLY good to share!

May 23, 2007 - Okay so I missed my appointment on Monday! Oops! But I'm 16 Weeks today! Yay! My next appointment is tomorrow afternoon. When they called to remind me, I asked about having an u/s done, and they said no, it was just a regular OB visit. How disappointing! I'm still going to ask tomorrow. At least to find out when I will have another one. I do believe I am going to go to this place about 3 hours away to get one. I'll have to be 17 weeks, but thats only a week to wait so that's not bad! And it's really not all that expensive! So I'll have to call after tomorrow and make an appointment to go! I so can't wait. They guarantee you a gender determination, or your next visit to check gender is free! But to save on expensive gas, I hope that they can get it on the first visit! Anyways! Today has been pretty rough, my husband and I have fought all day! For some odd reason, he thinks its okay for him to put his hands on me, and when I stood up for myself, he told me to get out of his house... some responsible father and husband... Its sad, but I don't know how much more I can take! He so wasn't like this a year ago! Ever since he got caught lying and cheating, he's been somewhat abusive physically and verbally, he's called me a b**** all day! Like I need this kind of stress. Especially after 3 losses! I mean, come on, I wonder what I need to do... I've really gotten kind of scared of him! **Sigh** I wish I had the nerve to just move out... oh yeah, out of nowhere he said he was going to take me to court for custody of the baby after its born... like I would let that happen... I don't know what to do... Oh well, I'll update after my appointment tomorrow...

May 30, 2007 - 17 Weeks Today! Yay again! So I must say, I have waited an entire week to update, and I guess a pretty good bit has happened. I'll see if I can remember it all. Okay, so my appointment was on the 24th, blood pressure and everything was fine. They finally took my blood, I was hoping they'd forget, not that I'm scared of needles or anything, cuz after all my piercings and a tattoo, needles don't bother me... I'm just always scared something is going to come up. So far they haven't called me yet and tomorrow will be a week since they took blood. I hope that's a good thing! I'm such a worry wart! Also, at the appointment when we listened to the heart beat, I remembered to ask this time how many bpm. And it was between 150-160, so still very strong! I'm so happy. We also set up my appointment date for my next prenatal and U/S, yay... but I have to clarify this up front, after a lot of reading, and praying... I'm excited and nervous about this U/S! They do alot of checking on the baby, and I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE GENDER what's so ever, I'll just be excited to call it he or she! instead of it, I hate calling "it" it! I more than anything just want to see that this baby is growing healthy and nothing is wrong with it! That is all that matters to me! Of course it's exciting to find out what it is, but I just want it to be healthy! I don't have a preference either way! So with that said... my sweet baby Jayden, has been moving like crazy!! I noticed it about 2:30 am this morning... and I was SO Scared! It took me a minute to figure out what it was! But this past Saturday or Sunday, I felt it have hiccups, not a doubt in my mind... I KNOW that's what it was, I don't care what people say about it being too early, I know what it felt like! lol... like my uterus has the hiccups!

I guess after saying all of this...babbling and all! I should update about me and my husband... since I wrote last, I think we have managed to not fight two days...today being one of them... it got bad the other night, real bad, I ended up walking to my parents at 4:15am because I don't have a car, made sure he told me to stay away from his car, and to get out of his house! So I did, I finally walked back a little later. But anyways, He's got a lot of frustrations right now... I know this is personal, but maybe it'll make a little bit more sense why he's acted the way he's been acting. Because I've had 3 miscarriages. two of them back to back, my doctor put me on pelvic rest til my 6 week post check up. And we hadn't been intimate since conception anyway.. so you're looking at about 4 months of no intimacy for him, and I could care less, I'm one of those affected my pregnancy, that feels like the least touching, the better, but he, being a guy, is about to drive himself crazy, and he stays so mad at me because I won't ignore what the doctor said! I will NOT do anything to harm this baby, by any chance! IT means the World to me... I wish he felt the same! But anyways, thats all I can think of right now... I hope everyone had a wonderful long Memorial Day Weekend!

May 31, 2007 - Well, it is 2:31am and I CANNOT go to sleep! I have pregnancy insomnia... lol.. I just can't fall asleep at night. I hate it... And then I fall asleep so late, my body won't let me get up before 1:00pm... so everyone thinks I'm a lazy bum! Like all I do is sleep! I do tons.. it's just always in the middle of the night!! Does anyone else suffer from insomnia?! I need some relief from it... oh yeah, I am soo excited, on the main page, I went to look at my week by week thing, and as of today, I am OFFICIALLY 4 MONTHS!! Yay! I'm finally starting to look preggo and feel it too! This time last night, baby Jayden was kicking or moving or something... I wish he/she would do it again!! Once I realized what it was, I wanted to feel it non-stop. I've felt a little something here and there throughout the day, and even a little while ago, but nothing like the hiccups or last night!! All of that was just so amazing!! It definitely reassures me that my little one is still doing good! I still have a hard time believing I am pregnant!! After all I've been through, I really felt it was impossible, and now that I'm experiencing it, it feels like a dream!! But a wonderful one! Baby Jayden is my miracle and my dream come true... oh yeah, my hubby and I went to Babies R Us awhile back to look, and they had these little signs to hang up in nurseries, one said thank heaven for little boys, and the other said thank heaven for little girls, then I found one that said, I'm a dream come true, and it's a light green, I Loved It! Well, that night, I got a surprise, the babies r us is about an hour away, He somehow snuck and bought it while we were there without me knowing it!! I was so Happy! I can't wait til the nursery is done so we can put up the sign!! We're going to do block letters on the wall too, of his/her name! I've already got a personalized light switch that says Jayden's Room! I Love It too!! haha... I'm just now noticing how much I'm babbling! I guess that's what you get at 2:40am when you have nobody to talk to! Anyways! I'm gonna try to lay down and rest, maybe I'll get a little surprise kick or something!!! I LOVE THIS SWEET LITTLE MIRACLE!!!

June 3, 2007 - Okay so I just realized I have a problem... I'm staying up all night long just to feel the baby move... that's terrible huh? Its 2:20am and this little wiggle worm has moved ALOT since like 7pm and I just can't get enough of it! I think it's a problem though because everyone gripes at me for sleeping all day, I guess they figure its better to not sleep at all than to sleep during the day...sure my schedule is a little messed up but it won't change after the baby is born, I'm sure it'll be up around this time... I don't see that it matters...its not like I have a job or anything... goodness, anyways, this little thing is spoiling me big time! It's still moving while I type..its so weird, but so cool at the same time... I felt more than a kick or hit earlier, its like I felt it roll over or something...it was like a big swirl feeling...its crazy... does anyone know why maternity clothes make you look like you're showing, but when you're in regular clothes, everyone is like, oh you're not showing at all!! lol, I hear that alot...anyways, I'll shut up now!!

June 8th - Well, I am now 18weeks and 2 days... how exciting. I've been really busy with school and it just started this week. I don't know what to do. I thought I could handle it, but I look at these assignments every day and just cry, because its like foreign all of a sudden. English and writing have always been my strong point, I look at it now, and I can't remember anything about it. And I can't afford to fail. I've got so much riding on this summer term. I don't know what to do. I feel so overwhelmed and I can't concentrate on anything I try to work on. Everything just seems so hard... ugh!! I just want to cry!!

on the bright side, baby is still moving alot. I love it, and only 20 more days til my big u/s and appointment. I can't wait to make sure the baby is healthy! I'll write again soon.

June 21, 2007 - I guess its time for me to update since it's been almost 2 weeks. I am now 20 weeks and a day... and very excited to be at this point! I feel little Jayden move alot. My appointment is in exactly a week! Which at that point I can be at ease knowing that my little sweetheart is healthy and know what it is! More than anything I want to know it's healthy but finding out the gender is a BIG plus in my book! I really am tired of calling it "it"... I'm guessing its a boy because I know of VERY FEW people having girls around me... it seems everyone is having baby boys. To share my feelings on that would take way too long. So, Boy or Girl, it will be my little Miracle! I guess that's all there is to really share. I hope everyone is doing great!

June 26, 2007 - Okay, so we go to the doctor for my next appointment on Thursday! I really can't wait. I'm so excited to see Baby Jayden again! I went with a friend for her big U/S, and I wanted to cry because she's due after me and it wasn't fair! She got to see her baby, and find out what it was! Which was a little girl... I really want a little girl... but that's such a long story. I'll be happy either way, but it's going to take me a little time to get over it, if it's a little boy. And I hope I don't sound like a bad mother, I really just want it to be healthy. Everyone but my brother thinks its a girl. So I don't know what it is. My 6 year old little sister tells me all the time its a little girl. I don't know... I just know of very few people due on my due date are having girls. **sigh** I just don't want to cry the day I find out what my sweet baby is! Oh well, enough venting for now! Around 1:30pm, central time, I will know what I am having!

June 27, 2007 - Well, I am OFFICIALLY 21 Weeks! Yay! And tomorrow afternoon, I'll know what baby Jayden is, I am sooo very excited to see him/her again! I haven't seen him/her since 11weeks and 5 days! That's like forever to me! But anyway, I've been very patient, I just want to know he/she is healthy so I can stop worrying AS MUCH!!! Well, I will try to update before I go outta town!

June 28, 2007 - Today is the BIG day! I am sooo nervous! I have butterflies in my tummy! Besides the baby!! It's crazy. I never thought it would feel like this!! OMG OMG I hope my little sweetie is healthy!! It has been moving and rolling since I got up! its crazy!! anyways! I'll post soon with the results!!

June 29th, 2007 - I forgot to mention I'd be traveling out of town right after my appointment! But here goes, We have a HEALTHY Beautiful Baby Girl! I am OVER THE MOON and still can't believe it. But the pictures I have are clearly girl parts. So there's no doubt in my mind! Thanks for all the support! So now I have Little Miss Jayden Riley instead of "it"...omg, I love her so much! I'll post new baby pics when I get back in town!

July 3, 2007 - Today I am 21 weeks and 6 days! Tomorrow I'll be 22. Yay! These weeks have really gone by fast. I am still over the moon about my sweet baby girl! I have thought about her non stop. I'm still so shocked! A big part of me thought it was a boy! I'm just so happy that she's healthy and ecstatic that she's a she! haha! I go back to the dr the end of this month. He didn't bring up the glucose test, so I don't know when they'll do it. I hope everyone has a safe 4th of July!! I don't think I'll be doing too much... I'm going to TX in a couple of weeks and I've got tons of school work and house work to get done!

July 13, 2007 - So I'm 23 weeks and 2 days, almost 3 days. I feel fatter every day! It's crazy. My sweetie is so active. I love her so very much! I just know she's beautiful. I hope to make it to a 3d place in a town close by in August or September. Well, its like 3 hours away. But I want a video of the baby and the colored pictures. I can't believe how fast the time has gone by. It's been fast but yet slow at the same time... I bet many of you know what I mean by that. I think I found my first stretch mark on my belly. lol, it's about the size of a piece of rice. I was so proud! Anyways, I don't have a whole lot to say.. I'll update soon!

July 25, 2007 - Well I said I would update soon, but not alot has gone on. I went on Vacation with my family to Houston, Tx. That Was alot of fun. It was good to get away. Umm, Jayden moves around awhole lot. She's so active and I absolutely love it. I'm now 25 weeks! It seems so unreal to me. I know that I am really blessed. Umm, my next Dr's Appointment is on tomorrow. I get to hear her heartbeat, its ALMOST as good as seeing her. But not quite! haha, nothing beats seeing her. I am going to a place in Baton Rouge to get a 3D Sonogram done. I just have to set up the appointment. I've got the money, just have to find a day that Hubby is off, it's a 3 hour drive down there! But it'll so be worth it. Anyways, I don't think I'll be getting a baby shower, which stinks, but there's nothing I can do about that. Oh well, Ryan and I will manage to get everything we need for her somehow. Well, I guess that's all there is to say right now... I hope that everyone is doing good...

August 6, 2007 - I don't have too much to say... I just feel really crappy. All of a sudden, the last few weeks I have had surprise morning sickness... it sucks so bad!! oh well... on the bright side I feel Jayden ALOT and I can feel actual parts. it's super cool..haha

August 8th, 2007 - 27 Weeks today!! and only 10 days til I go and get my Elective 3d/4d Ultrasound! YAY!!! I'm so excited! I can't wait to see her again and see how big she's gotten over the past 7 weeks! Well it'll be 7 weeks since my last sonogram when I go that day. I bet she's grown alot! I know I have! She's made me a cow! I can't stop eating!! haha, oh well it's after 4am, I've got to get hubby's lunch ready and clothes ready then I'm getting in bed! I'm beat!!!

August 16th, 2007 - 28 Weeks & 2 days! I don't update as much as I used to... but anyway, last night was the first night that I slept ALL night. I've been sleeping during the day for weeks, maybe even months. When I woke up this morning, I felt SO good! Who knew that sleeping at night instead of during the day could make such a big difference?! I sure didn't. Hopefully I can make it a habit! I miss out on so much during the day. anyways I go for my 3d/4d ultrasound tomorrow!! OMG I am so excited! I can't wait to SEE her. These sonograms show what she's gonna look like and right now I can't even imagine! I just know that she'll be beautiful! anyways, I'm gonna go, I've got tons of stuff to get done around the house today since I'm up and about this early! I hope that everyone is doing great and has a wonderful weekend!

November 3, 2007 - Well as you can see I had my little angel!! She was born on Oct. 25 at 4:02 pm, 6lbs 8oz and 19 1/4 inches long... since the last time I wrote, I'd been close monitored for a few months because of high blood pressure, well I went in for my 38 week appt and my blood pressure was really high so they sent me upstairs to induce.. that was around 12... they did all kinda stuff, started an iv with fluids, filled out papers, answered questions, all kinda stuff... by that time it was about 2.. so they called my dr up to break my water and started the pitocin... well... surprise I started to hurt, bad, and I came in totally against getting an epidural... so she checked me to make sure I was dilated enough, I was only 2cm before they started the pitocin and broke the water, well surprise again, I was at 7cm, and they talked me out of the epidural cuz I was going so fast and she would be here by the time it would start to work... she checked a few minutes later it was 8, 15 minutes later she checked it was at 10cm, we started working on pushing, they called the doctor and she was here like 20 minutes later!! Excruciating pain, but all completely worth it!!! She's my baby girl!!! I Love her so very much!