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 | Age: 28 Country: CA Province/region: British columbia City: Vancouver Partner: Kevin Children: Pregnant: Yes Due date: 05 Aug ,2008 Occupation: Behavioural Therapist (working with children who have Austism) |
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May 8, 2008
So, I know its been a while but here is my conception story...
Kevin and I met online. I wasn't looking for a relationship. Just someone I could be friends with and GEEK out with (I am in the middle of a divorce and thought that a new relationship was the last thing I needed-BOY WAS I WRONG!) I contacted him through Facebook on the Sunday. We instantly clicked! We talked back and forth this way Sunday and Monday. On Tuesday, we started talking on MSN, which turned into web cam, which turned into a phone conversation (overall we talked from midnight till 6am). We then talked back and forth NON-STOP via text message all day Wednesday. We were going to meet on the weekend but were getting along so well that we decided to meet after he was done work that night (at midnight). So, we met, went to Dennys for coffee and have LITERALLY been inseparable since. We conceived our second time together and our FIRST time unprotected! I guess some things really are meant to be. Its a very good thing that we both knew a few minutes into our coffee date that we would be together for a very long time. Otherwise, this would have been a really big disaster. Now, you can go ahead and think I am crazy (part of me does too). But, I KNOW that were meant to be together. I have never functioned so well with another person. We just seem to flow. I have an anxiety disorder. Kevin gives me peace and since meeting him it has all but disappeared. I knew less than 48hours after conception that I was pregnant. As cheesy as it sounds. I know that us meeting and this baby were absolutely meant to be. Both Kevin and this child are a HUGE gift from God and I try to remember every day to thank him for them!
March 27, 2008
We did NOT get to find out the sex today. Apparently my little monkey was too wiggly and they couldn't get a good enough shot to determine the sex. What a brat *L* Just like mommy! Other than that the Dr said that baby is perfect. Everything is the size it should be and my fluid is nice and clear. So, we are doing well.
March 26, 2008
I was at my grandma's for our weekly dinner last night and I had my shirt pulled up a bit because I had been rubbing my belly and my grandma kept cracking up. Apparently, she could see that baby moving. At one point baby actually got its little head sticking straight up (popping right of my belly) so I could see too. She/he even stayed that way until I went and picked Kevin up from work which was cool because I got to show him my amazing possessed belly too! BTW we "should" find out the sex tomorrow when we see the OB. I am sooooo excited.
March 21, 2008
Midnight moonlight shining through the curtain lace
Paints a perfect picture on your perfect face
One sweet angel sleeping in my arms
You are the promise I knew that God would keep
You are the gift that makes my world complete
And you'll never know how much I love you
But I'll keep on telling you my whole life through
Now I believe in miracles
and you're the reason why
So dream on as I sing you my angel's lullaby
March 18, 2008
20 weeks and half way there!!!!!! It might be a loooong second half too. I saw my GP yesterday because for the last few days my hips/pelvic area have been incredibly sore-to the point where by bedtime I can't roll over by myself nor can I get up. Kevin has been having to do both things for me. Each day it seemed to get worse than the last and hits me sooner in the day. By Sunday night I couldn't move at all it was too excruciating. So, my GP said that I have SPD as well as my sacroiliac joints being out of whack and the two are irritating each other. He also said that its just going to get worse and worse and there is nothing that can be done. It's going to get to the point where I can't move at all without help or extreme pain. I WILL end up on medical leave-probably within the next month. He wanted to start the process now but I had to explain to him that I can't afford it. So, I am going to work as absolutely long as I can bear and then see him to fill out the paper work. I am going to at least try to hold out until the third trimester but that isn't looking too likely.
On the plus side. We have our 20 week ultrasound on thursday (the 20th). Hopefully they will tell us the sex and we can find out if it's a little Samantha Elizabeth or Simon Alexander...YES WE PICKED NAMES :-)
March 12, 2008
The last few days have been interesting. The other night I was having some really intense braxton hicks-lasting about a minute and then ten or so seconds later starting again. This lasted about a half hour so I called L&D and talked to the nurse and she advised me to drink some water and have a shower. After my shower I was fine but HOLY CRAP they were so intense that I am surprised all my insides didn't pop right out of me. That night, I also had a talk with Kevin and expressed my concerns and explained to him that I am feeling anxious because we are basically half way there and haven't really done anything to prepare. I really feel he heard me this time. So, I am feeling MUCH MUCH MUCH better about all that.
The last few days baby has been moving like mad! I get almost non-stop movement now. It's pretty amazing. Even more amazing is that the other night (the 10th) I felt my first kick from the outside! I had my arm resting on my belly and out of the blue I felt this bump bump. I was like "what the ____. Oh wow, that was so cool". It was one of the coolest things I have ever felt. I can't wait till Kevin gets the chance to feel it.
March 9, 2008
Wow, it's been a while since I have posted an update. Not too much has taken place since my last note. We saw the Dr a few weeks ago. He says I haven't gained any weight (hooray for me-but odd considering how huge my belly is) and that both baby and mommy are doing well. In fact, he said to me "you are doing a good job." I'm not sure how hard it is to be an incubator but apparently it's something you can do well. We finally heard the babies heartbeat, my triple screen was done (no news is good news I presume) and our 20 week ultrasound is scheduled for the 20th of March. The Dr has requested that the technician determine the sex for us. YAY! Kevin's birthday is the next day so I keep teasing him that he is getting a little girl for his birthday.
I have actually gotten to hear the baby's heart beat twice because a few days later I saw my GP and he listened to it also. Baby's heart rate was hitting between 147 and 151. My GP says he thinks its a boy...we both want a boy so his random prediction makes me happy. Kevin saddens me though. He really could have cared less about hearing the baby's heart beat. I don't think he quite gets this yet. I don't think the severity of how much our lives are gonna change has hit him and I don't think he gets that in 4.5 months we are responsible for this tiny little life that will be completely dependent on us. He is doing a great job taking care of me and supporting me but I get the feeling that when it comes to the baby itself he is indifferent. I tried talking to him about it but he just shut down and wouldn't speak to me. He doesn't get it! This really sucks because it means that here I am planning and preparing for the rest of our lives alone. God, I hope it hits him soon. I know it is different for men and that the bond between mother and child is almost instant while the father's needs to grow. However, I really want to share this with him. I want him to be happy because he is happy and not only because he sees that I am happy. I want his excitement to be his own. I want to see him love this child like I already do. I don't think this is going to happen any time soon and frankly, it breaks my heart.
February 23, 2008
A complete stranger at Walmart recognized that I am pregnant. This means I finally look pregnant not just fat!!!! Woo hoo
February 17, 2008
Compared to how I felt a little over a week ago I FEEL GREAT! For the most part my energy has returned and I haven't been sick in 10 days. Over the course of about three days this week, my belly exploded. Suddenly I am no longer looking just fat but have a very clear baby belly. I am feeling baby bubbles almost every night now and each time they are stronger than before. I think I might have even gotten kicked the other night! Things are finally starting to look up for me : - )
February 13, 2008
Today, even though I am still clearly suffering from my sinus infection I feel great! Every day I feel more and more like myself. Thank God for small things.
February 9, 2007
Let's see, what has being going on this week. Well, first of all, I have had a headache of some sort for over a week now. Last thursday until sunday night I had a migraine. I ended up having to miss three days of work and drove Kevin insane being home all weekend. Nothing helped! I even tried acupuncture but that only gave me less than 4 hours of relief. After my migraine eased up, my headache turned into some other kind of just as bad headache which I have pretty much had ever since. Turns out I had a sinus infection and the OB figures that that combined with the good ol' hormones rampaging my body is what is causing it. I don't know, and honestly I don't care what the cause is. I just want it to go away. On the bright side, I took some Tylenol this afternoon (which has not helped at all until now) and my headache is almost gone at the moment. Hopefully it stays this way.
When I saw my Ob this week he tried to find the heartbeat with the doppler and couldn't find it yet. I was so heartbroken. I spent most of the rest of the day on the verge of tears. Anything and everything made me cry. I have been waiting and waiting and waiting to hear that gorgeous thump thump...and apparently I get to wait some more. *L* At least, this Dr's visit went better. I only waited an hour this time and he spent more time with me. I didn't feel blown off this time. For some reason, he scheduled my next appointment for three weeks away instead of four and said that next visit we will FINALLY do my physical exam and will try to the heartbeat again. I can handle three weeks I guess.
I just had a really awesome realization though! It was a rough day at work today. Lately, I have been very easily exhausted and have had less than my usual amount of patience at work. Today, I energetically did a bunch of extra cleaning that I used to do before getting pregnant and I had a much needed abundance of patience today. I am finally starting to get back to my old self!
January 30, 2008
I had my first "flutters" last night! I don't think I have been this excited since I found out I was pregnant (well, once the initial shock wore off). I know it is early. I guess it helps that I am very in tune with my body and what is going on in it. It felt so cool and brought me so much peace feeling something other than cramping and aching going on in there. THERE IS LIFE GROWING INSIDE OF ME AND I FELT IT!
I talked to the public health nurse that has been assigned to me today. She was so helpful. We must have talked for about a half hour about everything....everything the dr hasn't talked to me about :-) Talking to her really uplifted me and made me feel totally validated and supportive. The Dr would never believe that I felt flutters this early on but she totally believed me and was excited for me. She also agreed with me about not necessarily changing my due date at the moment for a 5 day difference. She said that same thing I did. The due date is just a guidline and they will change it so many times that for so few days difference there isn't much point to changing it.I think I may have found an outlet to get the emotional support that I need that my Dr isn't giving to me. She is also connecting me to a program that can help with my extra financial needs that being pregnant has suddenly thrown onto me. Huge sigh of relief there. I feel so much better now.
BTW I made it all the way from thursday around 4pm to monday morning without throwing up!!! Not so much luck so far the rest of the week but hey, things are slowing down at least.
January 26, 2008
OMG its a miracle. I haven't thrown up over even felt like throwing up in almost 48hrs!!!!!
January 23, 2008
They really need to do something about how this thing works. This is the second time I have lost everything I have written. It seems "we" are growing. For the last few days I have been having twinges and pains in my groin area. I'm told that this is caused by my ligaments and muscles growing. They hurt, but it feels so good to feel that my little one is growing. Now, when I push down into my abdomin I can feel my little uterus. It is very cool. My morning sickness continues to hassle me. It seems every day around 3 I get sick. I wonder what is going on inside of me at that time that causes it? Maybe my little one is awake and bouncing around. Two more weeks and I see the dreaded Dr. Kevin can't make it this time. I hope without him there I can get up the nerve to tell the Dr how I feel. By then I will be in the second trimester!!! He'd better listen to the hearbeat or I think I might go mad.
January 17, 2008
Is this morning sickness ever going to end??? I am so tired of having a tummy ache, constantly feeling like I need to throw up and about 25% of the time actually doing so! Yes, I know, it's supposed to end soon but as I get closer and closer to the second trimester time just seems to be going by more and more slowly...HURRY UP ALREADY! I am tired of this trimester of hell. Ooh, ooh, ooh, I saw my GP the other day and he was feeling around my belly (thought I might have a UTI) and he said that he can totally feel my uterus popping up past my pelvic bone. I think this means that I AM as far along as I think. Hmm, maybe if my OB actually examined me for a change he would have noticed this to. My GP also told me that if I come back in two week he will set up the doppler so I can hear the heartbeat! Woo hoo.
January 12, 2008
It's been a big week, but also one filled with disappointment. I have actually be so upset this week that I decided to wait to write this until I was calmer. We had our first ultrasound. It was really cool seeing that tiny body fast asleep inside of me (of course baby had to be sleeping instead of jumping around-just like his mommy *L*). It was a lot quicker than I was thinking it would be though (maybe five minutes) and when she measured the heartbeat she didn't turn the sound on for us to hear. That really disappointed me. I REALLY want to hear that tiny heart beat. Also, the technician gave us the negatives instead of actual pictures. That took a lot of problem solving in order to get copies that I could show loved ones. The next day was my second OB appointment. I am not exaggerating...we waited TWO HOURS to see him for less than five minutes!!! This was only the second visit and second time this has happened. I make an effort to be on time, my Dr should too. Besides, if he is only seeing his patients for less than five minutes...WHY IS HE RUNNING TWO HOURS BEHIND? The Dr said that the baby measured at only 9wk3 days...5 days less than thought. I have decided that since u/s measurements can be off by up to 3 days and it is only a 5 day difference, for now, I will keep the original due date in my head. Besides, from what I hear they are going to change the due date more than a few times over the course of the pregnancy. So after making us wait for over 2 hours, he then proceeded to upset me even more. When I asked him about my showing so soon he was insistent that there was no possible way that I could be showing this early on-that it was just fat! I have only gained 2 lbs, and with that I have gained 3.5 cup sizes, plus I know my own body and this is NOT how my body stores/holds its fat! My belly flaps down. I get an overhang......what I have now is firming upwards. It is a very clear preggers belly. Apparently, my Dr has forgotten that each pregnancy is different! He then told me to cut down on sugars...I CAN'T EAT ANYTHING SUGARY IT MAKES ME PUKE!!!! Even fruit is too much for me these days. This is most definetly NOT the reason for my belly. Every complaint or comment I had, his response was " that happens." On top of all that...he didn't check the heart beat, nor did he do the pelvic exam he said he was going to do this visit. I left feeling so completely unimportant and invalidated. :-( This is the person who is supposed to be supporting me and making me feel safe and secure throughout my pregnancy...although he is taking excellent medical care of me...he sure sucks at taking care of my emotional needs. One more visit, this time I am going to tell him how I feel. If it happens this time I am done. I am finding a new Dr!
January 6, 2008
I am really really really really sick of constantly being exhausted. I slept for over 12 hrs last night and can barely keep my eyes open. It's really affecting my life and my job. I keep almost falling asleep at work. I can't be doing that! The smallest activity takes everything I have. On the plus side, I haven't thrown up in a few days! We are going for our first ultrasound on Wednesday. I think maybe seeing that tiny body bouncing around inside of me and hearing that little heartbeat is going to make all this obnoxiousness totally worth it. At least I hope it does. See the OB the next day...I have so many questions for him. I just hope I can remember them all.
January 5, 2008
So, I know its been a while but here is my conception story...
Kevin and I met online. I wasn't looking for a relationship. Just someone I could be friends with and GEEK out with (I am in the middle of a divorce and thought that a new relationship was the last thing I needed-BOY WAS I WRONG!) I contacted him through Facebook on the Sunday. We instantly clicked! We talked back and forth this way Sunday and Monday. On Tuesday, we started talking on MSN, which turned into web cam, which turned into a phone conversation (overall we talked from midnight till 6am). We then talked back and forth NON-STOP via text message all day Wednesday. We were going to meet on the weekend but were getting along so well that we decided to meet after he was done work that night (at midnight). So, we met, went to Dennys for coffee and have LITERALLY been inseparable since. We conceived our second time together and our FIRST time unprotected! I guess some things really are meant to be. Its a very good thing that we both knew a few minutes into our coffee date that we would be together for a very long time. Otherwise, this would have been a really big disaster. Now, you can go ahead and think I am crazy (part of me does too). But, I KNOW that were meant to be together. I have never functioned so well with another person. We just seem to flow. I have an anxiety disorder. Kevin gives me peace and since meeting him it has all but disappeared. I knew less than 48hours after conception that I was pregnant. As cheesy as it sounds. I know that us meeting and this baby were absolutely meant to be. Both Kevin and this child are a HUGE gift from God and I try to remember every day to thank him for them!
March 27, 2008
We did NOT get to find out the sex today. Apparently my little monkey was too wiggly and they couldn't get a good enough shot to determine the sex. What a brat *L* Just like mommy! Other than that the Dr said that baby is perfect. Everything is the size it should be and my fluid is nice and clear. So, we are doing well.
March 26, 2008
I was at my grandma's for our weekly dinner last night and I had my shirt pulled up a bit because I had been rubbing my belly and my grandma kept cracking up. Apparently, she could see that baby moving. At one point baby actually got its little head sticking straight up (popping right of my belly) so I could see too. She/he even stayed that way until I went and picked Kevin up from work which was cool because I got to show him my amazing possessed belly too! BTW we "should" find out the sex tomorrow when we see the OB. I am sooooo excited.
March 21, 2008
Midnight moonlight shining through the curtain lace
Paints a perfect picture on your perfect face
One sweet angel sleeping in my arms
You are the promise I knew that God would keep
You are the gift that makes my world complete
And you'll never know how much I love you
But I'll keep on telling you my whole life through
Now I believe in miracles
and you're the reason why
So dream on as I sing you my angel's lullaby
March 18, 2008
20 weeks and half way there!!!!!! It might be a loooong second half too. I saw my GP yesterday because for the last few days my hips/pelvic area have been incredibly sore-to the point where by bedtime I can't roll over by myself nor can I get up. Kevin has been having to do both things for me. Each day it seemed to get worse than the last and hits me sooner in the day. By Sunday night I couldn't move at all it was too excruciating. So, my GP said that I have SPD as well as my sacroiliac joints being out of whack and the two are irritating each other. He also said that its just going to get worse and worse and there is nothing that can be done. It's going to get to the point where I can't move at all without help or extreme pain. I WILL end up on medical leave-probably within the next month. He wanted to start the process now but I had to explain to him that I can't afford it. So, I am going to work as absolutely long as I can bear and then see him to fill out the paper work. I am going to at least try to hold out until the third trimester but that isn't looking too likely.
On the plus side. We have our 20 week ultrasound on thursday (the 20th). Hopefully they will tell us the sex and we can find out if it's a little Samantha Elizabeth or Simon Alexander...YES WE PICKED NAMES :-)
March 12, 2008
The last few days have been interesting. The other night I was having some really intense braxton hicks-lasting about a minute and then ten or so seconds later starting again. This lasted about a half hour so I called L&D and talked to the nurse and she advised me to drink some water and have a shower. After my shower I was fine but HOLY CRAP they were so intense that I am surprised all my insides didn't pop right out of me. That night, I also had a talk with Kevin and expressed my concerns and explained to him that I am feeling anxious because we are basically half way there and haven't really done anything to prepare. I really feel he heard me this time. So, I am feeling MUCH MUCH MUCH better about all that.
The last few days baby has been moving like mad! I get almost non-stop movement now. It's pretty amazing. Even more amazing is that the other night (the 10th) I felt my first kick from the outside! I had my arm resting on my belly and out of the blue I felt this bump bump. I was like "what the ____. Oh wow, that was so cool". It was one of the coolest things I have ever felt. I can't wait till Kevin gets the chance to feel it.
March 9, 2008
Wow, it's been a while since I have posted an update. Not too much has taken place since my last note. We saw the Dr a few weeks ago. He says I haven't gained any weight (hooray for me-but odd considering how huge my belly is) and that both baby and mommy are doing well. In fact, he said to me "you are doing a good job." I'm not sure how hard it is to be an incubator but apparently it's something you can do well. We finally heard the babies heartbeat, my triple screen was done (no news is good news I presume) and our 20 week ultrasound is scheduled for the 20th of March. The Dr has requested that the technician determine the sex for us. YAY! Kevin's birthday is the next day so I keep teasing him that he is getting a little girl for his birthday.
I have actually gotten to hear the baby's heart beat twice because a few days later I saw my GP and he listened to it also. Baby's heart rate was hitting between 147 and 151. My GP says he thinks its a boy...we both want a boy so his random prediction makes me happy. Kevin saddens me though. He really could have cared less about hearing the baby's heart beat. I don't think he quite gets this yet. I don't think the severity of how much our lives are gonna change has hit him and I don't think he gets that in 4.5 months we are responsible for this tiny little life that will be completely dependent on us. He is doing a great job taking care of me and supporting me but I get the feeling that when it comes to the baby itself he is indifferent. I tried talking to him about it but he just shut down and wouldn't speak to me. He doesn't get it! This really sucks because it means that here I am planning and preparing for the rest of our lives alone. God, I hope it hits him soon. I know it is different for men and that the bond between mother and child is almost instant while the father's needs to grow. However, I really want to share this with him. I want him to be happy because he is happy and not only because he sees that I am happy. I want his excitement to be his own. I want to see him love this child like I already do. I don't think this is going to happen any time soon and frankly, it breaks my heart.
February 23, 2008
A complete stranger at Walmart recognized that I am pregnant. This means I finally look pregnant not just fat!!!! Woo hoo
February 17, 2008
Compared to how I felt a little over a week ago I FEEL GREAT! For the most part my energy has returned and I haven't been sick in 10 days. Over the course of about three days this week, my belly exploded. Suddenly I am no longer looking just fat but have a very clear baby belly. I am feeling baby bubbles almost every night now and each time they are stronger than before. I think I might have even gotten kicked the other night! Things are finally starting to look up for me : - )
February 13, 2008
Today, even though I am still clearly suffering from my sinus infection I feel great! Every day I feel more and more like myself. Thank God for small things.
February 9, 2007
Let's see, what has being going on this week. Well, first of all, I have had a headache of some sort for over a week now. Last thursday until sunday night I had a migraine. I ended up having to miss three days of work and drove Kevin insane being home all weekend. Nothing helped! I even tried acupuncture but that only gave me less than 4 hours of relief. After my migraine eased up, my headache turned into some other kind of just as bad headache which I have pretty much had ever since. Turns out I had a sinus infection and the OB figures that that combined with the good ol' hormones rampaging my body is what is causing it. I don't know, and honestly I don't care what the cause is. I just want it to go away. On the bright side, I took some Tylenol this afternoon (which has not helped at all until now) and my headache is almost gone at the moment. Hopefully it stays this way.
When I saw my Ob this week he tried to find the heartbeat with the doppler and couldn't find it yet. I was so heartbroken. I spent most of the rest of the day on the verge of tears. Anything and everything made me cry. I have been waiting and waiting and waiting to hear that gorgeous thump thump...and apparently I get to wait some more. *L* At least, this Dr's visit went better. I only waited an hour this time and he spent more time with me. I didn't feel blown off this time. For some reason, he scheduled my next appointment for three weeks away instead of four and said that next visit we will FINALLY do my physical exam and will try to the heartbeat again. I can handle three weeks I guess.
I just had a really awesome realization though! It was a rough day at work today. Lately, I have been very easily exhausted and have had less than my usual amount of patience at work. Today, I energetically did a bunch of extra cleaning that I used to do before getting pregnant and I had a much needed abundance of patience today. I am finally starting to get back to my old self!
January 30, 2008
I had my first "flutters" last night! I don't think I have been this excited since I found out I was pregnant (well, once the initial shock wore off). I know it is early. I guess it helps that I am very in tune with my body and what is going on in it. It felt so cool and brought me so much peace feeling something other than cramping and aching going on in there. THERE IS LIFE GROWING INSIDE OF ME AND I FELT IT!
I talked to the public health nurse that has been assigned to me today. She was so helpful. We must have talked for about a half hour about everything....everything the dr hasn't talked to me about :-) Talking to her really uplifted me and made me feel totally validated and supportive. The Dr would never believe that I felt flutters this early on but she totally believed me and was excited for me. She also agreed with me about not necessarily changing my due date at the moment for a 5 day difference. She said that same thing I did. The due date is just a guidline and they will change it so many times that for so few days difference there isn't much point to changing it.I think I may have found an outlet to get the emotional support that I need that my Dr isn't giving to me. She is also connecting me to a program that can help with my extra financial needs that being pregnant has suddenly thrown onto me. Huge sigh of relief there. I feel so much better now.
BTW I made it all the way from thursday around 4pm to monday morning without throwing up!!! Not so much luck so far the rest of the week but hey, things are slowing down at least.
January 26, 2008
OMG its a miracle. I haven't thrown up over even felt like throwing up in almost 48hrs!!!!!
January 23, 2008
They really need to do something about how this thing works. This is the second time I have lost everything I have written. It seems "we" are growing. For the last few days I have been having twinges and pains in my groin area. I'm told that this is caused by my ligaments and muscles growing. They hurt, but it feels so good to feel that my little one is growing. Now, when I push down into my abdomin I can feel my little uterus. It is very cool. My morning sickness continues to hassle me. It seems every day around 3 I get sick. I wonder what is going on inside of me at that time that causes it? Maybe my little one is awake and bouncing around. Two more weeks and I see the dreaded Dr. Kevin can't make it this time. I hope without him there I can get up the nerve to tell the Dr how I feel. By then I will be in the second trimester!!! He'd better listen to the hearbeat or I think I might go mad.
January 17, 2008
Is this morning sickness ever going to end??? I am so tired of having a tummy ache, constantly feeling like I need to throw up and about 25% of the time actually doing so! Yes, I know, it's supposed to end soon but as I get closer and closer to the second trimester time just seems to be going by more and more slowly...HURRY UP ALREADY! I am tired of this trimester of hell. Ooh, ooh, ooh, I saw my GP the other day and he was feeling around my belly (thought I might have a UTI) and he said that he can totally feel my uterus popping up past my pelvic bone. I think this means that I AM as far along as I think. Hmm, maybe if my OB actually examined me for a change he would have noticed this to. My GP also told me that if I come back in two week he will set up the doppler so I can hear the heartbeat! Woo hoo.
January 12, 2008
It's been a big week, but also one filled with disappointment. I have actually be so upset this week that I decided to wait to write this until I was calmer. We had our first ultrasound. It was really cool seeing that tiny body fast asleep inside of me (of course baby had to be sleeping instead of jumping around-just like his mommy *L*). It was a lot quicker than I was thinking it would be though (maybe five minutes) and when she measured the heartbeat she didn't turn the sound on for us to hear. That really disappointed me. I REALLY want to hear that tiny heart beat. Also, the technician gave us the negatives instead of actual pictures. That took a lot of problem solving in order to get copies that I could show loved ones. The next day was my second OB appointment. I am not exaggerating...we waited TWO HOURS to see him for less than five minutes!!! This was only the second visit and second time this has happened. I make an effort to be on time, my Dr should too. Besides, if he is only seeing his patients for less than five minutes...WHY IS HE RUNNING TWO HOURS BEHIND? The Dr said that the baby measured at only 9wk3 days...5 days less than thought. I have decided that since u/s measurements can be off by up to 3 days and it is only a 5 day difference, for now, I will keep the original due date in my head. Besides, from what I hear they are going to change the due date more than a few times over the course of the pregnancy. So after making us wait for over 2 hours, he then proceeded to upset me even more. When I asked him about my showing so soon he was insistent that there was no possible way that I could be showing this early on-that it was just fat! I have only gained 2 lbs, and with that I have gained 3.5 cup sizes, plus I know my own body and this is NOT how my body stores/holds its fat! My belly flaps down. I get an overhang......what I have now is firming upwards. It is a very clear preggers belly. Apparently, my Dr has forgotten that each pregnancy is different! He then told me to cut down on sugars...I CAN'T EAT ANYTHING SUGARY IT MAKES ME PUKE!!!! Even fruit is too much for me these days. This is most definetly NOT the reason for my belly. Every complaint or comment I had, his response was " that happens." On top of all that...he didn't check the heart beat, nor did he do the pelvic exam he said he was going to do this visit. I left feeling so completely unimportant and invalidated. :-( This is the person who is supposed to be supporting me and making me feel safe and secure throughout my pregnancy...although he is taking excellent medical care of me...he sure sucks at taking care of my emotional needs. One more visit, this time I am going to tell him how I feel. If it happens this time I am done. I am finding a new Dr!
January 6, 2008
I am really really really really sick of constantly being exhausted. I slept for over 12 hrs last night and can barely keep my eyes open. It's really affecting my life and my job. I keep almost falling asleep at work. I can't be doing that! The smallest activity takes everything I have. On the plus side, I haven't thrown up in a few days! We are going for our first ultrasound on Wednesday. I think maybe seeing that tiny body bouncing around inside of me and hearing that little heartbeat is going to make all this obnoxiousness totally worth it. At least I hope it does. See the OB the next day...I have so many questions for him. I just hope I can remember them all.
January 5, 2008
I am extremely annoyed now! I had this whole big thing written and needed to go back and edit it..would it let me? No! Everything I had written just disappeared. Let's try this again *siiiiiigh*
Things are going more smoothly this week. Although I am beyond exhausted-to the point where standing up is too hard sometimes and I fell asleep at work (and got caught) and my morning sickness hasn't eased up any yet, my moods seem to be stabling out. I have been more weepy these last few days but no longer want to kill everything that moves, let alone breathes. This is a good thing. I can work while sobbing. Not so much while I want to commit murder *L*
My g/f came over for a visit the other day. She pampered me. Took me for coffee, got me a pedicure then went with me to book a massage. We then went back to my place, she took one look at my apartment which I haven't had the ability to clean (too busy passing out and/or hurling) and said "this is disgusting you can't live like this" and promptly grabbed the vacuum and started cleaning. I was soooo thankful for the help. Two days before that I had had a massive meltdown because I couldn't stand the mess anymore but just didn't have it in me to clean. THANK YOU KIRSTY.
December 30, 2007
HOLY CRAZY HORMONAL MOODSWINGS BATMAN!!!!!!
December 29, 2007
Had a scare yesterday! Was visiting Kevin's family (and him) on the island and while peeing at the mall I discovered that I WAS SPOTTING. I went into an absolute panic. With such a HUGE history in all families connected of miscarriage I FREAKED. Thank God for Kevin being there, my ever calming force. Called the OB was told to go see a DR and YAY everything was fine. My cervix was nice and closed and there were no more traces of blood. I don't ever remember being so scared in my life. It totally made me realize just how attached I am to this little one already. It would have devistated me if something had gone wrong. THANK GOD my little one is okay!!!!!
December 22, 2007
Some people really piss me off ! It's so hard for me to grasp how people don't get how much of a gift having a child is. Children are a gift from God and should be treated as such! When people CHOSE to do things that could harm their child (in utero or not) they are taking the most precious gift they could ever be given and stomping all over it, then swishing it around in dog poop and stomping on it some more...oh yeah and setting it on fire after all that. They wouldn't do this with any other gift so why do they CHOSE to do this to the most wonderful, amazing, and precious one they could EVER be given? It boggles me that there are SO MANY people out there who can't have a child, who have been trying forever, and who have lost their child and yet the people who are blessed with this gift treat it as if it were nothing!
December 20, 2007
GAH!!! Apparently my body is already starting to grow. I can hardly do up my jeans today and I am starting to get stretch marks on my hips.Then again I am really short and the tiniest change in my body always makes a difference for me. 5 pounds usually means going up or down a size. It's only 7 weeks though...what am I gonna do? I'm thinking I might be needing to get a belly band soon. *siiiigh*
December 18, 2007
Today hasn't been too rough. Almost puked a few times, once during the middle of a staff meeting ( that was fun) and my body also decided that it wanted to try to pass out while I was standing in the middle of a store. But, thank God. My permanent position that was supposed to be official as of October was finally made official!!!! YAY I don't have to worry about maternity leave anymore. Plus, I was only going to get two days off in a row during the holidays and I managed to switch shifts with someone and actually have a whole three days off. I know for some of you that isn't a big deal but for me more than one day off in a row is HUGE. I can't wait to have three whole days to sleep.
Boobs aren't hurting as much today. The night after I wrote my last note I couldn't sleep at all because my boobs hurt so much that it was making me cry. I got myself a night bra though and seems to have made a big difference. All in all, compared to how the last few days have gone, it's been a good day. Thank God for such small but needed things.
December 16, 2007
Today was the worst "pregnant" day I have had so far. I have to leave work after only being there for a little over an hour because I was so dizzy, nauseous and woozy that I could barely function let alone stand. The Dr told me a few days ago that this is a combination of being preggers and having the flu. To top it all off....MY BOOBS HAVE BEEN KILLING ME. They have hurt today the worst they have hurt yet. Everything hurts them. Plus I swear they have grown overnight because suddenly my new much bigger bra (THAT I JUST BOUGHT) isn't fitting. I did find something that has helped a bit though....sea bands. No more dizzyness and the nausea and woozyness have lessened...took a few hours to kick in fully though.
December 15, 2007
Okay enough with the needing to puke already. Yesterday I had the grand pleasure of puking at work. That was fun...try explaining it when you haven't announced that you are pregnant yet.
I swear if it's a symptom I have experienced it. All I want lately is SALT. I swear if I could cover Kevin in salt and lick it off of him I would. I can't even handle any other kinds of tastes at the moment. I went to eat an oreo this morning and it seriously repulsed me.
Today I also found out that a friend of mine from way way way long ago is also preggers and is a few weeks ahead of me...yay someone else to share my experiences and gripes with :-)
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Holly28, you earned 5 BB`s because your answer on Melanie07`s question was given the higest rating. Thank you for answering! us-n-kenzie - Monday, 5 May
I have got 7 weeks left (unless I can talk the Dr into moving my C-Section up another week, which I'll find out on Wednesday). I am going to try and work all the way up until the end becasue the guy they hired to take my place is kind of a moron!! So we will probably go on leave at about the same time. Under other circumstances I'd say we could get together and go party, but neither you nor I are going to feel like a weekend away partying! LoL. Glad you are feeling good and be careful moving this weekend - dont overdo it.
us-n-kenzie - Monday, 5 May
Hey girl! Just wanted to check in and say Hey! Hope all is well with you.
Sowright - Monday, 5 May
Hang in there!
leenakaye28 - Monday, 5 May
I totally understand the feet thing. Are yours more in your heels? Some nights I could scream my heels are just throbbing. Oh what fun! Good luck, hope you feel better soon.
KIMIKIMIKIM - Friday, 2 May
man I should move to Canada...half my family lives there anyways!! LOL!! We can take 7 months off but only 3 months after and 4 weeks before are paid and it is only like 55% of your pay which sucks!! I don't know if I even want to come back after I have the baby!!!
officegirl - Friday, 2 May
Hi Holly
Just read your post about your friend!! I understand, I am overweight, pregnant, due in July. I live in Australia, In a regional City. We have great drs here and maternity ward at the hospital. Here they send you away just because you are overweight regardless of you health!!!!! LAWYERS have much to answer for. I am fighting my trip to the nearest capital city 450kms away :( 4 hours drive nearly 5. I hate to think what that trip will be like with a newborn :( to bring home.No family or friends just a great big hospital with trainee drs.scares the *@#@ out of me.....I really don't understand there attitude it really is unfair :( I have had a great pregnancy I have not gained any weight I have lost some!!!, seems to make no difference. Best of luck to your friend and yourself .....Office girl :)
NOLABaby - Friday, 2 May
I have those "I'm done" days as well, my back has that feeling all the time now. I do like seeing the little kick and make my belly jump though. A new trick which is quite funny! Good luck on the last 100 days!
kimikimikim - Friday, 2 May
My belly is super uncomfy!!! And sometimes when I stand up I feel like the baby is going to fall right out of me..it is crazy!! Once you get settled in your place everything will seem so much more at ease...I love living with the B/F...I am hoping that I can get off work in June instead of July like I planned I just can't sleep, stand or sit for too long which makes my days so dreadful!! I just don't know how much disability pays and if we can afford for me to be off for that extra time!! Do you know when you are going to take off?
myfirstbb - Thursday, 1 May
hey holly, hows it going? Have you been able to find out the sex of ur baby yet?
holly28 -
holly28, mommy-of-3 earned 5 BB`s because she gave the answer with the highest rating on questionnumber 1208646723 Thank you for your question! holly28 -
holly28, mommy-of-3 earned 5 BB`s because she gave the answer with the highest rating on questionnumber 1208661217 Thank you for your question! KIMIKIMIKIM - Tuesday, 29 April
Hey girly..How are you? How are you feeling??
Caracaya - Tuesday, 29 April
Hey, have you ever found out what you are having yet? If not, when will you finally find out?
Stacey617 - Monday, 28 April
I've been having to go to the bathroom quite often too, but it doesn't burn or irritate me or anything, so I don;t know if it's a new position the baby is in or what, but I'm going pee about every half hour!!
alexes - Monday, 28 April
i love the name Samantha!!
NOLABaby - Sunday, 27 April
Your message about you think you can..ahhhh screw it I KNOW I CAN was awesome! Thanks for the laugh and inspiration!
RandiLee - Friday, 25 April
haha.....I hate you!!! That is so not fair, lol.
Bri - Thursday, 24 April
Mine aren't sensitive at all. I also have three persians and they don't mind at all. The noise really doesn't phase them at all. I'm sure they will adjust.
yummymummy87 - Thursday, 24 April
Hiya well she didnt seem very helpful in the leaflet she gave me it was Do's and don'ts like when getting out of bed bring your knees up and roll out wi ur legs first but bringing ur shoulders up at same time as your feet go to floor and when rolling in bed bring your knees up and roll, use heat or ice packs for ten mins at a time over a two hr period at most where it hurts, try not to do the straddle position ie getting in and out of car and in and out of bath sit first and keep knees together and swing in and out, sit to get dressed,dont put al ur pressure at one side distribute ur weight evenly, have good posture when sitting and standing,dont stay in one position for a long period of time ie sitting, standing etc and do ur exercises and wear ur belt when needs be also measure how far u can open ur legs comfortably nearer to ur due date and let midwife know and people in room when ur in labour....hope that helps other than that nothing u can do!!!
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