Tuesday, 25 Dec

Mommy thinks of You

When I sitting in a chair with a blank stare, Mommy thinks of you

when Im lonely with nothing to do, Mommy thinks of you

when im said, and daddy makes me mad, Mommy thinks of you

when im filled with joy, knowing im carrying my a precious boy, Mommy thinks of you

when in emotional pain, or trying not to go insane, Mommy thinks of you

when i want to be depressed, or overwhelmed with stress, Mommy thinks of you

Just knowing you came to be, and that your special to me, Mommy thinks of you

No matter what happens just know my baby boy, mommy loves and always thinks of you.

Didn't know it until you, but you are mommy's dream come true.

I live for you, and thats the truth.

To my baby boy, Xavier

~~Shari Simmons~~

Tuesday, 19 Feb

Wednesday, 20 Feb

I Love You Xavier Lamar Atkinson! Your My Joy!

Thursday, 6 Mar

Saturday, 8 Mar

Saturday, 15 Mar

Well I went to another ultrasound, and it seems that Xavier is ready and in positon. His head is all the way down my crotch and he is putting alot of pressure there. I hope that he comes out soon cause I can `t take it anymore! I am ready tho see my little precious buddle! Love, Peace, & Hair Grease to all!

May 31, 2008

Haven't updated in a while! But hello ladies. Im finally back! Anyway, I had little Xavier Lamar Atkinson on March 19th. He was 3lbs and 7oz. He was a month early and very small and he had a heart murmur and he had breathing problems, but thanks be unto the Lord Jesus Christ. My son was healed and he was able to come home 1 month and 1 day of his birth. I am so greatful unto to Jesus for him keeping me and my son during that time cause I came to a point where I wanted to commit suicide. But God is Awesome. I am still struggling with some things but I KNOW that I KNOW God is going to change everything around and work in my favor! But thats all. I hope all is well with everyone here and if you know Jesus, keep me in your prayers. God Bless!

Thursday 7/3/08 @ 2:54am (at work)

Hey everyone! Back again to do a little update. Well since I have been on here, Ive had a lot of troubles with my son father. Well things finally got better. We actually became a couple. We got together on 6/2/08 and it was the best for the two to three days we got along. He all of a sudden, out of nowhere started acting funny. He stopped calling and wouldn't even pay attention to me when i came around. And everytime I would ask him what was wrong or if he was mad at me, he would say nothing but still treat me the same way. I couldn't take it anymore so i stopped calling him and lo and behold, he didn't call me either. Still to this day, we haven't really talked neither have we spent any time together. So I guess we're not together at all. To make a long story short. Enough is enough! I am not putting myself thru this anymore. Im going to let him be free to do what ever he feels. I don't have the strength or the patience to figure out whats going on with him anymore! IM DONE! But on a more lighter side, Xavier is doing Great! He is my all. He is the reason why I smile, aside from Jesus. I Love my son more than anyone knows. He is my little sunshine! But until next time ladies. Im moving on. So the next update will be about someone new! Enjoy Life, you only get one!;)

Wednesday 7/9/08

Well Ladies. Here is another week. The summer is going by so fast. Its crazy how last year around this time, I was care free. Living the single life, with no kids and no responsibilties! But OH HOW THAT HAS CHANGED! lol Anyway, its a blessing! Having something to look forward to seeing when I come home from work is definitely a joy! (My son, Xavier) He has really been biting on his fingers lately. He gets really grumpy too at times. I think my baby may be teething. I actually felt something on the bottom of his mouth the other day! When people say they grow up fast, they really grow up fast. Well monday 7/7/08, Xavier's dad called to see what Xavier was doing! So I asked him if he wanted to see him? So I brought him over to see his dad, and Xavier's father thought that I was going to stay and spend time with him as well! ????????????????????? Im like, NOOOOOOOOOOOO. I don't know where his mind was but he wasn't in his right one. He can not stop talking to me and then when he gets ready start talking to me again, that is not how it works! What a Jerk! I can't take him. He thinks he can pick me up and Put me down, whenever he gets ready! Sorry, but things don't work like that! I love him but Im too hurt to even think about us being on good terms again. If its Gods will, He will change for good, and Things will get a world of a lot better with us! Well thats it for now!

P.S. If he dont treat you the way he should, then let him go! HE AINT WORTH IT!

8/8/08 4:59am At Work Of Course!

Well just a little update with me. Me and My son father are together. We just recently went thru some things where we weren't talkin. But He said we never broke up. So to make a long story short, we are back together and we are very happy! I Love him sooo much! I can't actually see myself without him in my life. He is being an awesome father as well as an awesome partner! I really have seen a significant change in him.Im just so afraid that something will go wrong or he'll go back to his old ways, so I am always on the defense. I know I need to relax and learn to trust him but its hard. I will eventually. Im just praying that God really saves him and stop him from smoking and cursing. Things will work out just the way God intends for it to happen. I just need to relax and let Him have control of everything in my life. But its difficult to not worry and stress and just give it to Jesus. Just please pray for me! And as for my Love Of My Life, Xavier, he is doing so good. He is so cute and the best baby a mother can have. I pray that God gets the glory out of his little life, because if it hadn't been for Jesus, my little Prince would not have been here. I Love my little family so much.( My son, my boyfriend, and his two kids)

P.S. Trouble don't last always, but unfortunately neither does happiness. Always enjoy the Moment.