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J9
	Age: 29 Country: UK Province/region: England City: London Partner: husband Children: Pregnant: Trying to conceive Due date: 09 0 ,0000 Occupation: Child/Educational Psychologist
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Hi everyone and thanks for stopping by my page.

My name is Janine and I live in the UK with my lovely husband . We met in 1999 and got married in August 2004. We decided to take the plunge and try for a baby in December 2007 and hit the jackpot first time! We were absolutely over the moon and all was going well with the pregnancy until my 12 week scan on 25th Feb 08. In a devastating blow we discovered that our bub had Anencephaly, a fatal neural tube defect which causes the head and brain not to form - a condition incompatible with life. We had no choice but to say goodbye to our little bundle of joy and opt for a d&c on the 29th Feb. We were obviously crushed by our experience but are slowly getting back to normal. There are good days and bad days but the hardest thing of all is not knowing 'why' this happened to us...

Our Angel is now in heaven and we have taken many blessings from the 3 months our little baby had with us. What follows is a poem a lovely friend from this site sent to me. It brought comfort to me and I hope it will do the same for others who have experienced a loss.

I did not die young.

I lived the span of my life in your body,

And within your love.

There are many who have lived long lives

And have not been as loved as me.

If you would honour me, then speak my name,

And number me among your family.

If you would honour me, then try to live in love,

For in that love, I live.

Never ever doubt that we will meet again.

Until that happy day, I will grow with God

And wait for you

If you are interested, all my updates are in my blog section on the right.

Best of Luck to everyone trying for a baby and Congratulations to all those with a little bundle of joy on the way!
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GreenWood2006 - 5.6 hours ago
Ooh thanks for the bargain alert.... Have 2 unused test just waiting in the cupboard at the mo that I got in some kind of deal a while ago in Superdrug, so all kitted out for this cycle! AF is due in 9 days yet though.... Ah the wait. Grrrr. Other than that the antibiotics have done the trick so all is tickety boo with that, except that they have given me a yeast infection. Urgh... Will keep you posted. Em x

wedward - 7.5 hours ago
BTW- I love the poem you have on your page. It is so comforting and I really believe in it...

wedward - 7.5 hours ago
Gestational Diabetes test. You have to drink a really sweet glucose drink and then in one hour they take blood to see if you are producing enough insulin. If you fail the one hr, which I did, you will go back for a 3 hr test. You again drink the glucose and they take blood every hour. That's what I passed. Thank Goodness. Otherwise it would have meant a special diet and pricking your finger after everytime you eat to check your levels. Or it could be worse, insulin injections!!!

GreenWood2006 - 14.3 hours ago
Hey. What a wonderful 30th birthday gift that would be!!! Glad to hear you're well... I'm doing fine. The antibiotics did the trick in no time and now I feel right as rain. They couldn't really say how it may have affected our chances this month.... But Rachel (chellie2307) says a friend of hers had antibiotics and an x-ray in her 2ww and is now 16 weeks pregnant! So I guess there is some hope... Take care. Em x

wedward - 24.6 hours ago
Hey there, I got my GD test results back just a minute ago and I passed!!! Yea!! Doing good. Good to hear from you. How are you? Keep me posted on things...

gladek - 25.6 hours ago
Thank you so much, all was fine, thank goodness. All measurements within normal range, they adjusted back to my original due date (Nov 23, instead of the 28th the first u/s tech said), and I found out I am having a BOY! I will have the pics up this afternoon.
Hopefully you will be having some good luck of your own soon, you deserve it!

TracyB - 26.3 hours ago
Cleaning out the shed - yuck - sounds like too much work on a weekend off!! :o) My hubby has relatives where we're headed (North Carolina - Smokey Mountains) - it is really beautiful there. I very much need some rest and relaxation! So glad I don't have to worry about O strips right now, can just sit back, relax, and wait for AF NOT to appear! :)

TracyB - 30.1 hours ago
Sounds like you guys will definitley capture the date! Good luck to you!! I hope this is YOUR month!! :o) My AF is due June 2nd, I think I O'd this past Saturday May 17, so if I did, then today I am 3dpo. We shall see! We are going out of town this Friday through Sunday - so it will be nice and relaxing, and hopefully stress-free getting away.

gladek - 36.1 hours ago
Thank you so much for your comment on my blog! I am feeling much better, and have my scan today. As you must know, it is nervewracking, especially after you have had bad news at one, but hopefully, all will be well.
I am wishing you the best, too!

GreenWood2006 - 39.3 hours ago
Hey Janine. Hope you['re doing ok. See you haven't updated your blog for a week or so..... How are you feeling? Thinking of you.... Em x

TracyB - 46 hours ago
I just read that poem thing above - wow - that is REALLY neat! Love it!

Happy upcoming O time to you!! :o)

kwc - Monday, 19 May
Hi there! Just stopping by to say hey and see how your weekend went. At least you are done with your day...It is just a bit past lunch here. Our weekend was good. Trying to get my going out of my system because I hope to start the infertility treatments next month which means in about a week. Keep your fingers crossed. Baby dust to you...

TracyB - Monday, 19 May
Hi Janine - doing good. Yep - in the 2ww now - AF due June 2, fingers crossed. :o) Your Mike sounds like a sweety! Men deal with it a little differently than we do. Sometimes it takes them awhile to start saying things about the loss. I'm glad he is opening up a bit for you. Good luck this month!! I hope and pray it is your month too! Have a great day!

grexach - Sunday, 18 May
Thanks. I will take all the good luck wishes that come my way! :)

AprilChristine - Friday, 16 May
everything is going great. I'm on to 35 weeks tomorrow, and I can hardly believe it. I get teary eyed just thinking I'll finally hold my baby soon. my shower is tomorrow, so that's exciting.

glad to hear you doing good. it's very sweet of you to check up on me. :)

TracyB - Friday, 16 May
Hi Janine! THANK GOODNESS! Last night I got a dark line on the O strips. Not as dark as test line, but I bet it will be today! That really helped make me feel better. So looks like my body is getting back on track. Thank you God! How are you doing?

firstimemom82208 - Friday, 16 May

vicki - Wednesday, 14 May
J9, so sorry for your loss. It was so hard when I lost my angel. I had three ladies in my department all pg and due when I was, so not only did I get to hear about their aches and pains I get to watch thier children grow. They are all a year old now. All I know is that God must have a reason to have taken our angels so soon and all I can do is hope that he will bless us soon with another. Hang in there.

lea - Wednesday, 14 May
hun i hope for you that it happens then. you've got all the excitement to look forward to. yes i think trying a few days before you ovulate is a good plan. thats what i did and my bf left for a few days on ovulation day. it can live for 4 days cant it. your right i have come far. the accident happend in june & had op on 7th july so nearly a year to recover. thats why we thought we might as well get pregnant as i still need to take it easy. away till weeeknd have a good one xxxx

TARAJO - Wednesday, 14 May
Well, I tested this morning, which is 5 days past Af, and got a very clear BFN. So no AF yet, but theres always next month!!! Thanks for commenting!!! It will be my turn soon!! Congrats again, and I will keep in touch!!!

tto - Wednesday, 14 May
Trust me- they are thinking about you too and don't really know what to say or how to act around you- especially when they get really close to the date and have the babies. Don't know if you've ever talked about it with them, but it may not be a bad idea to tell them how you feel. Bittersweet is perfect- happy for them, sad for you, but still want to share the joy. They'll understand and actually talking about it and getting it out in the open will help relieve the awkardness and fear. I've been on both sides- I found out I was PG 4 days after one of my best friends lost hers. I know how you feel- it really sucks for you, but you would never wish it on anyone else, or want anyone to enjoy their pregnancy less because of what happened to you. Gosh, it's all so complicated- I just wish we all could keep our babies and never have to deal with this. Hope you are PG soon!

tto - Wednesday, 14 May
Just read your post about having two friend due when you should've been. The same thing happened to me with one friend. But actually, it is kinda neat (now that I have had time to be ok with it). It was 7 years ago, and through the years, I get to watch her little girl grow up and change. It reminds me of what my son may be doing in heaven (if they do the same things there). It helps to think about it that way, but initially it will be hard. But that's ok- you don't have to be ok all the time.

lea - Wednesday, 14 May
hi hun, got it now with the abbreviations ;0) it will happen soon enough. well i slept with my foot raised on pilllows last night with a flight sock on & swellings gone down but now its too tender to touch. when i was away last week i got my foot caught up whilst all my weight was on it. screamed out & my bf had to come & lift me up. problem is i dont have feeling in that foot so i didnt know i had done myself damage until now when the tenderness is showing through. total nightmare although i cant moan, i was in a wheelchair last year & didnt know if i'd walk again. nearly there though. i am already getting flickers of movement in that calf, give it a month or two hopefully the nerves will have grown back. gota enjoy your last day in the sun!!! you are trying to conceive around your fertile time arent you? ie few days before you ovulate? xx

roosa - Wednesday, 14 May
Janine, thanks for sending the poem onto me. It is really nice - and true.

Wow, you didn't ovulate until day 22? That is amazing. I actually thought I was ovulating on Saturday day 12 because I got a pain in my side which I get every month about ovulation time... But I have been taking tests since Friday and still no positive. I do take them in the afternoon, like it says in the instructions. They were some cheap ones I bought though so I wonder if they may not work properly.

I get what you mean about taking it easy and not stress too much about TTC. I realize too that although I really want to be pregnant, I don't feel like TTC too full on yet, the sex part I mean :) I guess that can take time too. So yes, I am trying to relax about it all - and take it one step at a time. I am sure that will be easier said than done though :)

How are you feeling?

xox Karin

ToesCrossed! - Wednesday, 14 May
Thanks for that! The doctor did call with a BFP, but it was discovered after I got there for myfirst prenatal visit that there was something wrong with my original hCG test. I'm not pregnant.

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