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Hi everybody! My name is Jennifer but I go by Jenn. Anything but Jenny...lol : ) I am originally from New Orleans La. And, yes I was there for hurricane Katrina. She is the reason I am where I am today. Good things did come of it though! I am now married, stepmom and pregnant : ) I am around 28 weeks prego today. I have a few different due dates. I'm going by the one in the middle..August 15th! This is my first baby : ) The baby was shy at the first ultrasound but the dr thought she saw a boy part (60 % boy). My next ultrasound is next week!! : ) I was hoping for a boy...especially b/c I have so many boy things already.

I married my high school sweetheart on Jan. 30th. We took a cruise w/ 28 family members from New Olreans to Cozumel Mexico. We were married at Playa Mia on the beach. It was soooo beautiful and lotsa fun. I still had a blast even though I couldn't drink. My husband has a 6 year old daughter...Aubrey-Anna. She had a big part in the wedding. She is so excited about being a big sis! I tried to get her in to take the sibling class but she says that she already knows everything (just like her dad)...lol.

March 22, 2008

I'm happy to announce that i'm pregnant again! Gabe is going to be a big brother!! The babies will be 15 months apart...so i'm gonna be one busy momma!!

May 24, 2008 :I'm finally over the ms! Thank god! I lost a few pounds but i'm back to my regular weight. I gained 45 pounds w/ my son. I ate anything and everything. This time around i'm going to watch what I eat. Plus chasing a 9 month old will keep me busy busy. He is into EVERYTHING right now. I still can't believe he's going to be a big brother. He was actually a twin and we lost the twin in the beginning of the pregnancy. I'm just happy to have one perfect baby and another on the way! I can't wait to find out the sex on June 2nd! Hopefully baby is not shy. I have a feeling its a boy but my step daughter said its def. a girl. Either way i'll be happy! : )

Its been a few months since i've been on this site. I lost the baby at 17 weeks back on May 27th. It was very devistating and still is. I know God has his reasons and one day i will find out why he wanted my angel up in heaven w/ him. THe baby has another brother/sister angel up there and a cousin. At least i know baby is in the best place!

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Wanda - Monday, 9 June
So So sorry to hear of your loss, i read your profile and know what you must be going through. My baby is also one of twins. I lost the one baby at 7weeks and 4 days, just after i heard both heard beats, i was shocked and in such a state. But after a while l relazed there is still one left and i have to focus on the well being of this little one. Again sorry for your loss, just know your little one is looking after you now and he or she is in good hands. All the best to u and your family. If u need to talk, i'll be here.

fruitymum - Monday, 9 June
I am sorry for your loss, heaven has gained an angel, i had 2 iscarriages last year, 1 blow and ten it happened 3 months later again, and absolutly shattered me, why me?? why my baby?? that is the question that goes round and round your head! 3 months after that i wa told that along all of this i had picked up an infection that had damaged my tubes and it was unlikly that they would work again, again my world collapsed, i got through this somehow and time healed little although every sinle day i would spend a litle time thinking what id lost and what wouldve been! 4mnths later i became pregnant- i am now 17 weeks this baby is a miracle baby, just wanted to tell you abit of my story so you might be able to see that even after loss after loss after los, that god will give you your baby eventually and your baby will be perfect and you will be ready for it and stong enough!!
I hpe this helps a little, when i lost my babies i wanted everyone to talk about it ad think about them too, i needed to tell everyone , but then when anyone did talk about it i wanted them to shut up-what right do they have!! he emotions you go though are every emotion going! and it used to really annoy me when people said to me, you will heal with time, but that really is the truth, time heals and you WILL be happy i promice , your baby is in good hands!
Please contact me if you need me, there are so many people who understand what you are going through!!xxxxx

redmama - Monday, 9 June
 Sorry to hear about your loss. I had a miscarriage a year ago. Unforunatly it is more common then we all would like to think. Some things are just out of our control. Hang in there, take time to let yourself heal and grief. We will all be thinking about you!

cherries - Monday, 9 June
I have had two misscarriages..its so hard and I am so sorry for your loss..there will be good days and bad days and it comes in waves but I promise it gets easier.. don't give up!! Don't blame yourself and try to focus on all the postivies in your life

vipbaby68123 - Monday, 9 June
oh homey I am so sorry. I know sort of what you are going through, I lost a baby at not quite two months, and had the D/C last June. If you would like to talk, I'm here. I'm jen.

elizabethf - Sunday, 8 June
I wrote you earlier, but wanted to share this quote with you. My sister sent me a card after I had my my first miscarriage and it said,
"What the heart has once owned and had, it shall never lose".

darlinburnett - Sunday, 8 June
Hi, I am so sorry about the baby. I had two miscarriages last year. My doctor told me the same thing he told you, that sometimes it just doesn't work out. My husband and I planted a tree for them so that we would always remember. I also have a friend who believes in reincarnation and thinks that when a person miscarries, it's because that little soul just wasn't ready to come down to earth yet, but that eventually it will. That was comforting to me for some reason. The good news is, I am now almost 17 weeks pregnant : ) I will be thinking of you....

LuckyLouise - Sunday, 8 June
Im really sorry to hear of your loss hun, Ive had 2 misscarrages a few years back and am now 16weeks pregnant. It does get easier I promise, but you will ALWAYS greive for your little one. I was never given a reason for any of my miscarrages. I hope your doing ok darling!!!!xXx

vanessag7 - Sunday, 8 June
I'm so sorry for your loss, it's what every one of us fears most and I'm truly sorry it has become a reality for you. God bless

tribegirl08 - Sunday, 8 June
i am so sorry to hear of your loss...you will be in my thoughts...

christina08baby - Sunday, 8 June
So sorry far you. I did have a miscarriage about 10 years ago at about 10 weeks; I had a blighted ovum. If you need to talk I am here.

nessi - Sunday, 8 June
i hope it make you feel a bit better. keep in touch.

nessi - Sunday, 8 June
these are just a few poems that helped me a lil.
From the very beginning I loved you, As I made plans to hold you and rock you: You were tiny and helpless as you lay in my womb, But something went wrong and soon you were gone; My young heart was broken, my tears fell like rain, I'd never known such heartache and pain. I wonder who you look like, me or your dad, Do you have my smile and his eyes? Would you have been big and tall or tiny and small? We had dreams for you that reached to the skies. It was long, long ago and I still miss you so, Thanks to Jesus, I'll see you in heaven. I'll hold you in heaven someday, When my trials on earth pass away; The angels have rocked you, the Father watches over you, I know you're waiting for me; I never could hold you or tell you "Goodbye", But I'll hold you in heaven someday. Go ahead and mention my child, The one who died you know. Don't worry about hurting me further, The depth of my pain doesn't show. Don't worry about making me cry. I'm already crying inside. Help me to heal by releasing The tears that I try to hide. I'm hurt when you just keep silent, Pretending she didn't exist. I'd rather you mention my child, Knowing that she has been missed. You asked me how I was doing. I say "pretty good" or "fine." But healing is something ongoing. I feel it will take a lifetime.



I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard Him say.

"A Mother has a baby"
This we know is true
"But God can you be a Mother,
When your baby's not with you?"

"Yes, you can," He replied
With confidence in His voice
"I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay."

"I just don't understand this God
I want my baby to be here."
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.

"I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child's smile,
With all the other children and say...

'We go to Earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come strait here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much,
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
Mommy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'

"So you see my dear sweet ones,
your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lesson's through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
it's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start

Though some on earth may not realize,
you are a Mother.
Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one!"



"I'm a Mother too" she said
"Although I don't have a child
But in my heart I know the baby I carried
For those few short weeks
Is still with me and is mine
Please don't judge me
Because I don't have a child you can see
Don't say the life I lead is selfish
You cannot know about the emptiness and pain
Which may diminish with time
But will always be there
I have a child in my heart
And I'm a Mother too!"







Rest in peace, my little angels
Your life was over before it begun.
You were with me for not much time,
fOUR short months that you were mine.
Then one day you had to go,
The reason why we'll never know.
The day you were born, I knew in my heart,
You will always be with me though we're apart.
You were so tiny but perfect to me,
Little fingers and toes, perfect as can be.
I held you in my arms, I didn't want to let go,
Here's a few things I want you to know.........
When you left you took a part of me,
Something that no one can see.
You have my heart with you always
Even on the cloudiest days.
Your daddy and nanny love u 2
Even though they never saw you.
When you felt mommy and daddy give you that kiss.........we knew that u were going to be forever missed.
You're forever in our hearts.











To my little sweet angels way up above
I send you lots and lots of love
God visited us a little while ago
He took you away and left me so
With a broken heart I now live
And for that I just cannot forgive
So empty inside yet so full of pain
What on earth was he expecting to gain?
I know I shouldn't be angry with the man above
And I'll try not to be for you my love
I'm sure he's taking good care of you
With his Angels in heaven there too
Oh it hurts so much to know you are gone
I think of you all day long
I know that you are in spirit somewhere
And you'll continue to grow with care
I want you back but I know it cant be
So for now only in my dreams I shall see
Your baby face and how beautiful you truely are
Your spirit is close yet feels so far
My little sweet angel way up above
You have a place in my heart so full of love
I really do wish you were still here
But I can try to rest if I know you are near

nessi - Sunday, 8 June
omgosh i am so very sorry for your lost i know exactly how it feels to loose a child as i to lost a set of twins at 16 weeks in novemebr of 07 and the doctor just told me "these things happen" well sweetie the pain of losing a child will never go away but itll fade with due time. take your time and grieve your child. it hurts me becuase i know i can only relate to the pain that your going through. what helped me was praying , reading poems and just taking the time out to remember my angel babies. remember the lord knows what he does and their alwaya a reason for everything that happens. so keep your ead up and if you need any advice support or just feel like venting write me and i will listen and respond immediately. take good care of yourself.

JeansDontFit - Sunday, 8 June
God bless you, I can't imagine what you are feeling but everything will be ok..xoxo

firstbun - Sunday, 8 June
I am so sorry, it is so very sad. I hope you can find some comfort somewhere soon. xx

rubberduck36 - Sunday, 8 June
well no one can tell you how to feel but you, i know that i tried for years to have a child, and when i found out after a soccer game that i indeed was pregrant, 10 mins later, the doctor came back and told us that it looked like an early miscarriage or and etopic, i told her not to pull the plug yet, i still had that small hope, until i started to bleed bad, and they stick a needle in me and no more baby..it's hard you search for reasons and there is none, and you want to know why and no one can tell you. SO i went with god...and hoped for another..I sorry for you lose...i will pray for you

mumzy - Saturday, 7 June
i am so sorry,thinking of u honey all my love to u and your family xxx

mamabear36 - Saturday, 7 June
I am so sorry to hear of your loss!You have been in my thoughts since your last message. I will keep you and your family in my prayers! I cant imagine the pain you are going through....just be whatever you need to be,and grieve. If you ever need to talk Im here.

blackliner - Saturday, 7 June
well what can i say? I also had a miscarraige, actually a still born because i was about 23 weeks pregnant. It was the hardest thing in my life to deal with, the whole pregnancy went perfectly until i had my ultrasound at 20 wks, then they noticed the low fluid, the baby was under developed by 3 wks, there was fluid in the lungs and stomach, and there was a cyst typr thing on the babys neck that was the size of the baby. They told me my baby had no chance of survival and its heart would stop any day. My baby held on for about 3 more weeks before his little heart stopped.
I couldnt understand why this was happening, i mean i was healthy stopped drinking and smoking and ate so well. the docs say it was like getting stuck with lightning, i just wish that would have happened instead. it does get easier after time but i dont forget how i felt when he was inside me movin around or when the doc said there isnt a heartbeat or the day he was delivered lifeless. i still feel the exact way each time i remember.
i know God has his plan for me and i like to think that he put me in that position because he knew i was strong enoiugh to make it through and maybe angels need to be born but not live on this earth, i dont know what it will all be about, but i am stronger somehow im sure. i am pregnant again and nersous sometimes but i try to be happy most.
i am really sorry that you had to go through losing your child, i know there is no other pain greater, but time will allow you to live your life and i have learned its ok to remember even though it makes you sad. if you ever need to talk i am here.

cluck77 - Saturday, 7 June
Nothing I can say will take away the pain but you are not alone, I mc twice last year at ten and seven weeks, you will never forget but it does get easier with time. I am ever so sorry for your loss and hope that one day in the future your dreams come true x

celena - Saturday, 7 June
http://www.lifeafterloss.org.uk/memorial.php

This site really helped me when i miscarried in jan i was nine weeks.hope it helps if you ever want to talk im here all the best.

mommy2anangel - Saturday, 7 June
i am so sorry for your loss. i suffered 2 miscarriages last year, then with my third pregnancy... i gave birth to my daughter and watched her pass away in my arms an hour later. i understand this will be a very difficult time for you. attending your church support group/class is a very good idea. im keeping you in my prayers. take care iof yourself.

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