Friday, 22 Feb

This is my first pregnancy. I am so nervous that something will go wrong. Yesterday I had an ultrasound that confirmed a heartbeat of 166 and she told me I was 8 weeks and 4 days pregnant. I also have a tilted uterus, but she said that with time it should fix itself. I was so happy to see the heartbeat and it made the pregnancy feel real. My main symptoms are feeling exhausted, hungry 24/7, and having sore boobs. Overall, I haven `t had much MS but this makes me nervous because I feel like I should be sick. I guess I shouldn `t complain and just try to enjoy this, but I cannot wait until my belly gets bigger and I can feel the baby move. I need that reassurance that everything is going to be okay. I also don `t really want to eat meat right now- . I am trying to stay away from peanut butter because I have a lot of allergies and they say to avoid peanuts if you do because of the severity of this allergy. Anyhow, best wishes to all of you September moms- I cannot wait- 7 more months seems too far away!!! :)

Tuesday, 26 Feb

have felt a bit sick over the last few days- cannot really eat a lot of meat- totally makes me feel sick. I am so tired. Breaking out in pimples like crazy- I hate it...but it will all be worth it.

Sunday, 2 Mar

Today feeling MS all day. NOt sure why I wanted this symptom at all. I feel horrible. I have also been so bloated lately. I hope that goes away!!!

Wednesday, 5 Mar

Well I am so sick with a cold right now. Took 2 days off of work and feeling worst by the day! I don `t want to take any medications even if they are safe because I want this to be a completely natural pregnancy. I am having a hard time, but I am surviving.I had my first OBGYN appt. yesterday and I got to hear the heartbeat. That was an awesome feeling. I was praying so hard that I would be able to hear it because they said that sometimes it is hard to detect so early. I also found out that in my city they do not do epidurals, next appt at the end of the month they will discuss options with me, but this really scares me!!! Maybe it is for the better? We will see...

Saturday, 8 Mar

Had an appt. with a midwife on thursday. (I am trying to decide between the gyn/obst. and a midwife)- Hard decision for me. Anyhow, she could not find the heartbeat this time and all I am doing now is worrying that something is wrong since I have been sick. I do not get to have an US until the 19th which seems so far away. I keep waking up sweating and am worried that I am cooking my little peanut. I hope that this is normal because I am not sure what to do. I go to bed cold and wake up sweating and really hot. Oh the joys. I am starting to gain some weight in my stomach- just look really chubby now. I feel great other than being sick and I only get MS when I am hungry- so I try to eat often. I have had crazy junk food craving and made a huge batch of caramel corn and ate half of the whole batch to myself. Now I feel guilty! :)

Saturday, 8 Mar

I feel more comfortable with an OB/GYN because I know that they are medically qualified especially in relation to any complications. I like the idea of midwives however because they stay with you throughout the entire process (unlike the ob/gyn)and are more personal and caregiving. I am worried because this is my first pregnancy and they do not offer epidurals in my city. Not sure what to do but I have to decide soon because the midwives have a waiting list (to let other mother `s to be have a chance).

Saturday, 8 Mar

p.s: on antibiotics for an upper respiratory tract infection and feeling a lot better today!

Tuesday, 11 Mar

I am so tired today and can `t stop crying. I cannot stop worrying and wondering if the baby will be ok. I am looking into buying a fetal doppler to help ease some of the panic. I am just afraid that if I cannot find the heartbeat that it will cause me more grief! oh the joys of being a worry wart mom! :s

Friday, 14 Mar

Still worried about the baby- counting down the days for my US. I am praying that everything is okay and that I get to see the little one moving around. We are finally going to tell our families on Easter weekend about the baby. Keeping this secret for 3 months has been torture! They are going to be so excited. We decided on going with an OBGYN for security reasons for this pregnancy. No pregnancy symptoms at all anymore which scares me to death. I keep thinking that pregnancy can `t be this easy! If it is and nothing is wrong, I am blessed.
lots of cramping today- just mild period like cramps and after doing some research I think they are just normal round ligament pains. Weird feeling though. I take it as a sign that my body is doing what it is suppose to. I bought a fetal doppler and should get it by wednesday. I am hoping that it will help calm some of my fears. We will see...

Saturday, 15 Mar

Today felt very sad- worried about the baby- worried about my cramps yesterday and worried about not feeling too many symptoms. I went into the ER because I was starting to panic. They gave me a U/S and I saw the baby moving around and the heart beating. I am so happy right now and so relieved. They took some urine to test in case I have a UTI which may have caused the cramping. We will see.I am so happy! The best part is I get to have my official US on Wednesday and can go in feeling pretty secure- WOO HOO! :)

Sunday, 16 Mar

I feel huge today- my stomach popped!

Wednesday, 19 Mar

One more sleep until I have the ultrasound and testing for downs and other abnormalities. I am nervous but very excited about the US! I am excited about getting a picture and even more excited because we are getting it just in time to show our families when we announce our pregnancy this weekend. I can hardly wait. Haven `t really gained any weight, but my stomach is changing and I can officially say I am starting to show. Overall I feel great. I had a really bad headache yesterday but thank God it is gone today. I ate really bad today and feel guilty. I ate a large fatty donut that a coworker brought in, a cupcake with tons of yummy icing on it, and an Italian extra large cannoli. It was just one of those days and I had NO self-control. I hope that the baby enjoyed it as much as I did and I will try not to do that too often. :)

Thursday, 20 Mar

The appt. went well but the little peanut wasn `t really cooperating and either wouldn `t sit still for a good profile pic (so we never go one) or would not go in the positions that the ultrasound technician needed he/she to. I posted a pic- it is the best she could get of the little bean. It was so cute. We got the see the little face (can `t see it here cause the head is to the side. You can see the legs, belly, head and the arm up with the fingers and thumb at the bottom (it is mostly the hand in the shot so you can see the little fist open). I am so in love already. I can `t wait to tell everyone this weekend and finally be open about the whole pregnancy- it is killing me now!

Thursday, 20 Mar

I forgot some of my paperwork yesterday for my bloodwork. So when I went back to the US technician so she can fill in the appropriate info, she let me know that they bumped my due date up 4 days. I have no idea how this happens, but I am happy to be able to meet my baby 4 days earlier than expected.The baby `s heartbeat was 171 beats per minute.

Monday, 24 Mar

On Sat we brought our parents out for breakfast and surprised them with the news. We put the US pics in an easter egg with our due date on it and announcing our pregnancy. They were very happy. Most of our friends know now and our family. No one can believe we waited this long to tell everyone. Only 6 months for them to wait now! We can `t wait! It feels so real to finally be able to talk to people about it. My stomach is getting more round by the day! :)

Wednesday, 26 Mar

Feeling VERY tired today. I have a headache, backache and am not feeling well period. I am going to bed early tonight!