I am one to change. adapt for the situation. I try not to let go what I hold near and dear within myself and say goodbye to the faults I can't use in a positive way. I look back and see where I've been. see what I've written. I have my faults. the ones I see in others that I can't stand- which I find in myself. I try to be "a better man." I try to be a better human. sometimes it depresses me knowing what kind of a society we live in. knowing how my fellow person acts on a regular basis. what their thoughts are. sometimes when I look at this big picture that is the human race, that is our world, that is this life we let ourselves live... I want to cry. but then, I remember my tears are wasted. a better effort can be put forth, an effort to find others like minded as myself and yet completely different, learn from them, live with them, and try to make my little mark. maybe I was put on this planet to make a difference. maybe I'll make a big one before I go. I won't know until I've tried. and possibly failed. and tried again.

hope for a better tomorrow and a smile from a stranger. humanity isn't lost because "those people" exist. I'm learning how to bring it out of everyone. its not really being nicer or more courteous or more caring or more compassionate or more polite or more respectful [but it is] its about letting go of those pointless motivations, those pointless emotions, those needless fueled thoughts and feeling the sun on your face and the wind on your skin and life in your eyes. its about seeing with your eyes closed and feeling with your mind and tasting this world with your soul. drink up what you put into your life. call it a life force or whatever you may...

hope indeed.