Linda-Taylor
	Age: 23 Country: Province/region: City: Partner: Donald Children: Pregnant: Trying to conceive Occupation:
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Saturday, 16 Feb

So this is my story. My husband and I have been trying to conceive for 2 years. Still no luck. But we will never give up. A child is what is missing in our lives.

Sunday, 17 Feb

So last night my husband and I were dropping his 5 year old son of to his mother, when she informed me she was pregnant.. As soon as those words came from her mouth it made it hard for me to swallow and sick to my stomach.. Of course after we left and was headed for home the tears began to pour as I felt worthless.. I asked myself, `why is it people on drugs, that does not take care of the children they have seem to be so good at getting pregnant, and so hard for people like my husband and me to bear children? ` It is not just her being pregnant that bothered me, It is more that I have wanted this for so long and I am afraid it will never happen.. If anyone has any advice please be a friend and let me no..Confused and hurt..

Sunday, 17 Feb

So today I had a new friend sprinkle some baby dust on me... Lol it has put a smile on my face, and made me have a little more hope.. Ty to all those who have been sending me comments, friends and advice are what I neeed in order to have the strentgh to keep trying.. But still In the back of my mind I have doubts.. My husband and I have tried many diffrent attempts, as well as ovulation kits and basal thermometers.. Not only have we tried the ovulation calender as well.. Is there any thing else we should try? When we first started trying we were makeing love almost everyday, then I was told we could be doing this to much. So then we cut back to a few times weekly, still nothing so now we are trying once or twice every few weeks. Should I cut back or continue as we were before?? I am so confused as it seems nothing works.. As you can see under my comments, a girl mentioned a fertility drug called clomid. I would love to try this but I need to no more about this before my husband and I decide to try this medication.. So if anyone knows anything about this drug please let me no I feel this may be a new and good option.. I have thought about fertility before, but I was overwhelmed when I was told I could have multiple babies. As I will be a new mother It was kind of scary but truthfully I would not care to carry 10 babies as long as I get the chance to experience motherhood...

Tuesday, 19 Feb

Well my younger sis is 5 1/2 months pregnant... She found out on valentines day she was having a baby girl.. I am so happy to have a lil niece on the way... I think haveing a baby around will help me get past my depression of not having a child.. My sister and I are really close she is my best friend... When she first found out she was pregnant she was hesitant about telling me... Because her pregnancy was not planned, and she knew I had been trying for so long.. She was upset, because of the way she thought I would feel.. At first I was hurt not because of her being pregnant but just because I wasn `t.. I feel as If I was being unfair to my sister.. After I had gotten over my pitty party I realized how much fun having a neice will be.. And what an important roll I will be playing In this little life.. The only thing I need to do now Is try to catch up, (lol) and be a good sis and best friend to my sister...Still TTC...

Tuesday, 19 Feb

Today I watched a show about a lady who was homeless. Living on the streets, she ate from garbage cans to stay alive. She would go to stores and steal things like soap and kotex.. she had lived this way since her parents had died in 1954 she was only 17.. shortly after she ran away to the city of new york.. Were she had seen so many horric things happen to others around her.. and the evenings, well as soon as it started to get dark she would find a place to sleep that hid her from all the danger.. When she turned 19 she was introduced to street drugs from others who survived just to get there drugs, on the street she began prostituting for money and her addictions.. Shortly after one morning she awoke in a strange man `s bed.. As she quickly made her way to the bath room.. she asked her self what is wrong with me Why am I so sick.. A few months went by as her stomach grew.. She then realized she was pergnant.. `Oh no what will I do? I can not raise a child. ` She cried. Through out her pregnancy she kept on with her sex and drugs.. 9 months and it was time.. It was dark and she struggled to make it to the nearest park bathroom.. 6 hours of a tremendous amount of pain as she laid in a puddle of blood with her baby wrapped in a torn rag beside her... The next few months were hard her baby screamed and cried all the time.. She could not take it anymore.. So she shared her needle of heroin with her child.. As the baby quietly nodded of into a deep sleep..It began to grow cold so she stayed in and out of homeless shelters... Shortly after christmas her baby became very Ill.. She took the child to the emergency room... The baby had been tested poasitive for lead posion from the homeless shelters and herion.. social workers and docters disscussed the track marks and bruiseing.. The baby did not make It through the night... She was took to Prison and got tried for 1st degree murder... I think she deserved the death penalty.. She should have given her baby to a foster home in the first place.. This is a true story and It just makes me even more upset that people like her can have children and I can `t..

Thursday, 21 Feb

So last night, my husbands pregnant x brought his son by to spend the night.. during the time she was here all she talked about was her pregnancy.. The whole time It was hard for me to keep from crying.. I no she Is happy but it still hits my heart so hard... Anyway I just got off my period 5 days ago and started back last night, I believe stress Is causing these weird periods.. I have no clue why i am having a period so often... Maybe this is why i am failing at getting pregnant...

Tuesday, 26 Feb

So It has been a few days.. I have been down In the dumps... I keep telling myself keep trying...