April 1, 2008- I can't believe my baby will be 6 weeks on Friday, It finally has sunk in that I'm a mother and I'm not babysitting, she's so cute everything is so cute about her I haven't gotten that much sleep because I can't stop looking at her, when I do sleep I have to have her sleeping on my chest or in my arms my shoulder kills me when I wake up in the morning but it doesn't bother me one but, I have one month left with her before I go back to work I am dreading it completely......So far my baby daddy has been acting right but they say they only act right for the first 3 months so I'm still on pins and needles. I'm so happy my baby is smiling and laughing now I didn't think she ever would, I thought she didn't like me...lol. As of right now I'm having baby fever I want another one but hopefully it passes because I'm still hurting from my c-section.

March 2, 2008- It's amazing how I'm still suppose to be pregnant at this point in time, even after a week it still hasn't set in that this is MY baby....she's so precious....I had been depressed because I wasn't prepared trying to figure out how Imma get by and how me and her dad's relationship as turned but I just kept telling myself that I am to blessed to be stressed.

February 22, 2008-Well I am happy to report that Alyssa Marie decided to make her debut today at 8:41 coming 3 weeks earlier than planned. Check out my children's tab for her birth story.

February 14, 2008- Well today is my last day of work I am so FREAKIN happy to get away from this place for 3 months I just wanna spend these last few weeks resting and getting things ready for my baby. I went to the doctor Wednesday and they did that god awful internal exam the speculum was to big so he had to use a smaller one I was so uncomfortable but the good news is she's head down so all my worries of a c-section and breech baby are over with and I'm 1 cm dilated and bad as those braxton hicks are I'm surprised it wasn't more than that. Well my sperm donor hasn't called or texted to see how I'm doin when he does choose to he'll probably use some lame excuse like he was working not like I'll see the benefits of that money. The said part is I feel like I conceived this baby by myself I have to keep reminding myself that he's the father and I'm stuck with him for the rest of my life and one point in my life I would have given anything to have his baby now I just wish she was conceived by somebody else O well I just hope GOD gives me the strength to make it these last couple of weeks.

February 4, 2008- I'm finally getting a chance to update haven't in awhile because it wasn't anything to report. Well a few days ago I found out my sperm donor didn't let anyone in his family know I was pregnant his sister was totally shocked she says no matter what he does she wants to be apart of her life....I dunno I don't know his people so I really won't be trusting them time will only tell. Well 1 more week before I hit my 9th month. I just she doesn't come before the 24th so I can at least have my baby shower since it was planned so late I don't have anything for her but clothes and a pacifier. I'm ready to see her and hold her but once I have her Imma wish I was pregnant again...maybe not

Jan 17,2008- I am so freakin tired and can't wait for this to be freakin over I'm so freakin miserable f***, I work overnight so when I get off all I can do is sleep and eat can't get no house work done then when I can't get shit done I'm accused of being lazy I'm f***in pregnant and anemic for GOD's SAKE!!! I'm 8 months pregnant and I have nothing for my baby since my baby shower isn't until Feb 24 that is so long from now I just don't see how I can possibly make it. I don't have problems sleeping but when I'm up I have to pee every hour on the hour it is so frustrating I don't start my maternity leave until Feb 16 I just don't see possibly how I can go on Whew!! glad to get that off my chest just had to vent for awile.

Jan 7, 2008- I have to wait until something exciting happens so I can update yall...Well everything has been going pretty well. I had my 30 week sonogram Friday and my baby is still breech with one of her feet in her face it was so cute!!!! Well last night my baby daddy b.k.a my sperm donor asked me when my due date was fine time to want to know so I told him and asked him was he signing the birth certificate he told me not until we have the blood test I was like WTF!!! I told him he must have me bent with baby momma #2 he was like don't be mad I had blood test on both my kids I was like whatever maybe you need to stop making them. I can't wait till this is all over. My baby girl has hiccups constantly I hope she's ok.

Dec 24, 2007- Just to give everyone an update I was in the hospital last week Monday I was in the hospital because I was having contractions and they said it was dehydration so I went home Tuesday I went to the doctor and he said it was false labor pains and sent me home then on Wednesday I was going into pre-term labor my contractions were so strong that's when they found out my fibroid had grown and was loosing it's blood supply causing my uterus to become irritated causeing be to contract so they put me on anti-inflammatory drugs and iv fluids and pain medication and I was finally able to go home Friday, so right now I'm just taking it easy planning my maternity leave.

Dec 14, 2007- So today I decided to update my myspace and my pregnant page so while I was on my space I ran across my baby daddy's page (no he is not on my friends list and both of our pages are set to private) he had a new picture up it brought me to tears because I haven't seen him in almost 3 months so I texted him just saying that I missed him and he texted back saying we'll work it out one day, which is ridiculous to me we have a child coming in less than 3 months I don't want him back I've taken all I can take I just can't get over the fact that my lil girl is probably not going to have him apart of her life and you know lil girls adore their father I just wish he would treat her like he does his sons but oh well that's his lost. I want to hold my baby so bad it's weird playing with her through my stomach I poke her she hits me back lol gosh it's so frustrating and now I am so uncomfortable my back hurts I can't find a comfortable position to sleep in I hope she's worth it.

Dec 5, 2007- Today I had my usual month check up and did my glucose test the check up was so short all they did was listen to the heartbeat and measure my stomach I was like I could do that shit at home didn't even ask if I had any questions or concerns O WELL....Well they called back 3 hours later to tell my my sugar was high and that I needed to do a 3 hour glucose sugar test I was like what joy so that's how I will be spending my Friday morning. I'm tired of being pregnant this is a long ass process she better be worth it...lol..as of right now if anybody would ask me would I do it over my response would be hell to the no. My baby's "sperm donor" has been being nice nigga must want somethin I'll keep you posted hopefully I can get to a scanner so I can put up my ultrasound pics so you can see my baby girl wit her fat cheeks and her big eyes like her donor.

Dec 1, 2007- I don't write on my page often because my life is pretty boring at the moment. I have the same routine almost everyday, sleep and work. After 6 months I'm finally excited about being a mom and having my baby. My child's father gave me so much grief that I'm all cried out. I prayed and prayed and God answered my prayers, no more crying. Alyssa has been so active she sleeps when I sleep and she's up when I'm up I guess that's good. I'm finally getting our rooms together since I'm moving back in wit my mom to save money I hope everything works out hopefully I'll get to add more post.

NOV 8, 2007-I went to get my sonogram yesterday and it's a GIRL!!!!!!!!

Pregnancy Survey
About You
Name?:	Monique
Age?:	22
Height?:	5'5
Pre-pregnancy weight?:	120
About The Father
Name?:	Thomas
Age?:	24
Height?:	6'0
Are you still together?:	Not in this lifetime
About Your Pregnancy
Is this your first pregnancy?:	Second, first one I'm going through with
When did you find out you were pregnant?:	July 4, 2007, 4 weeks pregnant
Was it planned?:	Hell no after 3 years of unprotected sex didn't think I could
What was your first reaction?:	WTF!!!!!!!!!
Who was with you when you found out?:	Me, Myself, and I
Who was the first person you told?:	My friend Danielle
How did your parents react?:	She was upset she said anybody but him
How far along are you?:	26 weeks
What was your first symptom?:	None, lol period was 1 day late and took the test as a joke, guess the joke was on me
What is your due date?:	March 12, 2008
Do you know the sex of the baby?:	YEP
If so, what is it?:	Girl
Have you picked out names?:	YEP
If so, what are they?:	Alyssa Marie
How much weight have you gained?:	25 freakin pounds
Do you have stretch marks?:	Just a few on the side of my butt nothin noticeable....YET
Have you felt the baby move?:	All the freakin time, she is just to active
Have you heard the heartbeat?:	YES!!!!
About the birth
Will you keep the baby?:	Yes
Home or hospital birth?:	Hospital
Natural or medicated birth?:	MEDICATED!!!
Who will be in the delivery room with you?:	My gf Auri, my mom hopefully, and hopefully Alyssa godfather Boomer
Will you breastfeed?:	Probably will pump I prefer to bottle feed though
Do you think you'll need a c-section?:	I pray I don't
Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time?:	Probably so
What's the first thing you might say to him/her?:	Bout damn time Alyssa
Would you let someone videotape the birth:	Yes so I guess I gotta get my hair done before I go in labor huh...lol
Are you excited about the birth, or scared?:	Scared as hell my coochie will never be the same