Margarita Vazquez

My name iis Margarita. I just lost my first baby .It was so horrible..

I was found out my baby had a diaphramic hernia around 18 weeks by ultrasound...i didnt know that was so severe i thought everything was gonna be fine... then wen i was around 20 weeks i started to see counslers and pediatricians and they explaineed how severe it was to me...it was so severe my babygirl only had a 30 percent chance of living..and if she was to live she will have life time lung problems..i didnt want to give her up becuz i wanted her so bad :( it was the worst decison of a life time !! but at the same time i didnt want my babygirl to suffer...so i knew what i had to do, i had to terminate the pregnancy, its whats best for her and me...im too young to handle a sick baby it was so sad

So i gave birth to Milagros Marie Melendez on July 11, 2008 at 1:47 PM...she was 1 ounce less than a pound and 11 inches long such a tiny thing...but she was sooo gorgeous, she looked like mommy && daddy...i got to hold her ,kiss her ,show her how much i love her ...the doctors dressed her in a gown and took pictures ..i got my own little memory box with the tiny diaper she had on ,and the dress and hat she wore...i have mostly anything her body touched in that memory box and only i can open it...it really means the world to me..i would never give up that box. even though i lost my babygirl i will always know her spirits are with me and i know when things go wrong shes there to protect me, just like i would protect her...Rest-In-Peace babygirl and remeber mommy will always be here. i Love U.