Hi, My name is Melissa, I'm 25 and currently pregnant with my 3rd pregnancy! I have no living children, I lost my first 2 daughters due to an incompenent cervix. I am now on bedrest, with a cerclage trying to keep this lil girl in!! :) I've been married for 3 yrs. and we have been through ALOT!! My first baby we lost at 21 weeks, and they had no idea why. I then switched doctors, and got pregnant again..well at 22 weeks i had went in for my BIG ultrasound to find out we were having a girl, and my cervix was dialated to a 3. Then was rushed to the hospital, where they did an emergency cerclage, and put me in a T-berg postion for a little over a week..but when the cerclage was placed i was already dialated to a 4, and it failed. This time around we had a gameplan..at 13 weeks I got my prevenative cerclage, and have been on bedrest since. Except of course for the dr. and bathroom and showers!! And i get the 17p shots weekly to prevent pre-term labor. My grampa recently passed away and i was able to go to the funeral, but had to be in a wheelchair then straight back home to bed. I'm currently in my crucial stage and scared to death that the same thing is gonna happen..but I'm hoping and praying, that this time will be different!! I went to the dr. last week, he told me we were having a girl, and my cervix was 3+ cm, and closed. that the stitches looked great!! SO hopefully i'll hit my goal, and have a healthy living baby! I don't know if i could handle losing another one!!

25 Weeks & 5 days...

Well went to the Dr. today for a check up!! Everything looked great i only gained a pound, which is a good thing..lol My cervix is still closed and long THANK GOD!!!! And he did some test to see if i'd goin into premature labor, which i hope comes back negative of course...and i also did the glucose test, which wasn't actually that bad!! I had the fruit punch flavor, and it tasted like drinking hawaiian punch kinda!! A little sweeter..lol But so far everything is good!!! Today was such an awesome day..i hate it every appt i have i panic the whole way there, and the whole time waiting, and for nothing..but that' great!!! LOL
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31 Weeks~

I hit 31 weeks today!!! God i can't believe it!! It really seems weird to have made it this far. I'm so used to being pregnant only for a few months then bam nothing..lol that's sad to say but true. I'm getting more excitted everyday that passes!! I cannot wait to meet my lil Marissa...And i'm happy cuz I don't have GD, and my preterm labor test was negative!!! :) YAAA!!!! Just gotta keep that cervix holding out!!! :) Today was a tough day, i really get down in July, my first daughter was born today, she'd be 4 had she lived. And my second daughter was due on Sunday..she'd be 2 if she'd lived. It's hard to be pregnant, and try not to get emotional about it especially with your emotions running wild anyway! Everyone trys to tell me to move on or get over it..lol yeah ok i'll get over that..haha people are so amusing sometimes. I find myself, not getting as close with Marissa, cuz i'm still so terrified that something is gonna happen to her, and i feel like a terrible mom, for not connecting like i feel i should. Don't get me wrong, i love her SOOO much, and i'm sooo happy to be pregnant, it's scary though. I've had my heart broken twice, and i'm so scared that it's gonna happen again!! But i'm praying that it doesn't and soon, adam and i will have our daughter that we've been waiting for!!!! :) ANyway sorry if this sounds down, i just needed to vent, and what better place, than here!!!!