I look at them and I think am I doing a good job? I think about the day they were born like it was yesterday and I can't believe that they are doing all that they are doing. Nobody can tell you what kind of parent you will be or how you will handle the stress of parenting. I know that the way that I feel about my girls is beyond what words can say but there are mothers who take these beautiful blessings and choose that they don't care and that love just doesn't matter. Being a mom is the best thing I have ever done. I can't stand child abuse nor neglect. All I can do is hope and pray that I’m doing the best that I possibly can. When I was younger and pictured being married with children. It doesn’t even hold a candle to my reality. I just need to sit back and relax knowing that accidents are going to happen and I may hit my last nerve but that’s nobody’s fault. When I was younger my childhood was a crazy mess. My parents loved us kids but my mom only had us for my dad and it made it hard to make her happy and she was angry a lot. I told Quentin when we were dating that if I ever did that to tell me because I want to be the mom that Clare and Kimberly look back on as the one person who never made them feel unwanted. Because I wanted them, I wanted them more than anything in my life. This isn’t a dream it’s a reality that I’m living everyday and you can’t take back anything you say or do and there little minds are remembering and learning before birth. People don’t realize or think about that. Hold your children and cherish every moment knowing that all you have is that moment if something happened that is that last memory that will be in there’s and everyone else’s minds.

My husband Quentin, Kimberly 7 months and Clare 2 years. November 30, 2007

Quentin and me on January 1, 2008

The first of many 2008 pictures

Me On October 15, 1987 and Clare on March 18, 2008

~*~My Angel in heaven~*~

March 25- Easter went well and I will be posting pictures soon. I was able to see all of my sisters and my brother. My niece Alina is getting so big she's doing so many new things. I can't believe she's almost 2. Oh and I put a video on Kimberly's page I hope it works so you can all see it.

March 19- Yay happy moment in my house hold today. I have had a full house all week and Clare has been going poopy on the potty for EVERYONE but ME. I was very sad that she would hide from me and not tell me till after she went in her panties. So I told her no M&M's till she went poopy on the potty and she would get TWO. Well today she was playing and she came to me and said she had to go potty I rushed her to the big potty and asked if she had to go poop and she said YES! I didn't get my hope up because somtimes she says that and doesn't do anything so I just waited and She pushed a little bit and then I heard it PLOP. She pooped on the potty. She said mommy I get two M&M's and I said what colors hunny and she said BLUE. No suprise since that's her favorite color. I hope that this is a good sign for the future.

March 13- Well from tomorrow and next week Monday threw Friday I'm watching two more kids. One is only a week younger than Kimberly the other is 4 1/2 But she gets along with Clare really well. So its going to be crazy but FUN!!! I'm getting everything ready and can't believe that Friday is here. Oh and I got some exiting news but its more for Clare so I think that info will be on her page because she's super exited and I think it should be on her page. But to continue Clare's ear is getting a little red and I hope its not infected. I have been cleaning it three times aday like I'm suppose to and turning the earing. I make sure I clean it after her bath and we haven't gone swimming but I would clean it then too. So I'm just going to keep cleaning it and maybe it just got rubbed or bumped on somthing. So yeah there are updates on both girl's pages. I'm a proud mommy to both girls :)

March 8- Both girls have pretty pierced ears now. Clare chose the September birthstone and Kimberly got the October birthstone. They both didn't cry. Clare smiled the whole time and even after she didn't say a word but WOW mommy I love it. Kimberly fussed a little bit but not a single tear feel from her eyes. We then chose to go to McDonalds instead of Ice Cream because it took longer than we thought and so it got to close to lunch. I can't wait till spring when the girls can wear summer dresses, skirts, shorts and all that fun stuff. I will post pictures as soon as I can. I have to get them off the Camera and everything.

March 7- Well the Justforkix director is pregnant and due in September. I'm way exited and can't wait I so think she's having a girl. Quentin is going to be helping me out with the daycare when she has her baby since I will have to be there for ALL the classes not just the younger one's. I have had a very crazy week and its been filled with high's and lows. If you want to know I can tell you but I don't want to spend forever typing it out. So to make myself feel better I'm going to post some of my favorite pictures.

How time flys when your having fun

Clare March 2008

Kimberly March 2008

This is a picture of Megan (one of my sister) when she met Kimberly for the first time. Clare 2 years Kimberly 1 month and Alina (my niece Megan's daughter) 1 year

February 27- Well I sent out my best to all and Lily Hope your delivery goes smooth. Yesturday was a CrAzY day for me. I worked three jobs But didn't have to watch Zavier but still got paid :) But yeah today when Quentin gets home I have to go to the pool to get my check and so I can day Hi to a few people then get back home because Wait never mind lol. Zavier is getting picked up a little early today so I won't have to go right when Quenin gets home. That will be nice well anyway I worked at the pool for three hours yesturday and had DaNcE! So yeah I was busy even though I didn't have Zavier. So everything is going well and I still want this snow to MeLt. Well I've got to feed Kimberly and then Zavier so gotta go but I will be on here and there.

February 18- Well Valentine's day was a BUST both girls were really sick they got what I had. So we will do Valentine's day when they get better :) I'm now a SAHM aka Daycare provider. I LOVE it and can't believe I'm doing what I always wanted. I miss my old job and my boss who became a good friend of mine but because of his girl friend he can't talk to me anymore. She's my ex friend and thinks I want to be with him but I'm happily married and she doesn't get that. So any way on my last day my boss got me two balloons one says bye gonna miss you and the other says thank you twice. It also came with a card and my hubby sent me flowers at work and on Valentine's day I called in sick so I could take care of the girls and so I got 6 red roses sent to my house. Here are some pics and when we do the girl's Valentine's day I will post those pictures as well. The little boy I'm now watching is named Zavier and he's a little cutie. I will post a picture of him if I get his mom's permission.

February 16- Ok ok I know its been awhile but I've been busy and trying to get everything ready for Monday. So anyway I mainly just wanted to tell you about how Kimberly is now 10 months and I will tell you about Valentine's day and My last day at work when I get more time. BOTH girls are sick and I only have two hands and LOTS to do so my babyies need me but I will post stuff asap.

January 16- I keep the girl's pages cought up on things that happen day to day dealing with them. Today we went sleding and I pulled the girls all over our yard. It was alot of fun and I would do it all day no matter how tierd I got. They love being outside and playing together. Clare went over night without wetting her pull up. I'm so proud and hope that this will continue. Here are some little pictures from today just incase you don't get a chance to look at Clare and Kimberly's pages.

December 25- This is my first Christmas in 3 years that I'm not pregnant. lol It went great and the girls were awesome. I loved getting to see Alina and so did Clare. Kimmie wasn't sure but stayed in good spirits the whole day. I posted a few pics and hope to post more of the girls wearing and playing with there new toys and cloths. Quentin gave me some sunglasses for our Cruise. What a suprise a Cruise he also gave me a willow tree sculpture called Quietly- Quietly encircled by love. I will post a pic of that plus my other ones. I loved it! my favorite gift the girls got was from my Mother aka Mama Mary. A locket for both girls one that says Big Sis for Clare with a picture of Kimmy inside and one that says Lil Sis for Kimmy with Clare's picture inside. It brought me to tears just knowing that my every dream came true this year. I have daughters and nothing will ever change that. I will also post pics of the girls wearing them too.

Christmas eve and Christmas morning 2007

December 4- Well we are making a BIG progress on potty training. Clare is so close and only has 1 or 2 dirty diapers a day. I can't wait till she's out of diapers. Kimberly is sitting up so well and almost crawling. We are very exited about her first Christmas and hung up our stockings on December 1st.

November 12- Well today the three of us girls got our flu shots and Kimberly had to go back to get her second set on December 12th or around there. Clare went on the potty 5 times today. I'm so proud of her and hope tomorrow we have the same results. The girls are also taking baths together and they love it. Clare loves helping wash her sister and being mommy's little helper. I'm so happy to be a mom to my girls they are so beautiful and sweet. I couldn't have asked for a better family.

July 13-I can't help but feel like I can't love my girls anymore and then I see how other people treat their kids and I realize just how much I love them more everyday. I thank God for my two beautiful girls. Clare does more and more things to show me how big she's getting and I forget she is two and everyday she is one step closer to being 3. Kimberly is so sweet, she is getting really long and smiles all the time I don't know what I did to deserve such amazing girls. I truly thank God everyday for them. I think its really neat all of us moms what all we do for such a little person and yet we would do it all over again to get the same little blessing.

July 8- I know several couples who got married on 7-7-07 and my sister was one of them. I was a beautiful outside wedding on the beach at a lake. For the unity candle part the had blue sand for Jamie (my sisters husband) and white sand for Malinda (my sister) and they poured the sand together and put sand from the beach on top of it. It was so neat. and for the guest book they had everyone sign a mat for a picture and So it looked really cool with everyone's little comments. It was beautiful I will put a pic up as soon as they get developed. I'm so happy for my sister and Jamie and hope they live happily ever after.

July 4- Today is my oldest sister's birthday and she is also getting married this weekend 7-7-07 so yeah for her. We had a really bad storm hit and we just got Kimberly to sleep and she was awake till like 1:00a.m today. So that’s what I'm doing up right now lol. I got a golden pig and hope to figure out how to post pics on my page. If I can't I will add it to my slide show and/or put a picture of it in my photo book. Well HAPPY 4th of JULY everyone, and good luck to all those mommies due this month. Its your month to shine. Oh and if anyone has any questions about anything just ask. I love meeting new people and talking about pregnancy, baby, kids, ect.

June 30- Congrats to all the women who had their little miracles this month. I enjoy every moment I get with my girls and understand that one day they will be grown and go off and show me everything that I taught them. These are the future doctors, nurses, computer programmers, life guards, singers, writers, and so many more things that our beautiful world offers out there for future jobs. I only pray that they will be happy and successful in life and overcome all things that stand in their way.

June15- BABY BOOM I knew two people who where due at two different times. One expecting a boy on June 17th and one expecting a girl on July 9th and today they both had there babies. My friend who had her little boy went last night having contractions and my friend who was due in July was low on amniotic fluid. Sorry for my bad spelling. I'm so happy my one friend lives in Hawaii so I will only get to see pics of him, and my friend who had a little girl lives in my town. I'm so happy I just love babies.