I am pregnant again !!!! I am so confused. I can't believe I am going through this again!!! I really need Gods strength.

My daughter was born July the 4th at 6pm. She is so sweet. She weighed in at 7 pounds and 5 ounces. Tiny in comparison to my previous two children. But great non the less. I went in to be induced on the 4th due to my irritable uterus, which I suffered from horribaly for the last 2 months. I was so done being pregnant!!! The doctor started the induction at 12:00 and I had an epidural at around 2:30 and by 6 she was here!!! so simple so easy compared to my previous birth experiences. My children love her we love her and even my dogs give her kisses. What a blessing from God!!

Today is March 23rd and I am feeling a little bit better then I have been even though I am still throwing up at least once every morning! My hubby and I have gone through a lot with this pregnancy already with the scare of a cyst which thanks to so many peoples prayers is completley gone, and now we are just having to watch and make sure that the placenta moves up and not down any more. We have chosen a name, Mercesdes Lynn. Her name will probably be Sadie but her full name will be Mercesdes Lynn. No it is not after a car!!! As my 7 year old daughter pointed out!LOL!! My husband is Latin and this is a very latin name. My little girl is very active and strong puncher and kicker I just hope she turns the right way around by July!

Today is May 23rd and I am still having contractions or braxton hicks what ever you want to call them. They are at times strong and regular and others medium intensity and irregular. I am feeling exhausted and yet I have this huge desire to get things ready. I was diagnosed with irritable uterus and have been having many hospital visits and exams to ensure that I am not dialating, which up to this point I am not. I also feel asthough I am being a huge pain in the ass to my doctor. He is a great doctor who would never make me feel like I am being a pain but I am so irregular with my contractions that he has to always check me or send me for ultrasounds and so on just to make sure. I think that our bodies like to trick doctors because in the time that I am not around the doctor or hospital I feel horrible the moment I am near them or about to have an appointment I feel better.....very frustrating! Anyway so far so good in my pregnancy a few scares which thanks to many prayers and Gods love we have overcome them. My littler girl is very active and strong, alot stronger than my other two children were. I love and also don't love being pregnant. I had a dream last night that I had my baby and all I could think about was not being able to feel her inside me anymore. So I am trying to enjoy this as much as I can because not too long from now she will be out of my tummy and in my arms, hard to believe it really is almost over.

Today is June 11th my emotions are every where. One moment I want to cry the next rip someones head off, or just numb. I have a 4-d Ultrasound booked on Thursday of this week and I am looking forward to it the day prior to it I have another doctors appointment. My regular doctor cannot see me that day so I will have an appointment with the doctor whom he shares the office with. I have to admit that I have a little bit of a concern becauser the last time I saw this particular doctor I was pregnant with my son and due in about a week. She wanted to check to make sure I wasn't dialating and was about to do an internal check when my water broke right on her examining table. I sort of in my own way hope that this can happen again and perhaps get this show on the road. However at the same time I would really like to get the 4-d ultrasound. I am such a basket case. My poor family has to put up with me.