My name is Bre my boyfriends name is chris we are expecting our first baby in april of next year. A day after my birthday actually. We just found out its a girl. Were gonna name her lillian alina white. Were both very excited. I work as a waitress in Hartford and chris is a full time student working on his crim justice degree to be a state trooper.

November 13,07

Feeling much better i feel as if i am finally getting into the groove of being prego. Still waiting to feel the baby move 19 weeks along. my mom said she was almost 23 before she felt me move hope its not that long to wait. Have another dr apointment on the 26th keep you updated.

NOVEMBER 15.2007

I FELT her move today!!!Actually i felt her move all day today. My lover of a boyfriend brought me my Craving of all cravings. A Pumpkin spice decaf late with skim milk yesterday morning well guess what not so decaf! I felt like my head was going to pound out of my chest and i guess in turn it gave her the energy to be a olympic gymnist! All day long i felt jabs and flutters the best way that i can describe how it felt is if youve ever been on the ride the tower of terror or maybe hellivator or the scream. ITs a ride that straps you in and raises you like 25 floors in the air then holds you there then drops and your stomach feels like is doing flops and flips. Yuppers thats how my little lillian had me feeling all day like i was riding coasters. Havent felt her yet today but im very excited to finally feel her inthere makes it just that more real.

Lillian is a English girl name.
The meaning of the name is `Gracious Lily`.

The name Lillian was given to 3983 babies in the USA in 2005. Lillian was the number 183 name that year. In 2006, the name was given to 4661 babies making it the number 65 name that year.

Alina is a Polish girl name.
The meaning of the name is `bright, beautiful

The name Alina was given to 786 babies in the USA in 2005. Alina was the number 739 name that year. In 2006, the name was given to 784 babies making it the number 390 name that year.
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November 20, 2007

Last night Chris finally got to feel the baby move. We were laying down watching television and he had his leg kinda thrown over my belly. Well obviously Lilly didnt like that so she started kicking him. i was like shes kicking you lover hes like no shes not im like yes she is. So he throws back the covers and lifts up my shirt and puts his face right next to my belly and goes "why you kicking daddy lilly thats not very nice" Then BAM! she kicked him straight in the mouth! It was the strongest kick i have felt by far and we both were amazed! Her first contact with her father was to kick him in the face! Amazing. ahah

November 26th, 2007

Went to my dr apointment today! Every thing is right on track. Ive lost a few pounds since my last apointment so now my weight gain is only 16 and a half pounds so far. He says thats right where i should be. He doesnt think that excercize is something i should look into because i do work such a high impact job of waitressing on my feet already and that should be more then enough. Next apointment they will start to measure me with a tape measure to get more specific measurements of the baby but for now were right on track!

December 1st 2007

Finally week 22! working our way up there. Doing well weight gain still around 16-17 lbs now. Cant fit into my regular jeans even if i prayed to god about it first. Every one can tell for the most part that i am prego now and not just fat which is good. Did a little shoping i cant help my self some of these girl things are tooo cute! I learned how to crocet from my grandmother before she died. im not promising im great at it but im gonna make some practice scarfs for people for christmas and then when i feel more confortable im gonna make her her very own blankey! very exciting. Shes moving a lot i think she gets a very over active day where she moves consistantly all day then she sleeps and i hardly feel her for the next 2 days then shes awake and active again. Last night she was moving so much i swear it felt like my belly was a speed punching bag and she was in there trying to be mohamed ali! It makes me a little nausious but at the same time i love to feel her move!

December 5, 2007

So its a small world after all! Was at work today when a my boss tells me im taking a christmas party of 40 with a co worker of mine. Im like heck yah make some money well turns out its a obgyn clinic for Hartford Hospital doctors and nurses! I had a wealth of knowlede at my fingertips. To be truthful in my work clothes its really hard to tell im prego at all so i diddnt say n e thing for a while then one of the dr's asked if she could buy me a drink cuz i was working so hard running around i told her i would love one but i cant drink right now she tryed to insist your boss wont mind ect ect.. but i was like im sorry im actually 22 weeks pregnant and i cant drink. OMG what a fuss did that start apparently every one heard so all night every one was asking me questions about how i was feeling when i was due. So i started to ask a few back only 3 of the 40 people said not to at least keep a open mind to the epedural. The head doctor who was late because he was in a emergency c section was like id put most women on it at 7months if i could! haha he says miss haps are very rare and being that its my first i need to keep a open mind and take things as they come because its all going to seam like a wurlwind any ways. After meeting all these wonderful people i was kinda sad not to be having my baby at their hospital but if they are that nice im sure the people at my hospital must be just as nice. So ladys the rule of thumb go with the flow and keep a open mind. Oh and Walk alot!

December 21 2007

hey ladies havent been on in a while. joy of the holidays so busy. I work as a waitress so with every ones holiday partys ive been kept really busy, As far as the baby goes im super excited im finally looking prego enough that while christmas shopping people were asking me if i was expecting. when i said yes they were all very congragalatiory but then once every one asked how far and i told them six months they were all in aww at "wow your really small" I donno maybe after a few good holiday meals and cookies ill look like im supposed to i guess. She moves all the time Having really really bad back and hip pains. I think because of how low she is shes compleatly happy resting all her weight on my lower back and hips. Not a big deal i guess if i wasnt a waitress and on my feet all day with a big belly and aching back isnt fun. Started getting nose bleeds as well. As if a runny nose wasnt bad enough went over to a table the other day leaned down to drop off their drinks and blood came running down my face they looked horrified! My girl friend just found out shes expecting as well. Shes guessing she might be about 14 weeks now. She got her period the whole time so far so she diddnt even realize she was that far along. I tried to get her some help with insurance and dr info so that she can get in asap. My other friend in now in the hospital at 29 weeks she went in with contractions a week ago and they said shes staying in the hospital on bed rest until the baby is safe to deliver which is prob not till week 34 36 she said so she will be spending christmas and new years in the hospital. Fun in huh? hope you are all doing well off to week 25 tomarrow its going by so fast!

December 26th 2007

Went to the docs today. They say im doing very well. Ive gained alot since my last visit they say for the holidays its not unexpected but to keep a eye on my weight gain from now on. I am 200 and a half pounds already! i started this off at about 165 to 170 so thats about a 30 to 35 lbs gain already. and 12 of that was in the last 4weeks. Glucose test in a few weeks they say. my preperation classes start january 8th really excited about that. Shes moving alot but shes shy when it comes to letting other people feel her move. As a little up date as to the holidays. I spent christmas eve with my mother my brother and christopher here at my house. i made pot roast and we all exchanged gifts it was nice to finally have MY family all together celebrating the holidays. On christmas morning we got up early and went to spend it with chris dad then went to chris grandmothers for dinner. I bought the most beautiful purple dress and chris had is suit with a matching purple tie. Every one said we lookd wonderful and for the first time in a long time i felt beautiful. Im so happy to have such a amazing family treat me like i am one of them. MY boyfriend christopher and i have never been closer. I feel like hes really starting to bond with lillian. He rubs my belly at night with streach mark cream and talks to her. she gets all excited when he talks to her and starts kicking and punching. I already know that shes going to be a daddys girl~!

January 8th, 2008

Went to my first prepaired childbirth class last night. It seams like its going to be a awesome learning experence. Were going to be foccusing on Lamaze teniques as well as pain relief options breast and bottle feeding and many other excercizes to help during labor and delivery. My boyfriend christopher was kind of board but its day one and it was alot of intro and videos the "fun" will start next week. He just started his internship for the West Hartford police department the same morning so we are very excited to see that all of this is moving along very well. New years was a blast. I ended up working at my job with my boyfriend so at least we were together. I was actually excited because its a akward day to be prego. its not like we could have gone out to the club and gotten trashed. So i enjoyed working and making some extra money while still getting to "party" and be with the most wonderful man in the world. I got a big hug and kiss at new years. and thats all that i needed to make me feel like the most important person in the world. ITs crazy to think how diffrent my life is now from last year. I feel like i am a compleatly diffrent person. But i really like this new me this mama bre bre that i have turned into. I feel like i am ready for this new chapter in my life to start. I cant wait to meet her.

January 22, 2008

Had my glucose screen yesterday not fun. They make you drink this super orange flavored Tang stuff that has alot of sugar in it. Its supposed to see if after a hour of drinking it your body dissapates the sugars if it doesnt then you have to go back for a nother test to see if you have diabieties. I go to the doctors for my check up tomarrow and they will have my results back then so im hoping every thing is okay. MY baby plus is a big hit. She seams to like it alot i use it at around 2 or 3 in the afternoon and then again at night when i get outta work around 10-12 she kicks back at it so at least i know she can hear it if its making her smarter i donno but we will see. Only on lesson two i think there are 16 lessons in total. I got a whole lot of baby stuff last night from chris's step mothers niece. WE got a crib, a highchair, 2 more carseats, a swing, a boppy, and lots more clothes. Theres not too much that ive had to regester for other then the basics bottles diapers wipes ect. The date is set for the shower my goal is to get the invites out by friday. I hope to work on them tomarrow. I think in total theres gonna be about 40 people or so. Its going to be alot of fun. I cant wait to meet my daughter i keep having dreams of meeting her but i never see her face. Ive also been having a lot of bad dreams like chris leaving me or some thing bad happening to me or the baby while im trying to deliver. I think im gonna try to breast feed at first. I regestered for a dr browns hand pump. Fal fal said that she would let barrow the pump she has if i decide to keep up the breast feeding. We will see. NO lamaze this week because of mr lt king day but we will be back next week! only a few weeks left and ill get to see her beautiful face.

January 24th 2008

So i went to the doctors yesterday and i got all my results back. Good iron, Good blood pressure, Good blood sugars, good weight gain, Good fundus size. All in all they say i am exactlly as i should be. Nothing out of the ordinary. Now i will go to the doctors every 2 weeks instead of once a month. Until i am 36 weeks then they said id go every week until the baby comes. So were down to the Final leg of the race! I cant wait to meet her!

Feb 3rd 2008

Well today is superbowl sunday and guess what the giants won! They beet the Patriots a undefeated team! Chris and i went over our friend fleas house for the game and we were the only giants fans in the whole place. Chris wore his Giants Dad shirt that his father bought him when he found out that we were going to be having a baby. IT ended up being his good luck charm because they won. After all the screaming and yelling jumping up and down i felt as if i was gonna pop. She moved around so much during the game every lound noise and yell she had a kick and a jab to match it with. I feel like my stomach is brused from the inside. It hurts so bad. But its nice to know that shes gonna be a little giants fan just like her daddy.

Feb 9th, 2008

Yay were at 8months~!!!!~ I am very excited my baby shower is tomarrow. i cant want to play all the fun games and see all my friends and family i havent seen in a while. I am a bit dissapointed however it looks like no one really bought any thing from my registry. I mean what the heck was the point of walking around the store picking out things that i wanted if people were just going to buy what ever any ways. Not that im being picky but i already have almost every thing i need except the things that i regesterd for and i feel bad because if people got me stuff i already have its just a waist of thier time and mine because then i have to return it all to get what i need. well if nothing else i can always go get it for my self with the extra money i made last week. I did really well at work and made a extra 400 dollars! I went for my check up yesterday! Dr says everything looks perfect and right on track. I did gain a little more then she would have liked but i had a stressful week i found out my mothers breast cancer has spread to her bones so i have been dealing with that by eatting a little more sweets then usual. She said that thats fine but to watch my gain the next two weeks. Shes head down with her back facing my left and her arms and legs on my right with her butt up in my ribs. The doc said she still has enough room to filp if she wanted to but it looks like shes a lower rather then higher so she will prob stay right where she is which is good being breach and having a csection is really scary and id like to have a regular birth.

Feb 12th, 2008

I had my baby shower on the tenth. It was beautiful. I had so much fun enjoying my family and chris's finally meet. We played games and had great food. I really enjoyed seeing every one gathering and getting along it gave me alot of hope that maybe the wedding wont be such a disaster and we wont have to elope one day. Hahah. I was a little dissapointed because only of of my girlfriends from the olivegarden showed up. It was sad to finally realze that all my "friends" were really just co workers that once i left there they had no reason to care what i was up to. I wish that it wasnt like that but i love all my girls who showed up. My oldest friend to my closest friend to my newest were all there except for my best because she was dealing with her grandmothers death and the funeral arrangemnts. It suckd she couldnt be there but there are more important things in life and shes going to be the god mother of my daughter so its not like she wont be around later when it actually counts. I got some amazing things so many clothes and blankets and cute stuff. My managers mother gave me a gift card that was so amazing im going to be able to get the stroller and the breast pump i want with that card. Sue is gonna get us the matress we need and then were ready. Chris and i spent all day yesterday washing all her new clothes and setting up her little room. I need to get curtains a better lamp then the one i have in there and we were thinking of getting a dresser with little drawers and a flat top so we can use it as a changing table as well. Oh and some kinda art or something to put on the walls because were not allowed to paint. I did put up all the cards from the shower on one of the walls and it looks a little better but it still needs a little more. I cant wait to see her in all of her cute stuff!!!! I know that i am not fully ready ready to have her but at the same time if she was to come now i would be so excited to see her little face and start getting to know her.

Feb 19th 2008

Just wanted to catch up a little bit. Valentines day was amazing chris and i went out to dinner at the same resturant that we went to for valentines last year. We ended up leaving dinner kinda early and comming home and watching tv because he wasnt feeling all that well. We finished the babys room all the way. i kinda want to get a cute little carpet BUt we will see. Shes moving around alot latly. Every thing i read says that shes supposed to be running out of room and her movements are supposed to be slowing down but she seams just as active as ever. MY back is killing me, I am not sure if its her or just that i am working so much on my feet all day. Either way the only way to make it stop hurting will be once she comes and i get some time off of work. MY weight gain is a little scary so far. I started off around 165-170lbs and right now i am a good 215-220 i offically weigh more then chris. BUt the doc says im healthy and the baby looks good so im gonna try not to worry about ti too much. I figure ill worry about it after she gets here and i can start working it off. Sue got her spa working and i cant tell you how much i love it its so relaxing to just feel weightless and and have all the baby pressure on my back. I feel like i am finaly getting to the i just want her to get here point. I want to see what she looks like so bad! Chris and i are going away next weekend to vermont so once i get back from that she can come any time.

Feb 28th ,2008

Just a quick update. We are leaving for vacation tomarrow. I am so excited i need a vacation so bad. I am exhaused. Working this much is making it harder i think then it might have been if i wasnt working as much but i know that i need the money for the baby and for the bills. I finally got my hair done yesterday. It was way ways over due. I feel like i have a MILF hot mama hair cut and color. Sleeping is getting alot harder i wake up alot through out the night for potty trips and dry throats. Then theres the wake ups to rearrange the pillows. its all very complicated. I love how it feels to be prego i love feeling her move inside of me but im ready to have her come out some time soon. Its very exhausting carring around all the weight and its to the point where its impossible to get confortable sitting or standing. If i do either too long my back starts to kill me even more then the constant pain i already have. My devorce finally went through this past monday. I am very excited to know that that part of my life is finally behind me. Chris and i can finally be together and not have any worries about any of my horrid past coming back to haunt me. I am getting anxious and i cant wait to finally get our family started. I can wait to see what she looks like and to hold her in my arms. Not too far away now.

March 6,2008

Well i wanted to make sure to make a point to write a little bit about my vacation away with christopher to vermont. We had the most amazing time ever. I was so glad that we took this oppertunity to get away before Lillan comes. We left early friday morning and got to the resort around 230ish. Its so rurral and succuluded it was beautiful. Chris lied and got us the super sweet. It was so nice. It had a hot tub big enough for 3 people in it. a Dual person shower. and a huge bed with pannoramic windows with a fantastic view of the lake. The weekend it self was one to surley be rememberd. The murder mystery was a fantastic idea. It was great to meet all sorts of new people and try to get as involved as possible with trying to figure out who did it and why. Unfortunitly we diddnt come even close to figuring it out but it was a blast any ways. Chris and i took some time to go visit some small local shops and check out what vermont had to offer. I had never been there before but i would definatly go back it was so breath taking. Sat afternoon we walked on the lake and checked out the ice fishing tournamante that was going on. Then we went ice skating for a little while. Chris went for longer then me because the ice cracked under me and that was enough fun for my liking. After that we both got massages. OMG such a fantastic idea. It felt so good to get all the stress and tension outta my body. Daddy enjoyed the pampering too. We got home on monday and ended up having a very eventful afternoon. There was bank robery in west hartford and the guy lead the cops on a chase to infront of our apartment and they ended up shooting the guy dead in our parking lot. So they had crime taped off the whole block for the cops so i couldnt get my car. We ended up walking to the court house to get my paperwork and then taking a taxi to our doctors apointment. The doctor said every thing looks fine. my blood pressure was a little high when i went in but had stablized by the time we left. I figured it was from all the walking. From now on we are going to the docs every week next week is the strep b test and our first internal exam. A little anxious but excited at the same time to start the process of getting ready to have this baby. my goal is to have my bag packed on sunday so we will be ready for her any time after that. I cant wait to see her. I cant wait to hold her little body in my arms. Shes getting so strong her kicks will deform my belly and i truly feel as if i am in one of those alien movies. She gets the hickups alot. Which is a good sighn i guess because this means that shes praticing breathing alot. 30 days to go i cant wait.

March 15, 2008

i diddnt feel her drop but my belly looks lower and my back and hip pain is like a million times worse then it was before. I am also having a easer time breathing. So i think she droped but im not sure. Another dr apt on monday they told me last time her head was down but i was closed. Hopefully ill have some dialation. I dont wanna go 41 weeks! We did a baby pool at my job where every one put money on which day they think the babys coming if it comes on their day they win the pot of 106 dollars if she comes on a day no one picked were gonna put the money in a education fund for her. Ive gotten into that nesting mode. I finished the babys room and then decided to redecorate then i decided to retile and re do the whole bathroom. Clean out the closets. I still have to go through all the stuff in the bed room. My bag is finally packed getting a pedicure tomarrow. Then im ready to go. I cant wait to hold her in my arms! I am nervious and i am really worried about the pain but when it comes down to it to see her little face and to have her in my arms will be worth all the pain in the world. I cant wait to have my family finally be here. I started a blanket for her this past tuesday and i am just about finished with it. I must say my grandmother would be really proud of me croceting that all my by self. it has to be the best work ive done so far. I hope she loves it and drags it around for years to come.

March 18th, 2008

Well yesterdayt was saint pattys and chris and i both had to work which is okay because i cant drink any ways but we did make sure to go see our girlfriend fal fal at olearys because she was bartending that night and we had to go support her. On monday i finally got my pedicure with my friend lizzy. They are purple with cute white flowers on them. very easter looking. While getting our peddies i got to see her kids as well. which made me feel good because i really missed the kids. Then when we were done with our pedies chris came and got me and we went over kellys house to see her and her kids and to pick up our share of zoeys girl scout cookies. YUMMY! so in the last few days i got to see all of my girl friends and almost all the kids. Every one is very excited for the baby to come already. ,my friend lizzy wants her to come on easter because its her bday and becasuse then she could be a easter lilly. haha. We will see. the doc said on monday that the head is down that my cervex is thin and i am about a cm dialated. So its progress we will see when she decides to come. Either way when ever she is ready we are as ready as were gonna be. i cant wait to see her!

March 26th,2008

Easter was fantastic. We got up early to go see my mother who unfortunitly still isnt feeling well. We will just have to hope that with the baby here next year we can get every on in better spirits. She has another dr apointmnet in a week or so to let her know how all the radiation went so we are hoping good news from that as well. After we visited with my family for a while we started the drive down to Bethany. My back, hip area has been getting really bad. Early in the morning it seams to be the worst so i wasnt the happiest camper sitting in the car for a hour but i was able to work on my mothers afgan for a while so that took my mind off of some of the bumps in the road. We visited with grandpa mike and mimi for a while before heading over to grandma sues. This is the first holiday in a while she has hosted. The house looked amazing and whith the fantastic weather that we were having that day every one spent most of the time catching up on the new deck and enjoying the hot tub. The food was fantastic and the deserts were even better. After some good soaking in the hot tub i actually felt alot better and my back wasnt so bad. We went to the doctors early on monday morning . Hoping for some kind of progress and we did have a little. i went from being 40 to 70 percent thinned and a half to a full cm dialated. Its not the dramatic change i was hoping for but i will take any progress i can get. I cant wait to meet her. I know it sounds crazy but i feel like i already know her so well i just want to get to match the face to this friend i feel like ive known forever. Chris and i are getting really anxious and there isnt a moment through out my day that i dont find my self thinking about her and what shes going to be like and how our lives are going to be so diffrent when she gets here. My last day at work was supposed to be this past sat but my boss forgot that i was going on maternity leave so he sched me this entire week. I gave in and ended up working a double yesterday which was in the long run a horrible idea my back problems seamed to escalate to be the most painful id had so far. BUt i made almost 250$ and it made me feel better to know that i have a little bit of money of my own while im on maternity leave. Only 10 days till my due date. Almost down to single numbers getting so close!

April 5th 2008

well today is your due date little miss and you are still not here yet. I am very glad that you waited to make it through mommy and uncle joshes birthdays. Now however i am ready for you to join us here in this world. I was 2 1/2cm dialated 90 percent thinned and you were at -1 station at my last dr apointment this past wens that was 3 days ago and we have done alot of walking and i know you dont wanna here this but lots of sex as well trying to get you motovated so now its up to you. I cant wait to see you. I had a amazing birthday first one in a while i can say i really enjoyed. Daddy bought me a new pair of sneakers i really wanted, flowers, and tickets to curque du sole on the 17th so you need to be here at least a few days before that! We went to the casino and had a great time walking around and enjoying eachothers company diddnt win any money but we diddnt spend alot either and thats all that matters. Uncle dj bought me a mothers day card by accident for my birthday haha it was cute though. HE also spelt mamas name wrong on her cake but at least he made the effort thats all that counts. Grandma kathy got mama a wonderful blanket that says i love you for the girl you were the woman youve be come and the daughter youll always be. I figure when you get older i can pass it down on to you. Daddy bought a glider! Its really nice its in the living room so that when you come home he has his own special place to feed you and spend time with you. My mommy books say its good to establish a routeen with feedings and if hes going to feed you from a bottle it should be the same feeding each time in a spcific place so hes going to do the first thing in the am like the 7am feeding in the chair down stairs. mama will do the rest straight from the breast as long as you latch on well. were supposed to go to nanna sues for dinner tomarrow for my birthday i really want to go because shes a amazing cook im just hoping youll decide to make a apperance tonight or tomarrow morning! Every one is very anxious and cant wait to see you. Maybe youll be one of the 5% of babies that comes on her due date! We will see i cant wait to hold you my love!!

April 12,08

Lillian was born 04-06-08 (due date was 4/5/08) at 10:20 pm 8lbs 1oz 22 inches.
at about 430am i started to get some intense contractions and started to time them by 500 i was sure this was something so i woke christopher up and had him help me time my conractions sure enough they were 3-5min apart so we called the dr and headed off to the hospital. We got there and they monitered me and saw that my contractions wernt regular enough to admit me and were going to send me home figuring id be back some time that same afternoon. However because i was full term they did a check of my aminotic fluids via ultrasound and they saw that my fluids were extreamly low so they decided to admit me. At about 12 they started me on potocin to get my contractions alittle stronger because i had only gone from 3-5cm in that time period. OMG! Potocin is the most evil thing in the world! I thought i was going to die it was the most painful thing ive ever been through. The dr then gave me statol to take the edge off before the epidural could get there. Statol is amazing stuff its like drinking 15 margaretas at once. i was so outta it i hardly felt my epi which was nice. MY labor continued un eventful until 930 or so when they told me i was 10cm and could start to push if i wanted to try to. I started pushing and at 1020 my baby was born into the world. HOwever it wasnt a happy birth. the umbilical cord had wrapped around her neck 2x and had suffocated her. Her first apgar scores were 1(when born), 5(at 5min after birth) wich is really really bad. she wasnt breathing was compleatly grey, very cold, and limp. (says christopher.) It took alot longer to revive her because the attending nurse forgot to call a baby nurse while i was delivering so when she came out my dr turned around to hand her off to the nurse to work on her and no one was there to take the baby. i had no idea what was going on other then i heard the dr tell christopher couldnt cut the cord. I have never been so scared in my life. I just layed there wondering why my baby wasnt crying i just wanted to hear her cry. my Girl friend was trying to tell me every thing was okay but i knew something wasnt right. All i could think was that i went through all this we got this far and i was going to loose her now. I couldnt handle it. After 15 min of working on her we finally heard a cry. I broke down so hard. It was the best sound i had ever heard in my life. Just then christopher came over to me bringht read faced with tears in his eyes to kiss me and tell me shes alright shes going to be alright. She was perfect the most beautiful baby in the world. After about another 10-15min they wrapped her up and finally let me hold her. MY heart broke right then and i knew i would love her for the rest of my life. we left the delivery room around 1200 and when we got to the recovery room they took her away for observation until about 4am. They told me she was going to be fine her blood work came back good and that her reflexes are all working normally. MY little drama queen had to make some kind of a dramatic enterence into the world. they let us go home on tues afternoon ( gave birth sun pm). Before we even went home because it was so perfect outside christopher, grandma sue and kathy and i took the baby to elizabeth park in west hartford for her first walk. It was so nice to be out of the hospital and to know that she was here. She is a week old now and I cant believe its gone by this fast already! I love holding her in my arms but i miss my belly i miss her getting the hick ups inside of me. Shes doing fantastic. She latched on right away and has not had a problem feeding at all. She had her first dr apt yesterday. she has lost 3oz but loosing weight is normal after birth but they gain it right back once your milk comes in. Which it has and she loves it btw! hahah. Shes a great sleeper and usually sleeps almost through the night. Waking up maybe once to feed. I usually end up waking her up because my boobs feel like they are going to explode of i diddnt. All in all shes an amazing baby that every one loves expecially her mommy and daddy. I cant wait to see her grow but i want to keep her small at the same time. God i love her.

April 16th, 2008

Well little one your now a week and a half old. We had your dr apointment today. You have gained some weight you now weigh 8lbs 6oz. Your 22inches long and your head circumfrence is 36cm. Your reflexes are great every thing looks great. The bump on your head is called a hemotoma and it should go away in a few months. You have been perfect so far. You sleep through the night like clock work you wake up around 4am and 8am for a feeding if we put you down after your bath around 1130. Your belly button hasnt fallen off yet. But it looks like it will soon.Weve been going on walks almost every day now. Either at the park with your grandmas or around the stores getting odds and ends that we need for you. You had your first trip to the supermarket yesterday. mom and dad were running out of premade meals from the family it was time for momma to get some food in the house so she could feed daddy. Your such a well behaved baby. I cant get over how perfect you are. I spend hours just staring at you because your so perfect. Momma and Daddy are going to Cirque due sole tomarrow night on a date. Daddy bought me tickets for my birthday. It will be my first time away from you since they finally gave you to me in the hospital. I am nervious about leaving you but i know grandma sue will look out for you. I cant get over how much i love you and how much you have brought your father and i together. Every day you change so much i am excited to watch you grow!

may 2nd 2008

Being a mom is fantastic. i cant believe she is going to be a month old already. Time is just flying by. I had thought that i was going to have all this time on my hands and bought all this scrap booking stuff but being a mom really is a full time job! when she is napping im either trying to get the house picked up or nap myself. Breastfeeding is a full time job in and of it self. i am trying to increase my milk supply so i am feeding like every hour or so but i want to make sure that i have enough stocked up for when i go back to work. Fal Fal finally gave me the eletric pump so its making it a lot easier. i am really hoping that it all works out well. I am giving her a few oz of formula at night just to help her sleep better but i am waking up to pump what shes not eatting durning that time to store it for her. 3am half dead with plastic attatched to my boobies is fun times. Shes getting so big so fast. she loves the tubby. Daddy and her splish splash every night or well every night daddy is home other wise mommy gives the little one a bath. She loves the water though. Last week she swam in grandma sues hot tub and loved the bubbles. Shes got another dr apt on the 6th cant wait to see how shes doing i am assuming shes got to be at least 10 lbs or so by now. Almost out of the new born diapers! My mother is doing well just started her 2nd round of radation on her ribs and knee this time she says shes feeling better and that makes every thing easier for her. Being a mom is alot of fun not as easy as i thought it would be. there are times where i feel like i am a bad mom when shes screaming at the store cuz shes hungry but i cant do any thing about it right then or when were in the car and i cant check her until we get to where we are going. BUt in general i feel that things are going well. shes an amazing baby who makes my life so much better then it was before i had her. Christopher and i are doing great we have developed a awesome team work ethic when it comes to the baby and getting stuff around the house done. its gonna be interesting when i go back to work in 2 weeks. I already worked once my mgr called me in because every one called out on him so i went into work with lilly strapped to my chest. i made 100 bucks and he said i get dinner any night i want one day while im on my maternity leave. i am gonna use it one day next week while chris is home studing for his finals. well baby is crying super mom here we go! write more when we get back from her dr apointment.