Oh everything got deleted!!!!!

So here it goes again! Karl and I are expecting out first baby in April which was not planned as we had only been kinda seeing each other for 3 months so total SHOCK but I am very excited and very scared, i have days where i love being pregnant and the thought of being a Mummy makes me smile form ear to ear and then days where i cry and think what the hell am i doing??? What if i totally suck at being a mum??? What if, What if, What if??? Ahhhh!!!!!!

Im praying for the best and filling my days with positive poeple and my wonderfull family and the greatest most precious man in the world!

Things happen for a reason a season or a lifetime!!!

Good luck to everyone out their going thru the same crazy, emotional, beautiful time of our lives!

Happy Baby making xxx

6th October

Was home sick all weekend with a tummy bug :-(

Im having a little BOY

6th November

Well baby boy has been kicking me all the time! So cute i love it! I only started to really feel it last week. Karl and I are looking to buy a house so its so stressfull and scary wont be able to live the lifestyle i have been living! But exciting will be nice to own our own home! Brought lots of cute baby clothes i can stop seeing cute stuff i want!

27th November

I have not felt the baby move as much the last couple of days! He must be resting. Im feeling like a real pregnant preson now and you can def tel im pregnant. I cut all my hair off the other day and cried myself to sleep cause i hated it! Hopefully it grows fast, sometimes i do some stupid things. Glad i done it now and not when baby was born tho. Karl and i are going good still looking at houses sucks having champane taste on a beer budget! Ho ho ho its nearly xmas! Yipee then not long to go. Ahhh

29th November

My friend Alice had her baby girl today at 5.10 this morning! Ahhhh i cant believe how amazing it is. Im so teary and so excited for her.

December 11th

Just a little update, things have been going really good baby boy is moving around alot which is nice makes me fall in love with him! I have been getting alot of heart burn which sucks! Maybe he will have lots hair? I find it different being bigger i forget i cant move as fast as i could, i was getting changed in the car decided to change tops (like ya do) and really hurt my belly and was really sore on my side and back for a few days my mid wife thinks i mite of had a little bleed inside form it!!! So lesson learnt no outfit changes in the car!

I have been swimming most days which i love! Such good exercise! and eating tones of samon im addicted to it!Mmmmm That and Milk Milos! Mmmmm. Going away on christmas night to our bach up north and cant wait to relax, sunbath, swim and go fishing!!! Im over the xmas rush and trying to decide what to buy for everyone!

I LOVE MY BABY BOY X

21st December

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!!

Im off on holiday from today till early on in the New Year!! Yay!! Will try pop online to visit but if not I hope everyone has a Safe and Happy Christmas!

Baby boy is great he is moving round lots and kicking on my bladder! Ahhh

Byee till the New Year XXX

8th Janurary 2008

Im back! Had a fab xmas and Newyear, xmas day stated off a little rough was totally stressed about it all especially having to spend it with Karls family who i am just getting to know and ended up having a mini break down! Lots of tears just started coming out and i went from beautiful all ready to walk out the door ready for my xmas day to crying my heart out puffy red eyes and running nose!!!! Ahhhh and i couldnt just stop my tears it was a nightmear we were running realy late and i was so stressed out how was i going to make myself look normal again and not cry as soon as someone said hello to me! But i sorted myself out Karl was great he made me go for a walk with him and i soon calmed down and made it to the xmas day celebrations! Other than that little hickup we had a great time up at the bach i ate way to much chocolate and lollies and now have put on 7kg in total!! But its all worth it i am so excited about meeting my little boy and im reading lots of books on birthing and breastfeeding and babies its great! Oh Karl got me a pair of diamond earings for xmas! Im so lucky! They are beautiful and he must be really broke now! Still looking thru houses every weekend im over it just want to be in the right one now! Baby bump is moving aroung like crazy! I have my next midwife appointment on thursday so exciting! Ilove hearing his heartbeat!

Hope everyone had a fantasic and safe xmas love to you all X

5th feb 2008

Wow nearly 32 weeks! It gone so fast its scary! Im feeling good a little bit sore but i think its from all my growing im doing! Still get lots of kicks and seeing my midwife every 2 weeks now. Karl and i moved house on the weekend so i have done the babys room up and everything looks cute! I have my baby shower on the 24th Feb and my antenatal classes are not till the 15th and 16th March we can only do a weekend class as Karl works nights so i will be 38 weeks and hope my baby does not come befor my classes! Still got quite alot to buy for baby but i wont untill after me baby shower to see what i get given. My brother gets married on the 1st of March so i have abusy few weeks befor then going to Hens nights and all that! I cant wait for it all to be over so i can rest and not think about it!

6th March

Wow im 36 weeks! This has gone so fast! Im pretty much all ready for my baby to arrive! He is growing well and im doing fine i have alot of intergestion and i get a bit achey but im feeling great! He is lying in the posterior position so i have to try and move him otherwise im in for a long hard back ache labour! Ahhh move baby boy move! Karl and I are both super excited to meet out little poppet! Cant wait! I hope im not over due! Good luck to all you mummys nearing the end of it all!!!

Im a Mummy

Baby Finn came early on the 29th March! Had my first contraction at 11pm friday night they started at 10 min apart and 40sec long by 1.30 am they were 2min apart and 30 sec long i left home at 2.30 am and when i arrived at hospital i was 10cm dialated!!! I pushed for 40min and he was born! 8lb 3oz! I had a third degree tear! From my Vag to my bum! Very sore had to go th surgery and get lots of stitches! It all happened very fast about 5 hour in total and thats a fast labour for first time! It was amazing and he is tatally beautiful! Having problems breast feeding at the moment i have very sore nipples and he is not latching that great! But he is putting on weight and healthy so im going to keep trying even if i cry every feed! Hope everyone is doing great i cant get on the computer much as we dont have it at home anymore! Love to all you Mummys x x x