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December 28, 2007

****Excuse the typos im trying to type fast before he wakes up****

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYy I finally had my baby. I have been so BUSY. I dont see how people get on here and still take care of a newborn. well we have been doing well. Im going to try to give my birth story...I honestly cant really remember but here goes......

So saturday night into sunday morning at about 12 is when i started noticing contractions. All day on the 22nd I was in a really really bad mood. Everything bothers me. The watter running, doors opening and closing, people talking, the smell of food, EVERYTHING!!! I knew something was about to happen because I was not feeling like myself. I started leaking amniotic fluid around 12am on sunday the 23rd but wasnt sure if it was fluid or not. My contractions were about 10 or 15 minutes apart. I got off the phone at 2am and went to sleep with no bottoms on to see if it was fluid or not. I woke up at 5am in a small puddle. I went to use the bath room walked back in my room and water was running out of me. I called my mom and told her my water was breaking and she said ok lets go to the hospital. NOW, I wish I would have waited about 3hours before I went to the hospital. When I got there they tried to talk me into almost every drug to speed up my labor because I was still 2cm and 50%. She asked if I wanted an epi and I told her I wasnt so sure. She then told me about other pain medications that I could recieve. They moved me into a delievery room which was AWSOME. It was huge and so comfortable. I got in the bed and they hooked me up to the monitors. I was having contractions and they were gettint stronger. I didnt want pitocin because I heard so many bad things about it causing intense contractions. Well at 6pm I was in so much pain and still progressing slowly. The doctor checked me and I was at a 5. They suggested pitocin and by that time I was like whatever, give it to me. They started that and I started progressing extremely fast. I was tryna rest but was in so much pain that I couldnt. I told the lady I wanted an epidural and she said ok let the nurse check you first to see where you are. When she checked me I was fully dilated. The nurse had to call the on call doctor who was SOOOOO SEXY by the way and it took him about 30 minutes to get there. When he got there the baby was crowning which was the worst feeling ever. It felt like someone stuck a blow torch inside of me. Then he told me to just push through the pain. I pushed about 3 times and my lil man was born. He is 6lb and 10 oz and 20 inches long. His dad was there and watched me give birth. I WAS SO SHOCKED. I didnt expect him to come. He took some pictures of the baby and then he had to leave about 20 minutes later. He called me and was like I was so nervous, my nerves were so bad I couldnt take it and I had to leave but ill come back tomorrow AND HE DID!! He held him and talked to him and I think he really likes him. We talk everyday and things have been good. If you know my full story, you know that he has a girlfriend (who he cheated on with me and got me pregnant). While I was in the hospital she text me to wish me a safe delievery and said she would praying for me and blah blah blah. It was nice of her but honestly, I didnt care about that. She has been texting me ever since. I think she is trying to be my friend or something. Personally, I think the realuzation of everything just hit her and she feels like im a threat to her, and she should. My sons father came to the hospital and he looked so good. I knew he was cute, but he looked so damn sexy. Its so much more to the story but I have to go now....

December 11, 2007

LOL!!!!!!!!!!! SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO......IM BACK!! Well long story short. This very rude, unsigtly, god awful woman made a horriable comment to me on my page and I CUSSED HER OUT SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BAD!!! She reported me and they deleted my page.

It was ok though. I needed a break from here. It was driving me absolutely crazy. I finished this semester of school and I just feel so much better all around. Im so happy school is over with. Looking back on it I don't see how I made it through that semester.

Recently I have been seeing the high risk perinatologist every week for an ultrasound to monitor perris and to check on his growth because at my 34 week appointment he was measuring small. They estimated his weight at 34 weeks to be 4lb 12oz. Now he has grown alot and his estimated weight is right at 6 pounds. He is doing fine and I can breath a little easier now knowing that my baby is not suffering from IUGR. I am now 38 weeks and I cant believe it. Im so close to but yet still far. At my 37 week appointment I was fingertip dilated and 50% effaced. My next appointment is on thursday and we will see my progression. As much as I want my son to be here I will not talk induction with my doctors until my due date because I want to go into labor on my own (HOPEFULLY IM STRONG ENOUGH TO TURN DOWN AN INDUCTION.....LOL).

December 13,2007

Today I went to the doctor and im progressing some. Im 1cm dilated but still 50% effaced. I feel my body changing. Its almost like my body knows that something big is getting ready to happen and is prepaing for it. I tested NEGATIVE for the group b strep test which means that if my water breaks I can labor at home as long as I want to before I go to the hospital. NOW all i need is some major real labor contractions or waterbreakage(lol) so I can progress even more. Im doing almost everything I can to help my body out so I will not have to be induced. My next appointment is next thursday and everytime im getting ready to make a new appointment the receptionist says hopefully you will not be back here next week, but with my luck....Im sure I will see her again.

December 17, 2007

This morning I woke up to what I believe was amniotic fluid leaking. It was clear but didnt really smell and it only leaked twice. I know it wasnt urine because I looked on my bed and smelled it and there was no urine smell at all. Im waiting it out to see if its something more than normal vaginal discharge. Nothing else has happend and the cramping that I had this morning stopped and also the leakage. Maybe it was, maybe it wasn't. I guess I will find out soon.

My family is so exited. SUPER EXCITED and its getting on my nereves. I have 6 aunts and all of them are looney...lol. I love them and they mean well but I have been ignoring them for about a month now. The oldest of my mothers sisters, who thinks she is psychic, called her this morning at work and said that the spirit told her that I would go have the baby sometime this week and that I should not be staying at home by myself. She told my mom that she should bring me over there every morning and that I shouldnt drive my car. She has been calling all day too. I will not answer her phone calls.

Now, she has my mom all scared and paranoid and my mom does not want me to stay by myself. If I was at home and my water broke completely, I would just drive to the hospital. I dont panic in situations so I know that wouldn't be a problem. I live about 30 minutes (including red lights and traffic) from the hospital and my mom is concerned that I will not be able to get there in time. But heres' the thing.....MY AUNT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I REFUSE TO GO OVER HER HOUSE. EVEN IF I WAS DYING!!!!!!! I would rather call 911. So im definently not spending my last days over there with her. I would die. Seriously. So my friends will just stay with me at my house. Im going to be very surprised if I go into labor this week. I dont think that its going to happen.....We will see though. Im going to be upset if I dont and she has been scaring my mom for no reason. I DO NOT want them in the room with me while im in labor or even at the hospital at all, so I really planned on not telling them anything. The people who need to know and the people I want to be there will be.

December 18, 2007

I FEEL AWFUL. Im Nauseous for like the 2nd time during my whole pregnancy. Ive never had the morning sickness or anykind of sickness but I feel so BLAH. Maybe thats a good sign. Maybe something will happen. I need to do my hair before I go into labor though. I refuse to be that lady sitting in the hospital room looking crazy. Even in the worst pain of my life ill be very aware of my apperance. I cant wait until my doctors appointment so I can find out how dilated I am. I have to be a 3 atleast. I just KNOW it. These are MY OWN labor predictions I came up with.....

1st: December 20th

2nd: December 31st 9:22pm

3rd: December 22nd

But for now....I sit....and wait.

DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS IS????????

SO THE WIERDEST THING IS HAPPENING TO MY BODY RIGHT NOW. I HAVE THIS POPPING SENSATION IN MY STOMACH. IT FEELS LIKE BALLONS POPPING. YOU CAN HEAR IT TOO BUT NOTHING IS COMING OUT OR ANYTHING. I WONDER IF HE HAS GAS....LOL I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHAT IT IS OR WHAT IT COULD BE. I CALL THE ON CALL DOC AND THIS BITCH HAD THE "IM SLEEP, JUST WOKE UP AND REALLY DONT WANT TO BE BOTHERD VOICE"...LOL...BUT SHE WAS LIKE WOW I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT IT COULD BE BUT IF YOU FEEL THE BABY NOT MOVING THEN COME IN AND GET CHECKED OUT OR YOU CAN COME IN ANYWAY. IT FEELS SO WIERD. I DONT KNOW ANYBODY WHO KNOWS WHAT IM FEELING....AND NOW MY STOMACH IS AS HARD AS A ROCK. IM PRAYING THAT I FALL ASLEEP AND WAKE UP SOAKING WET OR HAVING CONTRACTIONS THAT I CAN TIME. GOSH I CANT WAIT UNTIL THIS IS OVER WITH!!!

December 20, 2007

I had my doctors appointment today, Im now 2 cm and still 50% effaced. I got my membranes stripped today. I hope it works so I wont go over my 1st due date. If it doesn't.....Oh well ill just be at my 40 week doctors appointment on next wednsday, my due date. So, we will see.

OH!! Getting your membranes stripped doesn't hurt at all. Very umcomfy because someones hand is in a ver private place, but not painful. I was expecting the worst. If you want to get it done I would suggest getting it done at 39, 40, or 40+ weeks.

IF ONE MORE PERSON CALLS ME ONE MORE TIME TO ASK ME IF I HAD THE BABY OR WHEN I AM HAVING IM, I AM GOING TO GO CRAZY. I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE. AHHHHHHH!!!!

December 21, 2007

Im just sitting here thinking about how clueless and absent minded I was att the beginning of my pregnancy. I would say things like I hope my baby comes at 35weeks but im soooooo glad he didnt. He would have been about 4lbs. When i think about that its embarassing. I also wanted to be induced on my due date but after I got my new doctor and she started giving me the statistics and facts of induced labors and ones that occured naturally I changed my mind completely. Since ive had my new doctor (I got her at 34 weeks) ive been planning a non medicated delivery ever since. I go back and fourth because ive never been in labor before and I dont know what to expect. All i can depend on is god and different laboring techniques that ive learned. If in fact I get the epidural, i will not be upset because atleast I gave it a try. My family doesnt support me in my decision and seriously doubt me but ill just keep telling myself. IM NOT AFRAID I WAS BORN FOR THIS!!!!

December 23, 2007 5:44am

MY WATER JUST BROKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JANUARY 1, 2008

Well, I think I have baby blues. I don't think its as bad as post partum depression but I find my self crying alot. Im not sad about the baby because he is a really really good baby. He never cries and he sleeps all the time. I feel the need to watch his every move. Im afraid that someone will try to take him from me or somethung wull happen to him and I dont get there in time to catch it. It doesn't help that im a single mom and doing it by myself. Even though im sad now, I still feel alot better than I did when I was pregnant. hopefully this is just a temporary set back and i'll feel better.

January 7, 2008-MY BABY MAY BE REALLY SICK

Today is not a good day. This morning I recieved a call from the hospital. They told me that in my sons newborn screening, he tested positive for having the gene for cystic fibrosis. Needless to say I am devestaed. I thought I gave birth to a healthy baby boy but now they are telling me that he may have a chronic illness and might not live past the age of 30. Since he tested positive for having the gene they have to run further test on him to see if he actually has the disease or is just a carrier. I know absolutley no one in my family who has had this and his father said he doesn't know anyone is his family who has it either. Because the disease is inherited one of us would have to have the trait and since he doesn't know anyone in his family with the disease I feel like its giving him even more of a reason to say that my son is not his. I AM SO STRESSED OUT. I cannot stop crying. I feel so alone and I feel like its my fault that he has the gene. Nobody wants there child to be sick. I am devastated. The doctor told me not to stress over it because very few babies who have the gene have the disease but the thing that scares me the most is that I took him to the doctor because I felt like ever since he had been born he had alot of mucus in his throat. I felt like it was making it hard for him to cry because he would try but nothing would come out. He would throw up his milk and I thought it was because he was allergic to it. The doctor checked him and said that he just had reflux and she could tell because the milk was in his ears and it would also come out through his nose. He makes the horrible sound almost like he has to gargle but the mucus is just to thick to come out. ALL OF THESE SYMPTOMS TIED TOGETHER WITH THE SYMPTOMS OF CYSTIC FIBROSIS MAKE ME BELIEVE THAT HE HAS THE DISEASE. Ive been crying so much that my eyes are burning. My hair looks crazy, I have not toke a bath or brushed my teeth. All ive bee doing is holding him to make sure that he is okay and he is still breathing. I am terrified and I dont know what to do. I wish I had someone besides my mom to go through this with me. I wonder what I could have done differently so he wouldn't have to go through this. I feel like i will always feel guilty for him being sick. I have been waiting for the doctors to call me back to tell me when his appointment his to take him to the hospital so they can run more test. Its know 5:17pm and if they dont call me back tonight I will call them in the morning. I love my son and I dont know what I would do if something happend to him. Its hard to stay positive when I have so much other negative things, like his father wanting a DNA test, to worry about. I pray to god that Perris does not have the disease. Can you please pray for him also

JANUARY 9, 2008

WELL IM STILL SAD BUT IM DOING A LITTLE BETTER. MY SON GOES TO THE HOSPITAL ON JANUARY 16, 2007 FOR ADDITIONAL TESTING TO SEE IF HE HAS THE DISEASE AND TOMORROW WE ARE GOING IN FOR THE DNA TEST. PLEASE CONTINUE TO PRAY FOR US.

January 15, 2008

Well, tomorrow is the day. We are going to the childrens hospital for additional testing att 11am. Im nervous but I have a overwhelming feeling of calmness and im very content. I dont know if this comes from just wanting to get the tests over with or from me knowing (hopefully) in my heart that everything is okay. So many people from so many different places have reached out to me and lifted my spirits. I feel so much better than I did last week when I found out about it and I am ready to handle whatever news they may tell me. I hope and pray for the best!!!

January 23, 2008

I just realized that Ive still be writing 2007 on all my post...lol. I got his results back from his test and everything was NORMAL. He DOES NOT have the disease and I am so HAPPY!!! We have been waiting forever for them to tell us and they finally did at his appointment today. Perris is a month old today. He is doing well. He is no longer congested but he still has reflux. He weighs 8lb 13oz but everyone swears he is bigger than that. He does not look like a newborn at all or act like a newborn. He looks about 2 months old already and this one lady asked me if he was 3 months old. Im still waiting on STUPID to pay for the results of that dna test. He gets on my nerves!!!!

January 26, 2007

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FEBUARY 8, 2007

WE RECIEVED THE DNA TEST RESULTS BACK AND HE IS THE FATHER LIKE I HAVE BEEN SAYING SINCE I WAS SIX WEEKS PREGNANT!!

Febuary 16, 2007

So much has happend in these last dew days. I feel like I have not been on here in forver but im here now so I will update. He finally told his parents about Perris and they are beyond excited. The day we got the results he told them and the next day we all went to go met them. Everything went great. They were really really nice and his father said to him "I DONT KNOW WHY YOU NEEDED A TEST, HE LOOK JUST LIKE YOU!!".....Thats statement did it for me. IT MADE MY MUTHAF***** YEAR!!!!!!!!! Everything has been going good. Perris is with him and his parents right now. It was very hard for me to let him go over there for the day but hey its now or never.....Well.....I thought that when I had the baby everything was over but now it is OFFICALLY OVER!! Thank you to everyone who wished me well. You all told me not to stress and that everything would work out and it did. WORDS CANT EXPRESS MY BOUDLESS GRATITUDE FOR YOU GIRLS!!! I LOVE YOU.....and thanks!

March 25, 2008

OMG 1st things 1st....DID ANYONE SEE MARIAH CAREY ON MTV LAST NIGHT?!?!?!.....She sounds AWFUL!! She did so bad. I was embarassed for her!!! But anway....I hae not updated in so long because my internet was out of comission and then i thought it came back, but then it left again, but now its hear to stay!!

So much has happend since the brith of my son. His dad is acting right and he is a wonderful father. Perris spends the weekend with his dad and his dads family. They L O V E him to death and were really excited to meet him and I. I like his dads family alot. They are very nice and alot different from my crazy family. I enjoy watching Perris and his father together. Its so cute and he really likes to spend time with him and im grateful for that.

So many people tell me how lucky and Blessed that I am. They say that not all situations work out like mine but mine did. Im so blessed. Everyone told me dont worry things will be okay and they are turly better than okay. Dad and I have argued some but I think we are going to be good friends.

Perris has AWFUL reflux and throws up alot. They say that the only way to get him tostop throwing up is surgery but since he is healthy and gaining some weight they dont want to d that. He now wighs 11 pounds and he is 3 months old. I guess thats good but he could be a little bigger. He is on zantac now and im giving him cereal at every feeding now to try to keep his food down. I ve had to take him off of breast milk but i still pump and freeze. I have so many bags of milk. I think i might start giving him some more milk. I thought that he would have forgot how to breastfeed but the other other day he was laying on my chest and found my nipples through my bra and started to try to feed...lol...so i guess babies dont forget!! Perris is great though and im so glad he is here and healthy.

I want to be pregnant again.....BUT....I AM NOT TRYING!! I miss it so much. I miss having him move inside of me and being able to carry him everywhere and not worry about if he was safe or not. I miss him being mine and mine only. Now I have to share him. I miss the attention that I used to get and I even miss the stupid questions, advice, and comments that people asked. It seems like everyone around me is pregnant now and thats only making it worse. I DO NOT need another baby but I cant wait until im ready to settle down and complete my family.

April 4, 2008

WHAT THE HELL HAPPEND TO THIS WEBSITE?!?!?!?!?!....LOL

May 21, 2008

This website has changed sooooooo much since I last used it. Its wierd. I dont like it as much. All of the women I communicated with are no longer online anymore. Its just not as interesting anymore. I am so surprised at the large number of new mothers and mommies to be under the age of 20. **WoOOOoooWWWwwWWW** Especially those working on their 2nd and 3rd. Im so happy I turned 20 before I had Perris....LoL....WILL BE 21 and a senior in college in August (we going to M I A M I by the way, doing it real B I G)!. Seriously though nothing is impossiable and stay encouraged. MY BEAUTIFUL BABY is 5 months now. He is so busy, he sits up, tries to crawl, still never cries and he is always happy. Im going back to my school (Took spring semester off) TUSKEGEE UNIVERSITY this summer 08 semester. I will be graduating soon and I CANNOT WAIT. LADIES PLEASE GET A COLLEGE DEGREE IT WILL TAKE YOU FAR!!!! STAY IN SCHOOL!!

June 4, 2008

SOME UPDATED PICS OF PERRIS!!

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MORE NEW PICS OF PERRIS!!!!!!!

10-10-2008

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