May 9, 2008

Well after more than a year of trying, we finally did it. My husband and I have been married for three years now and always wanted to have kids. We thought it would be one of those things where you just got off the pill and poof, you were pregnant. But that wasn't the case. We tried without any luck for a year then decided to take the next step. I went to my Doctor and she put me on Clomid.

I was instantly excited. With Clomid, they only suggest you take it for six months, so I thought, wow, I'll be pregnant within the next six months. After just two months of being on Clomid I found out I was pregnant. We were so excited. I woke up that morning and saw a very faint pink line. I called my husband and told him to buy me more tests, the digital kind so I knew for sure. And there it was, clear as day, pregnant! But just as the excitement set in, we found out I had lost the baby. We were crushed. I knew that if I sat around depressed that it would be harder to get pregnant again, so I just took it as a blessing in disguise (because I would only lose the baby if something was wrong) and we kept on trying.

Month after month nothing. I was on my fifth month which meant I only had one shot left. My husband and I started talking about “the next step” and worried if we could even have a baby. Then one night, this overwhelming feeling came over me and I just knew I was pregnant. I took that test with confidence and sure enough…pregnant. The sad part was that we were instantly scared of losing the baby again. We didn’t tell anyone this time and waited until I went to see the doctor and had some blood work done. She confirmed I definitely was pregnant and when my levels would normally be 600 she said mine were 1100 so a chance of a miscarriage was really unlikely. We took a breath of relief and allowed ourselves to get excited.

So here we are. I'm six weeks pregnant. I know it's still really early but I feel really good about this pregnancy. I have my first ultrasound on June 5th. By then I'll be 10 weeks. I have this feeling that we might be having twins so we'll find out then. My due date is January 1st 2009. Wish us luck. I can't wait until I start Showing.

May 22, 2008

Well, today feels like an accomplishment. I am 8 weeks pregnant and couldn’t be happier. For some reason it feels like people don’t really start to take your pregnancy serious until you’re at least 8 weeks.

I’ve had some nausea these past few weeks. Every time I run to the bathroom my husband asks if I won or lost the battle (meaning did I throw up), I tell him I won because even with weeks of nausea I haven’t actually thrown up, but either way it feels like I’m losing lol. I’m really looking forward to feeling better. I know this feeling is only temporary and they say that if you have morning sickness it means you have a low chance of having a miscarriage. So I’ll take it if it means my baby is healthy.

I’m really eager to go to my next appointment. Only two weeks away. I can’t wait to see the baby and the heartbeat and find out if I’m buying one crib or two.

Things still haven’t sunk in. I’ve wanted for this for so long and now that’s its happening I’m not quite sure what to do. Everyone tells me it won’t really feel real until your belly grows and you can feel your baby.

Can you believe were going to be someone’s Mom? Isn’t pregnancy amazing?