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First this is first, I am 25 yrs young. I have been married for 1 yr. His name is "NUT" he is 41 yrs. He has a daughter from a previous marrieage she will be 20 in Nov. I have a daughter from a previous realashionship she will be 7 in July. We have a daughter together and she will be 2 in July. Yes, I know all those girls. What is it like to have a boy?? LOL.

I am 6 wks along and I just found out last Friday (5-11-07).

I had my first child when I was 18 . I was still in school and I still had the prome and graduation to look forward to. Altogether there were 5 us pragnant my sinor yr. Prome was just around the corner. I was the only one to go to the Prome (as big as I was; that was a sight to see). I went and had a good time thinks to my sister and my brother. I went to our schools sinor skipday in O.C., MD. Had a blass, the only pragnant one to go. Finally graduation, came. By that time most of the pragnant ones had dropped out of school and there were just three of us left. One you couldn't tell she was pragnant, and the other one was just a far a long as me. I walked across the stage just as big as a house...I got my diploma and never turned back. One month and a day later my first daughter was born.

5 yrs later I had antoher one.

2 yrs later about to have another one.

PREGNANCY NOTES Everyone is welcome to read.

8/6/07

Well, lets see where to start.....this weekend wasn't that bad. I just wasn't feeling well and I had a lot of pressure. I was on my feet a lot this weekend and I didn't want to be. I staied in the house for the most part. Yesterday was an exciting time. We threw a suprise birthday party for my mother-in-law. She turned 62 yrs old. She is a doll baby. She thought we were throwing a welcome home party for her grandson Tray because he just came back from boot camp for the National Guard. I had left the party to go get more plats from my house and by the time I got back she was all ready there and I missed the look on her face. After I found that out I was ready to go home. Well, that is really about all that happened. I go the drs. on the 21st to see if it is a boy or a girl. I can't wait to find out. Well, I will up date you as it come along.

7/3107

Well, lets see where do I start. The party was ok for my 2 yr old; not everyone showed up that was invited and that is fine by me. At less I didn't have to deal with the stress of it all. Well that was the highlight of my weekend. However it got worse as the weekend went along. My step-daughter was soupose to help me steam clean the carpets on Sat. and she didn't even call me until about 2:30 p.m. and I went to go get her. She was soupose to call me to come get her at noon but that didn't happen (which was fine by me because I really didn't feel like doing it to start with). Well, when I got there to pick her up I had to go to my in-laws to pick up the steam cleaner and I sat there an talked to them for about half en hour. By the time I got home my husband was just getting off of work and the carpets were soupose to be clean before he got off of work, well that didn't happen. He just fell asleep on the sofa and so did the rest of us. I wish that was it but its not.

When we got up from our nap he said that he was going to run this latter by a job and he would be right back, Well, an hour later he came back. A hour after that he called a friend and asked if he was home so that he could drop his shirt off to him so that he would have it. Well, he said again that he would be right back. Well, come to find out his friend wasn't home he was out to the bar and that my husband never did show up and he told him that he would pick it up later. Needless to say my husband never did come home and when I got up on Sun. morning he still wasn't home, the ATM Card was missing out of my purse . He wasn't answer the his cell phone at all. He finally came home 11 p.m. Sun. night. He walked int he door handed me the ATM Card and said that he F&$ked up. I asked how much money did he blow and all he said was a lot. Well come to find out he blew $400.00 out of the account and said that he had a problem.

Yesterday (Mon. 7/30/07), I met him at the house for lunch and we were talking. He said that he wasn't going back to rehab or going to meetings because they don't help him. He doesn't stay in the meetings long enough to help him and he has been to rehab 4 times already. I told him that I can fix it to where he doesn't get any money at all and that he wasn't allowed to drive the truck anymore (he isn't leaving me without a way to go anywhere anymore). I am going and opening a different checking account in my name only and transfer the money out of the joint accout to my account. At less that way I will have money to pay the bills and the rent. Plus have money to buy whatever the kids need. If he can't get to the money he can't blow the money on Crack or Coccine.

I have only been married for 16 months and I am already headed down the line for divorce. When I married him he had been clean for 2 yrs. After all that time of being clean he wants to start it all over again. If I knew that he was going to do this again I would have never gotten pregnant this time. The last time I got pregnant right after he got out of rehab with my yougest daughter. My step-daugher says that I need to leave him like he leaves me and give him a really good scare and have him call me and wonder if I am coming back. Well, that wouldn't do any good because that will just give him even more of a reason to go out and smoke more but she doesn't see that. I really don't know what I should do. I don't want to go through this again and I don't want my kids around someone that does it either. I also don't want to leave him because he is my husband and he has been clean before. I just don't know what I am going to do.

7/27/07

Well, I just got back from the Dr. with my 2 yr old. They said that she is doing fine. She is little for her age but her weight is perfect for her height. She is just going to be little. I already knew that, I could tell that was going to be the problem before she was born. My husband and myself are short and little. I have been with my husband for 3 yrs all together and he is just now being able to get into 32" wast in pants. Well, I have to get ready and take my 7 yr old to her shrink and get her ready to leave to go to WY with her father and step-mother. They are leaving tonight. I really don't want her to go but she will never get to see that part of the counrty with me. Well, I will get to talk to her every now and than while she is there (at less hope, the last time she left to go out of state with her father sh didn't call until she got back from FL). But that is going to be another can of warms to open and that is just to much drama for anyone to handle that isn't use to it. Well, I will keep you guys posted. I have a birthday party to get ready for, for my 2 yr old. I'll let you guys know how that goes for me on Monday.

7/24/07

Well, the Vet called late yesterday and my dog is fine. They removed 12 stones out of his bladder and he get to come home today. Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!

7/23/07

Well, my 7 yr old went away for the weekend with her brownie troop and she came back on Sunday afternoon. My 2 yr old was being a monster this weekend. She was throwing fits, throwing toys, she even kicked the dog. She was being a very very bad 2 yr old. Then on Sat. my husband added to the madness by bring a puppy home that he bought at a yard sale in DE. She is so cute. She is a Dochound and a Chauaua mix; she is only 10 wks old. I really didn't want another dog until ater the baby was born but he brought her home any way. He said that he couldn't help it. She was there in a box with a for sale sign. He picked her up and seen that she had fleas really bad and he just couldn't leave her there. So he paid $40.00 for her and they wanted $70.00 for her. When he brought her home we put Frontline (Flea Medicene) on her and went to my in-laws. My mother-in-law picked at less 150 fleas off of her. On Sunday we looked to see if there were anymore on her and we couldn't find a one. Between the Frontline and picking them off of her we got all of them off. Today, the only thing she is doing is just skratching at her calor we put on her. My older dog on the other hand is 7 yrs old and we had to take him to the Vet this morning. On Sunday, we all went for a walk and on our way back to the house he stopped to use the bathroom and it was nothing but blood. So we keep a close eye on him for the rest of the day and called the vet this morning. Well, when we got there they did x-rays an come to find out he has stones in his bladder (kidney stones). So they had to operate on him today to get the stones out and we can pick him back up tomorrow when we go and get the puppy her shots. However, our older dog will have to be put on a speacial diet know so that the stones don't come back. The operation is going to cost us $755.20 not to mention what the shots are going to cost for the puppy. But thank god, the Drs. at the Bayside Animal Hospital is working with us for the payments. Well, I think that is it for know, I will keep you guys posted on what is going go.

7/19/07

Well, I went to the doctors yesterday; everything is good for now. I got to hear the heart beat for the first time :) Everytime the nurse would find it, the baby was move like 3 seconds later. But we finally go a ready after about 5 min. of play hidding seek. I have lost a pound but my blood presure was fine (how that was I have no idea) thank god. However, I have to miss a camping trip with my 7 yr. old daughter for Brownies because of me being under so much stress. The Dr. said that I just need to take it easy for the next few weeks and try to relax. I have to under go a stress test for the baby when I am about 30 to 32 weeks to make sure the baby is fine. The only good news that I got yesterday was the date for my next ultra sound to find out the sex of the baby on Aug. 21st. I have to wait that long. Please everyone pray for outdoor plumbing :)

7/17/07

Well, lets see where to start. A lot has happened since the last time I have posted. Well, I'll just start from the beginning. On July 12th, my husband fell off the wagon and blew $260.00 on Crack. Now the water bill, electric bill, truck payment, and cell phone is going to be paid late all because of his dumb shit. He left at 7:45 pm and didn't come home until 5:00 am on Friday. I only got 2 hours of sleep that night and I almost fell out at work around lunch time on Friday. He called out of work and sleep all got damn day. He didn't clean the house or do the dishes. I came home at 4 that evening and he was still in bed. I went upstairs and told him that he need to get his butt out of bed. When he got up and came downstairs and he just laid on the sofa.

Sat. he still didn't go back to work and just laid around all got damn day again. He didn't help with the kids at all.

Sunday, I had my neices birthday party to go to; my sugar dropped really low and I couldn't get it to come back up so I had to leave early.

Than yesterday I was in the hospital for about 3 hours. All they did was give me 2 Tylenol #3's for the headache and sent me home. Told me that I needed to keep my appt. with my OB/GYN to go over the pros and cons of my Headache Meds. I already know that I can't take them while I am pregnant. Well, I think that gets you guys all caught up for now and I will write soon.

7/10/07

Well, I guess I will be playing catch up with my page today. Well, this weekend was so HOT HOT HOT HOT for me. This Sat. and Sun were both in the 100's in Camb., MD. Let me start with Sat. It was my 7 yr olds 7th birthday party. That morning I cleaned house and she even helped me which was good. I had to call my step-father to come over to watch the kids so that I could go and get her birthday gifts without her being there with me. I ended up spending over $100 in Wal-mart a lone for sodas and her gifts. Then, I had to go to Foodlion to get the food so that I could cook on the grill. Well, there went another $95 there. When I got home I had to pick up the house again because my step-father let the kids do what ever they wanted to do (just like always). Then I relized that I had forgot the ice for the cooler and the letters for the cake; so I sent my husband out to go get it for me (which he was a really good sport about it all, really). While he was out, I but my 2 yr old down for her nap, and made my 7 yr old help me clean once again (which she said that she was sorry that she made the mess and thought thatwould get her out of having to help).

Then when my husband got back he asked me if I had blowen up the ballons or started the cake yet. I told him no that I have been cleaning. He went on with well you better get started because they will be here for the party in and half hour (then went and sat on the sofa to watch the weather channel). I could have macked him right upside his haed. So I call my sister and asked if she could come around now in stead of at 2 p.m. She said to give her 10 mon. and she will be there. Well, when she came she brought a pineapple upside down cake with her for my daughter to go with her beach theme and her friend Jamie to help me. Thank GOD, that she did, they both were really big help.

Well, the party started and my cake got done at the same time as they were coming in for the party. I had to wait for it to cool off so that I could finish it so I toke them out back and started the sprinkler and slip-n-slide and started up the grill. Needless to say, I was grilling, getting the food together and I had 9 kids running around from the ages of 9 to 1. I will not be doing that anytime soon.

The bad thing is that I have another birthday party to throw for my 2 yr old in 2 weeks. LOL.

7/5/07

Well, how was everyones 4th of July? Mine was very slow. I asked my husband earlier in the week if we were going to have a cook out for the 4th, he said no. Well, yesterday morning about 11 a.m. he said that I needed to get out the hot dogs and burgers. I asked why, he said that we're having a cook out. Well, needless to say that I ran around the house cleaning and trying to get the stuff together that we needed together. I had to pick my one daughter up at her fathers house at 1 p.m. and he wanted the cook out to start at 2 p.m. Well, a long story short; I was still doing the dishes when my in laws got there and when my brother-in-law got there. The dog was going nuts because he wanted to set off some fireworks in the back yard for the 4 kids that were in the back yard. After our cook out we went to another cook out at 5 p.m. that night. By this time I was ready to lay down and relax but noooooo, we just had to go. The fireworks were fine this year. The only time in all the years that I have been here that they started on time.

7/2/07

Well, today I feel fine. But this past weekend I felt like crap. Friday morning was the first time I have gotten sick so far. I felt fine a few hours later. Sat. I got sick again and I had to call my sister to come around to watch my yougest so that I could get in the shower. I did nothing all day long because getting sick just toke everything out of me for a few hours. My husband came home after work and wanted to know why I hadn't cleaned the house yet, I told him that I had been getting sick and that I just didn't feel like doing it. He picked up a little but not much, it stil looked like a pig pen. He waited 2 hrs and tells me to get ready to go to the this fair that we have every year, I told that I didn't want to go because I wasn't feeling good. He said that getting some fresh air would do me good and that a little walking won't hurt either; I wanted to knock him into next week when he said that. After aabout an hour of him telling me to get ready I did get ready and went. He was right, after I got there I did start to feel a little better and ended up having a good time until the bands went on and I had to listen to this heavy rock stuff (I don't like that crap). After the fair we drop the 2 yr old off to my sisters for the night and we went out to Great Slates. I was so glad to find out that there was a classic rock band there. I plaied BlackJack alnight and listen to the band until 2 in the morning. By the time the band got done, I was ready to eat but my husband was to drunk to take anywhere. I could have left him the truck but I just toke him home put him to bed and let the dog out to go to the bath room, and when to bed.

6/25/07

I had the worse weekend ever. I ended up having to leave work early because my youngest child was sick and had to go to the Dr. Not only did I have to deal with the heat but a screaming 2 yr old cutting teeth and being sick. A 7 yr old being a mouthy mother hen. I know my 7 ry old was just trying to help but she really isn't. My husband didn't help any; he wanted to have a cookout and didn't decide on it until about 4 in the afternoon. So I not only had to go to the store to get stuff for the cookout; I had to deal with my sister and her 4 yr old that doesn't listen very well (that's putting it nice). So I had to deal with all of this when I just wanted time to myself. An lets not forget that I had to do all of the cooking on the grill becasue my dear Husband doesn't know how to cook. How in the world can a recovering addict not know how to cook. What did he do when he got the munchies, go to McDonalds.

6/22/07

I went to the dr. on wed. the 20th. I haven't put on any weight this time but next time won't be that way. The dr. didn't even try to find a heart beat this last time, she said that I was 12 wks and that we won't hear anything. So I have to wait until July 18th to hear the heart beat. She was going to set me up for a scan @ my next appt. but I told her that I want to find out what I was having. She said that we would wait until Aug. so that I can find out. I really don't like the mid-wife in that office, but I have to see all of the drs. becuase any of them could delivery my baby. I just hope this time that it isn't the mid-wife like last time. I want my dr. that I picked out and not her. She just rubs me the wrong way and I just plan out just don't like her. She acts like she has no bed side manners and I can't stand that. Well, thats all for now and I will keep every one updated.

6/18/07

Well, if my allergies could get any worse, I just might go crazy. My throat is so sore and I can barly talk. Whitch really bits because with my job I have to answer the phones and talk to the custmores all the time. I have been trying not to say a word to anyone so everyone at work thinks that I am made at them. My boss told me to change my actions or I could go home. I told him that I wasn't mad at anyone that I just could talk that well because of my throat. He just looks at me and told the other guys to leave me a lone. Thank god I have a really good boss, because my old boss would have sent me home and told me to make the time up that I missed on the weekend with no over time.

My nose bleed so bad last night. It toke 30 min. for it to stop. It was so bad that it scard my youngest daughter and she went and got her father and told him that mommy blood nose. I couldn't do anything but laugh. It was so cute. I know what caused it. I was in O. C., MD yesterday for Father's Day out in the sun and walking. By the time we got home I had a slight headach and I knew my blood presure was up from the soft pretzel that I eat. When ever my blood presure goes up I get a bloody nose everytime. An the only thing I could do was wait for it to stop.

6/11/07

Well, Sat. was my date night with my husband. We only go out once a month without the other kids. I usually can't wait for that night come but this past weekend I just didn't want to go anywhere. I was having really bad cramps earlier on Sat. and I even spoted a little bit of blood but it was nothing. It didn't last very long at all. And it really wasn't spotting, it was just pink. So I didn't tell my husband. We went out and ended up go to Great Slates a family restaurant/Bar & Grill. Well, every Sat. night they have a live band and my husbands bestfriend owns the place so we always go there. Well, when we got there my sister-in-law was there with her husband and it just started to go down hill there. I usually dance rather drunk or sober but this time I didn't because I wasn't feeling to go; so just because of that I am in a bad mode so they say. I just tried to act like they weren't even there, my husband was drinking and usually that doesn't bother me but for some reason Sat. night it did. It was sopouse to be our datenight and his sister tells the band that it is his birthday. Our date night got turned into his birthday party and that just made it even worst. He wanted to dance I didn't so he was dancing with a friend of ours and I just POed at myself because here I was; a place I love to go with the kids and friends and I didn't want to be there at all. We stayed until 2 in the morning and all I wanted to do is go home and sleep all night. I just felt so bad on Sunday morning that I didn't even get out of bed until 11 am and I am usually up showered, dressed, and gone to get the kids by 8 am. All day my husband asked me what was worng and I finally told him about Sat. and then he got mad because I didn't tell him on Sat. Which I don't blame him, I would be mad to if I was in his shoes. After I told him he did wait on me hand and foot for the rest of the night. The only thing I did yesterday was cook dinner because my husband can burn fishsticks. LOL.

6/1/07

Well, I went to the Dr. on Firday, they seen the baby and I got to see the heart beat. They say that I am only 7 wks but I am not changing anything on my page just yet. It only but me 2 wks back and that really isn't a lot to worry about. Besides, I know that the baby is going to be little. All of my kids are little for their age including my step-daughter. My husband is not big at all and I am little as well (well, not anymore; LOL). But I am not going to let little detail bother me. I got to see that the baby is ok and a lot is off of my mind.

5/30/07

Well, I finally heard back from the dr. (after calling 3 times). I am pregnant for sure; my levels were 3700 on the 24 of May and on th 26 of May they were 5700. I have to go for another U/S on Friday, June 1, 2007. I just hope the baby will let us see him/her. But hearing that has eased my mine a lot. I will keep you guys posted.

5/29/07

I just tried to call the doctors office and he wasn't in. BIG SUPRISE THERE. He had to delivery a baby and the nurse would have him give me a call back when he gets back to the office. That could be 12 hours from now and I don't want to wait that long. There are 3 doctors in that dang office and none of them could talke to me. What the HE double sticks is going on in that office. I want to know what is going on with my blood work and why they could see or hear anything on Thur. last week.

5/24/07

Well, I went to the doctors for the first time today. He said that I should be 12 wks but he could not find a heart beat and when he did a U/S he could see the sack. However, he couldn't see anything in the sack. So I had to go and have my levels ck today and I have to go and have them ck again on Sat. He said that I might not be as far a long as he thinks and for me to call him on Tue. So......the only thing I can do is set and wait until Tue.

He asked if I had had any cramping and I told him a little but I did the same thing with my 1st and 2nd child. So that doesn't mean anything to me. I haven't been spotting at all, so what the ........ I don't know if I can wait until Tue. to find anything out but I guess I have to.

How am I going to tell my husband?