My Son The King...

Rodney Zechorien Morris

SHE IS A QUEEN ...

Firstly let me just say I am so excited. This is going to be my first baby and I know in my heart that I will love this baby with all my heart. My baby is from heavan, a blessing from God and no man can take that from me. I have never been pregnant before so I am definitely feeling just a little bit nervous. I still haven't come to terms with the fact that, something so big can come out of a space so small... (HONESTLY) ... For my baby I'm willing to give it a try.

I am 23 years old with high hopes, dreams, and ambitions. I know that as long as God is with me, no one can be against me! I love poetry, good music, nature, and peaceful moments alone... *smile* What can I say a woman has to keep her sanity!

The one thing that I know is life is full of twists, turns, and bumpy places so I go to God in prayer. I know that He hears me and I know that he cares.

oK ... FINDING OUT!!!

I had been feeling so sick for a couple of days. But on this one faithful day I was pukin all over the place. *smile* So I used a pregnacy test... I spefically did not want + or - signs... I used the EPT (Pregnant or Not Pregant) test! The first + or - test obviously i wasn't able to read properly!

So I waited until the next morning becaue I know that when I would get the best read and low and behold the test said PREGNANT... I was in the shock of my life. I called my friend Melanie who had just had a baby in January and told her I needed to go to the emergency room. LOL Funny now ... wasn't so funny then... She just laughed and said we'll find you a doctor open on Saturday just calm down ...

So as I'm waiting the docotor comes back into the room and says... "SOMEONE IS PREGNANT AND IT'S NOT ME!" I nearly fell off of the chair. With so many different feelings running all through me I knew that this would be a bumpy road ahead but I needed to talk to God about it.

What I Have Learned Thus Far

God is so powerful and so wonderful. I just can't say it enough. There have been times when I have not had anyone to depend on and God has remained so faithful to me. He is so loving words can't fully explain my grattitude and unworthiness of his greatness.

I have found myself running toward his gifts of wisdom, knowledge, and understanding. I have encountered so much negativity that it has made me stronger. I have learned that a still tounge is stronger than many, many, many words said over, and over again. This is truly a humbling experience and I am so thankful, even though at times it can be hard. But I know that God wants to see me through, and He has a plan for my life. I can't bless His name enough.

I have been tempted by the devil so many times, I have encountered such wordly people, whom they themselves do not realize that some prying questions are not meant for them to be spoken. They have not realized that some things should just not be said. But I know that they know not what they do. So I try my hardest to move in love and care even when some do not treat me the same.

I know that God will always love me and He will never forsake me. He is the same God and will remain the same God. He is the only constant in my life. I love Him more than my unborn son. Without Him I would not know how to love my son, how to help him grow, I would not be blessed with my son's pressence. I can't say it enough, the Lord is my only way to freedom. My only way to eternal life and I love Him dearly. Glory be to His name.

AMEN